This is my story just using the lifestyle of some of fifty shades and the characters.
It is a HEA, but there are bumps in the road getting there.
and relax there is no cheating either.
Dreaming of Chocolate and Grey:
Chapter 21:
Home truths are bad:
For the strangest of reasons and don't ask me why, but everything is coming up roses and that is down to my ray of sunshine and my kinky as fuck girlfriend, my mother is happier with me than she has ever been before and being this new and honest and open Christian Grey feels very liberating and free I would say it felt like I skipped to work after leaving my parents home and as soon as Taylor drops me off outside Grey House, I have an Epiphany. I am going to be honest with the world, but only after I meet the in-laws and I fully intend to embrace the crazy Italians as I aim to be in Ana's life for a very long time. She is 'My Mistress of Zen' she is my calm, my rational and my everything, I think I'd even walk away from GEH and be a kept man, should she ask me to that is, because I fucking love her and for a hard hearted bastard like me that's an amazing revelation for me to be having. I laugh and the receptionists thinks I am quite mad. She smiles and after I say good morning she drops her pencil, my fucking name is on a pencil, wow I have made it big time if my names are on pencils, I laugh again as I retrieve it and hand it her back, I whistle a happy tune and I head on down to the bliss of hanging the woman who has not only hindered my world and my recovery problems but she is one hell of a grade a bitch who has ruined a mere boy a wet behind the fucking ears boy...
I think of Little Christian as I travel down... My boy has made me a better man... What would it be like to have had him here? The doors open and waiting at the other side is the love of my life and she seems shocked to see me. She runs at me and I cling on to her, fuck this hurts and the confusion is just that confusing, my being so far from the moody bastard I was a couple of weeks ago has my staff confused too...
"Christian... Oh god you are still in one piece. I have done decade one and it's a good read. Sadly the players she conned and whom she was blackmailing are no longer with us so will not help with her fall from Grace, but it's odd and I have a feeling that the safe holds the beginning of this story, because something doesn't add up. Anyway what did you find?"
She has been drinking coffee I can smell it on her breath, as I step out of the elevator I take her in my arms and kiss her and fuck does she feel good in my arms and her soft lips against mine feels soft and inviting, so I help myself to more. I am not a man who was comfortable with these apparently normal PDA's.
"Ana, thank you..."
"Hu? Okay coming down off an amazing high Grey, what was that for, not that I am complaining?"
"Can I not be happy to see my amazing girlfriend? Can I not kiss her, can I not..." She cuts me off with an equally nice kiss.
"... Kiss away Mr Grey, I swear you won't be sorry taking me on Christian."
"I intend to make a few more steps in the right direction too. Now what can tell me people? Make me even happier. We have a fourteen year old boy who needs our help to put that bitch behind bars for a billion life times."
"Is he okay Christian?"
"No, but with the help of my therapist the good doctor and expensive charlatan, Dr John Flynn and my mother the very talented Dr Trevelyan, ace paediatrician and all round good egg, a still hung over drunken egg might I add, he will get there Baby. He was a mess Ana and so was poor deluded Noah. It wasn't too great for either of their mothers, but we will see to it they are well taken cared for."
"So, Elliot has gone for refreshments, we could be here all night and..." Ana starts to say as Taylor exits the elevator with I presume the locksmith? This turns out to in fact be the case and as he looks at the metal box, he shrugs his shoulders.
"Tink, you could do this with your eyes closed? What's afoot, is this comfy life you seem to have making you less of a soldier, are you slipping boy?" Taylor blushes, fuck, I wish I'd filmed the fucker having an emotion.
"That's what I thought Oscar, but she's not bowing to my will for some reason? Mr Grey, this is Bill Wilde, Oscar, this is Mr Christian Grey, my boss and this is Ana Lambert, his girlfriend."
"Oscar? Oh I get it Oscar Wilde?" Ana asks and answers herself. "What was your service name Taylor? Tink, if I heard right, that's cute." She laughs then hugs me; I never knew that about him.
"Sailor or spy would have suited you better!" I say as Ana is tucked under my arm, she fits nicely there too.
"I took the only one of them left Sir, there were four Taylor's in the unit, and thankfully I didn't get the Made name..."
"There is a joke in there somewhere about dress making I am sure." I laugh as I say it.
"The unit was jokingly called the Sewing Room. So, let's get at this, it's a tumbler and code, so it's just figuring out which she used first."
"She tapped in a code and then used the dial. I saw her open it a few times." I tell him to save him time.
"The combination would be good too, do you have it?" He jokes. I shake my head. No.
"How many numbers?" Ana asks.
"Six or above." Oscar replies.
"Umm, try Christian's birthday 06181983. She had a thing for you Mr Grey..." Taylor smirks. Oscar shakes his head. It seems she wasn't as enamoured with me as she thought. We try her birthday and get no joy there. He then clips on a device and it manually tries to unlock it with a digital safecracking thing. The numbers flick through and fill in the bar, as the end number spins and it ends with 31101959. I hear Ana gasp.
"Oh she is a witch true and proper and an old witch too, fifty six, yuck Christian she was..." I grin and cut her off with a smile. I knew she was older, but not that old. He looks at the dial of the old school tumble lock and threads his fingers together and cracks his knuckles.
"I will try this the old school way, can I have silence?" He uses his ear and the gentlest of touches and I swear I have seen this done in movies but when he puts his hand on the doors handle and it opens, it takes me a lot not to high five Ana, but she high fives Oscar and she sends that warmth, joy and happiness she has inside her, around the room.
"I cannot believe you did that Mr Wilde, it looked awesome." Ana says a she looks inside. Taylor takes the contents out and places it on the table. Ana sits and goes through the paperwork and smiles. Then says...
"We have got her, she is nothing more than an old witch and a shrew whore of Satan; oops sorry..."
"What Ma'am, what have you found?" Taylor asks me as he looks over the jewellery. I giggle and try and do the math in my head, poor Christian fucked an old lady.
"Thelma Brunswick, it seems she has the same birth date as the safe. She was born in Reliance on the Maryland Delaware border, would in fact be fifty six had she not died in 1978." She hands the paper to Barney and he types some things into his laptop and shrugs his shoulders. I knew she was older when she and I fucked the first time, but hell forty one? Wow I should high five myself but it's not a joking matter not now and not ever.
