Hey all! This is a continuation of chapter 20. Well in reality they are really two complete different chapters. But I am releasing them at the same time so in a way it is like a continuation. This chapter...well….uh….get's very steamy. Like really steamy. I am warning you now. My inner fire was awakened with my Mystic Messenger Anniversary merch. For those of you who didn't get it, it came with a bag...a black bag that says 'Jumin Han Personal Item #23.' In it was a red ribbon. I'm dying…. It also came with a note on how you have stolen his heart. I'm dead…. I still am all fangirling over it. The next chapter will be out the 3rd of September. (Hopefully by then we will have a V route!)
My eyes peak open...light? I open my eyes all the way…messy sheets, Elizabeth the Third…. A bright city…. Jumin…where is he? I reach out my hand to his side of the bed. It falls… That's right he is at work… He said he was going to be in the office by 5AM…. I look over at the time. It is noon? How is it noon….? A yawn escapes my lips…I must be jet-lagged. How did I even end up in this bed…. Another yawn escapes my lips. That's right….after everyone left Jumin carried me here…. I look down…. I am wearing a nightgown? Did Jumin put this on me?
I wish I could see him now…. It's weird waking up without him by my side…. It's a bit lonely…. I roll on my back. I should apologize to him… I made him carry me to bed because I was so tired… I should have shooed everyone off sooner and spent some more time with Jumin before he had to go to work…..
How is Jumin doing it…the five hour time difference has my body out of sorts. He has already been at work for hours…. I guess I have the entire place to myself until he comes home. A sigh escapes my lips. I wish I could have seen him off... I wonder…does he miss me like I miss him? How is he doing...? Is work hard….?
I pick up my phone from the night stand and hold it above my face. A message? I open my text messages. It is from Jumin….
Have a great day my love- Rest up and feel free to do as you please. I will leave work by five.
-Your caring Husband
Jumin
I feel my heart skip a beat…. My husband. It has been two weeks but it still is surprising...and exciting. A broken sigh escapes my lips. Reading his message makes it a bit better… I miss him….but he will be home soon. It's cute how he signed his name like that…. Of course I know it is from him… His number has long since been saved in my phone… I smile staring at his message.
In my phone I have him saved as Jumin...I go in and edit it...I put hearts by his name. I giggle. If he see's that what will he think? I go back to the message and type….
Miss you 3. It's weird not having you here when I wake up. But I am going to beat this jet lag and see you off in the morning! I hope you aren't too tired.
I love you 3
Your wife- MC
I read over my message. Pushing send, a smile explodes on my face. I hope my note brightens his day like his did for me. I swing my legs out of bed and walk off to the bathroom. I hear a soft thud, I look behind me to see Elizabeth at my feet. Did I wake her? I reach down and scratch behind her ears.
"It's just me and you." I tell her.
She purrs as I continue to stroke her smooth white fur. She follows me as I walk into the bathroom and turn on the water. Looking at her, I give her a smile. She has never followed me into the bathroom before. I wonder if she can tell that I miss Jumin? I grab a fresh towel out of the closet and set it by the shower. Stepping into the shower I let the hot water cascade over my body.
I wash off slowly. Shaving my legs, washing my hair, letting my body relax from the heavy jet lag that rests on my shoulders. The steamy shower makes my head feel calm. After a while I step out and dry off. I turn on the hair dryer as I comb through my hair. The hot breeze tickles my cheek as I dry off. Staring at myself in the mirror, I see a trail of hickeys below my neck…
Strange….before the sight of hickeys on my body was embarrassing ….surprising. But now it is no longer strange. It's normal…. They have been on me ever since the wedding. Every time one disappears he leaves more…. I can remember each one… each moment… The way he holds me… the way he kisses me…. I look off to the side. Thinking about that…. I can't think about that. Jumin isn't home…. If I get too excited… I shake my head and try and clear my head. Looking behind me I look for Elizabeth. She is no longer in the bathroom. I wonder where she went? She is pretty good at hiding...
I finish getting ready and walk into the front room. It is almost one. I guess I should eat lunch…. I wonder if Jumin has ate? I should text him… I walk back to the bedroom and pick up my phone. Another message? I open it. It is from Jumin.
I miss you very much my love. You don't have to push yourself to wake up early. I have sent lunch up for you. Don't skip meals.
-Love Jumin.
A photo is attached…. I open it to see a blurry photo of a salad… I guess he got lunch. The blurry photo makes me laugh. No matter how many times I tried to help him take clear photos on the honeymoon he never could get it quite right. It's so cute….he's normally so good at everything, but something so simple he can't get right. It warms my heart. My cheeks feel sore… I reach up and touch them. They are sore from smiling….
I wonder what he sent up for lunch?
Beep
I look down at my phone. Another message? From Jumin? I open it.
If you need any money there is cash in the bedside table. I will find time for us to go to the bank so you can get a card. There are still some reporters outside so if you leave the building please take some security guards with you. Be careful my love.
Thinking of you- your Jumin
I close the message. I had not even thought about that… Using his money… it feels odd. I guess we bought some things in Europe, but we were always together… Using money I haven't earned…. It feels weird. I don't have a job…so it's not like I have a choice. I am pretty sure I have under fifty dollars in my bank account…. Jumin did say he would prefer if I didn't work. Back then we agreed I could volunteer… It is going to take a lot of getting used being his wife….. In so many ways. I know he wants to take care of me…. I should relax more….
But I don't want to feel useless or like I am being kept… Maybe if I do something productive I won't feel so bad about it? I should look back into places I can volunteer at. Maybe go visit some of them. At least then I am not sitting about the house doing nothing. If I stay here all day I will just end up missing Jumin…. There is plenty I could do. I could clean up… I can look into volunteer places. I can talk to everyone in the RFA….. maybe we should start planning the next party.
The next party…. I wonder if V would be ok with that? Actually...I'd like to see V. There is alot I'd like to ask him about...regarding the RFA and what we should do. If he is ok….? If he needs any help… Also Seven…. Is he ok? He dodged all my questions last night…. But before that…. I should ask Jumin if we can go to the hospital together… to see Rika, and Seven's brother…...my father.
I want to go there with Jumin. Maybe I can ask him tonight? How can I get him to agree…? Maybe if I made him a nice dinner…. Would he even like that? My cooking is nowhere near as good as a chefs. That's another thing I could do. I could take cooking classes….
I hear a knock at the door. Is that lunch? I open the door to see a familiar face….the chef from downstairs? He usually doesn't come up here…. He typically sends someone else. Maybe he isn't that busy today….
"Mrs. Han!" He greets me with a huge smile. "I wanted to welcome you home! I am pleased you got back safely. Mr. Han asked me to make you something special for lunch."
Something special?
"May I?" He asks motioning inside.
"Of course!" I open the door wider and he comes in. I see Elizabeth appear from underneath the sofa...so that is where she was? She looks at the new man inside and gives me a loud meow. The chef ignores Elizabeth and sets the food down on the table inside…what was his name again…. I have only met him once, a few weeks ago…. H-Hyung…? No Hyeong! That was it! "Has the restaurant been well Chef Hyeong?" I ask.
"Very well...no need to call me chef. Just Hyeong will do." He smiles. "I made your lunch. I hope you enjoy."
"Thanks...It looks delicious."
"Any time. Just give me a call. I should get back to the restaurant. But it was good to see you Mrs. Han."
The chef leaves….I sit down and look down at the plate…. Lobster…. is that lobster…? I lean in… it definitely is. It looks delicious…. I don't think I have ever had lobster for lunch…. I guess that is what Jumin meant when he said special… He's so cute…
The rest of the day I look up animal shelters on the computer and call around to see which ones I would be interested in volunteering at. There are two that peak my interest… one that helps find foster homes for abandoned baby kittens that need to be bottle fed… and another that helps rehabilitate older injured cats… I should go visit them soon. I look over at the clock. They are going to be closed soon…. It's 5:10…. Wait it's 5:10….? Jumin should be off work…. I look down at my phone. There isn't a message from him. Should I ask him if he is off work? That may be intrusive…. Maybe I should text Jaehee…
Jaehee- I hope work was good. Do you know if Jumin is still in the office?
