Twenty-one

It's been almost three days now, but I still don't talk to them. It's total not fair even Sian knew. He even said so, but he's the only one who did. So I don't talk to him, but he can read my thoughts. Everybody else, I am just thinking confusing stuff. I am not talking to them again ever. Swear!

So we returned after the zoo and I went to see Yani. He would be so interested in the stuff about the vinax. But when I came to the Ward the healers said he had gone. I thought that was great because he'd be back then. So I went to look for him, but he was nowhere. I looked everywhere. Swear! I couldn't find him. He was not there when it was bedtime either. I worried.

So I got up again and went to Master Tharen. "Where's Yani?" I want to know. "The healers said he's gone back already."

Tharen looks at me. He is not happy, it's the first time I can feel something from him in the Force. I am getting ever stronger. I had to tell Yani!
But Master Tharen doesn't want to talk about it. "Yoda will tell you tomorrow," he says. "It's better like this."

What is better? I want to ask, but he just send me to bed. As if I could sleep like that. I didn't sleep, not much any way. Swear. And first thing next morning I go to Yoda. Before breakfast and all. Did you ever try to find Yoda? I mean when you're not expected to. Doesn't work. I swear that's because he's so small. He can hide anywhere.

Tharen finds me and makes me eat breakfast. Then I have to go to the lessons, but I don't even pay attention. I can still feel Yani. He's not scared any more, but still very far away and I know he is sad. What have they done to him?

Finally, I get to talk to Yoda. He's all serious. "Find happiness here, your friend could not," he says. "So left, he has."

Left? Yani? Yoda must be out of his mind. Yani'd never do that. He wouldn't leave me alone and certainly not without telling me. "He wouldn't," I say. "Yani would never just go."

"Make it easier for you, he wanted," Yoda says. "To Agri Corps, he went."

As if I'd ever believe that. Yani was too good for that. He's better at most things than me. And I say that. No chance in the galaxy he'd rot in Agri Corps. "He wouldn't just go," I say again. "He would tell me."

"Make the decision lightly, he did not."

I didn't listen to the explanations. Yani is my best friend, he wouldn't just go. He just wouldn't go. We're together and that's forever. He would have told, me. He would have left a message at least. He wouldn't have gone. No. No way. Total!

"I want to talk to him," I say. If I can talk to Yani, he will explain everything. He'll tell me how this is just a mistake. Maybe he's playing a big prank on me. But it's a bad prank, I don't think he'd do something like this.

"Attachment, to the Dark Side it leads. When overcome it you have, talk to your friend again, you will."

I didn't know what to say. You can't say anything if they get you with the Code. But it was stompin unfair. So I don't say anything. I just wait until I can go. There has to be a way I can talk to Yani.

"Not made to be a Jedi, Yani was," Yoda says in the end. "His uncontrollable fits, a danger they were, and a danger him made."

Pfft. No way. Yani would never hurt anybody. And he didn't even move, he froze. He can learn to control it. I know it. "I want to talk to him. Only him."

So I am still not talking to them. It's not easy.
I wonder how long it will take until I can call Yani.