A/N: So yes I'm still alive and no I haven't forgotten about this story. I kept flipping between 3 different ways how I wanted this chapter to turn out and honestly I'll say this now, this another filler-ish chapter because the drama will not happen.(hides behind Jacob) I know, I know, I know blame Leah and Jake. It is all their fault. They both needed this to happen before all hell breaks loose.

So more calm before the storm action...

Diclaimer: SM owns Twilight... I own my procrastination... and Embry... oh yeah the kid is mine... okay well not really... but for a slight moment I was completely blissfully happy because I really believed he was mine.

Ch21:Don't You Dare

Leah gave up complaining seeing as Jake wouldn't set her down until he placed her in his car and buckled her seatbelt like she was a child. Then he jogged over to the driver's side and got in zooming off without even bothering to say hello, bye or something to his parents. She did want answers and the pool game looked like it wasn't going to happen after he kissed her and they were interrupted.

She glanced at him when he began to sing 'Moves Like Jagger' as it played on the radio. Leah never heard someone mess up a song so badly as he was doing at that moment. She kept her laughs to herself when he took her hand in his large one. He kept glimpsing at her from the corner of his eye while making sure to keep his eyes on the road so that he didn't end up crashing his really nice car into a tree. He was a bit out of tune as tried to sing, okay never mind he was horribly out of tune. But with Jake acting that way kept the awkwardness that might have come after the kiss they had.

She kept herself from touching her lips that even she knew were still plump. She was surprised that he had the balls to kiss her after all he went through that day. But what shocked her even more was how her body always gave into his demands. Once again had they not been disturbed by something or someone she would have given him everything on a silver platter. She supposed maybe she should tell him she was a virgin but the few times they had gotten close to doing anything the thought never crossed her mind. Not that his mouth ever gave her a chance to speak whenever his lips touched hers.

When he pulled into the parking lot of the La Push Resort he smiled as the song went off and did a slight bow with his head, "I know I know… that was amazing wasn't it?" he grinned at her.

Leah chose to remain silent, as she shook her head, rolled her eyes and looked outside the passenger side window to hide her smile. Jake parked and got out the car before she could push the button to release her seatbelt.

Her feet didn't even hit the ground when she was pulled right back up in his arms and thrown over his shoulder as he held on to her thighs. Leah huffed watching his back muscles move under his tight gray t-shirt.

"You know you can put me down now? I have legs you know." Leah folded her arms under her breast blowing the hair that fell in her face since she was still upside down while he walked up to his hotel room door.

"Oh I know." He nodded his head against her legs. "But you might try and run away and I can't risk that." He chuckled squeezing her thighs for emphasis. She ignored how he was making her feel from the few touches he had given her so far.

"Me running the few miles it would take me to get home? In this hot weather? Haha, you're real funny Black. Hilarious even, someone doesn't know me at all." She said as he finally got his key card into the door.

He placed her on her feet by dragging her down his body very slowly and sensuously as he held on to her hips. She felt how hard he was when she came across the rather large bulge in his jeans. She held back the gulp as he held her firmly in front of him.

"How about I get to know you better then?" He raised his eyebrows suggestively kicking the door closed with his foot.

Leah still had her arms folded as she narrowed her eyes at him before they both busted out laughing.

"Wow... you're kind of really cheesy." She shook her head still smiling moving her hands to her sides.

"I'll take that it's better than the other names that you called me before." His hands were still in place on her hips, with his thumbs moving in a back and forth motion.

"I suppose so Black," she shrugged, smiling slightly as she moved her hands to around his forearms.

She could feel herself leaning into his fingers forgetting every question she had in her mind. The pads of his thumbs were brushing back and forth in such a soothing motion that she was starting to get a bit sleepy until she remembered something majorly important causing her to glare at him for a second as she tried to take a step back.

But he stepped with her rubbing his thumbs up the side of her waist. "Don't push me away right now." he pleaded softly looking down at her.

"I still need answers." She was close to crossing her arms over her chest and throwing a tantrum like a child not getting their way but she stopped herself when she saw the desperate look in Jake's eyes.

