Clutching onto my hand tightly, she never let go.
"Nanaka.."
"Sana, if the past is too painful to bear, YOU DON'T HAVE TO TELL ME!"
"Nanaka..."
I cuddle with her hair and smiled painfully.
"If only I could..."
Nanaka look into my eyes, with tears brimming in her eyes.
"It's not fair..it's just not fair! Why am I the only one that is protected? I feel so useless when I am around with you guys"
"Nanaka, what's up?"
"I don't know, but I heard that my parents is killed in a fire...I don't know anything..I don't know..WHY AM I THE ONLY ONE THAT DIDN'T KNOW ANYTHING!WHY AM I THE ONLY ONE SPARED?" That what I always..always asked myself"
"The only one?"
"I guess you haven't heard about what happened to Shuu and Shuri, By now, almost no one call them by that name anymore."
"WHY?"
"It a long story.."
"Please tell me."
"A few years ago, someone reported that both Shuu and Shuri went into a love hotel together.."
"WHAT-"
"Their father got really mad and chased them out of his house."
"BUT, IT JUST A RUMOR, WHY WOULD ANYONE BELIEVED THAT SO EASILY?"
"Precisely,unable to bear the pain, the twins decided to seek their new future out of this town."
"Then?"
"Their father sent people to look for a few months ago, they were finally by then, they were no longer called Shuu and Shuri. They changed their name."
"I never know.."
"That why it pained Shuu's heart when you called him Shuusuke instead of the usual "Shuu". We are the only bunch of people who are still calling them by their old name."
I kept quiet and I was reflecting.
I am such a hateful person indeed. What kind of friend am I ,precisely.
I start to hate myself even more and more.I am useless and weak even back here.
AS EXPECTED,SCUMS LIKE ME SHOULD HAVE ALREADY BEED WIPED OFF FROM THE FACE OF THIS LOVELY WORLD.
I am only tainting this lovely place.
I am just a out-of-place jigsaw puzzle.
I don't belong to Tokyo, neither do I belong here.
I have no identity, I don't belong anywhere, ANYWHERE.