A/N: To Rude People: don't tell me youre gonna stop reading my story because i updated late, you and I know both know youre going to read the new chapter as soon as I update.
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She has a nice voice, I'm sure I mentioned that a few times before but right now its just droning on and on. It's probably because I don't understand what the fuck she's talking about. But that'll change when lunch time comes around, I'll go in and catch up like I should have done yesterday. It'll be my first step in the right direction, I think. From then on we can move nothing but forward.
"So as you can see this concept just has two more steps added on to what you previously learned in the beginning of the week." I hear a couple of "ahhs" and look around to see people nodding, and copying what Vega writes down. I don't bother, I just sit there with my head propped up on my left hand as I tap my pencil against my fingers a few times. I mean why should I copy something that doesn't make sense? I'll get it all down during lunch when I actually understand this useless garbage.
I let out a sigh as she continues her explanation and begins to go over some example problems. We should all be copying it down but I'll just look like I am.
My pencil effortlessly glides across the paper as I make a few swirls here and there at the border of the page. I'm not much for drawing. Sure, if I was good at it then I would definitely draw all the time but my talent lies in writing. Random squiggles and shapes begin to adore my page, its funny really, how the next thing I wrote didnt really cross my mind but there it lays, lazily drawled across my paper.
Mrs. Jade Vega
It doesn't sound quite right, maybe Tori West? That's a bit better I guess, I'm not really sure.
Tori West, Mrs. Tori West.
No I don't like it. She will always be Vega to me, my Vega...
A few more patterns and what not glide across the paper, my minds not really into it but an idea dings in my mind anyway. Smashing the last names...
Vega-West. Hmm that one is a maybe.
West-Vega. Again, another definite maybe.
Lets see how it sounds all together.
Jade Vega-West+Tori Vega-West. I guess thats not too bad, now the other...
Jade West-Vega+Tori West-Vega ...my fucking god why is this so hard? I can't even decide which one sounds better. How I going to make other more important decisions in my life when I can't even handle making a choice between my crush's and my name combined together? I let out a soft groan and move to the bottom half of the paper, completely ignoring the top.
I'm just going to go back to the basics. Those are at least real and not made up in my some weird fantasy. I mean why was I even writing that down, its not like we're really going to get married...at least thats not what I want...I think? Does it really matter were not even together yet...I shake my head, trying to rid of the weird thoughts and move my focus back to my paper...
I freeze at what I see, this is even worse than before. I just meant to write Jade West+Tori Vega and well I did that but what didn't want to be drawn was the various of hearts scattered around my paper. Was I really that out of it that I didn't realize I was drawing this.
Jade West+Tori Vega sprawled out neatly with a big heart around it. I blush hard and look around quickly as I hunch over my notebook, I really, really, fuck it, I fucking pray to god that nobody saw this. I do a quick scan and notice everybody is doing their own work now. Thank god. I look back towards the front and see that Vega is sitting at her own desk as well.
Ok ok, good. This is good. I let out a deep breath I didnt know I was holding right when the bell rings. I immediately slam my notebook at the sound and am met a measly glare. Oh this nerd is not serious right now and by nerd I'm talking about the fucking kid that got 30/30 on his quiz who sits to my right. I glare right back at him, and its not even one of my fierce glares or anything but it gets the job done. I watch as he drops his head and begins shuffling his papers together. Yeah, that's what I thought.
I shove my notebook into my bag and get up, meeting Vega's gaze in the process as she looks back in forth between me and nerd boy. I give her a shrug and shoulder my bag. I'm about to walk out of her class when I hear her announcement.
"Don't forget, quiz Friday remember to study."
Ugh fuck me, I hate Friday quizzes. The collective groans surround me as everybody trudges out the classroom.
HHHHH
"Off to go redeem yourself?"
I roll my eyes and turn my head to see Beck leaning back against the locker next to mine.
"If you must know, then yes. After that little intervention at our lunch table yesterday, you kind of opened my eyes a bit...so I guess thanks or whatever." I mutter out as I slam my locker shut. Just as I'm about to make a turn towards Vega's class, I feel a heavy hand on my shoulder.
"No problem, I'm always there to give advice and help you out but I..." I look up at him curiously, watching as he struggles for the right words he wants to say. He always does that, never wanting to upset someone, especially me if he says the wrong thing by accident. "I just don't want you to get your hopes up too much on this ok? I don't want you to get hurt." He adds on, looking back up to meet my eyes.
I give him a nod, "Understood." I reply, this time moving my gaze from him. She already did hurt me. I didnt want to tell anybody that though, the great Jade West getting her feelings hurt, yeah, no that doesn't need to spread. But if she could do that and we weren't even together yet, imagine what she could do if we were together. I look back at Beck and give him small smile. Beck's been through it. He doesn't even have imagine the pain, I remember how broken up he had been last year when his boyfriend of nearly a year broke up with him because he was heading off to college.
