Chapter Sixteen – Must be Love.
Rose's P.O.V
"I came to deliver these papers to Mr. Belikov." I told Mrs. Rinaldi, trying my best to sound polite. It was a slow Monday morning and it seemed to be below zero outside and the sun wasn't shining but I still had a big grin on my face. The 'date' Dimitri and I had is still vivid in my mind. From the funnel cake, the Tinker Bell and let's not forget the car sex. It was the sweetest thing ever, and every time I thought of it I blush like Lissa does whenever I mention her and Christian's sex life.
Mrs. Rinaldi peeks over from her book, Fifty Shades of Grey, and regards me curiously. Her baby blue eyes, much like her daughters have a mixture of innocence and bitchy-ness and she scowls at me. Her gaze only last for a second before she goes back to her erotic reading. "Put it on the desk, I'll make sure he gets it." She said. I'm sure if I was any other student she'll tell me to waltz right in and give it to him, but she knows my…history with the past principal and I'm sure she doesn't want a repeat of last year.
If only she knew I was still going at it.
I breathe in deeply, trying not to flip out on Mrs. Rinaldi. Not only would she banish me away but she'll also give me a detention. I promised Viktoria I'll go to the Clinic with her after school today plus I'm going to get birth control. I'm tired of using rubbers with Dimitri; I want to feel him bare – to feel him empty his load into me and prove that I've pleased him beyond belief.
Condoms aren't so romantic, but in hindsight neither is pregnancy or child birth. So that's why I'm getting back on birth control.
"Actually it's important, so I need to give it to him directly. Teacher's orders." I told her, trying to make it sound legit and not me just being anxious. She puts her book down again and cocks an eyebrow.
"Since when do you care about teacher's orders?" She asked. Dammit, she had me there!
"Miss. Hathaway, come to deliver those documents from Ms. Karp?" I heard a deep accented voice say from across the room. I look over to see Dimitri next to Mrs. Rinaldi's desk. He looked absolutely devastating this morning. His brown hair let loose like I loved it and he wore a white dress shirt with a few buttons undone at the top showing off some of his skin while still remaining professional.
"Yes," I said and hand him over the 'documents' which were mostly blank papers. Our skin brushes for only a moment but it arouses goose bumps all over me. He looks down at them, pretending to inspect them.
"Good, but could you please send something to Ms. Karp?" He asked, I nod and he mentions me into his office. Mrs. Rinaldi looks slightly puzzled and suspicious but doesn't stop me from going into this office, or calls out on it. She has no reason to be suspicious except for my past grievances. Once inside his office, he gently closes the door shut and before I could comprehend it I'm lifted off my feet and placed onto his desk, my legs spread around his waist.
His lips attach themselves to my neck, leaving hard and sweet kisses down my neck and to my chest. My fingers tangle themselves in his hair. "We only have about five minutes." I told him. I had my share of quickies, but nothing that quick. We may even have less than that considering that it should only take a few moments to gather papers. His lips go back to mind and he lays me back on the desk.
"Just relax." He whispers to me and gently kissed me before spreading my legs further. He pushes my skirt up so it's scrunch up around my waist. I heard him unzip his pants, letting them fall to the floor. I bend my legs up so I'm steadied on his desk and he pulls out a drawer and takes a small package out. I instantly recognize it to be a condom.
"You're always prepared, Dimitri?" I asked with a grin. He nods and I heard the package rip, he throws the wrapper on the desk. I felt his fingers on my underwear; he pushes them aside and drags me towards him, slamming me into his awaiting member. I bite down on my lip to stop the moan from leaving my lips. I wouldn't put it past Mrs. Rinaldi to put her ear to the door, so I struggle to keep silent. Dimitri does the same, the only sound in the room is the sound of the desk slightly rocking with each thrust and our heavy breathing.
Dimitri's thrusts are hard and quick. He fills me up completely, a satisfaction I've never had with another man. I could feel every inch of him, swelling inside me. The only thing truly keeping us apart is a thin sheet of rubber. Dimitri places his hand on my clit, feverishly rubbing around the bundle of nerves. My breath catches in my throat and my lips slightly part but I refused to let sound come out.
As seconds past Dimitri's thrust turn from man to animal.
In mere minutes I was trembling with Dimitri's touch. I felt myself tighten around his swelling cock and the coil in my stomached tightened and released. A shaky breath leaves my lips as I let the pleasure consume me. He rides out the orgasm and quickly come after me.
He slipped out of me and takes off the condom. I could see the white liquid at the swimming at the bottom of rubber. He ties it up, bundles it in tissue and tosses it in the small trash can. I glanced over the clock to see that around seven minutes has passed. I quickly sit up from his desk, fixing my hair and straightening my skirt. Dimitri's arms enclose around me, planting a soft kiss on my forehead.
"I don't know what I'd do without you, Roza." He whispered and placed a gentle kiss on my lips. I smiled and wrapped my arms around his neck and deepened the kiss. He pulled back ever so slowly, a small smile on his face. We were still close, our foreheads touching and the moment was so perfect.
"I love you."
The words came out as barely a whisper, for a moment I thought it was said in my head but when Dimitri went stiff I knew the words somehow escaped my lips. Dammit!
"What did you say?" He asked. I backed away and shrugged my movements to stiff to look causal. His brown eyes bore into mine, mixed with confusion and something else that I couldn't identify.
"I didn't say anything." I quickly turned around, grabbing a stack of papers. I clutched them to my chest and gave a shocked Dimitri and hasty wave.
"Bye Mr. Belikov." I said as I quickly walked out of his office, closing the door behind me. My hands still shaky and my body slightly trembling from our office sex I scurried past Mrs. Rinaldi's accusing gaze and out of the office.