"It seems Elena Blanche, Ms Lincoln's supposed maiden name, was twenty five years old before any paperwork was filed for her, funnily enough she has changed her age twice since then obviously she needed to be older when she left the foster care system. Then before she married Linc she dropped a few years." Barney says and he too is in with the reading and grinning.
"It isn't a life time in prison thing though Barney I need something on her to jail her for life." I say and feel sick. I pray to god she has done something to at least get the police to look into theses other things before they drag young boys into court.
"Would murder do?" He counters.
"The what the who?" I ask? "Are you serious who? The ex husbands?"
"No they were legitimate, when Thelma was just eighteen she had a client, who liked Breathplay and during a hanging trick, she left him alone, to order room service and he choked. She tried to make it look like he'd choked on a burger, alas he didn't. There is an arrest warrant out for her in Delaware, for the death of one Governor Marcus De Blanc, the third. Her fingerprints were on the safe, it was empty and his wife said he always wore his good watch to meetings and it was missing too, its an old Rolex, it's never been pawned, is it with the jewelery T." Taylor shakes his head. "His son Marcus and the grandson Marcus the fourth and fifth, have a reward out for her capture, she apparently took the charitable donation one of his campaigners had donated to the children's ward, some one million dollars? The insurance did not pay up because he invited the girl into his room; the family deny he was like that."
"They usually are Barney and very secretive to their families, but I have both father and the son on my books at Satin and Steel Christian, if that helps get a picture of the men she messed with? Both like Breathplay and both are kind of shifty and no I am not sure what other real life shifty stuff they are into." She carries on reading. "I doubt she had the million dollars either, she may have helped herself to a few bundles, because according to this, she only ran from the governor with thirty thousand. She keeps good paperwork and names everyone who helped her, and she paid that exact amount of money to get her new identification and she used it to escape from Delaware, then she went to San Francisco..." Wow my woman is good at paper trails.
"That she did." Barney states as he taps away. "She stole another thirty off a man holding money for his clients, a drug man down there, he was killed when they did not get all their money, and they are looking for her too. But they don't care how she gets back to them dead or alive."
"Ana look for a file on Sebastian Rockaport, the man in the photos, he died the same way as the governor, and Barney could you please see if there is an autopsy report on Seb please? He should have a file here too, he was her first fifteen year old and came just before me, so look at the third decade, or in my files we it seems were photographed together. Barney I need any records on him, I need to help him, he was my best friend." He looks so sad and I feel the need to hold him, desperately.
"Christian, do you need something to eat and drink?" I ask him as he starts to look a little peaky.
"Yes, food would be good. Thanks."He smiles.
Taylor and Sawyer are filled in by Barney, on what they are looking at. Elliot and his father are here too, and he has good news, she is being charged with everything Daniel's grandfather can throw at her, including hiring illegal immigrants to clean her home. The hefty fine will be way too hefty for her broke ass, if it does nothing else it will apparently leave her too broke to pay for council. I take Christian up to his office, after he has words with his father. Andrea, girl wonder and a girl with far more patience than he deserves, is shouted at by her prat of a boss, for forgetting to order in food and then I was shocked too, but she took it in her stride. I was annoyed because I would sure as shit smack his head if he shouted at me like he does her. He smiles, realises he what he did and thanks her for ordering his favourite deli subs when a picnic basket is presented to him. She fans her face. I smile.
"Please hold all my calls and we are not to be disturbed Andrea and I do appreciate your coming in on your day off too."
"I am glad to help."Ana and I head into my office; I close the blinds and lock the door.
"Ana, I don't want anything from you other than talk and you know, to vent a little? I feel like a fucking failure, how did I not see what is now so fucking blatantly obvious?"
"You were blinkered by friendship and years of put downs and trades. Obviously I am such an expert in this area. However you Christian Grey, you have finally woken up and as the saying goes have smelt the coffee. What happened at the house to make you act like this?"
"Lindy and Chelsea asked why I had not said anything sooner, and my answer was so pathetic, I looked like a moronic fool when I said because it didn't seem wrong to me. Ana it feels fucking dreadful now, but then I thought it helped with the rages and the anger, especially as I'd thrown you over the bedroom and hurt you that summer."
"Okay that was ages ago and my ass was pretty much covered in all that puppy fat thing it and I had going on. Christian can we you know make out like kids?"
"Yep, but how about we make out like adults and fool around like people in love. Ana, I am so thankful I made you come into sign for the island now and you were never fat, though I probably said you were, I was a nasty bastard..."
"Lord, thanks for that, but given I ate a lot I probably was chubby, Mimi and Nonna fed me a lot... Christian, you added that clause in to get me here?"
"Yes, yes I did, and I wanted to give you the chance to pull out if I gave you a hand running it."
"I couldn't run it you have to be visited by the previous McKenzie's afore you get the keys Laddie?"
"I haven't got the keys Baby."
"Oh yes you have the key is the love of the place and here." I put my hand on his heart and gently follow his heart's melodic booming. He leans down and kisses me his tongue persuades mine to relax and then as we start to undress each other... There is a knock on the door... Christian and I fasten the buttons and he flings open his door.
"Sir, I am sorry about this but you have a visitor and she will not leave until she sees you."
"Who is it?" I ask Taylor, he then looks at Ana and then at me.
"Carla Steel, she would like ten minutes of your time." She is meant to be in Hollywood. Fuck...
"Where is she?" Ana asks.
"In the security suite. Miss Lambert."
"Does she know I am here?"
"No, she asked to speak to Mr Grey about a personal matter. She said it concerns your son Miss Lambert, Sir and she has information you need to hear."
"Ana?"
"I have no idea what she could possibly know about Christian, the only ones who know about him are..." Confession time you have to tell her all you know and hope she does not freak, but she will it's a given.
"...Jack Hyde has sold her information to use against you Ana. Sawyer said he followed them to a churchyard in Switzerland."
"I need him found Taylor, I need for his hold over me to stop. He will stop at nothing to ruin me as I have him."
"He is not a problem, anymore... Trust me Ana, Luke Sawyer buried him and he is not coming after you, but he did pass your mother files and they had a chat. Money changed hands and now she is here to see you Sir."What the hell, Sawyer has killed the dickwad? Ana seems to think nothing more of this so I don't push for an explanation, yet.