I send the message. My phone beeps back almost instantly.
He just left. I am sure he will be home soon. I can actually go home on time….It is like a miracle.
I smile. Maybe this is a good thing then.
Yay! I hope you can relax then Jaehee! Have a great night!
I send the message and set down my phone. Jumin will be home soon then…. Unless traffic is bad. But even so….the office isn't that far away…. I am sure he won't be longer than an hour. Maybe I should call for dinner? That would be helpful…. I got so sucked into looking at animal shelters I didn't have a chance to even consider making him food…. I pick up the phone…. I call the restaurant.
"Mrs. Han?" A high pitched voice asks.
How did they know it was me… "Yes!"
"Do you want dinner?"
"Ah- yes…. I was wondering if…"
"Oh- hold on…" I hear someone else talking on the other end. Is that Hyeong? "Mrs. Han… are you still there?"
"Yes."
"Your husband already called for dinner…It should be up in twenty minutes. Do you need anything else?"
He called already? "Oh….that's fine. Thank you."
"No problem!"
I hang up the phone. Jumin already called? Maybe he had something in mind he wanted to eat? I shrug. That was sweet of him. I stare down at my phone. Maybe I should fix my hair before he comes home? Waiting for him...I feel anxious. I need to do something to take my mind off waiting…. I walk into the bedroom. I run a brush through my hair. I don't look messy… I haven't taken a nap and I haven't gone outside, so I look more or less the sames as I did when I finished getting ready today. I didn't put any makeup on though…. Maybe I should put on some eyeliner and some lipstick…
I put one some makeup and lie on the bed petting Elizabeth the third. At 5:30 I hear a knock on the door…. It's a guy from the restaurant downstairs with dinner. He sets it on the table…. It is some sort of meat. I lean in closer. Lamb? With brussel sprouts...parsnip….nuts? It looks really good….. I want to eat it now. But I walk away. I need to wait for Jumin. He should be home any moment now. I go to the couch and turn on the TV. I flip the the stations…..suddenly I see my face. Wait what why am I on TV?
"The happy couple was spotted in the airport yesterday coming home from their honeymoon!"
"Do we know more about the girl?" The other reporter asks.
"We have yet to have confirmation on her background…but what a lucky lady!"
"Do you see that ring!?"
"It's huge!"
"Did you hear her ring is worth 1.5 million dollars!"
"1.5 million?!"
"I heard she may be an corporate heiress from overseas."
"That would justify the sudden marriage. Though I hope she's just a typical girl!"
"A Cinderella story fan?!"
"You know me!"
The two women chuckle. I quickly turn off the TV. I don't want to listen to that…. That gossip. I look down at my hand. Is this ring really worth so much? That has to be a rumor…. 1.5 million dollars… No way. A ring can't cost that much….. Though somehow I don't think it is just a rumor….
I bite my lip. I better be careful with it…. If it's so expensive… I need to be careful not to damage it… I feel dizzy…. This thing on my finger…. It is worth more than all they money I have made in my entire life…. It is worth more than my father had ever made...or my mother….
I hear the door unlock…. I look over. Is Jumin home? The door opens up… I see Jumin. He flashes me a warm smile. "I'm home dear."
"Welcome home!" I get up and walk over to him. "I tried to call for dinner…but they already were making it…. It's here though! It looks good…"
He slips his arms around my waist and pulls me close. Resting his face on my shoulder he lets out a sigh. "Did you have a nice day my love?" He whispers running his hands down my body.
"I did…." I feel my cheeks heating up…. He is so close…so suddenly. Had he missed me this much? Was work stressful? I loop my hands around his waist. "I had a nice day...did you?"
"I missed you very much." He places a kiss on my cheek. "It was a busy long day with many meetings. But hearing that you had a pleasant day makes me feel better."
I nod….so it was stressful…. I kiss his cheek. "Do you want a glass of wine?"
He flashes me a pleased smile. "I do. But not because of work. I want to have a glass of wine with my perfect wife." He pulls away from me and kisses the top of my head. "I am glad to come home to you my love. It makes my day much brighter." He leads me over to the table and motions for me to sit down. I sit down as I watch him go over to the kitchen and pull out a bottle of wine…. He sets it on the table and pours two glasses full of red liquid. Sitting across from me he flashes me a warm smile.
"I want to hear what you did today."
"I looked into animal shelters I could volunteer at…." I give him a smile. "I found two that look really interesting…. One with older cats, and another that helps abandoned kittens."
"Oh?" He raises his eyebrows. "So that is what you did?"
I nod. "They both seem like good programs…. I want to visit soon to see if I can be any help. Maybe we can invite them to one of the RFA parties too."
"That would be an excellent idea. I was worried you would get lonely and bored all alone. I am relieved that is not the case"
I nod. The RFA…. I should ask him about that…. I take a sip of my wine and take a bite of my dinner…. It tastes so good… "Um...Jumin. There is actually something I wanted to talk to you about…."
He looks up from his wine glass.
"You see...um… I was wondering if you have heard from V. He wasn't with everyone yesterday… I wanted to ask him if we were planning on having another party soon…"
"V…" Jumin sighs. "V….has been hard to reach recently."
Hard to reach?
"I tried contact him today…. But apparently no one has heard from him in a few days."
No one has heard from him?
"The party was a success according to Assistant Kang. We raised a record amount of funds, so I would assume that we would want to throw another one soon."
"Do you have any idea where V is…?" I ask.
"He wasn't at the hospital when I called. His phone seems to be off as well."
His phone is off…? That doesn't sound good. "Did you call Seven?"
"I did. He was busy and we could not speak for long. He is having issues with his brother."
Issues? What kind of issues. "Are they both still at the hospital?"
"Luciel and his brother? Yes they are."
So they are still there….. "Is everyone from Mint Eye still there…?"
"Yes they are." Jumin informs me.
I see…. This would be a good time to ask about going to visit…. I wonder if it is a good idea… I haven't given it too much thought today. I was so focused on looking into animal shelters… and last night everyone came over and I got so tired… But I decided yesterday that I would ask him about going to see everyone at the hospital.
Is it a good idea? Will I be able to help? Seeing my father…the thought makes me kinda nervous…but…. I can't hide. I have to go and see for myself. I don't want to not know… I want to find out what is going on… Maybe if I see him I will understand more about my past… I don't entirely know what I am expecting...what I want..or why I even feel like I should go… But… I want to go… I have to ask Jumin….
"Um… Jumin…. I actually wanted to talk about that. The hospital….you see… I want to go there….with you."
Jumin shakes his head and lets out a stressed sigh. "MC….. I thought we already discussed this."
"We did…but it's just…" I sigh. "I want to go….. I want to see it with my own eyes. I know it probably isn't for the best...but I want to go. I want to see Rika…. I want to see Seven's brother… I want to see my dad."
"MC…." he shakes his head again. "My feelings have not changed on this matter. It is not a good idea for you to see anyone connected with Mint Eye. Especially your father."
I bite my lip…. How can I get him to understand? I knew this wasn't going to be easy to get him on board… But I don't know how to put it… I understand how he feels… I know he wants to protect me from my past…. I get that. But...I can't hide….. I want to see it with my own eyes…. "Even so I want to go."
He shakes his head again and takes another sip of wine. "You will only be hurt if you see him. It will be much better for you to just let me take care of everything."
"Jumin…." I shake my head. I can't find the words. I just… I want him to understand my feelings on this. "This isn't about what is easy. I need to go. I am going to go. I'd like if you would come with me…"
Jumin looks down at the table. His face looks pale. He looks back up at me. "I love you very much MC. I don't like telling you that you cannot do things. But going there is a bad idea. You will get hurt...nothing good will come of it."
I bit my lip. "It's ok if I get hurt…. I guess maybe I want closure…."
"I am not alright with you getting hurt….it is a bad idea. I am against it."
My chest feels tight. Frustration is building within me. He isn't listening to me at all. He's just saying no. "Jumin you're not listening.."