"I'll do whatever I can to answer whatever question you have for me. Come on let's sit down." He nodded his head towards the bed.

Leah nodded as he linked their fingers together and led her to the bed. Her heart beat began to speed up with her mind racing about all the things they could possibly do on it. It never failed that these thoughts only came around whenever she was near Jake. She shook her head to clear it as he sank down on the bed pulling her down with him.

Leah needed a bit of space so she took her hand out of his, pulled off her boots placing them at the edge of the bed. Then she moved to the middle of the bed and folded her legs beneath her Indian style. Jake tugged off his shoes before he turned to face her, leaving his legs spread out on either side of her as he looked her directly in her eyes.

"Okay, ask away my beauty." He smirked slightly his dark eyes becoming playful.

"If I'm the beauty wouldn't that make you the beast then?" she watched as he showed his teeth as if he were going to growl at her before he began to smile. It was one of the most adorable things she had seen from him.

"Careful Clearwater you're playing with fire." He licked his lips in such a smooth manner that Leah hardly found it fair.

Leah's breath hitched, she definitely needed to get the conversation back on the serious side, no more playing with him. She needed her answers and she was finally going to get some. That was if she could keep her mind on track, thinking of Bella Swan definitely did that and she sobered up quickly wiping any traces of a smile off her face.

Jake seemed to read her expression easily and scooted closer to her bending his knees to move himself until he was a few inches away from her.

He grabbed her hands in his. "You are going to hate me after I tell you this and it's why I wanted to hold it off. But I guess you can't hate me anymore than you hated me a few days ago anyway—" he started to ramble.

"Just rip it off like a band-aid." She interrupted as her heart began to start racing, and she started to get nervous about what she was about to hear. She moved her hands back to her lap so he wouldn't feel how clammy her hands were becoming.

"Okay…" he furrowed his eyebrows before locking eyes with her. "You knew how much I didn't want to stay out here when I was younger." He stated but Leah nodded her head anyway. "My whole dream was to start my own business. Get away from being stuck here like my parents were. I realize now that they were never stuck they just didn't want to leave …" he looked down at the bed pattern before returning his intense gaze to her. "I uh, didn't have many friends at first being the huge angry kid from the rez. And that was when I saw her, pretending to help another student with a question as she looked directly at me… apparently she was told 'to keep an eye on me,' I never found out who told her that but I didn't even care then…Since I remembered seeing her from childhood days I trusted her." his jaw tensed for a minute before he relaxed.

Leah didn't respond, deciding to remain silent as she watched the facial expressions he made while he talked.

"I was there all of three months I told her everything, every dream, every fear, she became my best friend and that's all it took for me to fall…" he trailed off as Leah finished the rest of his cut off sentence in her head, that's all it took for him to fall in love with her.

Leah held back the stupid tears that were threatening to break through as she asked him through watery narrow eyes, "Did you know you were in love with her when you came to me that night at the coves?"

He began to fumble over his words causing Leah to scoot back a bit from his black jean clad legs and white socked feet. If she moved back anymore she would probably end up on the floor, but she didn't care. She wanted an answer… like sometime today.

"Did you…" she spoke through gritted teeth, "or did you not know?"

He reached out to touch one of the tears that threatened to fall down her eyes but Leah flinched back as she waited for his reply. She angrily wiped the corner of her eye with shaky hands before looking back at him.

He sighed. "I didn't know at the time and I suppose I never really loved her… I just believed I did. You have to trust me… everything I told you that night at the coves was true. I had it in my head that I could have it all, the businesses, you, my family and even Bella." He shifted himself until he was back to being only a few inches away from her. "My father only knew the information he was getting from Charlie and a few gossiping residents. Once he found out how close I was getting to Bella everything went downhill from there. Arguments ensued, accusations were made. It was world war three, four and five between me and my father. Since it was his home I left. I never forgot you though. You were always in the back of my head. I just thought I couldn't come back, I definitely didn't picture you would look as beautiful as you turned out to be." Jake said finally able to get her hands back in his warm grip.

"That doesn't explain why you married her." Leah glared at him but she did keep her shaking hands in his to calm down a bit.