"Nothing she does is coincidental. What do you want to do Christian, it's you she has come to blackmail, not me?"
"Ana, do you trust me?" I ask, which I know is a stupid question, but it needs asking and answering.
"Yes, with everything I have and everything I am. Why Christian?"
"Taylor please take Ana to my personal secure room, Ana trust me you are my number one priority and some of what you hear may be a lie, okay? I need to know what she knows and I can't have her knowing we are an item. Whatever she is doing here it is to hurt you, not blackmail me."
"Okay, but I need to talk to you have you got a..." I smile and take out a box from my top drawer and in it is an ear piece which I place it in my ear. "That will work I guess? So Taylor show me the comfy house within these walls. Taylor, Sawyer has my back; he has proved that in dealing with Jack, I presume the look was what I presumed, as in he is actually dead?" God she's good! He nods and she says no more."Could you run through the files I have on my mother and her latest husband Bob Adams, he's a writer of crime thrillers and war themed books? If she is here for money, the chances are he has filed for divorce and she has nothing from the prenup they make her sign?"
"Your security have checks done right?" I ask and Taylor smiles. Yes she is like me.
"Yes, yes they do but I have a feeling they keep things from me because they worked for Papa Frank and like the Kavanagh's they were told not to upset me."
"I see, how about we do those reports for you?" Taylor offers, because he knows damned well I will be insisting all her security is overhauled.
"I can't ask you to do that Taylor."
"You didn't I offered, besides we..."
"...Are you on it already because of the boss?" She asks poor Taylor, so I step in, because it seems she does know me pretty well.
"Yes, Ana now move that backside into that room and let's see what your mother wants shall we?"
"It begins with M and ends with a Y." She says as she gives me a kiss for luck, because I will need it, apparently? Taylor goes for her and I take in the picnic hamper Andrea had the deli deliver for lunch. She smiles as she sits in front of the monitors.
"Be careful please? If you need my help holler out and I will save my mans ass."
"I will look forward to you saving my ass and maybe we can have a lunch bunk up? Ana you promise me you will try to eat, please?"
"I will and I like this idea of a lunchtime bunk up too, I love that you're picking up my lingo too, bunk ups and you, umm I cannot wait, ditch the bitch and come find me, and I like this room. I will also have a list of questions such as why is there a king sized bed in your office mate?" I give her a chased kiss and go and await the arrival of Ana's mother. I don't have to wait long either. I do a double take because they could be sisters. Carla Steel is in my office and I haven't a clue why?
"Hello Miss Steel. What if anything can I do for you today?" She peers around the room.
"Is Anastasia not here with you? It's her I need to see. It's important. Very important actually?"
"Why would Ana be here?"
"Because you are dating my daughter are you not?"
"No, no I'm not and why would you think we are?"
"You and she have been seen together and I have a friend who has told me a whole heap of stuff about her."
"Ana and I had a business deal. I bought her grandfathers golf resort in Scotland."
"Otter Island? She sold it? Is she mad?"
"Yes, I bought Otter Island from her and no she is not mad, actually she is very clever and has a very good head for business. Can I ask was this 'friend' you had called Jack? Jack Hyde per chance?"
"Yes he and I were friends, until he tried to blackmail me. I have tried to contact Ana through the Italian mafia I call my family but to no avail something has spooked them into not talking to me, and I cannot get passed the Scot at the door at her London home. Jenny was so good with me before too, I have an idea my mother is behind their sudden failure in talking to me."
"What do you think I can do?"
"I spoke to my brother Marco and he said to try and catch you and tell you what Jack is threatening me with and in turn Ana."
"What could he possibly know about Ana that would warrant you coming all this way and following her around the world?"
"I am with Bobby on a book tour at the moment, so I was in Europe anyway. We are in Seattle for some charitable trust Bobby is a patron of. I am taking a stab at you being able to get her to talk to me? Marco says to ask nicely, so I am."
"Again what about and maybe I could help? How much do they want from you, the blackmailer Jack?"
"What, no I do not need money. I have enough to cover the ten million he wants; no he is going to leak news about her dalliance with him and about their baby."
"She and he had a baby?" I hear Ana scream fuck no.
"Yes, the one she put up for adoption, without his knowledge, he wants the child or the money, either or. There is a clause in his father's will, for the support of a grandchild. Jack told his father Ana had had his child. So there is a very large trust fund set aside for this child and Jack wants the money. He gave me these papers and I am worried about Ana. Ana wouldn't do this; Ana is a born mother and a kind and caring girl. But all it takes is for something like this to hit the newsstands and her business could be ruined and her books wouldn't sell, and if that wasn't bad enough, there would be my parents to tell. That will be hard for her; I know only too well what my mother was like when I apparently sold Ana to her grandparents, choosing Frank's parents and not my own."
"According to Ana you sold her to her Papa Frank and Nannie Mimi for a million dollars?"
"What? I did no such thing. My mother though lovely to everyone's face was a is selfish bitch, Frank was an only child, Ana was their only grandchild, so they needed him back and they offered to help me raise Ana, but I wasn't a fit mother, I was clean whilst I had her, Papa Frank insisted on it, but not before you see I loved to drink and do recreational drugs so I am telling you this upfront as a good grace thing, besides you will have done your homework on the Steel Bitch right?
If Ana cared to ask I would have told her this, I lived with the Lambert's because my darling sweet and kind, butter wouldn't melt mother threw me out of their home. I had nowhere else to go and they took me in. So who do you think I would give my child to? Someone who threw me out or someone who took me in with no questions asked? As to a million dollars? Yes they bought me a year in rehab which I needed but no money was given to me, my mother and I clashed from day one and would tell Ana anything. Thankfully Frank and Mimi were good people. They offered to help me after I got out and clean, but thankfully I managed to land on my feet. Several times as that story goes, but to hear Mamma talk I am a gold digging whore.
Even that's not true, I should go on a television show and have it out in the open, but life is too short for worrying what other people think about you, as long as you know it's a crock of shit, then it doesn't matter what the world thinks of you. The old saying to thine own self be true? Well that's the case with me. I always seem to find men who cannot keep it in their trousers and end up getting hush money; I sign away my rights for an easy life. I am though writing a book and I will set some records straight soon enough."