"I am listening my love. I'm just not giving you the answer you want to hear. I'd like for you to listen to my suggestion. Last time you did not take my suggestion you got shot."
He's bringing that up….? His words sting…. I understand well that what I did back there was foolish...but It's not like going to the hospital is dangerous like that was. It's probably the safest place for me to see him… "Jumin…that's completely different from this." I can't help but frown. "I want to go...I can't just not go…"
He sighs. "MC, let's talk about this after dinner.."
I guess...that can work. This conversation is heavy for the dinner table… I suppose I can wait a while. Both of us finish our dinner in silence. I feel bad for spoiling the mood. He probably had a stressful day at work and I made it worse…. But I feel like I have to go…. I need him to understand….
After dinner Jumin takes me to the couch. He pulls me into his arms and shuts his eyes. "Alright…. Let's talk about this properly love. I understand you want to go. But it is a bad idea." He shakes his head and takes another sip of wine. I am stressing him out talking about this…but even so…. I can't just leave it there…. I have to speak up. Give him a good reason why….
"Jumin….I want to face my past instead of running away from it." As I say the words….it rings so clear. That is the reason I can't let it go...why I have to go. I didn't realize until I said it. I want to face my past…. That is why I have to go. "I have to go…. Please...can you come with me. It would mean a lot…."
"MC, I don't want you going there. Even if you have a good reason. It is a bad idea. You should not see your father."
I should not see my father? Jumin….why can't he understand. He is being so stubborn right now. "Jumin...that is for me to decide not you."
A frown dawns his face. "MC I would like you to listen to me."
"I am. But I don't have to do what you say Jumin." That came out harsh….
"You are not going there. I will not permit it."
He won't permit it? Frustration and anger is bubbling up in my chest. "Again that isn't for you to decide..." My voice is rising. It is getting hard to control my temper…. I pull away from him. I need to calm down…. "What you are saying doesn't make any sense. Why don't you want me to go?"
"I don't want you to go because it is a bad idea. I have been saying that repeatedly."
"Why is it a bad idea?" I set down my glass. "Is it just because I may get hurt? If that's all….I can handle it…. I've suffered worse. Seeing him isn't dangerous. He's in a hospital. He can't hurt me. I'm not a child anymore."
"I don't want you to suffer love…" He stands up, he walks over to me and takes my hand. "MC… I thought we already made a decision on this matter weeks ago."
"You made a decision." I say firmly. That came out harsher than intended….. "Jumin...you can't just decide that I can't go. I understand you don't want me to...but I'm going. If you won't come with me...then that's fine. I'd like you to come…but I understand if you don't want to. Rika was your friend so I understand how going there could be hard for you too…"
Jumin places my hand on his cheek. "MC…that isn't what this is about. Is there any way I can get you to let this go?"
I shake my head. "I'm going."
He lets out another sigh a frown is pasted on his face. "No."
"No?" He is just saying no? I am not a child. He can't tell me I can't go…. "Jumin I am not a child. I can go if I want."
"It is a bad idea. You will get hurt."
"I won't get hurt!" My voice is raising. If I get more emotional I won't be able to think through this clearly… I need to calm down. "Zen will take me there." Shit….why did I say that?
"Zen?" He flinches at the sound of his name.
I bite my lip. I look away from his stern gaze. He's clearly upset…. why did I say that…. "I'm sorry that was insensitive." A sigh escapes my lips. "I'm getting upset...this isn't helping. I just…" I look back at him. "I feel like I need to go. Please, I want you to understand…. I don't need your permission to go. But I want you to support me…."
Jumin takes my hands and places a kiss on them. "I know you are upset. Come closer…" He opens his arms motioning me to lean back in. I am mad at him….but I lean into him. He pulls me close and places a kiss on my head. "MC…." he whispers, "There is a reason you shouldn't go there… It is rather complicated."
"Complicated?" I ask. "What's complicated?"
He lets out another sigh...how many times has he sighed…..? "There are things going on I'd prefer you not to see."
Prefer me not to see? What is he talking about? "What…? What's going on?"
"A great deal of things…" He intertwines his hands with mine. "Can you just trust me on this matter? I understand your desire to have closure with your father. I would not be so against this if I didn't have a good reason. I want to give you everything you desire.. but with this… I'm afraid I cannot."
Huh? Is he hiding something? What could be going on that I can't know about? That doesn't make any sense… "Jumin, can you please tell me what is going on."
Jumin falls silent.
"Is there a reason you can't tell me?" I thought we decided to share everything with one another and not keep secrets. "...You can tell me anything. Didn't we promise to be open with one another?"
"It's not that I was trying to keep it from you. I just didn't want to put you through any more stress when your body was still healing."
So it happened before the trip? He says he isn't trying to hide anything...but it sure sounds like he is… Does it have something to do with my dad…? "Did something happen at the hospital?"
"It's not that something happened…." he sighs and shakes his head. "It is something currently going on." He sighs another time. "MC, do you remember when we talked about getting married I mentioned I was going to take care of Mint Eye when we were on the trip?"
"Yes I do…."
"Well, ever since that ordeal happened I have had a team conducting an investigation on Mint Eye. They are almost complete with the investigation. When the report is complete I fully intend to press charges."
An investigation? I thought we decided we weren't going to do that…..? Wait...if he presses charges won't that be the end of the RFA? Was he trying to hide this from me so I would not get upset with him?
Jumin shakes his head. "I see this is surprising news for you. But this is too big….we can't sweep it under the rug like Luciel would like. Your father should be put in jail. Rika should be put in jail…."
"What about Seven's brother?"
"I do not know...but he may also face jail time."
I glup….. I don't know what to do…. "V….is he ok with that?"
"I brought it up to V…. he was against it."
"So...you still plan on going forward with this?"
Jumin nods.
"Even if everyone is mad?"
He nods again.
"What about Yoosung…..? He will find out…."
"I suppose he will." Jumin sighs. "But it isn't right to hide this."
I nod slowly. "So...you don't want me to go because of the investigation?"
"No. I don't want you to go because I know about what the people in Mint Eye have done. I want to keep you away from dangerous people and situations."
Ok…. I can understand what he is saying a bit better. But… "Jumin, they shouldn't be able to hurt me at the hospital. I should be fine…."
"I have a bad feeling about it." He says firmly.
"A feeling?" I ask. He has a bad feeling? But…in the hospital what could really happen? People go there to heal… I have never heard of someone getting hurt in a hospital….
"Not just a feeling. With the information I know about the patients in the hospital it is very likely you may get attacked by your father. Lucile's brother is still very violent."
Seven's brother is violent? "Violent?" I guess at Mint Eye no one seemed sane...they did shoot me. But violence? In a hospital?
"Luciel's brother has been experiencing intense withdrawal syndromes from the drugs he was taking. He becomes especially violent when he see's Lucile. Your father was on a similar level of illegal substances. I assume your father is capable of the same amount of violence as Lucile's brother, if not more."
I take a sip of my wine. This is hard to process. So….drugs? I guess I should have suspected it….with how everyone was acting…
Jumin places a kiss near my ring. "Please….MC, my beautiful wife…" He leans in and kisses my cheek. "Stay away from that place. I do not want anything to happen to you. I want to protect you from getting hurt again."
I bite my lip. What he is saying...it makes more sense now. I lean back and close my eyes. Should I give up? Just listen to Jumin…. Not go to the hospital. Will I be able to stop thinking and worrying about everyone if I don't go? What will going really accomplish? Seeing Rika…what would I say to her? I don't know how to help V…. seeing Rika won't change that. I don't know Seven's brother…. how can I help someone I don't even know…. It's not that Seven has ever asked for my help with him… I would be intruding. Would it be welcome? I don't know…..
And my father…. What will going do? Will I feel better about what happened in the past? Me going…. will I just be in danger and cause problems like I did when I went to Mint Eye?
But...the real question is…. can I let this go? Will I regret not going….? "Jumin…" I speak but I don't know what I am going to say. What do I want?
…. I want to go.
"Jumin… I still want to go."
