Chapter 21: Never-ending Fear

Three weeks, it had been three weeks since Bella went missing. They were the most miserable weeks of Edward's life. He didn't eat, he didn't sleep. He would just try to find any sort of way of who could've possibly taken the love of his life away from him.

On the third day of Bella's disappearance, Edward was sitting in the kitchen when he got up and grabbed his keys. "Where are you going?" Emmett asked.

"Out," Edward replied as he left the house.

Slamming the door behind him, Edward got into his car and drove off.

Stopping on the side of the road, Edward climbed out his car and walked up the hill to his and Bella's meadow.

Pushing back the branch, Edward sat down on the blanket there and felt his heart just begin to break into a thousand more pieces. He felt there was nothing left of his heart when he saw that Bella's book was still on the blanket where they had left it when they were last there.

Lifting the book up, he ran his fingers over the cover, tracing the letters to it. "Wuthering Heights…and here I teased her for reading this," he murmured. He lied down on the blanket as he just continued to stare at the book. He let out a shaky breath as her scent from the blanket reached his nose, making him close his eyes tight as tears began to sting his eyes. "Bella, Bella, Bella," he kept whispering over and over again as if he were waiting for her to appear right in front of him.

Gripping the book close to him, he let out a cry of pure unadulterated agony. It was as if someone had taken a red hot blade and shoved it straight into his chest. It was the worse kind of pain he could never wish upon an enemy. To feel this kind of agonizing pain was the most torturous thing in his life, he would rather forget everything all over again than to go through this pain again. For the next two hours, the young man was curled up on the blanket in the middle of the meadow shaking over the fact that the love of his life was missing and he had no idea when he would see her again.

When he returned home, it was dark and Esme was standing outside. Edward got out of his car and the woman saw that his eyes were red from crying. "Oh sweetheart," she whispered. Unable to handle anything else, the young man collapsed to his knees making Esme hurry over and embrace her distraught son. "It'll be alright sweetheart, everything will be alright," she whispered, rubbing his back.

"I can still feel her mom. I can feel her, see her, smell her. I can't do anything, mom I just want someone to kill me and get it over with than torturing me like this," he replied.

Esme pulled back, gripping his arms. "Edward, don't you dare talk that way, don't," she told him. Edward lowered his head slowly with his shoulders shaking.

"I can't live without her mom, she's my only reason to stay alive," he told her, "without her I have nothing."

Esme stroked his face, trying to get him to stay optimistic about the search. "Sweetheart, we'll find her. I know we will," she assured him gently. He lifted his head to look at his mother.

"She's it for me mom. She is, she's the one. Bella is everything I could want and more in a woman, she's it for me. I have to have her back, if I don't get her back…I'll be alone forever. She's the one for me," he explained.

Feeling her heart ache for her child, she kissed his forehead. "They'll find her, Edward, just keep faith they'll find her," she whispered. Helping him up off the ground, she led her heartbroken son into the house.

Back in her prison, Bella woke up after a restless night's sleep. Realizing where she was again, she broke down once more. "My God do you not stop crying?" the red head exclaimed irritably.

"I want to go home," Bella answered.

"I want a lot of things," the woman told her.

Sitting up, she wiped the tears from her face, sniffling when her stomach tightened from nausea again. Grabbing the wastebasket by the bed, she lost whatever she had left in her stomach. "Yep, get used to it girly," the woman told her.

"What are you going to do with me?" Bella asked, her voice shaking.

"James has the plan, not me," the woman answered.

"Then why are you down here?" Bella asked.

The woman looked at her before grabbing the tray by her and practically tossed it on the bed. "Enjoy," she told her before left the room. Bella looked at the food on the tray, biting her lower lip as she just stared at the food. She rested her hand over her stomach. She did have to eat, finding out that she was pregnant she did want to keep her child protected.

She ate the food that was on the tray when the door opened again. "Morning beautiful," James greeted with a grin. Pushing her tray back, she moved further back against the wall. "Hey, not going to hurt you," he assured her.

"Please, if you let me go, I promise I won't tell anyone about you," she insisted.

"I'd love to, but you see I can't seem to do that," he answered.

Bella let out a scream when he grabbed her leg and yanked her closer. "Please, please, please don't," she begged, pushing against his chest. She froze when he began caressing her hair when he leaned forward, sniffing her neck.

"Freesias and strawberries, delectable combination," he commented.

He grinned as he gently dragged his teeth across her throat, which made Bella's stomach churn. "Please let go, please let me go," she begged, crying softly.

"Just sampling the goods," he commented before he let her go.

As soon as he was off her, Bella backed up terrified. "You said you weren't going to hurt me!" she exclaimed.

"I didn't hurt you now did I? I can't hurt the next money maker," he commented as he patted her stomach.
"Get your hands off me!" she snapped, shoving his hand away.