"Can I see the paperwork you have?"
"Yes of course. He contacted me whilst we were in Zurich and I met with him alone in a graveyard, he gave me those and said the originals were in his safety deposit box, and I could have them when I paid the money, but I have not heard from him and I am worried." I look through them and I smile, he is trying to pass off my son as his the bastard.
"There is no need for you to worry, these are fake. I am sure Ana would love to talk to you about this."
"No, she has better things to do with her life than to talk to a woman who chose to let her stay with her grandparents when she got out of rehab. They said I could be a part of their lives but Dear Sweet Mimi was the only woman who I knew could mother her properly, and let her have the childhood Frank had, yes she was a wonderful and caring woman and Ana, Anastasia Rose was far better off with part time visits to my mother, she is good in small doses but she is very staunch and very unreasonable. I talk to my father all the time and my brother Ray, Marco has been in touch more since he escaped the clutches of that monster he was with."
"So how did Ana only hear bad things about you?"
"I would think from my mother and Mimi, when she got developed memory problems Mom went to help and I swear even I didn't recognise Mimi when we met up again. She hated me too and poor Frank was at a loss to cope with Ana the rebel. So he gave her to Mamma. The rest is learned behaviour from my mother, Vile Vita."
"So you never went to see her?"
"Yes quite a few times, but the poison was deep rooted and I hadn't got it in me to fight my mother over and over again. Ana will learn this the hard way, as I did when I told her I was having Franks baby. Ask my father who put whom in hospital and he will tell you my mother has a fierce temper and hates to be sassed. I would guess she has softened with Ana, but she will snap one day and if Ana wants to talk to me then, I will be here for her. Until she sees what my mother is good at hiding, then the truth will not set us free."
"I will tell her when I see her, but if she needs to contact you how does she do that?"
"I have never changed my number, I am still in the place in Hollywood her father left me and I have the home in New York Papa Frank got me too. They were good kind people and I miss them more than my own family. I have quite the collection of Ana's photos courtesy of Wolfe and Papa."
"You are in contact with Wolfe?"
"Yes he was her father's brother almost, he listens and does not judge, he is a deep thinker and good for Ana too. I mean what could I offer her, apart from how to meet marry and get walked over by bad eggs. But know this If you hurt her again Grey I know people."
"I said we were not a couple."
"So you said, but her perfume is in the air and your eyes change when you talk about her. You best be a good egg Grey and sort this out. Tell her I am sorry about the baby you and she lost, I wanted to reach out then but Jenny said I shouldn't so I didn't."
"Jenny told you about our son?"
"I saw Ana in London, well I actually saw her at a friend's health spar and she was very much pregnant. I asked Jenny about this sudden bump and she filled me in on the murderous rage she felt for the father and after hearing her rant I presumed it was you, the man from the lodge?"
"You know a lot about Ana?"
"I do, she is the best thing I did in my life, the best thing."
"Yet you didn't fight for her?"
"Why take her from the arms of the best people in the world. Christian, one day when you do have a child and you hear them cry for the first time, it imprints on your heart. I was in a coma for weeks after I had her, because of the car wreck and the person who loved and cared or her in those few weeks was Mimi. As I said she was a wonderful mother to Frank and I knew she would love his daughter the same way. I wouldn't wish my childhood on Ana or my worst enemy Christian; it was nothing like Ana's seems to have been. Momma was a very self centered woman, hers were the only opinions that mattered, her and her sodding god. She wanted things done her way and no other way. If you stepped out of line you were not highly thought of or cast out.
I mean take Ray, he didn't stay in London too long after he reached eighteen, because he crossed her when he said no to being a priest for god's sake, he was a non entity and she banished him back to Australia, and so I was then to be offered up in his place as a nun. I didn't and still don't believe in god so that was a no, a big no from me and yet another smack in Mamma's face, the hate was there all the damned time, and I have my suspicions on why she hates me, and one day I may just ask her, but I don't care for my mother enough to let it worry me. She should be used to disappointing the church, because none of her children wanted to serve the church?They wanted their own life to be free and not run around going to church all the damned time and treating the priest better than she treated Pappa. I loved to act and if truth be told I am none too good at it, but I wanted to hit the big time and be recognised and did some risque thing to get there I will admit and I was a great model and I have a good singing voice, so I tried everything to get noticed and be the rebel without a clue, I did stupid teenaged things to get that five minutes of fame, and after I had the 'connection to Lenny Lamb I got it. I was a groupie and a pot smoking rebel, then after the crash I was depressed, angry, you name it I had an issue with it, but and only because I knew Ana was safe and I didn't have to answer to Mamma, I went wild for a few years, which is another reason why I was a lousy parent and role model for my daughter. I wasn't right for her, back then and I doubt I still am, but Mimi and Frank, they were, they were the best people for my Ana and if I could go back I would do it the same way again."
"Have you ever written to Ana and tried to explain your absence in her life I mean I presume you have called her too?"
"All the time, she hears my voice and wham the phone smashes I hear the rage, so I write, but the letters were and still are returned unopened and not at this address. My mother was pretty damned good at speaking for my daughter. Christian, I have a room full of toys, books letters and presents all unopened and clothes and gifts from every place I visited and for every event in her life. I had hoped one day to show her the rooms I have in my home's dedicated to her. She is never more than a moment away from my head and is always in my heart. I loved her enough to know I was not good enough for her and I was strong enough thank god to give her to two wonderful people and stand up to Mamma Vita and say no..." I hear Ana sob, was some of this ringing true?
"So what do you do now for a living? If you don't mind me asking?" I try to stop myself from running in the secure room and hugging her.
"I write books in secret, and a ghost writer pretends she has written them for me, thanks to my mother bad mouthing me every chance she gets, I cannot do the book tours or the publicity needed to promote them and I do pretty well actually from it actually..."
"Oh really, so your work, is it anything I may have read?"
"Do you like teenage detective novels, with a young girl as the detective? My heroine is a sassy young Scottish head strong little lady? I am known as Mauve Bleacher author, I write at least two a year, it's a pretty large collection and in demand. My detective is called..."