He closes his eyes and leans back. "You..still want to?" He lets out a sigh...but this one is different from the rest. It is not stress...no….it's sadness…. "Alright." He shakes his head."If you still want to go by the end of the week I will take you."
He will take me? Have I convinced him?
"I still think this is a very bad idea." He continues. "But if I can't stop you I want to be by your side so I can protect you from harm."
I throw my arms around him. "Thank you Jumin." I close my eyes and nuzzle against his chest. "It really means a lot…."
"Just promise me you won't go alone. You will wait."
I nod. "Of course…. I want you to be with me."
"Good." He runs his hands through my hair. Looking up at him I see him shut his eyes. Did talking about this tire him out? It seemed like he was stressed today… I made it worse.
"I'm sorry if I made your day more stressful…." I hug him tighter. "But I am happy we could talk."
He peaks open his eyes and looks down at me. "You don't have to apologize for saying how you feel." He ruffles my hair. "I want you to be open with me so I can better understand your feelings."
I kiss his cheek. "I love you." I kiss his lips. "Thank you for understanding…. I'm sorry I raised my voice."
"Again you don't need to apologize to me for something like that… You didn't do anything wrong." A soft sigh escapes his lips. "I admit I was withholding information from you. That wasn't good of me. You are the one who deserves an apology…."
"It's fine…" I snuggle into his arms. He accepts me gleefully, stroking my hair. "You are just worried about me."
"I just can't help but be protective of you. I love you very much…. I want to shelter you from everything bad and painful."
I close my eyes… I understand. He's just trying to protect me...but…. that can't always be possible. Sometimes I am going to have to get hurt…. things can't always be pleasant…. it's part of living. "But...sometimes you won't be able to do that...and that's ok." I whisper.
"I am starting to see if I do that I could end up hurting you in the process…. It's rather complex these feelings….."
It is rather complex, isn't it? It's natural to want to protect the one you love...but when that isn't possible...what do you do? If I was in his shoes how would I feel? I would want to do the same thing…. protect him from someone who had hurt him. I don't know if I would be as stubborn about it…but I understand where he is coming from. I was frustrated at him…but never mad.
He takes my chin, holding my face. His piercing gray eyes stare right through me. He doesn't look upset…no…he looks exhausted. Dark circles under his eyes, his hair a bit unkempt. How long was he at work? Too long… He has to be feeling jet lagged. No matter how many times he's traveled...not getting enough sleep is still not getting enough sleep. My hand extends out, I caress his cheek.
"You look tired." The words escape my lips in a hushed whisper. "Do you want to go lie down?"
A relaxed smile spreads across his lips. "Yes my love. Come lie down with me."
I move to get off of the sofa….arms slip behind my back, pulling me back. "J-Jumin?" I ask as I fall back into his chest. He leans us back against the cushions. Does he want to lie down on the sofa? If he's tired we should really go to bed…. I can't carry him to the bed like he can with me….
His right hand creeps up my back. He brings my face closer to his…inches from his...his breath is warm. He leans in closer and a soft kiss greets my lips. His arm rests securely on my back waist. My cheeks are getting hotter. His kiss melts into my lips, slowly becoming deeper. His tongue slides into my mouth gently, melting me to him. His hand rests behind my head, softly holding me to him. My heart tightens. He's being so tender...and caring right now… When he kisses me like this, it is like I am no longer just me… It is like we are connected. I love him so much..
He pulls away, locking me in his eyes. My breaths are unsteady. I feel dizzy from the kiss. He lowers me down on the sofa, positioning himself over me. Hands, warm, soft, strong hands, run down my side. His gaze doesn't waver. My body feels hot….. His touch is making me feel dizzy. It's becoming hard to keep a train of thought… My body feels excited…. and with each passing second the excitement is being multiplied. I need to calm down….
He leans in closer kissing my neck. His leg is pressed against my crotch… I can't… I feel dizzy…. What is he doing? Just small things like this can so easily overcome my senses with desire. Does he know what he does to me? Just something as simple as this makes my head spin. I loop my arms behind his neck and lean in closer. He accepts my advance with pleasure, moving his hand down my sides. He strokes my hips with both of his hands. His lips move down my neck…. I hear a soft rustle…hot lips land above my breasts. Did he just loosen my blouse? My body shivers as he sucks there… His lips feel so soft… My breaths are uneven… What is he doing? Does he know how he's working me up? He must be tired…we should both go rest. If this goes any further I won't be able to calm down…. It's already getting close to that…. My desire is starting to fill me….. I already feel hot and bothered… I want him…. But I don't want him to overwork himself. I know if I were to ask he would make love to me all night long… but…. I have to be a good wife. Jumin has to go to work early… Surely he is tired from traveling…. We should just go to bed….
I look down at him...his eyes are full of lust… scanning my body as he touches me, sucking near my breasts. "J-Jumin?" I ask. "W-what? Aren't…." His hands lift up my bra and he sucks on my nipples. A sharp moan escapes my mouth interrupting me….
He sneaks one of his hands up my legs and up my skirt. Looping his hand though the side of my underwear he plays with the fabric… He does realize what he is doing? How he is teasing me…. I don't think I can stop any longer… He must be trying to get me like this…even though he is tired. Is it really ok though? He has work tomorrow… Jumin always says he is used to not sleeping…but it must be hard on him. I look down at my halfway unbuttoned blouse… my exposed breasts…. My skirt is halfway pushed up…. The place where he was sucking is red. A hickey will surely be there tomorrow.
"Are you feeling excited my bride?" He whispers as his hands drift towards my blouse. Freeing the last of the buttons, my blouse falls to the side, completely exposing my torso, He traces his lips over my collar bone. His smile is so mischievous…. He knows very well what he is doing to me…. He doesn't have to ask if I am excited… He can see it all over my body. He is trying to tease me isn't he…? I know that look…. that playful, sly, yet gentle look. He wants me….. In particular...he wants to play with me...tease me….
"MC…my love, are you aware of how much of my linger in my thoughts during the day?" His voice is raspy. "It makes me anxious to come home to you. I've wanted to hold you all day long." His hand moves closer to my crotch…stroking the area above it. My head is spinning… His touch….it feels so hot…. it makes my heart beat faster. A broken moan escapes my mouth. I see him give me an amused smile.
I feel cool air as my skirt is pushed all the way up. His hand traces around my inner thigh. He grins as he watches my body shudder at his touch. "...Aren't...you tired?" I manage to ask.
He shakes his head. "No, but you may be after I am finished with you."
What….? I may be tired…. where does he come up with these lines? He pushes off my blouse and unhooks my bra. They fall to the ground with a soft thump. His fingers take rest on my crotch. Pushing my panties to the side, he strokes my opening. A loud dry gasp escapes my lips. My eyes are forced shut. His fingers are so big...strong…warm. He always makes me go crazy when he touches me here… His thumb teases my clit… I can't it's too much. He was teasing me… I feel like I may…..I may…
He stops pulling his fingers away. A trail of sticky juices follow. He stares at it with an amused expression. My head is spinning… He just...he just...didn't let me come….
I feel dizzy….by the gaze in his eyes...I know that he knows what he's doing. He's trying to make me go crazy…His hands drift over to my naked chest. I gasp...he is holding them...so firmly. His hands begin to move, massaging them. His grip is so firm...at first his kiss was so gentle, but he is starting to get rougher… A soft moan escapes my mouth as he teases my nipples with his thumb. His lips land by my ear.
"Strange, it's hasn't even been two days since I have held you…but it feels much longer…" He whispers as his lips grace my nipples. Warm lips… tongue…. His hand supports my waist. My cheeks feel hot. "You seem tense… How should I help relax you….?" One of his hands move down my waist. He strokes the outside of my panties again… a sharp moan escapes my lips. "It seems your body agrees with my feelings." He smiles at me.
Of course I am tense…he just stopped me from coming…. I feel so excited….my head is spinning. How…? I don't understand. He has to be tied...how does he have the energy for this?