I sigh and take his hand off my shoulder, giving him a nod. "I get it, really. But I just feel something with her and I want to go after it. To pursue this new feeling you know?"
I watch as a weak smile forms on his lips and he nods. "Got it, just don't get attach too fast, and don't dive into those feelings."
I smile, actually taking his advice. He went through all that relationship stuff and outed with the shit deal of being broken up with it. He went through the heartbreak and he's speaking from experience, I can respect that.
The halls were practically deserted, minus me and Beck. We parted ways, him heading down to the apshalt cafe and me ending up in front of Vega's door.
I stop in front of it when I hear voices coming through the other side. It doesn't sound like Trina this time...its actually various of voices instead of just two. I quietly inch the door open and peak in.
Teachers...oh wait, no its the student teachers. I remember a couple of those faces from Sikowit's class when they came in.
"I swear you're all luckier than me. I have to deal with freshmen! Freshmen! Do you know how obnoxious they are!? They're practically unteachable."
I look over and see a girl with dirty blonde hair talking. She's short, a lot shorter than me and has a look of annoyance on her face. The sweet sound of familiar laughter moves my attention to the owner of my affections. There I see Tori fucking Vega, she's smiling and leaning back on the whiteboard with...who the hell?
I clench my jaw as I see some guy all over her. He needs to back the fuck up, he does not need to be leaning back on the whiteboard so close to her. On top of that she's smiling at him, she's giving him genial smile. And he has a huge smile across his dumb face too...Douche.
"Steven, stop." I watch as she laughs again and playfully pushes at him. The action sends wave of nausea over me, and the scene of him just laughing it off and scooting closer to her is sickening.
I can't take this anymore.
I rap my knuckles twice against the door and everybody's attention snaps over to me. I look around, cool and collected as my eyes land on her.
"Miss Vega, I'm here to copy the lesson notes."
I watch as she stands up straighter and looks back at me surprised. She probably thought I wouldn't have came to make up my detention. Yeah right, you got yourself a new woman on your hands Vega. I smirk a bit at my own thoughts and at the sight of Vega pushing past Steven and coming towards me.
"Unless this is bad time or something. I can back some other time if you want-"
"No! Uh I mean no. Right now is good, I'm glad you came actually." She gives me a small smile and I return it.
"Do you see this!" I look at dirty blonde haired girl and see her pointing at me. "I want that!" I furrow my eyebrows in confusion and then see Vega snap her neck over to her, eyes narrowed. Ohh is this some jealously again? "I want older students like that, that actually want to learn, not some bratty underclassmen."
She receives a few laughs from her colleagues as I stand their patiently, looking between Vega rummaging through her desk and Mr. Douche looking at her ass when she bends over. I hate this guy so much right now.
"Well that's too bad for you, because Jade is mine." She says distractedly probably not realizing it come off a bit possessive, especially for a teacher over their student but I don't mind. I actually think possessiveness is really hot. "Aha! Found them." She cheers holding up the note sheets.
Blondie scoffs and tosses a grape into her mouth, "Wow, way to be organized."
Vega rolls her eyes and walks over to me, "Shut up, I'm still learning this teacher thing."
"Yeah you and me both sister." She replies back as she hops off her seat. "I'm guessing you want some alone time with your student here."
Vega shoots her an appreciative smile, "Yes please, so shoo. You too Steven." I roll my eyes when I hear Steven groan. Man shut the fuck up and just get out already.
"But Whhyyyy?" Ugh he is a grown man, he shouldn't be whining like a little bitch. I look up and see Vega roll her eyes too. "Why do I have to go if she's just copying some notes? I can keep you company while she does it."
Vega sets the papers on my desk and turns to face him. "Because I have to teach her some stuff as well. So if you please..." She motions towards the door and I watch, satisfied, as he sighs and leaves the classroom. "There now that we have some peace and quiet, these are the notes you missed."
I look them over, checking the date "Can you just bring me everything from Monday on. Well actually just everything thats going to be on the quiz tomorrow." I look up at her to see thats she's giving me a questioning look. "I want to do well on the quiz...and I haven't really been paying attention in class at all this week." Honesty. Yes that's a good thing, right? That'll hopefully make her see I'm serious about my grade.
She gets up and goes back to her desk as I open my math notebook to the last page I was taking notes on. My eyes widen when I see the hearts and our names and I quickly scramble to flip the page. I really hope she didn't see that...
"What was that?" ...Fuck. I look up and see her standing over me, papers in hand, and gaze locked on my notebook.
"Uh nothing...?" She raises an eyebrow,
and sets the papers on my desk before sitting down next to me, bringing her desk closer to me.