"...Annie McKenzie. My sister reads her stuff, your stuff I mean. It's being made into a television miniseries yes?" I act all goof ball because shoot me, okay I love the damned books. There is not much violence, not much bloodshed and very little gory gore and crap, but loads of adventures and mysteries and set all over the world too; they are a modern day girls adventure series. I cannot believe it I am awe struck over her mom being an author, I get shouted at and my ear rings with a very loud Ana screaming Christian Grey wake up... Ouch!
"Yes, I have signed a three season minimum, and an option for five more, dependent of viewing figures, it's also with the premium cable network HBO, are you sure it's your sister who reads them?"
"No, it's me I will admit it, I read them, okay? My family all laugh at me, they laugh because I kind of like them, they are a light hearted read, but it was Mia who happened to leave her book around, and yes I read them! You got me I love them." Ana's Mom is the woman smiling at me, this woman writes them, wow I lied because I am her biggest fan, I love Annie McKenzie, go figure now and I smile because I know who she based it on, her daughter and used the family's name too. I get a little stupidly awestruck; it probably didn't help with the gay thing my family presumed of me either?
"So we skirted over the baby, when did you find out Christian?" She had to go there damn it, the illusion is over and this is now a truth be dared session I think? "I kind of thought it was too early for her to try again, especially with Jack, he was a womanising bastard and he hadn't changed much when I met him again. I knew they were false accusations but they still had me worrying for Ana?"
"Jack spilled the beans at her New York opening and we are slowly coming to terms with it. We are going to talk to her grandparents after we have cleared up a mess I managed to get myself into."
"Even billionaires get into them. Good luck with Mamma, I can assure you Ana will need you after that meeting, but don't let her go through that alone. It was the worst thing that ever happened to me; my telling Mamma a rock star had gotten me pregnant. One time, one time I had sex and wham, I am pregnant with the man I had idolised for years."
"So you stalked him, Frank, Ana's father?" It seems the mother and daughter are alike, I hear Ana say oh fuck me, again and I am tempted to laugh and say yes please Baby!
"You say stalked like it's a bad thing?" I laugh and she smile. "Okay, it was a little freaky, but I was Lenny's number one teenage groupie and loved him more than anything. So when he spotted me in an after concert party we had sex in his room and let me tell you Christian Grey, it was not how I imagined it to be, he was drunk and was getting drunker, he asked me to you know get naked and I did. I would have done anything for him and I did. It was the best time ever and then suddenly it was the worst time ever, because after it I was given a few hundred dollars a signed group tee shirt and a phone number for a sex clinic he used and he said if anything cropped up I should go see his guy there, very thoughtful I thought. I had my illusions dumped down the flusher that night. Then three months later I had the stick test show positive and tried in vain to get his management to take my calls, but apparently he got hundreds of these calls every year."
"What did you do?" This seems like a story I have heard before. I hear Ana sob again...
"I went to see his mother of course and they took me in after the almighty row I had with my mother and had nowhere to go after the fall down the stairs. They took me in no questions asked."
"Mom..." Ana came out with tears streaming down her face. Oh god this is going to be one of two things good or bad. I have to hope for good, because Ana cannot take much more crap.
"Ana... Christian and I are through, read the paperwork Jack Hyde gave me and tell me what you think I should do. I gather wherever you were sat you heard everything?"
"Nonna and Nonno, they aren't like that Mom."
"I hope for your sake when you tell her she receives the news better than she did when I told her about you, I was knocked down a flight of stairs to rid me of the problem..."
"...She really threw you out and harmed you and tried to rid you of me?"
"She did and boy was I sore and I have the hospital report to prove it, I'd embarrassed her good catholic god loving name, and my father stood and let her throw me out too. My mother was a hard person to grow up with. I was a girl and protected from sin by her strict rules and the boys looking out for me. Yet her precious boys could screw half of London and probably did, but I slept with the one man, one time and wouldn't you know it I get myself pregnant? I reached out and asked for help and it was denied me. I know she has told you I was a whore and did it a lot sleep with boys and men; well let me put you straight, I did not. Ana, I lost my virginity to your father. I was stupid enough to think I meant something to him. Well I wasn't anything special. I was just a fool of a groupie." Ana thinks deep and hard and then she softly speaks.
"Mimi didn't say anything bad about you, not until Nonna came to stop. I didn't realise it at the time, but yeah they never badmouthed you at all, Mimi loved you for you letting me raise her, she really did. Mom why did you not try harder to be with me?"
"Anastasia, I did try but after years of rejection, I finally stopped putting myself out there to get hurt, it took a while, but doors slammed in my face, on my fingers and letters and gifts returned, well I got the message, loud and clear when my Mamma had a restraining order put in place... Yes okay I know why she was pissed off with me, for god's sake I let Frank and Mimi raise you, and not her and there was a good reason for it too, Scotland and the good life your grandparents wanted for you, was what I wanted for you, and in the end it was what your father wanted for you, to be a kid, looked after by his mother. I stuck to the agreement Lenny and I made before he died, that living with his parents was what was best for you. It took me years to get my courage and self esteem back, especially after the years of emotional abuse I got from Momma. My mother is a pretty nice looking grandma type of a woman, to the unknowing of you out there, but cross her, embarrass her or worse say no to her and she would make the real monsters out there fear her and her family, they fear her too, all of them not just ours, her own family do not like her, her brothers and her sister, they don't see her if they can help it."
"My father, he really asked Mimi and Papa Frank to raise me, and you agreed to this why?"
"He knew I was weak and would let my mother run rings around me and you. She came to stop for the last month of my confinement and let's just say everyone got a glimpse of the Mafia Mamma I'd had the misfortune to grow up with, Vita D'Acciaio she was not the nice kindly Nonna you seem to have in your life Ana, but she could have changed I guess, but I doubt it? I will never forgive her for starting the row in that last car ride your father and I took, and I know that it was her arguing with your father that caused the row in the car on the way to the hospital, for that I will hate her forever, she killed the only man I have ever loved and nearly cost the world you too."
"She did what? She caused the crash?" Her mother looked genuinely grief stricken and I passed her my handkerchief. Ana simply stood and looked so confused. "What were they arguing about?" She asks as she sobs. Is my baby releasing there may be some truth in this very credible story?