"J-Jumin?!" I gasp as his finger traces my opening. My body looses all it's strength. I can't…his touch is too powerful. He knows how to make my body react to him so well…. He's had lots of practice by now…. He nibbles my ear, more moans escape my lips. My body is quickly beginning to feel numb…. Jumin has made me his over and over… but it still feels so overwhelming. I don't think it is possible to become used to this kind of passion…. His desire for me is so clear and strong. I can't resist it…. I can't resist him. I want him. His stroking is teasing me so much… I feel so tight and hot inside… I want him…. I want his hot passion to relieve me over and over again.. That addicting feeling of him overpowering me…. I crave it…
I wrap my arms around his torso. "Take me to the bedroom…" I whisper. The words escape my mouth without thinking…. I just want him so bad I can't think….
His arms slip underneath my legs...I am lifted in the air. He holds me against his chest as we walk over to the bedroom. Pushing the door open with his foot, he sets me on the bed.
He towers over me with a grin. Loosening his tie he takes off his jacket and sets it besides the bed. "I want you to strip for me." He whispers.
I look down… I am already almost naked…. I only have my skirt, panties, and socks on…. My hands drift to the side of my skirt, grasping the zipper I unfasten it… taking it off. I peel my panties off…they are already so wet… Jumin grins at me as he watches me loop them off of my legs. I drop them on the floor. Lastly….socks…. lifting up my legs I take them off.
"Good girl." His grin is so devilish… He isn't intending to give me what I want is he? He wants to play with me...tease me… I know this look… I know this mood. He approaches me and pulls me into his chest. My naked body is warmed by the fabric of his shirt. I can hear his heart...beating so fast…. I close my eyes...letting his scent overflow me. His hands latch onto my bum. My breath is uneven…. I want him… I feel dizzy from desire… My lips are quivering….. His grip loosens on me and I fall to the bed. He towers over me, scanning my body with his eyes.
Lingering there...he stares… my unsteady breath calms. What is he doing? Just staring at me….? Is he tired after all…? I reach up and touch his face. He flinches at my touch, as if he was surprised I had moved. "Jumin? Are you ok?"
He nods. "I just wanted to look at you…" he whispers. "So I can remember every detail when I am away from you…."
Every detail? I feel my face getting hot. Is that is what is making him act like this….? Is it because he missed me today? That is actually…kind of sweet…. I sit up and let my lips kiss his neck. I move down slowly…my lips hit his shirt…why is this still on…? I want to touch him….
He moves me away from him and props me on the cushions behind. Parting my closed legs with his his hands. His eyes linger… Is he...looking there too? I feel my face getting red. Why am I the only one naked? It's embarrassing to be the only one…. Slowly he moves closer to me. I reach out to unbutton his shirt...he quickly pushes me away… "Jumin….?" I ask. Why…? Why isn't he letting me….?
He moves close to me. A kiss lands on my neck. "Let's play a game." He whispers.
Goosebumps form on my arms. His games… I never win them. They always involve teasing me…. "What kind of game….?"
His smile grows wider. "I want you to listen to my demands….." He whispers in my ear. My body feels tight. Demands? What is he talking about? "If you do well I will let you take off some of my clothing. If not I get to tease you more."
This sounds like a mean game. He is going to make me wait…? But I want him so badly… I want to feel him inside of me. He takes my chin in his hand.
"That's not fair…." I pout. "You already teased me so much…." My voice sounds like a whine but I can't help it. He's being so mean…. I want to come…. I want to feel him…. "Your game is going to make me go crazy…"
As I say that he gives me an amused look. "Yes that is my intention." His gaze narrows...he looks so mischievous. I can't tell what he is thinking at all. "I want to watch you." He says in a firm voice.
Watch me? I look at him wide eyed….what?
"Touch yourself."
I freeze. He's asking me to… touch myself for him? He's never asked me to do that….. I haven't done that in a while… Jumin never leaves me alone long enough for me to have to…. My face feels hot. Doing that….is kind of embarrassing…. He's still fully dressed….His eyes rest on me with an expectant gaze…. But I want to do what he wants…. Whenever he asks things of me in bed...when I do them...he looks so happy. He always makes me feel so good too… He's seen all my sides already….
My hand moves down to my crotch on their own…. My fingers grace my opening… It's so wet...so very wet. I hadn't even realized…. It's hot too...so hot… My fingers begin to move. A moan escapes my lips. Jumin smiles at me. Not moving. Only watching. His gaze...is erotic. It's exciting… This feels good. Touching myself…. I want to come… He didn't let me before…
I rub my clit with my finger and with the others I tease my opening. The gasps escaping my lips are growing louder. I feel unkempt…loose…and tight at the same time. What does Jumin think of this? Is it turning him on? If I do a good enough job….will I seduce him to attack me….
Maybe I can seduce him and win this game….? I spread my legs wider. It's embarrassing...but he has already seen every part of me. He had asked for this…. I insert my fingers inside of me. They are practically sucked in…it's so tight…. Is this what I do to Jumin? This doesn't feel like when I touch myself alone… It's very different. Having him here watching… It's making me more excited than normal. I gasp as I thrust in and out of myself with my fingers. I tease my clit at the same time. It's so tight inside it almost hurts….yet at the same time it forces me to thrust quickly. If I am too slow...it feels like my insides might eat me alive…. Is this what it feels like for Jumin? Is my body so lustful….. This man...he makes me go crazy….
My head is thrown back as I moan loudly. "J-Jumin…!" His name escapes my lips as I thrust in and out of myself. My head is feeling light. But I can't stop. I need to come…I need to come like I need to breathe. I want to feel that relief so badly…. I have to… I can't… My head is numb. I am getting close… so close…
Suddenly my body tightens around my fingers. It pushes me out with a sharp involuntary thrust. My body feels numb. Relief overcomes me. I am dizzy...my mouth is dry…. Another moan is forced out of my lips...no way…it's coming again.. I can't… is it because he is watching me? I have never been able to make myself feel like this before….
My body shakes….is it over? I open my eyes. Jumin is staring at me. His cheeks are flushed red. Did that turn him on? Did it seduce him? Was I able to make him feel jealous…
"Good girl." He says. He approaches me and runs his hands down my body. His touch makes me shiver.
Good girl? So I have won the game….? My hands drift down to his pants… I feel something hard…. I begin unzipping his pants before I know what is going on. My body craves him…. I tug them off. Jumin helps me take them off. They fall off of the bed. I move to take his underwear off but he pushes my hand aside once again. I look up at him…. Is he seriously? He still wants to play when he is this hard….. "You only get one item." He reminds me.
I sit up and give him a frown. "But…." I reach out and let my hand grace the erect presence hidden by his underwater. He finches at my touch. "I can make this feel better…." I whisper.
He shakes his head. "Not yet my little kitty…. I have something special for you…"
Special? What is he talking about? Why did he just call me kitty? Every time he says that it reminds me of that embarrassing night on the honeymoon…. Jumin gets out of the bed and walks over to a bag… Is that his work bag? When did it get in here…..? He opens it and pulls something out…..A box? What is in there? He returns to me and places the black box in my hand. A red ribbon is tied around it… My hands grace the ribbon. It's soft…..like some sort of heavy silk. Is this a present? Why is he giving it to me now…? Does it have something to do with what we are doing…? No it can't be...when would he have time to get something like that…. But if he somehow did...what would it be? He's expressed interest in restraining me before...handcuffs maybe?
"Open it." He says with a sly grin.
…..I pull the ends of the ribbon. Taking the lid off of the box...I see something brown...soft….I reach down and touch it. It's fur….? Very soft soft fur. I pick it up….
…
…..
…
What? Are these….
These?
These are cat ears?
When...wait why? Huh...?
"Put them on." He tells me.
…...Put them on…? What…? I know Jumin has his own tastes...but this kind of thing? Where did he even get this idea? I stare down at the box….wait… there is something else in the box. I move the tissue paper….
…
That's definitely a tail….. It's long and soft like the ears…but at the base...there is something weird…some sort of glass…..
Jumin takes the ears from me. He pushes my hair aside, and I feel them land on my head. "As I thought the color matches your hair perfectly."
