Sweet dreams are made of these

Who am I to disagree?

Travel the world and the seven seas

Everybody's looking for something

I think I was dreaming, when I saw Godric's face.

He asked me about turning me in to a vampire before the hell began and I was taken by the vampire queen.

I missed him more than normal. Normal was over rated, Godric was not. I can't believe that maybe the last time I saw him, we were fighting over the fact that he will die when I die.

I missed him. I missed my family. Did gran and Jason even know that I was not at Godric's? That I might never come home? I kind of even missed Eric and Pam, even though they might even be glad that I was gone.

I'm not even sure how long I have been here. Was Godric looking for me or had he moved on? Or had he killed himself? He never told me, if I died when he dies.

I remember this dream, I was dreaming. Every night I dreamed of some memory with Godric, my love. How cliché is that? I think I'm becoming mad…

Some of them want to use you
Some of them want to get used by you
Some of them want to abuse you
Some of them want to be abused

I remember clearly when the queen and her guards took me. I was screaming on the top of my lungs for Godric to help me, but he didn't. I think he would have if he could.

In the first night, I didn't have to do anything. They just threw me in to a room and I think two guardians stood in front of my door so I couldn't escape. That night, I cried myself to sleep and I don't know how many night after that. Every night I missed Godric more and more…If that was even possible.

The queen sent someone for me few days later. You know who came? Some guy...But that's not important. The important part is who was with him. No guesses? My cousin. She was looking like I had committed a crime. Like I wanted to be here!

They made me read some peoples thoughts. That day they killed a boy about my age in front of me. After that, I tried not to read but they abused me so badly that sometimes I couldn't take it so I read them.

Only times, I could escape was when I was sleeping.

"Rose?" he asked me. I see I was dreaming the night we met, once again.

"No, sorry," I said apologetically "My name is Sookie," I told him. He was so cute when he just looked into my eyes and asked me: "Are you sure?" By then I was thinking that of course the first cute boy that talked to me and wasn't my brother was crazy.

"I think I know my own name, don't you think...umm?" I asked him. You know. The crazy cute boy, because I was so smart that I kept talking to him. But now I'm glad that I did.

When he took a hold of my hand, It took all of me not to start smiling like crazy person. Do you know how it feels like when; you meet the first person whose mind you cannot read?

"The name is Godric," he told me and kissed my hand looking at me with his amazing eyes.

Some of them want to use you
Some of them want to get used by you
Some of them want to abuse you
Some of them want to be abused

That was when they woke me up again.

"No! Godric!" I yelled.

"Do you really think that he's coming? For you really?" my stupid cousin Hadley asked me.

"Leave me alone Hadley!"

"No. My queen wants to see you," she told me.

"Why do you hate me so much?" I asked her and she just laughed at me.

"I don't hate you, cousin dearest."

"Then why did you do this to me?"

"Sookie…" she said slowly.

"Yes, Hadley?"

"Do you really think that I wanted you here? That Godric wanted you?" she spat at me.

"Even gran and Jason will be glad that you're gone. Be glad that I won't say that to your face. I'm so nice," she thought. Nice. Nice! How can I be related to this girl?

"If he didn't care about me, why did he bond with me?" I asked her.

"Come on! You can't be that blind…Or are you?" she asked.

"What?"

"I think you were virgin when you met, am I right?" she asked. "I am. Aren't I?" she laughed.

"And now you're not? Calculate one plus one. What do you get? I knew that you we stu…"

"Stop it!"

"…pid..But this…"

I wanna use you and abuse you
I wanna know what's inside you
Movin' on, movin' on, movin' on
Movin' on, movin' on, movin' on, movin' on

I stood up from my bed and attacked her.

"You don't know anything!"

"I guess he had someone else he was fucking too!"

I scratched her face.

"You bitch!"

"Me? ME?! Who was the one that let the queen kidnap one of her few relatives?!" I screamed at her.

"Well you always wanted attention," she told me.

"WHAT?"

"Yes. But you know what I think?"

"Well what's that, dear cousin?"

"That Godric never really cared about you. You just believed everything he said, because you were looking or attention. I mean he was first vampire you met, right? And you can't read vampires so… You gave him you virginity and now he isn't coming for you. My guess is that he found other girl or maybe is with his child or grandchild. I mean Eric Northman is his child, right? They are both fine."

"Stop it!" I said, but other part of me…You know the insecure part of me start thinking maybe she was right?

"Maybe he might even prefer me over you?" she smiled cruelly. That was it. I couldn't take it anymore so I slap her.

Sweet dreams are made of these
Who am I to disagree?
Travel the world and the seven seas
Everybody's looking for something

"Queen Sophie-Ann!" Hadley screamed and the queen suddenly was in front of us. She looked from Hadley to me and then at Hadley again.

"What happened? Hadley, love? What happened to your face?" Then I saw that Hadley was fake crying.

"I-I.." Hadley started.

"Had…"

"I just came here to wake her up and…suddenly she attacked me without reason! And started calling me a bitch and-and that I was just looking for attention. She also called me stupid! Can you believe that?"

Yeah right…Because that's how it went…

"Why did you call my Hadley stupid and all of those things?" she asked me angrily.

"She-she…said that because I am 'stupid' for thinking that you care for me," she started sobbing.

Some of them want to use you
Some of them want to get used by you
Some of them want to abuse you
Some of them want to be abused

"You stupid…" Sophie-Ann started, but then slapped me so hard that I flew across the room.

"This is what we get, when we took the homeless and were so nice to her. Gave her everything!" Sophie-Ann yelled.

"Gave everything? Homeless?!" I screamed barely, because of the impact I got when I flew across the room.

"Yes!" Hadley yelled.

"I was happy! I had everything when you kidnaped me! You took me! And then you made me do the thing I hate the most, to read peoples thoughts. And then! You abused me when I said no,"

"I guess now…We have to kill you. I have nothing to do with you anymore. You won't read minds unless I… anyway it's too much work and my Hadley got hurt and she didn't do anything to provoke you!"

Then she squeezed my neck, so I couldn't breath until the door opened and she let me fall in to the ground. I didn't see properly, it was kind of blurry. But I saw that someone was fighting with the queen. I didn't see if it was a man or women.

Hadley just screamed at the background, but I didn't know what. Then it stopped.

"Godric?" I asked my eyes closed.

"No. It's just me," the voice said. My brain wasn't work properly and all I could understand was that Godric didn't come. Someone else did.

"He didn't come. Hadley was right. He didn't care," I said sadly.

"Sookie!" Was the last thing I heard before losing consciousness…

I'm gonna use you and abuse you
I'm gonna know what's inside
Gonna use you and abuse you
I'm gonna know what's inside you

N/A: Ok..Is someone still following this? Sorry it took FOREVER. Who do you think saved Sookie and where is Godric?! What do you think happens next? REVIEW IF YOURE STILL READING THIS! Did anyone even miss this? I mean no one was like… When are you going to update…so don't blame me that it took so long… Also what do you think about Sookie's POV?

The song is called Sweet Dreams by Marilyn Manson (Im not big fan of him but I like this song)