"Anastasia, they were rowing about your name of all things. He turned around when my waters broke in his brand new car; he laughed and said his baby girl, Anastasia Rose was making a mess of her daddy's new car... As he turned to face the road again grinning at me, he smiled Ana and he died with that smile on his face when the truck the drunk was driving hit his side head on."
"Nonna said it was you."
"She would. I mean Mimi was out of it cold, Papa Frank he was in a bad way, sat at his dying sons side, but still he held my hand as his wife lay hurt, I was alone in the back about to give birth and my mother, where was she? My mother was stood in the middle of the road and screamed and shouted at the truck driver that he had pissed off the wrong woman, did he know who she was. She was oblivious about anyone else hurt in the wreck. She was screaming about suing him and having him taken out. It was horrid, she actually thought it was a bloody mob hit on her, she is and was one delusional bitch, she was the wife of a small baker and his family, but hell to hear her talk she had the right connections."
"My Nonna is not like that Mom." I heard her call her mother Mom and saw the smile Carla had, that was not faked. "She is a good good person, she is kind she loves me, she, she wouldn't do that, not to me..."
"She is Ana, she just hides it well, why do you think Uncle Ray does not come over and why he is the farthest away from her all the time and why do you think she does not go to Australia much, why because Nonna hates Ray's wife Mariah, she is a brainless bimbo, who got knocked up to rob her of her son, a woman only good for sleeping with and making babies with, because she is a whore and not a good woman, and all because cannot cook like a good Italian wife should? Ana the only times Nonna goes there is to be at the birth of their children, and that's not by choice but at Nonna's insistence at her naming their boys, Ray is afraid of our mother and he always asks how high he should jump when she asks him to jump too, how do you not see this Ana? Why do you think Marco was hiding his bloody gay closet for so long and why do you think he spends so much time with you, he watches out for you, how many visits did she make to go and see him in the hospital? I went to see him from Hollywood, did she? No, she said it was gods punishment for him being gay and he deserved it?"
"What about Sunny?" She shouts at her mother and I stare and hope to god Taylor can prove any or all of this, because I have the distinct feeling I am gonna lose my balls and flagstaff when I meet the Mafia Mamma, Ana's Grandmother Vita.
"He's a Mamma's boy, through and through, and for some reason he gets more from her than any of us, he is a push over and does everything she asks of him. But he is in for a rude future, because if he is not married within the next year he will be in the seminary, she is determined one of her bloody kids is going to be given to god and he will go too or he will marry this girl he is seeing, the one Nonna dislikes, the secretary with glasses and fake boobs? Lucinda is not a Noona fan either Ana, ask the women in my brothers lives why that is."
"Wow..." I say as her mother lets loose. I guess there is some truth in this as Ana is not screaming and shouting...
"How come you know so much about me and them?" She asks. "And are they all afraid of Nonna? Mom tell me the truth, please?"
"We still talk Ana, we just don't publicise it, because poor Daddy gets it in the neck if we talk. They don't tell you because you are such a Nonna's girl, and let's face facts shall we Ana, because until you see the real Mamma Vita D'Acciaio, she will always be a saint. They protect you from the real Mamma, believe me as soon as you tell her about the baby you had, she will show her true colours."
"I cannot believe you knew about him and you said nothing?" I see the tears in Carla's eyes and I see the pain in Ana's too.
"Had you wanted me there you would have reached out Ana, but like Momma you are very independent and stubborn."
"I need to ask my uncles some questions and perhaps Get the Kavagnahs to release the room to me a little early?"
"Yes do that the truth is in there, I was at the will reading so I know the answers you seek about your father, they are in there, your father kept pretty amazing diaries, we were pretty good friends in those last couple of months. He was the love of my life. He was amazing, but he was too much for one girl to handle, he had a lot of love to give and we often joked he'd be a good candidate for polygamy, he always joked he had a lot of fans and too little time, he'd laugh when he said it too. I guess he never saw the end coming as quickly as it did. Listen thanks for talking to me at last, talk to the others before you tackle Nonna. Perhaps you could talk to Nonno first, he is a wise old man?"
"You talk to Nonno?"
"All the damned time, I have to get my fill of your stories Ana, he is so damned proud of you. He was the one was he not, the one to push you into going your own way and making your dreams come true?"
"Yes."
"He was the one who made sure you were taught well. He encouraged your dreams he pushed for you to be free of her influence and to be better person. He wanted much more than the church and marriage for you, he wanted you to have the world at your fingertips, and be that manic baking god, and he did it alone, she stopped scholarships and bakeries coming after you, she destroyed many offers from chocolate houses, but my father saw the one from John Hyde and told him to approach you at school, not at home." She is a daddy's girl, like Mia.
"Yes but Nonna did too, she encouraged me Mom." Ana is having none of it, she loves her family, they mean everything to her and all of a sudden she is hearing from a very credible Carla, that everything she was told was a lie, including her father's death and his life with her mother.
"Did she? Did she not say you had to settle down and marry, this year, last year? Did she not make the boys work for you in hopes they would get the businesses? Boys run the family businesses Ana; girls stop home and raise a family. This dream you have is in her eyes for the family. She helped you to make it happen for her grandsons future not yours, Ray, he says his boys love the life they have, but he cannot stress to the boys enough that the business is yours and they have to work for what they have, and what their grandmother wants and promises them is not hers to give away."
"What?"
"She thinks Ray Junior should have Australasia, and Sunny Junior will get Europe and America will be split between Rays other boys."
"Wow she has my business wrap up well then and into neat little bundles. What about my hopes for my chocolate empire?"
"What empire? You are headed to the nunnery, and the billions you are getting will be a good dowry for the church, so don't hold too much hope for her liking Christian here, especially if you marry him and do not become a Bride of Christ, and oh the business will revert back to becoming the D'Acciaio family bakeries. There will be chocolate and cafe's but her world is bread and Gelato."
"Okay then it seems I have a few more problem to clear before we go to see the oldies Nonna and Nonno? Christian this is way above madness, it's manic megalomania."
