Having some really weird issues getting this chapter up. Don't know how to fix an outdated url. Hoping that I can just take the chapter down and re-post it.

Hey Everyone. Here is the next chapter for you. I feel like this one is kind of short but the next one is kind of long so they should even out. And just a heads up I know I usually update on wednesday and Saturday however this saturday I may be unable to do so. My family may be going to the beach and I'm not sure how much internet access i'll have. So if the chapter is not up saturday look for it on Sunday. I don't want to wait a week between posts but that would buy me some time to finish up the last few chapters. But it should be up sunday. Also next Wednesday i'm going on a day trip and so I can either post that day's chapter early in the morning or around five or six at night. I'm not sure how many of you read this but if you have a preference let me know.

Anyways were bouncing between character perspectives again in this chapter. A little of Freddie, Sam and Carly. But in the next chapter its almost entirely Sam and Freddie so that's something to look forward too.

iAm Not Okay

Chapter Twenty One

Carly and Sam were on shaky ground the whole weekend and Freddie hardly saw either of them. Spencer asked for his help moving a chunk of his sculpture down to the basement and caught sight of Carly, she looked tired and small standing on the steps in her pajamas.

Sam he bribed out of her house with the promise of fried chicken. She also looked unhappy, even with her beloved food. He was somewhat more worried about Sam; significant feelings aside, Carly had Spencer around all the time to keep an eye on her. Sam's mom had a habit of taking weekend trips and leaving the teen on her own. Not to mention the depressed behavior just wasn't her.

He was happy to see Monday roll around. School forced the girls to be sort of normal and actually speak to each other; they shared a few words in the morning but between classes the talking was minimal. Right before lunch he was walking towards the girls lockers; Sam was already there and Carly was coming down the steps. When the brunette saw them she turned back. Freddie was torn between stopping her and having a chance to speak to Sam alone. Last night he decided he was going to get her to admit to having a boyfriend or whatever else it was that was bothering her. And if it did happen to be a boyfriend then he wasn't really sure what he'd say.

"Hey," Sam looked up from her phone. Chances were she didn't even see Carly turn away.

"Hi."

"Were you going to go to lunch now?" He asked. It should have been an obvious yes but there were days she didn't show up till halfway through lunch, other days when she came in on time and shoveled her food down in five minutes and left.

"Not sure yet," she was turning her phone over repeatedly in her hand. She was waiting for a text.

"If we hurry we could make it to Inside-Out Burger before our next classes start, I'll buy."

"Of course you would, but I can't."

"You're turning down free food?" He asked skeptically.

"I'm turning down the walk; you're welcome to pick something up for me." She replied quickly.

"Let's just hit the cafeteria then," Sam shook her head and Freddie could feel the disappointment spreading through him.

"I've got to meet up with someone."

It wasn't confirmation of a boyfriend but it didn't make him feel any better. "Oh, who?"

The phone vibrated in her hand. "None of your business, I got to go," Sam hoisted her bag on her shoulder and starting walking away.

"Wait!"

"What Benson, I'm going to be late."

"Uh," the whole wait thing had slipped out. He assumed it was his subconscious trying to prolong his time with her or keep her away from the mystery person. "Are we still meeting up to go over you're last test?"

Sam wasn't really known for her patience and rather than answer she kept walking.

"Sam!"

"I said we were this morning Benson what did you do fall and hit your head on something," she waved her hand dismissively over her shoulder and disappeared around the corner. Freddie watched her go before slouching down against the lockers.

Sam hurried through the halls until she reached the back door. Her legs started to shiver the moment she stepped outside. It was cold enough to snow she was almost positive and thanks to Ronan she was out here underdressed and going numb. She hurried down to the practice field and over to where the school housed the lawn equipment. Ronan was waiting on the back side.

"It's freezing out here!"

"Aw, you want me to warm you up." He stepped closer and she moved around him. The wind was less brutal on this side.

"I'd rather freeze to death."

Ronan smirked at her. "I don't think that's one of the options, but it might be an entertaining sight so I'll make you a deal, we don't have to do anything today but only if you manage to sit out here with me for the rest of the lunch period."

"Sure you won't get cold?" Sam asked. She had a tough skin and could handle the cold. She couldn't count how many times her mom had forgotten to pay the heating bill. And if she needed to shiver and shake to stay warm she would; anything was better than sharing body heat or spit with the boy in front of her. Besides Ronan would probably give in and go back inside before the thirty minute lunch period was up and she'd be free to go.

