Sorry I'm so late with the update, I work full time, I'm a full time student and I have a 7 month old baby, I've been a bit busy.
"Um Sean,"
"Yeah Tonei?"
"Um--, um," how was I going to tell him that he didn't use a condom and I wasn't on the pill?
"What?" Sean looked at me, "What's wrong?"
"Nothing, I just wondered, you never talk about a family or anything, what's your story, you got kids?"
"Nope," he lay back with his hands behind his head.
"Want any?"
"Nope," he said with a grin, "I mean kids are great and everything, as long as they belong to someone else,"
My heart sank; what if I was pregnant? What if we just created life in my womb? Just what if?
"Yeah," I said with a wry smile, "I understand,"
"You okay?" he looked at me strangely.
"Yeah I'm fine," I fought back tears, "I'm just fine."
I got up and jumped in the shower, it was there that I let the tears fall. How could I be so stupid? How and why? What was I going to do?
I felt so sick, I threw up in the toilet, I feel clammy and my head is killing me. What's going on with me? I sat down in the tub as my head was spinning, my God help me!!
I picked up my phone and called Shane, he picked up on the first ring.
"Tonei?"
"Shane?"
"Tonei have you been crying honey?"
"Shane," I broke down crying, "Please, please help, I don't know what else to do." I must've sounded absolutely hysterical.
"Tonei, don't move," he told me, "I'm on the way, just stay where you are."
-
I laid there with Jeff snoring in my ear when there was an urgent knocking at my door.
What now?!
I jumped up to find Shane at my door, "Case we have a problem,"
"What's wrong?"
"It's Tonei, we had better hurry, she doesn't sound good and she looks like hell."
"How do you know?" I asked throwing on some sweats and a T-shirt.
"I went to her room to check on her, and I spoke to her. The girl looks like somebody took a stick from hell and beat her with it."
"Where the hell is Sean?" I asked, "That's who I left her with,"
Shane just shrugged, "I don't know, I just know that we better get to this girl before she loses her mind."
"Okay, okay, let's go," I said practically yanking Shane by the arm, be damned if I was going to leave Tonei in a state of turmoil by herself.
Shane and I went hurling through the door finding Tonei in the shower crying. Shane was right, the girl looked like she had been through the war, "Tonei, what's wrong?"
"It's all wrong, all of it."
I was on my guard, "All of what Tonei?"
"I slept with Sean," she said the tears rolling down her cheeks. I tensed. I knew it. I didn't want to leave her in the first place. I knew he didn't have the best of intentions when it came to Tonei and she was vulnerable, now he had gone and fucked her head up worst that it was before. "I don't why, I just did and I didn't want to." I watched as Tonei began to clutch at her head.
"What's wrong Tonei?"
"My head hurts, so does my stomach," she dry heaved, "I don't know what's wrong."
Shane and I exchanged looks, somehow in my gut I just felt this wasn't right, "Tonei look at me," Shane said.
"Turn that light out please," she said clutching her head, "it's so hot in here," she shifted in the shower which was still running.
"Shane go get her something to drink please and while you're at it get the crew in here, now," Shane ran about his task, "Look at me Tonei," When she refused I grabbed her face firmly in my hands forcing her to look me in the eye, "Tonei look at me, what have you taken?"
"Nothing," she said the tears flowing like waterfalls, "I just had a Sprite, and I didn't drink all of it,"
I thought about it, "Really? Tonei where's your soda?"
"On the bedside table," she cried harder, "Casey my head really hurts,"
"I know it does honey," I said, my blood boiling. The son of a bitch, I think he may have drugged her.
-
My head was pounding. I know I must've looked crazy as hell sitting in this shower but I was so hot it was all I could do not to go up in flames.
"Casey, let me get out of this shower," I tried to stand up.
"No Tonei sit there," she pushed me down into the water, "I'm going get your swimsuit."
"Okay,"
Casey assumed control of the situation and I was glad, I was glad because I couldn't assume my name is what it is at this moment, I just wanted to sleep, I closed my eyes.
"Tonei, I need you to keep your eyes open for me."