"When…? What…?" I don't know what to say… Of all the things that could have been in that box…. I wasn't expecting that. I wouldn't of been surprised at handcuffs….or even some sort of toy…but this? I don't understand how he came up with this idea. When did he have time to get this…..? Did ge go out during work?
Jumin's hand slips under my bum. "If you put this on I will let you take off the rest of my clothes." He whispers picking up the tail.
I stare at him. What? I just have to put that on? Then I can have him? How does that even work…. There isn't a string…. What is that glass looking thing attached to the fur. I haven't seen anything like that before….. "I can put that on…. I guess…" I say looking at his erect penis… I want it…. I want him….
Jumin slips is arm under my stomach. He moves my body so I am all fours. He presses his fingers against my exposed opening. I thought he was going to put that on….I gasp. Is he going to touch me…? I feel hot...I want him so badly. He rubs my opening…spreading my juices…. Then…
I gasp…. his hand…
He's touching my…my…what?
"Relax your body love…." He whispers. "I need to place it inside of here. Don't worry it won't hurt. I will prepare you well."
Prepare me? What…. Jumin…? He's touching my ass…what? He can't mean… Is that supposed to…go...in there? Like in my… like in my butt?
His fingers trace around my back side… I feel something cold hit my bottom...cold and wet… I look behind to see Jumin holding a bottle of clear liquid… He rubs it around my backside. Gently massaging me. The sensation…..it doesn't feel bad...but it's embarrassing. I look back at him. Is he really intending...to put that there…? I said he could...but I didn't know….
He said it wouldn't hurt…but I haven't ever… I've never done anything like this before. Will it feel good? I don't know…. "It won't hurt?" I ask my voice quivering.
He shakes his head. "Don't be nervous love. You will be enjoying this soon. Trust me."
Enjoying it…? I trust him…. I really do… but this kind of thing… Is it ok? Isn't it dirty there…. I gasp as his fingers press against my back opening….
"Relax…." He whispers kissing my back. He squeezes more of the liquid on my rear….he massages around it, occasionally sticking his finger a bit of the way in working in some of the liquid.
Suddenly…something slips in…his finger? It slides slowly…and easily…. How? It feels hot…his finger… my body… More liquid is poured on me. I feel his finger moving inside… My insides feel like they are being stretched…
He holds me for a while…. fingering me from behind. My head feels light...my rear feels like it is burning in a weird way…. but I don't hate it… It actually feels good…. Every time he thrusts in I feel my backside twitch…. Closing and stretching it at the same time. How long has it been? I feel like a mess…..
He takes his fingers out… I feel something cold press against me…it slides in slowly… It' bigger than his fingers...and so much more cold. A gasp escapes my mouth.. Did…did he put it in… I look behind me…. something soft falls by my legs…is that….
It's the tail…. I feel my face grow red…..
Jumin smiles at me. "You did a very good job my love." I see him take off his boxers…his tie…his shirt. He let's them fall to the ground. "Do you feel alright?" He asks.
Alright? It doesn't hurt…. I just feel full and hot…. It feels different...but not in a bad way…. I feel embarrassment…excitement…vulnerability. "It doesn't hurt…but it's embarrassing…." I tell him.
He nods. "You did a good job for your first time." Come here." He motions to me to one closer. I move my body….I can feel the tail with every move...not only against my leg, but also inside of me. I lean up against his chest and he embraces me. His smooth cool skin calms my racing heart. "There is no need for embarrassment. You look very cute my kitten." He whispers.
I feel my face grow hotter…. I look cute? He like's this kind of thing…? I don't think I am drunk enough for this…. He just said I did good for my first time…does that mean he intends to do this more than just today? How did he convince me to agree to this…. Oh...that's right…. he teased me until I was about to go crazy…. "When did you get this…?" I ask
He pats my head. "I was thinking about how much I missed my cute kitten at work. I've been thinking for a while you would look cute in cat ears, then…. I called a certain shop….and they had just what I was looking for."
I nod…. So he's been thinking about this for a while? His hands move down my back…all the way down. He strokes the tail, his touch is soft, but I can feel it inside…. I gasp. His fingers move down to my opening...he teases my clit. I lean against him. The feeling of him touching me…it's so strong. I feel like my head's spinning. The sensation of the item inserted into my rear is a constant presence… it makes everything feel stronger… His touch is more amplified….
"What does my kitty want?" He asks.
He's asking me? I want him….. I want to get drunk off of pleasure….. "No more teasing…" I whisper. "I want you…." Jumin grins. He reaches over to the bedside table and puts on a condom. He grabs my hips and positions me on his lap…. He lowers me down. I gasp…he's pressed up against my opening…. Slowly he lowers me down…piercing through me.
He stays still for a moment scanning me. He looks concerned…is he worried about me? This feels strange…. He's inside of me...but so is something else…. The tail… Both sensations feel so different. It is like my body doesn't know which one to focus on… Running his hands down my side he kisses my cheek. He moves me up and down…with each thrust...I feel tighter….
The pleasure is so intense…. the tail… I feel it with every motion…. My body is gripping it so tightly… My front hole is the gripping Jumin more tightly than normal. I feel full….and hot. This feeling is different...it's good… I somehow I think I could get used to this….
Wait...get used to this? Did I just think that? God…what am I becoming? Jumin...he's always pushing me past my limits...making me discover new sides of myself. For anyone else I would never let them dream of putting me in these situations…. But it's Jumin. My husband…. the man I love and trust more than anyone in the world… I want to please him so desperately just like he does for me. Is doing this making him excited? Is he pleased?
I wrap my arms around him and he continues moving me up and down. He's being more gentle than normal…is he worried about me? Because of the tail?
Jumin...he may ask strange things of me sometimes...but he always takes care of me so well. Why was I nervous….? Jumin's never hurt me before…. He's always thinking of me. I love him so much…. "You can go faster…" I tell him. "I think i'm getting used to it…." I look behind me… I see the tail falling behind me…it's twitching slightly…. How strange…I guess because it is inside of me it will move with me as I get aroused… It looks so real….
Jumin nods…he begins to move me faster….. I hold on to him as we both move up and down…. I can't help but pant…. He's scraping my insides….. I can feel him so well. The toy is making me so aware of my walls...both of them… I can feel the space between them…
I feel his hands tighten around my waist…he moves me down…. on all fours… I look behind… Usually when he does this… He is having problems controlling himself… Not that I mind….
I look up at him…our eyes meet. He looks wild...amused...pleased…. His hands run down my back. He moves my tail, so it falls down my side. When he touches it...I gasp. It is so sensitive...like it's part of my body…
"If you had any idea how cute you look…." He shakes his head. "MC…my kitten…. You are sure you feel alright?"
I nod… I want him to keep moving… I want to come… I want to….
He thrusts inside of me with force… I gasp…. this feeling… I am used to his forceful passion…but it feels different… This…the tail…. there are two things inside of me. It feels so different…. My body feels tight and hot… my head is light… The sound of our bodies hitting each other fills the room. I like this feeling…. It feels…..new...and good… It is like he is overpowering every inch of me…
I grab the sheets for support…. His arms hold me…his grip is so strong… I feel so safe...in his arms...in his control… It feels so good… My body is relaxed and aroused… I can't… It's only been a few moments and my head already feels so light. The pleasure makes it hard to think…. Broken moans escape my lip. I am calling his name…. He is thrusting in and out of me with everything that he has...not holding back at all….
A loud moan escapes my lips… The room spins…. I..I...It's coming…. What's this quick and sudden feeling? My body tenses as he continues moving inside… I gasp and twitch….but he holds me firmly, stopping me from moving too much…
Relief overcomes me….my tongue feels numb…. I gasp… It feels so good…. My backside is twitching in ways I didn't know it could. It's so powerful….. I don't know...what is this…. The feeling is paralyzing… enough to make me lose my mind. It's never felt like this… It's like my entire body is having a orgasm… I tighten around him and the toy…. Everything inside is trembling…. shaking…. Jumin pauses. He pulls me close, wrapping his arms around me, holding me in his embrace. The feeling won't stop…over and over...my body twitches and relieves itself. I gasp...it's hard to breathe… Will I ever be able to stop…. It's like my body is stuck...stuck coming… Why won't it stop...how many times has it come…. I can't control my movements… My body is moving and twitching in strange ways…..