"I know… it's difficult to explain Leah and I feel stupid for falling for it." Jake moved one his hands to scratch the back of his neck.

"I bet you do." She bit the inside of her lip as she mulled over everything taking her other hand out of his. She didn't want him to see her cry.

No way, not again.

She could feel his eyes on her when she had gotten up and walked to the bathroom door. Before she could even get it open, she heard him get up. He grabbed the sides of her waist gently stopping her from moving any further. "I'm sorry Lee. I honestly can't say that enough but it's in the past and I can't change it now. Do you still want me Leah?" he asked pulling her until she was almost touching his body. Leah clenched her fingers into fists as he squeezed her hips.

Yes, she answered in her head without any hesitation. She knew she still did. But she didn't want to tell him that. She didn't know if she even could with the stupid tears threatening to fall.

Without turning to face him she repeated his question as he leaned down to kiss her shoulder. "Do you want me?" she hated the vulnerability in her voice but she still wanted to hear his answer even though she was upset.

She could hear his loud exhale before he whispered right against her neck. "Fuck, I want you so badly it hurts. I'm trying here. I really am."

She knew he was trying. She had to give him credit for that. But would trying end up being enough?

He kissed the top of her head as he asked, "Do you want to go home?"

Leah closed her eyes sniffing as she leaned back against his shirt. "I probably should go…"

He didn't say anything instead he rested his chin on the middle of her hair.

Leah could feel his rather large bulge straining through his jeans against the small of her back. How he could still be hard after the serious conversation they just had? She had no idea.

And even though she was still pissed, she felt empowered that she was always able to do that to him. She unclenched and flexed her fingers as Jake ran his hands up and down her hips. He began to rock them both side to side humming a random tune. She was glad she no longer felt like crying as she listened to humming.

They stayed like that for several minutes before he began to bend his head down to brush kisses along the side of her neck.

Leah tried to calm the rapid almost erratic beating of her heart. It had been all she could manage just to string words together to say something else to Jake. While she had never been one to be completely silent or anything like that, she figured that he must have been the reason why her skin felt tingly and all the air seemed to be gone. She was damn near hyperventilating because of how he touched her. And he wasn't even doing anything but giving her butterfly kisses.

She finally turned to face him looking up at him. "What am I supposed to do with you?"

"Only you can answer that Lee. I will say this much I'll do anything to be with you." He kept his gaze on her moving his hands to the small of her back pulling her into his body until there was no space between them.

Leah laid her head against his chest to listen to his heart beat and found that it was beating as fast as hers. She sighed wrapping her arms around his back reveling in his scent as she calmed down completely.

She didn't know what she was going to do with him but it didn't stop her from standing on the tip of toes to brush her lips across his. Jake seemed surprised by the action at first but it didn't take long for him to deepen the kiss. He moved his hands down and cupped her butt pressing her more onto his hard on. Leah's body was on fire, she was able to ignore how she felt before but now…

Now, she was just tired of being a virgin… and if she was going to give it to anyone she wanted it to be him. In her heart she knew she had always chosen him even if she didn't want to admit it out loud.

She moved her hands to the edge of his shirt and tugged before he finally got the hint and stepped back a bit to pull it off. She looked from his eyes, down to his lips, down to his sculpted godly chest, even lower counting his washboard abs leading to the strip of his happy trail that was mostly concealed by his boxer briefs and jeans. The gods had definitely blessed the guy in the body department.

He chuckled but didn't say anything as he stepped back towards her.

Leah looked back up at him and he lowered his mouth over hers. He moved his hands down to her thigh pulling it up against his hip. Then he grabbed her other thigh and held her against him never breaking the kiss. Leah wrapped her arms loosely around his neck as Jake backed up until he his legs hit the edge of the bed. He sat down with her straddling his lap. Her body was super aware of him: the heat of his body, his hard on pressed into her core, his lips and hands seemed to be everywhere.

"Leah?" he stopped kissing her breathing extremely hard as his fingers skimmed the edge of her shirt. Leah placed her hands under his forearms and helped him take off her shirt keeping her eyes on his. After he got her top off her he threw it somewhere behind her, she didn't know where nor did she care when he caressed her lips.