"She is an old fashioned Italian Momma, she rules the roost, she just had you believe it was your plan, but all along it was her plans. I have to be going Seattle Independent want this signing to go off without a hitch and Bobby will only panic if I am not there. Christian my numbers are in the file and everything I have on Mother Dearest too. Included in there are the secret parts of Papa Franks will pertaining to me. Momma never knew he was still good to me right until he died, he thanked me often for the light you brought to his world Ana." Ana was floored and gave her mother a hug, which was warmly received I think? What do I know of such things? "One day Ana those blinkers you wear will be off. Please be very careful mentioning the baby, she will fly off the handle, especially with you Chris. She was so nasty to Lenny and his family. She hated me for sticking to Lenny's last and dying wishes, your name and your living with his parents."
"My name, is it one of his records? It has always eluded me."
"No, it's a place he loved to visit in Florida. He has a house there; or rather I have a house there. Papa Frank left it to me. I love the place and Bobby does some really good writing there. If I get the dreaded writer's block we go there to unwind and it helps a lot being there."
"Anastasia is a place not a woman?" I ask. Ana too looks a little shocked. She thought she was named her after the Russian lost princess.
"No, it's the place he was happiest at. He loved Scotland, but he said he'd die a happy man if that was the last clear water he was ever to see. The view from his house is amazing, it overlooks Anastasia Island. The Anastasia State Park is just over the salt run and it was where he and I spent that last weekend together, it was an amazing weekend."
"How come I do not know any of this? How come she said they hated you and my father could not even remember you?"
"He and I saw a lot of each other in those final weeks, he sort of liked me and he was kind of glad to be having a daughter and he was mellowing towards fatherhood and being a better man, in fact he thanked me for keeping you all the damned time." She winked and Ana wept. I think she meant they had a lot thank you sex! I see the look of love her mother has. "Papa Frank knew what my mother was like and kept the visits to a minimum. She insisted she was there for the birth, as she has this 'tradition' where she picks the babies name. Your name, gheeze she did not like it, she wanted you to be called Vita Vallette, and for obvious reasons I did not like the name, and luckily loved the one your father had already picked, Anastasia. Had you been a boy you would have been Franklin Andrew, that was a given." She sobbed again and I stood looking like a lemon. I am not too good with these tears women seem to wet their faces with. When Ana cries it's soul destroying, she could ask for the moon and I would give it her just for the tears to stop.
"My mother was very demanding. When Mimi died, I tried to come back for you but she was having none of it. Papa Frank was like a lost soul and she took advantage of him, and the result was your going to live with them in London."
"Miss Steel, how did you allow this to happen?"
"Please call me Carla, and as I said I was a family black sheep, I was a model and an actress and I once took my top off in a fashion magazine. She made it sound like I was a porn star. I swear I have only ever had sex with five men, including your father I was married to the other four before we did the deed. Anyway she had some photos of me with husband number two, he was into some pretty shady stuff and god knows how she did it, but she has photos of me in not much clothing, actually I wore some rather risqué panties and a bra set and I was being lead around with a collar, it didn't help that I was leashed, it was my husband's kinky habit, sort of a thing, and as luck had it, I happened to like it." I know I stared at Ana and she sat down. "Anyway the judge looked at those photos and I lost out to her again. I came to take you out and spend some time with me, but you were drip fed her poison and I was made out to be all sorts of things I am not."
"Why did she hate you Mom and make me hate you?"
"You would have to ask her, but be warned Ana, she hates to lose at anything. Look now you know my side, ask your uncles to be honest with you,tell them you and I have spoken and perhaps you will see the truth for yourselves, but take the warning about your baby seriously, she could get violent. I have to be going Bobby will be trying to fix his tie and panicking. It was nice of you to see me Ana, and thank you Christian." Ana hugged her mother and I did the cheek kisses. I think I believe her? Taylor comes to see her to her car. With the promise of more visits, she left, as she did she said she is more likely to be a good friend than a mother, because even now, she says she hasn't got that mommy bond. I beg to differ. She seems to have had the fight taken from her, and now I am dreading the Nonna visit.
My grandmother the control freak:
As the lift doors closed I wondered what the hell my mother had let loose? I think I believe her, it certainly made more sense than my father and grandparents hating her, Papa Frank never bad mouthed her and Mimi thanked her for letting her raise me. Then I suddenly remember when I was little Mimi used to hate Nonna's visits and now I know why. The fact she knew about Baby Christian was a little bit of a shock and awe moment, one none of us dwelt upon. I doubt I will be going into the lion's den and if we do we know what's coming at least, for the first time in my life I say these words and mean it.
"My poor mother. Christian do you mind if we sort of speak to my uncles first, before we you know, we have to see Nonna?"
"Me and my balls thank you. That was one hell of a visit Baby. She seems very up front about not being a great mom. Had she wanted more kids to replace you she would have had them."
"What do you mean?"
"Sorry that sounded like having another baby would replace you, what I meant to say was perhaps she really doesn't feel the mother thing? Mia is the same way, she is inclined never to want children because she says she doesn't feel it, this mother thing?"
"I guess it's not a given. A lot of men feel that way. I mean there are a ton of absentee fathers out there. I was glad to know my father actually wanted me and he helped my mother. If I read it right they were more than friends in the end?" Christian is laughing.
"I nearly choked when she mentioned the collar and leash, who knew you'd inherited your mothers kinky side Baby?"I giggled; I knew how hornie I got when I was having my baby, so I don't have to imagine her needs being met by my very over sexed daddy. Taylor knocks and walks in.
"Taylor do you have Miss Steel's file?" He smiles and passes Christian a thick file and I take it to the 'suite' Christian has in his office. I hate to ask what he needs a bed in here for, but the question will be asked. "How is the file hunting down in the basement Taylor?"
"Not bad, we have a lot of her former boy toys coming in to speak to our people; she has all the files on you, and the other girls she found for you. Most of her 'pay-checks' are dead, which does not surprise me seeing as they were all of them of a certain age. She didn't seem to do much of the middle age thing, either really young or really old. Sir..."
"I kind of worked that out for myself. How many of the files on the boys can Dad still use to prosecute her to the fullest?"
"Too many, Sir. She has had the pick of the boys from Camp Calmez-Vous; she was and still is a true predator, she picks two a year and grooms them to greatness, so far none have made her high expectations, because none of them are you it seems."