A kiss lands on my cheek…..but even that excites me... I can't think… I hear him gasp and I feel him twitch inside me… Is he coming? I wonder…what does it feel like inside? Am I as tight as when I touched myself? Am I sucking him in….?
His hot uneven breath fills my ears. I lean back as he nibbles there...sucking. Teasing me. I don't possess any more strength...my limbs are wobbling… I fall to the bed….Jumin removes himself from me…. The mattress is so soft….
A sigh escapes my lips. Everything feels fuzzy…. I need a break… I can't… I can't come like that again… It was too powerful…. Hands run down my back….I flinch as he pets my tail. "What...was that?" I gasp.
I feel his hands slip under my stomach. He pulls me up and pulls me on his lap. "It seems your body is reacting well to your new toy."
He brings me near and places a soft kiss on my lips. My heart is racing….but as he holds me I feels calmer… I snuggle into his chest. It's so warm.
Jumin's fingers drift near my tail. He strokes around where it is inserted. "I'm curious….." he whispers. "If that felt good for you perhaps you would enjoy….."
"Wa- nhhhgnnng...Jumin!?" I moan out as he takes the base of the tail and starts moving it in and out of my body. What...what is he doing? I don't know this feeling…. He moves me so my stomach is lying on his lap...with my ass up…. he continues thrusting in and out. I feel strange… It's like...this movement is making me wetter...turning me on...teasing me…. I don't understand. It should hurt... but…. god why do I like this…?
My breath is growing heavy. Moans are slipping from my mouth. My heart is racing...just when it had calmed down too. I cold wet liquid hits near my ass… Jumin rubs it around where he is thrusting. I look up at him. Our eyes lock. He gives me a sly pleased smile… What is he doing…? He begins thrusting faster… My head feels light…. Is it possible to come from this…? I don't know… But it's making me feel excited… it's different from when he's touched me before… this kind of pleasure is deeper… more…. I dunno… it's like my body is rumbling inside… I want more… how am I enjoying this….?
"How do you feel?" He whispers.
How do I feel? "I'm embarrassed...but it feels good…."
He nods. "It's alright my love. Don't feel embarrassed… you look beautiful."
Beautiful? Like this..?
"I need you to tell me to stop if it starts to become painful."
I nod… it hasn't hurt at all…. Even though he's thrusting the toy quickly….. It's feeling good…. his other hand runs down my back. I feel so strange...my head is feeling numb… it's becoming hard to stay composed… my moans sound uncontrolled...wild...they are deep like an animal. It feels like something wants to come...but it can't quite…. it's like my body might explode… The toy is teasing me and satisfying me at the same time. I want more… My body is gripping it so tightly… I wonder...what would it feel like to have something go in deeper…
Something deeper? Some people...they actually have sex like this…. I've never done it… Would it hurt…? Jumin he's much bigger than the toy…. Is that possible? Would it fit? I don't know if I want to ask… But this pleasure is driving me insane… for me to even think about it….. What's gotten into me…? Why do I want that…. Every thrust is making my head spin… My composure is being undone…. I don't want more...I need it…
"Ju-Jumin…" I gasp. "You...I want to try…." my eyes are wet...my head is spinning. The words are escaping my mouth before I can even think. "I want you...not the toy...there."
He grins. "If that is what my kitten wants." He places a gentle kiss on my back. I shiver with his touch. "….I believe your body is nearly ready for that."
He moves me back on all fours. Taking the toy he moves it in and out a few more times. He applies more of the liquid around…Suddenly he pulls it out with a gentle yank. A sharp moan escapes my lips… before I can catch my breath he sticks his fingers inside. He moves them side to side, moving them apart… I feel like he's stretching me… more liquid is poured onto my quivering behind.
"Relax my love…." He whispers. "I'll go very slowly… I won't hurt you…" he places another kiss on my back.
I nod… I trust him… I feel vulnerable… so vulnerable. I've never…but it feels so good…. I can't believe I just asked for this…I had asked for it? What has gotten into me…? I feel him take his fingers out…
My lips shake a moan escapes my mouth. He is pressing up against me… I twitch… He feels so hard….It is so warm. My ass...it's throbbing… I want him… why do I want him? My head is spinning.
Suddenly...with a gentle press, he enters me. It's only the tip...but my head is spinning faster than ever. He's so much bigger than the toy. He holds my waist in his arms… I close my eyes… even though I'm vulnerable...I trust him… I'd only trust him to do this…. It doesn't hurt… but my body is stretching. "You feel ok?" He asks.
I nod…
He presses in a bit further…
I gasp...a weird low pitched moan escapes my mouth. He's as far in as the toy was. He's so much bigger...but he's also warmer… I'm stretching for him…making space inside of me for him… My heart is quivering… my eyes feel wet… my body is shaking… but not because it hurts… I feel emotional….
I love him…
I love him so much….. my lips are shaking...I'm moaning…. I feel his hands run down my sides. He moves in further…
I gasp...he's further in...this feeling… he's where the toy couldn't hit…. it feels so good...my face feels like it's going numb… but he's not all the way in…. can he go that far in…..?
"Kitten…." he strokes my hair…. "I am going to start moving. If it hurts I need you to tell me…."
Moving? He isn't going to go further in…? I nod. He pulls out a bit...but then goes back in...this time a bit deeper than before...my ass it feels tight…and hot… I can feel him twitching...I feel his shape in a new way.
He slowly moves in and out of me...each time going a bit deeper. He holds my shaking body firmly…. I trust him… I slowly let my mind go.
Moans freely flow from my lips as he thrusts faster…..not nearly as fast as how he normally goes...but faster than he has ever thrust into me from behind. I feel stretched and full. It's like my body is trying to close when he pulls away, but he comes back so quickly not letting it…
When he goes deeper….it feels so good. My lips quiver...this feeling… it's strange and new…but it's good…. I like it. I want him to make all of me his…
He starts to move even faster…I cry out…I feel more liquid being poured on me…. I feel hot… it's like I'm going crazy… I yearn for each thrust… He's in control of my body in a way he never has been before. I love it.. I love him.
"More…." the words spill from my mouth… "more…faster...deeper…"
He holds me tighter. He thrusts in a bit further…god...it feels good...he's really inside of me…it's so tight...but he relaxes me.
I start to hear his breath waiver as he moves in and out of me. My breath is broken...being interrupted by pants and moans. My body feels like thunder. I'm starting to feel more than good… I feel amazing. This feels amazing…
My body is starting to feel relaxed and loose…accepting every thrust with pleasure… cooing for more. Am I getting used to this? Every time her goes deep…my head spins… I love it….
I feel crazy… like with the toy...but more intense…. something… it's going to come…. I feel like I may come… my head feels so light…. the room is spinning….. god how is this real? How is it possible to feel this way? It feels so different…so…
Oh god…. he's going faster…. His hand moves down near my crotch. He presses his finger against my clit, gently rubbing it. I cry out. What is this feeling? I might explode… But more...my body needs more….
I want to come…. What will that feel like? I need to know…. He's throbbing and twitching inside of me… I'm holding him inside of me…
I can't think.
This...oh...oh...oh my god…what?
I bite my lips… I squeeze the sheets...my head is thrust back. My body releases…. It's like every part of me is becoming drenched in release…. it's like thunder inside my body. I scream out…. I can't control my body even a little bit…. Surely I am being too loud…. But I can't control it. Jumin stops moving and holds me tightly. I feel him twitching inside of me…my ass is shaking…suddenly inside...something releases… a strange pressure... I hear Jumin's breath waiver. Is he coming too..? I feel kisses on my cheek...but the feeling is diluted from the numb sensation overcoming every inch of my body. My very core is shaking…. I feel so dizzy. This is intense…. this is…. so good….
My body stops…. I gasp for air…. I can finally breathe…. I feel so weak...my eyes shut. I can't…. The room feels fuzzy and dizzy…
"Dizzy…" the words drip from my mouth. I feel him slowly pulling out. My ass is so tight…is it hard for him to get out…. I can't tell… I feel numb…. like I may pass out….