He kissed her sweetly before placing passionate kisses down her neck to her shoulder down to the edge of her royal blue strapless bra. His eyes went back up to hers and Leah rolled her eyes in frustration moving her hands to the front clasp and let it fall down to the floor. She had never been shy of her body before and she wasn't going to start now.

Jake licked his lips before he admired her breasts. "Beautiful…" he whispered.

He took her by surprise when he dipped down and suckled her, biting at her nipple, so that she squirmed and writhed, so that she fought to escape but pull him closer, too.

This is what she needed she realized as she shivered. She still wanted answers of course but she wanted him more. The answers would come soon she hoped. She ground her hips into him as he raised up to meet her. If she wasn't turned on before she definitely was now.

He groaned moving his mouth back up to hers. "You sure you want to do this?" He asked gruffly placing his forehead against hers.

Leah nodded pulling his lips back against hers.

He pulled away from her mouth as he entreated. "Promise one thing."

"What?" she blinked a few times as he brushed the pad of his thumb over her nipple. If he kept doing that she wouldn't be able to think straight soon enough.

"Promise that you'll never regret this."

She half panted half laughed out, "You can't make me promise that."

He groaned as she swiveled, "Well promise that you won't hate me later on."

Hate you? Why would I be doing this if I hated you? I want this; I want you, that was what she wanted to answer out loud but that would be letting him know way more than he already assumed. So she pulled his lips back to hers and pushed against his nice warm magnificent chest with her own until he laid down on the bed.

He grabbed her hips and flipped them both so that he was on top. Leah watched him stand up to his full height pulling her tights off so that she was only left in her black panties. He unbuttoned his jeans and tugged his jeans off and instead of ogling she kept her eyes firmly on his. He went over to his bag for a minute and pulled out a gold wrapper.

And Leah raised her eyebrow in question. Did he plan for her to sleep with him? Or maybe someone else…

"Always have to be prepared." He smiled sheepishly coming back over to her. She didn't see him remove his boxer briefs or slide the condom on. Nor did she want to in fear of changing her mind after she saw how big he was outside his jeans. Feeling the bulge and seeing it was two completely different things.

He grabbed her left foot and placed soft kisses from her ankle all the way to her inner thigh. Her whole body began to shake when he jerked her panties down over her thighs, down her knees and she kicked them away.

He was on top of her in a second pressing her down into the mattress. Her body rippled with pleasure, with the knowledge that was coming.

He placed his fingers between her legs and Leah quivered when he touched her clit. It was embarrassing at how wet she was but he just smiled and kissed her on the lips. "Wow you're so wet…I wonder how you taste but I'll save that for another time." He said as she bit her lip.

Leah's mind became fuzzy with his large finger probing into her entrance. Leah had touched herself before but she had never gotten to her barrier since her fingers weren't long enough and had Jake been patient enough to actually finger her he would have found out she was a virgin still.

Jake moved his fingers and placed his hands on either side of her shoulders as he kissed her on her lips again. She felt his cock against her inner thigh before he leaned in rubbed it against her core. Leah let out a soft moan and Jake looked into her eyes.

He shifted and pushed the blunt crown in just the smallest closed her eyes waiting for the pain to come. His head was huge she never looked to see how large he was so she didn't even know how much more she had to go.

His eyes widened with realization and he gritted his teeth. "Fuck… please don't tell me you're a virgin Leah."

"I won't be for long." Leah took a heavy breath.

His body trembled with restraint, she could tell he yearned to be joined with her but he paused. "I can't do this..."

"You already are..."she huffed.

She watched all the emotions flitter across his face before he looked down at her. "Since you wouldn't promise me anything else promise me you'll tell me if I hurt you."

"I promise." Leah swallowed.

"It will be over very soon." He wedged himself in even farther. Leah bit the inside of her cheek gripping the duvet beneath her.

Jake exhaled a breath before he kissed her. He flexed against her once, twice, and he burst through her barrier. "Shit…" he muttered. "You are so fucking tight." He leaned his head down to watch himself go inside of her.