So they sat in relative silence, Ronan making his occasional comment. Sam ignored him mostly and was trying to decide if she'd have to time to run home and change before meeting up with Freddie after school. It was around the time she was doubting she'd ever feel warm again when he said she was starting to look blue.

"It's not that cold out." At least she didn't think it was, it had to be a lot colder before frostbite started to kick in right?

"If you say so," he glanced at his watch. "What's your next class?"

Sam looked at him skeptically, why should it matter to him? "Biology, I should probably leave soon if I'm going to be there on time."

"Since when do you care about being on time?"

"Since I decided I was going to actually try to pass the class and you know what, it's not the only thing I'm succeeding at; I do believe I am the winning in our little deal." Sam picked up her bag that had been leaning against her leg for extra warmth.

Ronan laughed. "That's funny Puckett."

"What?"

"That you think you could ever actually win when I have that video, you might as well forget being on time for that class." He stood and stepped closer to her.

"We had a deal."

"Puckett, I took a video of you changing in the locker rooms and posted it on the school's web page, what makes you think I'm noble enough to honor that deal?"

Sam was sure that never in her life had she hated someone as much as she hated him. It just kept repeating over and over in her mind until the words apparently slipped out of her mouth.

"Well for the next thirty minutes you need to pretend that's not the case, Marcy's out of town for a few days so you're just going to have to work overtime." Her eyes widened and she side stepped him as he moved in towards her.

"Who is Marcy?" Sam demanded.

"You know Marcy, tall, big boobs, a little insecure but super easy-you're like a damn bank safe compared to her," he moved towards her again and she pushed him away. "We have an agreement Puckett." He said heatedly.

"Are you dating her?" She asked as she dropped down to sit again. A second ago she didn't think it was possible to hate him more. Of course he had to prove her wrong.

Ronan shrugged. "I guess she's the girlfriend if that's what you're asking but I don't see why you care so," he plopped down next to her and Sam was forced to put off her thoughts for the time being.

Carly eyes went blurry again as she was staring at the board. This was the third or fourth time it had happened and she brought her hand to her head quickly. Freddie who was sitting next to her looked over again and mouthed the words 'are you okay?' She nodded her head again but very gently.

"Carly Shay," she raised her head slowly to the teacher that had called her name. She was standing there arm extended out with a dry erase maker in hand. "If you'd please come work out the equation."

"Oh yes sorry," Carly nearly jumped out of her chair but after taking a step she stumbled and grabbed hold of the nearest desk and chair. There were a few gasps from others in the room and two hands wrapped around her upper arms and directed her back into a chair. Freddie was suddenly standing in front of her as well as the professor. They were fuzzy but she knew both faces well enough to make them out.

"Carly are you okay, Carly?" That was Freddie talking. At least she was pretty sure it was him. There was some mumbling and then Freddie was helping her back to her feet. The dizziness was starting to subside but she held tight to his arm and he led her out of the room.

"You okay Carly?"

"I'm alright, I think." They walked slowly down the hall towards the nurse's office. The teacher must have given her a heads up because she met them in the hallway and nearly carried Carly the rest of the way. Freddie followed wanting to make sure she was okay. The nurse was asking questions like crazy.

"Did you get enough sleep?" No.

"I think so."

"Have you been stressed lately?" Yes.

"Maybe a little bit more than usual."

"When did you last eat?" A proper meal? Don't remember.

"I skipped breakfast."

The nurse went to the fridge and removed a bottle of soda and poured some into a plastic cup. She also picked up a packet of saltines and handed both to Carly.

"It's probably just because you skipped breakfast, we get a lot of that around exams, people are stressed, they forget to eat and lack of sleep."

"She's going to be okay though right?" Carly looked over at Freddie as she sipped on the soda. He looked so concerned. She felt terrible because that's how he'd been looking at her the past week and she just kept saying she was okay when she knew she really wasn't okay.

"She'll be alright, are you feeling dizzy anymore Miss Shay?" The nurse asked.

"No, I'm good Freddie you can go back to class."

"Are you sure?"

"Miss Shay will be finishing her snack and lying down for a while so it might be quite boring if you stay."

Freddie smiled. "I'll go then."

"Can you get my stuff from class?" Carly asked as the nurse settled her back on some pillows.

"Yeah, I can drop it off with you later." He left the room and Carly finished her snack. She lowered herself down on the cot and closed her eyes.

Ronan almost seems to terrible to be real doesn't he? Anyways I'll do my best to get my posts up as regularly as possible. I hope you enjoyed this chapter. For those who really want to know the chapters are going to become more and more Seddie filled at this point.

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