I breathe out, the warm air creating a puffy cloud in the air. It was freezing outside, snow covered the rooftops like white blankets, ice coated over the sidewalk creating a slippery slope for anyone who dared to walk it.
I stood outside my car, all bundled up but my ass was still freezing. After school I made a beeline to my house, changed out of the stupid ass uniform and traded it in for some jeans, snow boots and a sweater. I would have stayed in my crappy ass car but it's like an icebox inside there, the heating system is screwed and my cheap mother refuses to fix it.
Plus, the icy cold weather may help me think over my stupidity this morning.
Everything was going great, perfect even, but then I had to say the dreaded three words. The words that can make or break a relationship. I had said them, and for a moment it seemed like the perfect thing to say, the perfect time but then the little thing called reality kicked in.
How can I say those words and Dimitri and I have only been 'together' for a few months? I never said that to anyone before – not even my mom.
"How could I be so stupid?" I whispered to myself.
"I ask myself that question everyday." A snarky voice said from behind me. I turn around to see Christian and Lissa walking up to the clinic, hand in hand.
"Fire crotch." I mutter. "What are you two doing here?" I asked walking up to the young couple. "Christian, are you hear to finally get the treatment for your micro-penis?"
He glares at me and Lissa stifles a laugh. "Christian is rather large, Rose." She defended, with devious smile. "Trust me, my gag reflexes get quite the work out." My face scrunches up in disgust.
"Thanks for the mental image, Lissa." I said trying to banish the thoughts of Lissa chocking on Christian's…disco stick.
She smirks. "That's what you get for bagging on my man." She said and gives him a lingering kiss on the lips. They pull away quickly without me getting too grossed out.
"We're actually here for my monthly pregnancy test." Lissa explains. "We're hoping for our 15th negative."
I laughed; sometimes I question Lissa's sanity especially when it comes to Christian. They were an odd couple that you envied but was secretly freaked out by and questioned. They had many quirks, like monthly pregnancy test simply to 'make sure'.
"Good luck," I said. "God knows another Christian will equal the end of the world. The day your child comes will be an omen."
Christian scoffed but didn't give me a witty retort.
"So," Lissa said trying to spin the conversation around. "What are you doing here?"
"I'm here for a friend." I said. "You know emotional support."
"Sarcastic comments don't count as 'emotional support'." Christian retorts. I give him the finger.
"Really? Who?" Asked Lissa. I stumble at her question, not sure how to go about telling her. I could easily say Viktoria but I did promise to keep it secret. But then again, I tell Lissa everything and that girl knows how to keep a secret. If she didn't the whole school would know that I slept with a teddy bear up to the tenth grade.
"Just someone." I dismissed. Lissa gave me a questioning look but got the point that it was secret, but no doubt she'll pry about this later. We said our goodbyes and they went inside the clinic, just in time to because I saw Viktoria's car pull into the parking lot. Sadly I also caught sight of Dimitri. They park next to my car and just when it stops running Viktoria comes out, followed by Mia.
"Was that Vasilisa Dragomir I just saw going in?" She asked, skipping the 'Hi' and 'Hello'.
"Yeah." I answer. Her eyes go large and frightful.
"Don't worry." I said, trying to sooth her fears. "Lissa won't tell anyone, not that she knows anyways."
"Okay then, what is the Mighty Dragomir doing here?" Asked Mia, with a snotty attitude. She had more distaste for me but she wasn't fond of Lissa that much either.
"None of your business." I shot back. Viktoria senses the tension and redirects the conversation.
"Well let's just go in and get this over with." She said and walked in. My eyes briefly met Dimitri's but I quickly turn away. Once inside I don't see Lissa, she's probably already in the office getting checked.
Dimitri signs Viktoria in once their away I quickly scribble my name down and hand the lady the money for the birth control. I was getting the shot instead of the pills, since I'm not the most responsible person in the world. Viktoria doesn't wait in the waiting room for even a minute before her name is called. Viktoria, Mia and Dimitri go inside; I utter an excuse of why I didn't want to go inside and they leave.
Around ten minutes later a nurse comes out of the door and calls my name. I walk inside and the nurse does the usual routines, and I just give her one worded answers, my mind somewhere else.
"Are you okay, sweetheart?" The nurse asked. Her name was Nancy and she seemed to be in her late thirties with blond hair and a slightly chunky body. I shake my head, not wanting to burden my problems on this woman. But then again, I probably won't ever see her again and she won't be able to judge me.
"I told a guy I loved him." I blurted. She looks at me, her face not showing any emotion.
"I'm guessing the reason you're getting birth control is for this man?" She asked.
"Yeah," I answer. "I meant it but I don't know if he feels the same for me. Our 'relationship' is complicated and I've never felt any ways towards someone like this before. They just use me for my body, it was just sex but with him…it's like making love." I confessed. It felt good to get it off my chest, even with a complete stranger.
"Seems like its new territory." The nurse muses.
"It feels as if it's gonna slip away, no one's ever treated me in such a way." I said. "I'm scared of getting hurt, I'm scared to find out it's all been a ruse, and he's just like all the others." I admitted. Tears form in my eyes, just thinking of it.
"Why the trust issues?" She asked, as she laid me down and got the needle ready.
I swipe a tear that managed to escape and the horrible memories come back to haunt me. "It all started when I was 14…"
A/N – So sorry for the long wait! I'm behind in all my stories but if you read any of the others trust me, I'm working on it! I have this horrible sickness called 'Writer's block' and I'm telling ya, that thing's a real bitch. Because of the Late update and the not so great chapter a V.C will be up in a few minutes so check back in soon!