"No! You don't understand, I need her!" I screamed, Carlisle put his hand on my shoulder,

"Son, I know it's hard, but Charlie has forbidden you from seeing her." I shook it off and yanked my jacket up my shoulders,

"What about her? Doesn't she get a choice?" I said strongly, Carlisle grimaced and looked at me sympathetically,

"She has agreed to go to her mothers." He said slowly, as if I wouldn't understand. I understood perfectly well. Doesn't mean I wanted to accept it.

"No, she wouldn't have." I whispered, I grabbed my keys and walked around him,

"Edward," he tried again, "Charlie made it quite clear,"

"He was lying." I snapped, walking down the stairs.

"You can't know that." he said calmly, following me,

"What are you saying?" I turned round to face him, how could he be so calm? How could he tell me these things?

"There might be a chance that Bella, wants to get away from this place, away from the memories, away from...

"Me?" I asked angrily,

"No, that's not what I meant. Edward you know how much we all care for her, and we all know how much you love her, but this, this probably going to make things worse for both of you."

I knew he was right, I knew it deep down, but I was running on impulse. There was nothing I could do to stop myself from walking out of the door and climbing into my car.

Bella was leaving Forks.

Carlisle had phoned again, trying to speak to Charlie on my behalf, asking when Bella was leaving, I just wanted to know. Knowing would be better than sitting in my room wondering if she was even in the same state as me. Charlie had been very obvious; she was leaving today. And I had no clue when.

But this wouldn't be it, I couldn't just let Bella get on that plane, it had been ten days. Ten excruciatingly long days. I couldn't think about anything but seeing her again. Everything was just getting to be too much and I had snapped. There was no way I would continue living like this anymore, this stupid separation. I would put my foot down. I would see Bella today. The thought had me euphoric, after all that time without her, it was madness. And now I would pull her away. I didn't care what her father said; I didn't care if Jacob was there. All I cared about was taking my Bella away from them. I had no idea how; I had no idea what they would do. Maybe we could run away, I could get enough money and we would run together. I smiled to myself. A first real smile since she left.

I turned to key and pulled out of the garage. I had a vague idea where chief Swan lived, I hadn't been there before but while driving to Port Angeles, Bella had said it was just down this road. I relived the conversation in my head, turning down the same road, I followed it and made a left into another small road and went to the last house, the lawn stretched right out into the trees, Bella had said it was right next to the forest. I pulled the car into the empty drive and panicked.

Empty driveway.

No.

I jumped out of the car and ran to the door, not bothering to turn the engine off or even shut the car door behind me. I banged on the wood, hard but not desperate. If they were in I didn't want Charlie to think I was a lunatic.

No answer.

"Bella?" I shouted through the door, my breathing accelerated and my heart flew against my chest. I was so close to her, I had to be. She had to be in this house. I couldn't be too late. I knocked the door harder, hurting my knuckle. I twisted my hand and banged it with my fist.

"Bella?" I tried again. Although I knew. I knew she wasn't there. I was too fucking late. I let my head rest against the door and sighed in defeat.

I should've done this before. The second they took her, I should've stopped them. I pulled away from the door and sat on the step outside the house. I let my head fall in my hands and let the few tears escape. I should've done so much more. I should've told her I loved her, I should've kissed her more often, I should've kept her in the house that day, kept her upstairs with me. None of this would have happened if I had told Alice that Bella was staying in, with me.

I shouldn't have let Jacob talk to her; I shouldn't have let her walk away from me like that. I should've climbed through her window and fucking stole her away the night she left. We would be alone somewhere right now. Just me and her.

She wouldn't be in this mess.

I sobbed quietly into my hands and pulled my hair sharply. It hurt. But I didn't care. I had this other pain, this flaring, brutal, slicing pain. Searing through my chest. And it made me sick, because I knew it was my fault.

The sun peeked through the clouds and I took my head from my hands, how could the sun do that? It was outnumbered by so many dreary clouds, so many things wanting to block its view. So much darkness, and yet it still fights. It fights to be seen, to show others that it is there, that it hasn't forgotten about them. That even thought the stupid clouds win most of the time, that it was obstructed, it would still shine, it would still bathe this stupid town with its rays.

I groaned and got up. This house was neither helping nor satisfying. It was empty, it would always be empty. Without Bella.

The sun was blocked by a dark cloud and the house was cast in shadow, a strange calm spread over it, the only real sound in the whole place was the leaves rustling gently at the side of the lawn and my engine still humming quietly. The shadow belonged there. As long as Bella wasn't there a shadow belonged everywhere.

Just like it was with me.

I know its a shorten...sorry lol....next one is up soon...so...review!