Alone at 18
Chapter 21: Confrontation
Mitchie's Point of View
It's about 7:00 and I just finished showering and getting dressed in sweats and a t-shirt. I pulled on a sweater covering my neck as my cover up was now washed off. I wasn't ashamed but I don't think it would be the best thing to show around the house. I tied up my hair into a messy bun and left my room. Shane was meeting with Nate and Jason in the downstairs studio talking about much better and just other last minute things about the album they have to finish this week before the photo shoots and all the other things before it gets released.
I decided I would go to the game room. I knew I couldn't interrupt them but I wanted to be near him and also I could play a game, something amusing to do. I made my way downstairs and headed to the basement. I stepped into the main room and saw Shane in the sound booth. I waved and he smiled waving back. I headed towards the game room.
"Mitchie" I heard and turned around to see Shane running over. He picked me up and spun me around as I laughed
"Hi" I said
"You feel better after your shower?"
"Yeah I do, and I'm covered up especially my neck" I whisper and he winks
"Good choice, what are you up to?"
"I was going to go play some games, anything really" I said and he nodded
"Alright, but one warning"
"Yeah"
"Some very unpleasant people are occupying some of that room" He said
"It's alright, I can take care of myself, and you are only a room away" She said kissing me and I smiled
"Let's not make it come down to that" He chuckled
"See you later love" I said kissing him then left towards the game room.
I walked in and headed towards the couches and saw Caitlyn and Lisa sitting there. "Hi" I said quietly and they looked at me
"What are you doing here?" Caitlyn asked
"What does it look like I'm going to play games" I said totally obviously
"It's not like you know how since you grew up in an orphanage" Lisa snapped
"This stops here"
"What stops here?" Caitlyn asked all innocent
"All this bull shit. There is no reason to tell me I'm white trash because I grew up in an orphanage. Just because I grow up less fortunate then you don't mean I know a lot less then you. I probably know more since I actually depend on myself and not servants waiting on me hand and foot. That is pathetic."
"Shane does the same thing" Lisa said
"He doesn't treat me like you do. He actually cares and understands who I am and where I come from. I actually care for people and give people chances. I have been nothing but nice to you selfish little bitches. I lost everything and I do the best I can, with what I have. What you have apparently isn't good enough you want more. You are so pathetic and pick on me because I seem like easy prey. I keep thinking maybe they will have some decency give them another chance well that stops here"
"We had parents who cared and actually paid for what we have" Lisa said and that was it
"I had parents who cared very deeply. You never knew them and you won't either. They gave me everything they could. I'm sorry we don't all have parents that will buy a designer this or designer that at request. If you don't understand not ever child is born into the riches you were. The guys at least realize this. Do you have any idea how other children actually live, without all this luxury, clearly you don't"
"It wouldn't be that hard" Caitlyn said
"You know that is bullshit flying from your mouth" I said
"Don't bull shit us, you are the one excepting anything we throw at you being a spoiled little bitch" Lisa spat back. Wow she really is as bitchy as Caitlyn.
"Me a selfish little bitch, that's rich. I am working at forever 21 to get money to pay back Mrs. Gray for what she has given me. You get all your money to do whatever you want with it. I am paying my thanks since I am grateful for everything that I have received"
"Well orphaned poor children don't belong in houses like this"
"Being orphaned wasn't a choice if you haven't noticed" I said
"Your parents probably wanted you to be alone" Caitlyn said and now I was about to blow up, well screw it they deserved it
"You know what fuck you! You have no right to say anything like that when it is not true. I am alive because my parents told me to jump from our car. They sacrificed their breath to tell me to jump to be saved. So they definitely cared that I live, you guys are relying on bull shit to bring me down when I know it's just that, shit."
"You are so full of it" Lisa said
"Actually only you two are. My parents wanted to be with me as Caitlyn your mother I heard just up and left. No goodbye no nothing so if somebody didn't want to be around their child it was your mom. So don't give me that shit that mine didn't want me" I said and saw tears brim her eyes. Usually I would stop but I didn't. "Lisa you might have seen your dad pass away from cancer in your day but I hope you both know I was found in my dead mothers arms covered in blood and neither of you could imagine what that was like. I also love how Shane is so supportive of your relationships with Nate and Jason, yet when he is happy you don't care you just treat his relationship and girlfriend like Trash."
"You don't know what it is like to wake up to your mother never coming home" Caitlyn said
"Actually I do more then you know. I didn't have my dad or my mom. You at least had your dad to tell you everything will be okay, I had this stranger keeping me in my house a week before I went to the orphanage, tell me then I don't understand, you never could until you experience that emptiness"
"We would be happy with Shane's decision if he stayed the way he was after Erica. Full of life, fun, always put the band first, chose it over you, like you said white trash" Lisa said
"For fuck sakes you truly are pathetic. I tell Shane to practice to go to work every day to make music he wants, to put the band first. Sometimes we want to spend time together. I don't rely on my music ability or knowledge to get a job with them. I rely on myself and got a job that I know I got for me and not because of my boyfriend. That's a sense of accomplishment you are probably not aware of."
"We actually got hired because of what we can do not because of our boyfriends"
"Being their girlfriends helped you a hell of a lot though" I said
"Just because we have better relationships and are a lot better in music then you will ever be you don't have to be a complete bitch"
"I'm not being a bitch. It's you two. I have been nothing but nice. You two are utterly pathetic trying to hurt your friend because of me when I did fuck all. I want us to be friends but now since you both sit there and laugh at me for nothing. If anyone should be laughing it should be me at your pathetic attitudes, it seems like you hate your life when you have everything someone could ask for. You take everything for granted well I hope one day you realize it's all privilege spoiled little PRISS BITCHES GET, LIKE YOU!" I finished screaming and they just look at me. I felt two arms wrap around me holding me tight like a thrash in his arms.