"But Casey I'm so tired."
"I know you are Tonei, please,"
"Casey," I whined, "I hurt in so many places."
"I know you do Tonei, we're going to get you all fixed up, okay, trust me."
"Okay Case, you know I trust you."
Just then, Jeff, Shannon, Matt, Amy came hurling through the door with Shane.
"What's going on in here Case?" Jeff asked.
"Look at Tonei," Casey said, "Look at Tonei,"
"Oh my god," Matt yelled, "What the hell has she been taking? Elephant tranquilizers?"
"I don't know," Casey said, "but you do agree that she's been" she looked at me funny, "well she's under the influence?"
"Under the influence of what?" I asked, all I was under the influence of was sprite.
"You tell us Tonei?" Jeff asked.
"Tell you what?" I asked. I didn't have time for this shit, my everything hurt, even my damn eyebrows burned.
"Tell us what you might be under the influence of?" Jeff said to me again.
"Sprite," because that's all I can remember having.
Jeff snorted, "Sprite, right. Look Tonei if you're not going to at least be honest with us we can't help,"
"Stop it Jeffrey," Casey hissed.
"Stop what?" Jeff questioned, "the girl is doped up to her eyeballs and you are going to sit here and tell meto 'Stop Jeff', Casey, you can sit here and pussy foot with this girl but until she's ready to come clean and tell us she's back on those sleep things then I can't help her."
Jeff's words stung, I haven't taken a drug of any sort in months and the fact that he could think that that was the case now hurt me to my core, more tears formed in my eyes as I looked up at him.
"Look Jeff, we need people in this room that want to help get to the bottom of this, if you're not one of those people you know where the door is," Casey told him turning her back on him.
"I'm trying to get to the bottom of this Casey, that's why I'm going to ask her one more time," he looked at me, "Tonei, what have you taken?"
"I HAVEN'T TAKEN ANY THING DAMN IT," I yelled at him, "To hell with this," I tried to get up out of the tub but fell backwards, "I don't know what's going on here Jeff,"
"Okay, well other than a Sprite what else have you had?" Matt asked me.
"Nothing Matt, I swear it,"
Matt looked at Casey helplessly, "I don't know,"
"Shane, get that soda, bring it with us," Casey lifted me out of the tub, "Tonei, we're going to the hospital,"
-
I'm going to kill him, I'm going to kill him, I'm going to kill him!!
The only thing keeping me from ripping his throat out is that I'm not in his presence. I'm trying to keep my mind focused on Tonei and her ordeal.
"Shane, is she conscious?"
"Barely,"
"Jesus, what the hell do you think this could be?"
"I'm not sure Case, let's see what the hospital has to say."
Once at the hospital we paced around the waiting room for about an hour, no one said anything. There was nothing really that could be said, no one could offer an explanation for anything. And to top it all off, I hate hospitals, I really do. Jeff knew this and tried to comfort me but I had the nagging feeling to want to sock him in the mouth.
"Get away from me Jeffrey."
"Casey,"
"Just give me a little space Jeff, just a little."
Jeff gave up and walked over to sit with his brother.
"I don't know how much good that soda is going to be if we don't know what's wrong with her."
"I know Shane," I told him, "I know,"
Just then a doctor came out to greet us, "Casey Stevens?"
"That's me," I said jumping up, "Is Tonei okay?"
"Case, this is complicated. We've had our labs test that soda brought in by Mr. Helms, it had a strong mixture of Ecstasy and Gamma-Hydroxybutyric acid."
"Gamma say what?" I asked.
"Gamma-Hydroxybutyric acid, GHB also known as Liquid Ecstasy," The doctor looked at us grimly, "commonly used as a date rape drug,"
My hand shot to my mouth, tears stung my eyes. I saw the world but I didn't. My legs felt like rubber, no way Sean did this. No way.
"Is Tonei okay?" I asked again.
"Well we're going to do the very best we can for her but her toxic levels are extremely high."
"Oh my god,"
"I had better get back to Tonei,"
I don't remember seeing the doctor walk away, but I remember that nurse shooting me with that damn needle.