"You don't sound too sure there." She states looking at me expectingly, I huff lightly and bring my notebook closer to me.
"It's nothing important ok?" I watch as she eyes me a little longer but decides to let if go, thankfully. I grab the notes and begin copying them down. It takes a few minutes and I'm almost done with Monday's until she speaks up again.
"So how come you weren't paying attention in class and copying the notes then?"
I stop writing at her question, but keep my gaze down. What am I supposed to say to that? I groan internally but still decide to go with the truth. "I was distracted." I state simply, resuming my writing.
"Distracted? What's distracting you in class?"
I scoff at her. "That's a dumb question."
I can practically feel her frown from how hard she'a probably frowning. I bet her eyebrows are dug over her nose and she has a slight pout on her face, probably because she doesn't know what I'm talking about. I sigh and set my pencil down, then turn to look up at her. "Vega what do you think is distracting me?" I say looking at her pointedly. My eyes running over her so she gets the message.
"My body is distracting you?" She says a bit annoyed, thinking its a lame excuse I'm sure.
I shake my head in response, "It's not just your body. Its everything that happened, everything I wanted to happen, and..." I let out a deep breath and look at her with mix of emotions on my face. I notice she looks kinda guilty and I don't want her to feel like that. The last thing I would want is for her to feel bad. "But I get it. I understand this isn't the place to talk about it so lets just focus on getting me caught up. We only have 40 more minutes till lunch is over." I murmur moving my gaze back to the notes. I finish up Monday and begin to start up on Tuesday. I don't hear her talk for a few minutes and I fear that I did something wrong. I thought I was doing good, did I say something that upset her? I'm about to turn to look at her again but her hand goes to my shoulder.
"You know... I shouldn't be giving you private lessons when you were present in class. And I really shouldn't be giving you private lessons when you blatantly told me you haven't been paying attention thought out this whole you week. Oh and on top of that you were late 3 days in a row to my class." I feel her hand give me a light squeeze on my shoulder, making me look up at her. "But I'm going to." She smiles and I melt. She basically just told me I'm an exception.
"And why would you do that?" I tease, giving her a crooked smile. She blushes lightly and I decide to edge her on. "Maybe because I'm your favorite student?" I suggest turning my smile to a smirk.
Vega rolls her eyes playfully and hits my shoulder before moving her hand away. "Whatever Jade, think what you want."
"Oh I will." I reassure with a suggestive tone, grinning when her blush deepens. I chuckle softly and decide to let her go, as I move my attention back to the papers.
I feel her hover over and she begins to teach me just like she would if she was teaching a class. She points out the list of new formulas we learned and I successfully repress my groans. I hate formulas.
"So when its without the years, its compounded continuously, which means you will use the formula with e in it. And with this one P=An with exponents of rate times years. This formula will give you the amount of years so you know which formulas to use ok?" She looks down at my notes as I quickly scrawl out what she said. "You think you got all of that?" I give her nod. Not going to lie its actually hard to focus with her so close to me like this but I managed. If she's taking her time to teach me then the least I could do is actually try to learn.
"Yeah, I think so. The e formula is without years, while the other is with exponents and years. Both formulas relate to money usually." I glance at her and see her brown eyes shine and lips curl up to a small smile.
"Lets move on." We move on to Wednesday's notes and go through the same process: new formulas, mini lecture, and then practice problems. We finally arrive to this morning's notes and I understand the extra part she was talking about earlier today. I feel fairly confident as we begin to finish up, and look over at her.
"So everything I learned is going to be on the quiz?"
She stands up slowly and gives me a shrug, "Welllll I can't directly tell you what's going to be on the quiz but everything we went over, I'm sure you'll do A great job." She gives me an over exaggerated wink and I laugh.
"Are you telling me, I'll get an A?"
She shrugs again and collects her notes, "I'm not telling anything." I shake my head and stand up also, she's such a dork. I check the time and see that its almost time for 5th period. I begin to pack my things but a loud rumbling makes me stop. My eyes go over to her stomach before raising up to meet her eyes. She's blushing hard and avoids my gaze.
"I made you miss lunch." I state, actually feeling bad that I did that.
"No, Jade. No don't think that, I wanted to stay and help you..." I don't bother listening to the rest and instead I begin to rummage through my bag. I actually packed a lunch today because I knew I was coming here today. What I didn't know was that I was going to offer it to her.
I pull out a peanut butter sandwich and shove it in her hands. "Here. I doubt their still serving lunch and I know you're hungry so eat it." I say giving her no room for objection. I then stuff my sack lunch back in my bag as the bell rings and shoulder my bag. I turn around and start to head out. Once I reach the door, I steal a glance back and smirk. There I see a huge grin on Vega's face as she opens the ziplock back and pulls out my sandwich. I turn back around before she can catch me staring and head out happily. Point one for me.