"Fuck you" I heard Caitlyn mumble as tears streaked her face and she ran from the room, oh no I made her cry. I didn't really mean too.
"You're the bitch making her cry" Lisa said
"Yeah because I never cried due to you two" I called as she left the room
"Mitchie... Mitchie calm down" I heard Shane's voice in my ear. I turn into his arms and start crying into this chest. I wasn't crying because I was sad, I was frustrated and I didn't mean to make them cry I was so mad
"I didn't mean too" I said blubbering
"I know, it's okay but what happened?" He asked rubbing my back and I shook my head
"They called me names, and how my parents didn't want me, and everything. I exploded so mad and angry. They have no right... to say that, and I said things I shouldn't have that struck a sore spot" I said into his shirt trying to calm down
"Its okay" he said rubbing my back and picking me up bringing me to the couch as I curl into him
"No it's not" I said
"No it is they have been really nasty to you, but next time maybe not hit a soft spot. They show tough but aren't. You show weak but I know you are stronger then you show, and you can be strong when you have too. I believe it was the right thing you did, standing up for yourself.
"I feel horrible though" I said looking up into his eyes
"It's okay, how about we get you to bed, get some sleep we can talk about it in the morning" He said and I nodded as we made our way up to my room. I crawled into bed and he sat beside me
"Goodnight Shane"
"Night my Mitchie Moo" He said giving me a quick kiss as he gets up and left as I close my stinging eyes trying to sleep.
It was about an hour later when and I had not stopped tossing and turning in my bed. My eyes were sore my body felt drained and I really wanted to sleep but my body physically wouldn't let me. Darkness would not consume me even thought that's what I wanted to happen at this moment in time.
I sigh then sit up decided to get some warm milk. I was told it helps you sleep so I decided I would try it. I started downstairs the house relatively quiet. It was almost ere to a point of creeping me out. I started towards the kitchen when I heard the voice of my boyfriend. I smiled and was about to show myself when I heard what they were talking about.
"But mom it wasn't her fault, they brought her to do it" Shane said
"Shane that doesn't matter, it's not okay. Both of their parents are very upset about it, no one should make their girls cry"
"They have made her cry countless times, and we let that slide" Shane stated
"Look Shane I understand that, because I have witnessed their dislike"
"They were fine with me loving Erica, but why can't they be happy now?" Wait did he say love?
"That was different, she was good friends with them, best girlfriends, Mitchie kind of jumped into our lives, I just don't think they accept that, maybe never will" She said
"Erica is gone and I no longer love her. I have accepted that and they have too as well. I'm falling in love with Mitchie, and she had a reason to blow up on them"
"Shane I know all that okay and they do too. Just they lived her first, well all live here. They feel like with Mitchie here you no longer care about them or the band, and that's a problem" His mom said
"I do and I put the band first on work days and everything I need to spend some time with Mitchie, they always spend time with Jason and Nate" He said
"Yeah but it isn't the same anymore. Shane all of us parents have talked"
"Great" He said sarcastically
"Don't be sarcastic. Look I love having Mitchie here. She is an amazing girl and you two are really good together, but now you need the band priorities to be first. We think it its best if she no longer stays with us. She has money saved up and she can find somewhere else to stay. You can still see here of course, outside of the band schedule. That is going to be first, I am sorry Shane, but that's all we can come up as a good solution. We will let her stay another week. You have a busy day early tomorrow we will talk to her the day after that okay" she said
"But mom..."
"No Shane that's all we can come up with, I'm sorry but me and your father have 6 other parents over ruling us and you know how this house works"
"Yeah everyone can be happy, but me" He said and I hid behind the door as I watched him leave the room and exit the hall way towards the stairs.
"Shane" I heard his mom call then sigh. I quietly make my way back upstairs and just got some water from the bathroom and wash my face realizing I have tears falling.
They were right I was making me more important than his career and band, the last thing I wanted to do which was horrible of me. Everything was ruined because of me and I know that but I can't just let it fly bye. I loved Shane and as I sit on my bed and cry because I was ruining his band I knew what I had to do. Even though it would cause me pain I loved him and I truly believed if you loved someone so much you want them to be the same, you are a love that had to let go. I had to leave, get away from here let him be who he was. He had to be part of the band, and I had to be out of the picture. I knew where I would go away from LA, back to my hometown. Tears flooded my face but I knew this was what I had to do, for me, for Shane, the one I loved with my life. I sighed knowing leaving was what Caitlyn's mother did. I loved Shan though and that was why I was leaving because I loved him, it wasn't as bad was it? I would try to transfer my job. I would leave this life behind. I would start all over again, because in my heart and mind I knew that was the only way I would survive without Shane. I would have to do it soon so tomorrow, was the night I would leave my LA life behind and start again, holding on to every piece of my heart that might survive. As tears continue falling down my face I finally find myself become consumed by darkness.
A/N: I'm sorry it's so short but I'm saving more of the sadness of her decision in the next chapter I will be starting soon and hopefully up Thursday. I know you will hate her decision but when you love someone you have to let them go right. Well I don't know why but she believed that. I am on the edge of tears here because I build the relationship just to tear it down. Saddest thing is Shane doesn't even know anything it happening, that she knows, that she will take it upon herself to leave. He especially doesn't know that she probably doesn't want to be found. Let me here your thoughts and I am happy I am updating this chapter already. I will update ASAP since you probably all what to know what happens and if she goes through with it. Let me hear what you think? Read and Review. Enjoy!
~Kim