"Dizzy?" He asks with concern. "Do you need water…?"
I shake my head...water would be nice but I don't want him to go. He's almost out…My body is grabbing it so tightly he has to pull harder. A moan escapes my lips as he pulls all the way out.
My ass… it feels so stretched…. It still feels wide...like he is still inside. I feel tired…. Like every ounce of me has been used up. I feel Jumin rub my bum. He take's me in his arms and pulls me to his chest. Hands run through my hair. I want to stay in his arms... He hugs me tighter. Leaning back he holds me to his chest. I can smell him so clearly… I shut my eyes. Would it make me a terrible wife if I just go to sleep now? That orgasam was so intense…. I don't know if I can go on… I know Jumin can...he always can…. But I feel so tired… How is it possible to feel like that…. My body doesn't know how to process this pleasure.
"J-Jumin…" The words come out broken…. It's getting hard to speak. I am so exhausted… "I'm so tired….my body…. "
He strokes my hair. "Yes...you are done. Sleep. There will be more time later for more games…." A kiss is placed on my forehead. "I need to clean you off though…" He whispers. "It's fine if you fall asleep."
I can sleep? I nod… My eyes feel heavy. He lifts me in his arms…I no longer feel the soft mattress….. we walk into a bright room. I keep my eyes shut. Curled up into his chest. I am set on something cold and hard. I peak open my eyes…shower? We are in the shower? That's fine…. The room is getting hotter…is the shower on? I am so sleepy….. I can't stay up any longer….
It's so warm…. I smell a similar comforting scent...I open my eyes...the room is dark. I am in Jumin's arms. It must be early because he's still here. I snuggle closer taking comfort in his embrace. I wonder how long has he been holding me? All night….? I look over at the clock. It's almost four AM? My ass feels a bit sore….. but it doesn't hurt. I touch it...I can't believe last night… I… we…
Jumin's eyes peek open. A smile spreads on his face. "You're awake sweetheart? Does my princess need something?" He asks in a tired voice. "I have water for you besides the bed. I left aspirin out just incase." I look over. There is water there…as well as a bottle of pills. I take a sip of the water but I leave the pills. I'm not really that sore…. I should be fine without it.
I should go back to sleep… I didn't mean to wake him. He has work soon…he must be tired… "I'm fine…" I whisper. "I didn't mean to wake you honey."
He wraps his arms around me. His hands grip my ass...stroking it. "I was going to wake up soon anyways. Are you feeling alright?" He asks.
"I'm fine…" I whisper. "You were really gentle…so it doesn't hurt."
He leans his head against mine. "Good. I don't want my games to hurt my precious kitten." He shuts his eyes and a grin forms on his face. He looks so happy…. Is that because of me? I can't help but feel a bit proud…. I place a kiss on his cheek. Waking up early with him is nice… I need to work to become more of a morning person. Being in his arms…in the morning...it's nice… I hug him tighter. Part of me wishes he didn't have to go… But I can't tell him that. If I did he would show up late making Jaehee stressed out… She's my friend after all… I can't be selfish...
"When do you have to go to work?"
"Assistant Kang will be in by six. I was planning to go in around then."
Six? I guess that's better than five…but it's still so early. Jumin plays with my hair as I nuzzle into his naked chest. Maybe I will be able to see him off this morning….
"It's early…but because you are awake shall I make you breakfast?" He asks.
I nod. "I'd love that." He hugs me tighter. "I can pick out your tie too…."
He places a kiss on my head. "I'd appreciate it."
The two of us get ready together. Showering together, getting dressed, I help him pick out a tie. It's cute how he thinks it's such a pain. All his ties are more are less the same… just with slightly different patterns, some in different colors...but nothing too crazy. I'd never tell him that though. He's very particular about his appearance. More so than me.
Jumin starts making breakfast as I start making some coffee. Elizabeth the Third lies on the floor of the kitchen staring at us. She's so cute… sometimes she looks like she's judging me. But even that's cute…
Jumin makes breakfast quickly. I sit by the counter sipping the coffee. It feels so warm...sipping the hot liquid...wrapped in a sweater. It's the first time I've made coffee here before. To be honest I didn't even know he had a coffee maker. He's always drinking tea in the morning. I was surprised when he requested it. I guess when he wakes up so early he needs something stronger. He has one of those pour over coffee makers. Similar to the one we got Jaehee in Europe.
He's so cute when he's cooking. I wonder if he knows how adorable he is? Do men like being called adorable? I dunno. But he's so cute. I look outside...It's still dark. I wonder when the sun will rise? After Jumin has left probably….
I hear a soft clink. Looking down I see a plate of pancakes with strawberries on the top. Jumin stands by me. "All done princess."
A smile explodes on my face. "Thanks dear." He takes my hand and kisses near my ring. He takes a seat by me at the counter and sips his coffee. He moves his chair closer to me. I lean my head on his shoulder as I place some of the pancakes in my mouth. They taste delicious...like always.
Jumin glances at his watch. He lets out a sigh.
"Do you have to leave soon?" I ask.
He nods. "It's getting close to that time." his voice is reluctant. I look at his watch. It's past five...he should really get going. Traffic won't be bad at this time of day…. But if he doesn't leave in the next fifteen minutes he will definitely be late. "Perhaps I should contact Assistant Kang and let her know I will be a bit late… I'd like to spend more time with you before I go."
"Jumin...as much as I'd love that… we can't act like we are on vacation forever." As much as I'd like him to stay longer, I can't encourage him being late all the time. "The longer you stay the less time we will have together tonight." I remind him. "Also, Jaehee will be stressed if you come in later than you said. You should be nice to her. She works really hard."
He lets out a pouty frown. I've never seen him make that expression before... It's so cute I kiss his cheek without thinking about it. "You think about Assitant Kang's well-being too much."
"You should too, she's our friend." He places his arm around me and kisses the top of my head. "Besides, I should get ready to go out today. I want to check out those cat shelters…. Also...if you hear anything from V let me know. I want to know about the next party."
"Alright my love. Remember to contact the head of security if you go out."
That's right….all those reporters…. For a moment I forgot all about them. "Thanks I will." I look at the time again. He really should go… Jaehee will surly text me if he is late. "Do you want me to get your bag while you finish eating?"
He raises his eyebrows. "Ah- yes dear…. Thank you." I stand up and place a kiss on his head. "Would you be a dear and grab my phone? It is on the bedside table." I nod. Walking off to the bedroom I grab his bed. I slip his phone in and zip it up. By the time I am back in the kitchen his breakfast is all gone.
I walk over to him, giving him a big hug. I place a kiss on his cheek. "I will miss you dear." He wraps his arms around me and places a kiss on the top of my head.
"I will be thinking of you all day." His fingers loop around a loose strand in my hair. "If you need any money for when you go out you know where it is…"
I nod. "I do. Thanks dear."
"Don't skip meals…."
"I won't." I giggle. He's being so silly. He's just trying to delay time so he doesn't have to go.
"If you have any problems contact me. I will pick up immediately."
"Jumin…..stop wasting time. Go to work!" I playfully push him away.
He leans back in and steals one last kiss. "Alright my princess. I will be home at the same time as yesterday…actually…." He pauses and flashes me a cheerful smile. "I have considerably less meetings today. Would you like to meet me for lunch?"
Lunch? "Sure. I'd love that."
"Alright. I will inform Driver Kim and he will get you there on time." He kisses my cheek. His lips lingers there.
"Jumin…." Really how can he be this cute…? "Go to work."
He nods. "Alright…see you soon princess." He opens the door. He looks back and gives me a tender smile. My heart is doing back-flips… He's so sweet and cute… I blow him a kiss as I shut the door.
Leaning against the door a girlish sigh escapes my lips. I reach up and touch my cheeks...they feel sore for smiling so wide. My chest feels full. I'm so happy to be his…. Even if we fight…even if bad things happen…as long as we both have tenderness in our heart for one another, things will be just fine.