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"Meredith, I feel like you're repressing your feelings and thoughts." Lexie told her
Meredith was sitting in her sister's office at her second session. Dressed in a grey tweed Michael Kors dress with red Christina Louboutin pumps, she looked frustrated.
"Trust me Lex, I'm not." Meredith replied
"Ok then...what happened next with Jeff after you caught him?"
"Well, I was angry at him for hurting me and for lying to me. I mean what kind of person does that to someone they claim to love, especially someone they have said wanted to spend the rest of their life with!" Meredith said angrily
"Good, you're angry..." Lexie starts to say
"Of course I'm angry, I'm beyond angry at him. I'm furious... he lied to me for months and made me believe that he was this amazing guy who loved me and wanted to be with me forever and then he goes and does something like that, it's insane! And, not only that but the way he acted and talked to me after I caught him..." Meredith says
"What did he say?" Lexie asks her
"He was all apologetic and he was trying to say that he didn't want to hurt me and that he cared about me; but if he really loved me he wouldn't have done that in the first place!" Meredith says angrily
Lexie looks at Meredith and gives her a slight smile
"What?" Meredith asks her
"You're angry."
"Well yeah."
"No Mer, I mean you're actually angry and talking about what happened; your feelings about what happened."
"Yeah, I guess I am."
"How does it feel?"
"It feels good. I guess no one has ever tried to really ask me about how I was feeling and just ask me if I was ok. But I wasn't-I'm not ok. I'm hurt that he did that to me." Meredith said softly to her
"What happened after that?" Lexie asked her
"I had to cancel everything; the venue, caterers the flowers the cake-that's something I never thought I would have to do."
"Did that make you mad?"
"Yeah, it did. Having to call all those places and to tell them I my wedding was cancelled was completely humiliating and horrible. Not only that but to have to call all of my family and friends and tell them that the wedding was cancelled totally humiliating." Meredith told her
"How did that make you feel?"
"Embarrassing because I couldn't actually tell them what happened..."
"Why not?"
"Because having to tell my family and friends that my fiancé cheated on me was something that I couldn't even say and it's not something that I ever thought would happen, plus everyone loved Jeff and thought he was great so I didn't want to her all their sympathy; thankfully mom and dad took care of it. But even so it was horrible, because now they had to hear everyone's sympathy and it made me mad."
"Why did it make you mad that they had to hear it?"
"Because they were the parents of the bride, it's something that parent's wait so long for and no offense Lex, but considering it was the first wedding for them; they were so happy and proud." Meredith told her
"No offense taken. Don't worry."
"It's like a wedding is something that parent's wait so long for and hope that their children will find someone to make them happy and to love them unconditionally; so having to cancel a wedding because their child was cheated on is pure crap."
"Ok. How are you feeling?" Lexie asks her
"Really good actually, getting to talk about everything...is kind of refreshing." Meredith admits
"I'm glad, you're doing great Mer." Lexie tells her with a smile
"So...what happens next?"
"Well, Cristina tells me that Derek invited you to a Gala a while ago?"
"Yeah, he...uhhh...asked me to go when we first starting dating...but I don't...I'm not sure if I should still go..."
"I think you should."
"You do?" Meredith asked her in confusion
"Yeah, absolutely. Go, have fun...besides, I know you...if you don't go, you're going to regret it, because you're not the type of person who lets go of a promise."
"Yeah, I know. I kind of hate that." Meredith admits with a huff.
"Good, so go and have a good time." Lexie tells her as she goes to stand up
"Wait...do I tell him that I'm...do I tell him?" Meredith asks as she gets her things ready to leave
"No, don't tell him. Just say...just tell him that working on figuring things out." Lexie tells her as they go to walk out of her office
"Ok, ummm...thanks Lex..." Meredith says as she goes to give her a hug
"No, problem Mer, anytime" She replies as they hug
Meredith walks out of Lexie's office and of the building as she now has a big dilemma on her hands, what to wear to this thing.