"I swear I believed her when she said she found training the young guys too much trouble, then again I was still friends with her until very recently. How foolish was I?"
"Very... Sir... Barney has passed the file on Sebastian to your father, it seems he did not die from the choke he got from his 'man friends hands' he died from the belt she tied around his neck to make it look like a sex game gone bad." So Elena was the one who really killed Seb, interesting news.
"Who was the man friend?" I see Taylor smile.
"Your old sparring partner and the man who likes to say no to your expansion plans to the boat yard next to his church."
"Reverend Randolph Jackson, he was the rich guy Sebastian was seeing?" I am shocked and surprised the man is a staunch born again Christian and all round good egg, or so he seems, interesting.
"According to Lincolns very detailed files, then yes. Rev Randy Jackson was the man paying her ten thousand a month and he paid her a million in clean up fees. Too."
"I wonder if his ministry know they are paying a paedophile hush money? Because I doubt he has those sort of funds readily available Taylor?"
"I don't know there is power and money to be had in god and his ministry is big."
"He has a lot to lose then."
"Mrs Adam's file is thick with court dates and declined visitation appeals, I think if I were a betting man, this nice little old lady Miss Lambert calls Nonna is not so damned nice."
"I think I figured that out myself. Thanks for this Taylor, whats next?"
"Your father is taking the boys statements and Daniels Grandfather is personally interviewing her, when they have them, she was denied bail, as she did not have the surety of the ten percent needed."
"Is that a conflict of interest?"
"Nobody is getting her off were his words. And the public defender she has is useless. Might I suggest you take Miss Lambert home Sir, she has had a lot to face and an uphill battle with Vita to come." We both hear Ana cry. It seems there truth in those files and Carla was telling the truth, because there were a few oh fucks to be had.
"I may take her out on the Grace, can you have Mac make the arrangements, have her stocked with provisions for a couple days. And thank you Taylor. I do appreciate your hard work."
"Sir..." He heads back out and I go and see my lady.
"Ana, what's the matter?"
"Oh look you have to read the file too. My grandmother, my Nonna, the sweet old lady, wow she is a piece of work. How did I not see this before?" She points at the file I we have on her mother. It is quite a good read and she has in fact spent a lot of time since Ana was twelve trying to get her away from her own mother. I admire Carla Steel and wonder what the hell her Nonna is really like? I have the theme from the Godfather running through my head and try not to laugh but hell I thought my life with Elena was fucked up, Ana's and her grandmother's faked back history, may make my current situation with the Lincoln woman, pale into nothingness...
"We each believe and choose to see the things we want to see. I choose to see my mother as a crack whore and not a victim, thanks to you I am a much changed man. Mom always said I was too easy to judge and it seems Baby so were you."
"I am going to make a call. Please stay with me, I may need a lot of soothing?"
"My pleasure..." She stabs at the number on her phone and I wonder who she is talking to, until the Scottish voice comes into play... It's Jenny... They exchange words and Ana cries as she tells Jenny I am looking out for her and she confirms she always knew about the wee laddie and her mother had been stopped from interfering in her life by Nonna. They spoke in a soft voice and a few more tears were had. I know she called me out, but Ana told her she loved me and to stop hurting her and to get used to me being a fixture. I liked hearing that conversation, though it was a little hard to understand it all as they talk very weird and pretty damned quickly. They ended the call and Ana came to sit on my knee.
"My mother and Jenny clashed because Nonna told her she'd be out on her ear if she found Carla at the London house again. I need to make chocolates it's been ages since I was in a kitchen, I need to unwind and create, I have my best thoughts when my heads a mess."
"I was going to take you out on the Grace for a couple of days and work out some of your kinks at sea?"
"That would work too, a nice sea breeze... Oh and another cocktail idea too. I need one for my Nonna? How about a Witches Tit, nope that's Elena Lincoln's cocktail, umm I know, An Italian Sour, perhaps?" She sobs about the Nonna betrayal. I doubt I should laugh but I do.
"Ana, I do a great Screaming Orgasm, how about we give that one a tryout?"
"Oh yes please... Can we try it on this bed, by the way why have you got a bedroom in the back of your office?"
"I sleep here some nights, that's why. Some meetings go on until the middle of the night."
"Have you, have you, ever you know..." I wish I had not started this conversation. "...Had sex in it?" I asked him now I wish I hadn't.
"Does it matter Ana? If I have or haven't?"
"Yes, I need to know did your girls service your needs here?"
"No, nobody but you has ever slept in any of my beds."
"So, I guess we could try out the Screaming Orgasm then?" I give him the eye and I see the look in his, oh boy.
"You need only ask Anastasia, I live to please."
"Um, really well Mr Grey it would please me greatly if you were to make me scream an orgasm, on this bed, after all this here is all new virgin territory."
"I think it's been used Baby, by Elliot..."
"Way to spoil the moment Grey. Urk..." He laughs.
"Oh I don't know Ana, I do believe I can still make you have a mean orgasm Baby."
"Oh, yes please..." He strips as he walks towards his bed and I shake, I know that look and its sheer desire and as I take off my dress he tutts.
"No, striping I want to take your clothes off, I want to unwrap you and ravish you." He purrs as he stands at the foot of his bed, oh my god, orgasm number one right there. He is so hard to figure out, but then this is all new for us both. He and I made love until the skies started to darken. When we had showered and re dressed, he smiled.
"So, I am not meeting Nonna then?"
"Umm, I need to make the calls, but for now no... I want you in one piece I may love you a whole lot more and oh the Sex Bomb is your cocktail..."
"Umm I think your Pink Pussy would agree."
"Yeah well I didn't have time to get it waxed, I am sorry for the mess it made of your face I am none to steady at shaving my huhar dear?" He grinned.
"There is a solution, when we get to the boat I may have to do the job correctly."
"Oh my, that sounds like it could be fun?" We head down to the car and find Taylor talking to a man in black.
"Taylor?" Christian asks. "Who is this?"
"This Sir is Elena Lincoln's worse nightmare..."
"I thought that was me?" Ana joked.
"No that's me and son, you have no idea how pleased my boss is to have finally found Thelma..."
Who is the man in black? I wonder if Nonna is a good or bad Nonna? Find out next time lol...
read and review and I may do lemons in the next part lol...