James chuckled with the most evil grin she had ever seen. "I can see why your lover boy loves ya," he told her.

"Edward has nothing to do with this," she answered.

She let out a gasp when he had her pinned against the wall. "Oh it does," he told her. Bella felt her heart hammer against her chest. "Everything that's going on right now is because of your precious Edward. Oh his adoration for you is sickening, which makes it more fun to watch him mope around your precious Forks," he sneered. He grinned as he started caressing her hair again. "I can't wait to have you all to myself," he told her when he pulled her hips to his, making her gag.

"No," she whimpered, turning her face away.

James dragged his fingers down her neck. "But I won't touch you while you're pregnant," he told her, "can't hurt the goods." He let her go and Bella fell back on the bed, her body shaking as he left the room. Feeling filthy all of a suddenly, she started pulling at her clothes, wanting to do anything to get the feeling of his body touching hers off.

Becoming desperate, she ripped off the over shirt she was wearing and backed up into her corner again with a sob. She put her head in her hands, letting out another sob. "Somebody help me," she sobbed. She wrapped her arms around her stomach protectively, crying all over again. "Somebody help us," she begged softly as she cried herself to sleep again.

The next day, Bella woke up to the door opening. "Rise and shine," James said smiling, "the doctor is in." The red head walked in with a smile and Bella felt her heart drop. It was worse than she thought, this woman was truly a doctor. The woman just grinned at her as James dragged in an ultrasound computer.

"We are going to see the baby today," she commented, "aren't you happy about that?"

Bella saw that the door was open and made a dash for it. "Victoria grab her!" James exclaimed. Just as she was about to reach the door, the woman grabbed her.

"No! NO! LET GO!" Bella screamed as she struggled against her.

"Come on we'll all be civil here," Victoria commented as she dragged the young woman back in the room.

Instead of answering, Bella elbowed the woman in the stomach before she started running. She was about halfway up the stairs when James grabbed her from behind. "NO! LET ME GO! SOMEONE HELP ME!" Bella screamed, praying someone would hear her, "SOMEONE HELP ME PLEASE!"

James covered the screaming girl's mouth with a gag as he dragged her back into the room. He practically tossed her back on the bed before slamming the door closed. Bella ripped off the gag, looking at her two kidnappers. "Don't jostle her around too much! You'll kill that thing in her," Victoria hissed.

"I know what I'm doing," James answered.

Bella kept her hands over her stomach. "Please, pleas don't take my baby away. I'll do anything, anything you want. Just please don't take him away," she begged softly, tears showing in her eyes. She kept her arms around her stomach. James shook his head slowly.

"Well let's even see if your kid is even sellable," he told her.

He pulled the machine closer. "Are you going to lift your shirt up or am I going to have to do it for you?" he demanded. Not wanting his hands on her again, Bella pulled up her shirt enough to show her stomach. James grinned as he turned everything on. "Work your magic baby," he told her, backing up. Victoria sat beside Bella on the edge of the bed with the little wand in her hand. Placing it on Bella's gel covered stomach, she looked at the screen.

"Yep, there it is," she commented.

Bella looked at the screen to see her child on the screen. Tears welled up in her eyes again as she looked at her child. Hers and Edward's child. "Yep, it's all in order baby," Victoria informed. Bella swallowed hard.

"Please don't take my baby away," she answered.

James chuckled as he looked at the sonograms that were printed off. "Great, this'll be great for business," he commented.

"You're both disgusting," she answered as she ripped the paper towel from Victoria's hand, wiping the gel off herself.

Backing away, she wrapped her arms around her midsection. "You're not taking him away," she hissed.

"I don't think you're in position to make demands beautiful," James answered nonchalantly, looking at the picture, "besides you'll get more chances."

He looked at Bella with a sneer. "We have to fax these," he informed.

"No!" Bella exclaimed.

She grabbed the sonogram from James's hand and ripped it to shreds before he could stop her. "You think just shredding that will stop anything?" James asked. Spinning around, she shoved all the equipment over. The equipment crashed to the hardwood floor.

"You're not taking my baby away from me!" she shrieked, spinning back around to look at them.

James glared and backhanded the girl. "You stupid bitch," he hissed.

"I'm going to protect my child from you! You won't take him away," Bella answered.

"We'll see, come on babe," James told Victoria as they left, closing and locking the door behind them.

Letting out a shaky breath, Bella closed her eyes as she rested her hand on her stomach. "It's okay baby, it's okay, I'm here. Mama's not going to let anything happen to you," she whispered softly. She rocked back and forth, humming the lullaby Edward wrote for her. "Nothing will happen to you," she said softly.

Bella stared at the far wall as she began to daydream about her child, her only escape from the nightmare she was living in.