There was a tear, the rush of her blood, and she arched up and let out a strangled cry, every muscle in suspended agony. Why the fuck did she want this again? She heard stories from Rosalie, Claire and a few other girlfriends before but they definitely didn't describe anything close to this. This fucking hurt.

He froze as she adjusted. "You okay?" he asked hoarsely.

Leah nodded she didn't know if she could talk just yet, breathing kind of hurt then. He brushed his lips across her wet cheeks.

"We can stop." He stated although he was gritting his teeth again.

"Don't you dare." She glared at him.

"It helps if you relax your muscles…." He whispered rubbing his arms up and down her body.

She didn't ignore the worried expression in his eyes. This must have been hard for him too. He didn't look that comfortable trying to stay still like that.

When Leah finally relaxed and moved her hips up he commenced again. He started off gentle as they began a slow rhythm Leah easily caught on to. When the pain ebbed away and all she felt was pleasure they rode each other harder. Their actions propelling them across the bed, until she was knocking up against the frame, and she had to reach out for the headboard to steady herself.

Leah didn't know if it was minutes, or seconds before the room swirled and she swore she saw stars.

"Leah," Jake called out as he exploded in a fiery wave a moment after her.

He stayed in that position on top of her using his hands so he wouldn't crush her until her breathing returned to normal.

He moved a few strands of her hair from her face kissing the tip of her nose. "You okay?"

Leah nodded as he slowly withdrew it was at that moment a bit of pain came so she winced with discomfort. Jake frowned as he stood up picking up her up bridal style from the bed. He pulled back the top cover throwing it on the floor before placing her under the sheet. Leah immediately snuggled into the mattress pulling the sheet up to cover herself.

Leah closed her eyes as he left. She felt a gust of wind of another blanket being placed over on top of her and the sheet.

Then he left again, Leah assumed to the bathroom although she was too lazy to really look and see. She heard him rustling around then the running of water before he stepped back out and climbed into the bed behind her.

He scooted until he was behind her. His breath hit her neck as he spoke softly. "Open for me."

Leah sighed as he moved the wet towel between her legs. She opened enough for him so that he was able to clean her. She didn't mind the slight pain that came as he softly moved the towel back and forth kissing her bare shoulder. When he got up again to dispose of the towel she closed her eyes pulling the blankets up over herself. Behind her closed eyelids she knew the second he turned off the lights.

He returned to the bed cuddling behind her. "Can you stay here tonight?"

"Does it look like I plan to go anywhere?" she asked keeping her eyes closed.

"Well no…" he sounded amused.

"Claire will cover for me. After all I've done for her she better…" Leah sighed.

"Did I hurt you?" he asked massaging up and down her arm.

"I'll live." Leah shrugged snuggling into the soft pillow as her back was to him.

"I didn't mean to be so rough." He placed his arm around her.

"You weren't." she sighed trying to keep her eyes closed.

"You drive me crazy..." He kissed the crook of her neck.

"Mm-hm." She yawned. She was really tired and he wanted to have a conversation. Really?

"You'll be sore for a day or two." He continued on talking.

"I'm fine now." Leah murmured, a lie but she really wanted him to let her sleep.

"I could run a hot bath, to ease the pain." He suggested against her hair.

"Don't you dare." She opened one eye to glare at him forgetting that she wasn't facing him.

"It won't bother you the next time," he offered as a meager consolation.

If Leah wasn't so tired, she would have slapped him. "Jake…"

"Hmm Lee?" Jake moved so she could see part of his head.

"Shut up and let me sleep." She nestled into the pillow closing both her eyes again.

Jake chuckled kissing the side of her ear before lying pulling her closer to him. He mumbled something that Leah didn't hear as she was finally able to go to sleep. She would think about the consequences of their actions later but at that very moment she couldn't bring herself to regret her decision.

The birthDAY turned into a half birthday week... and honestly the only thing I was able to do was review from my phone and look at all the story alerts and reviews to all my other stories...

No more parties for me please...

I know absolutely no drama in this chapter at all... but i'm telling you I blame Jacob and Leah. Yup I do :)

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