Santana's P.O.V
I wake back up around one but Quinn is no where in sight. I sit up in the bed and wipe my eyes then get up and go to the bathroom. Finally. I finally have Quinn back and I am not going to fuck it up this time. It's good that we haven't officially got together yet because I think we need to talk about a few things. When I come out the bathroom, Quinn is sitting on the bed in a tank top and shorts with her hair pulled back in a ponytail. I walk over to her and lay next to her on the bed.
"Why are you still naked?" She asks
"Why are you dressed?"
"I got cold."
"I would have kept you warm." I say and she shrugs
"So...I'm thinking lunch date." I say and she chuckles
"What? The sooner the better." She smiles
"Okay but you need to shower, you stink." She says playfully and I roll my eyes
"Whatever. Come shower with me." She shakes her head
"I already showered and talked to Britt. We have until 4 before Maya comes back." She says and I get up and go to the bathroom. I take a quick shower and when I get out she's ready to go. I go get ready and we leave. I let her pick the restaurant though, so I don't know where we're going. Some place called Lola's. When we walk in, it's kind of lowly lit but it gives you an at home feeling. It's almost full but all I see is people eating burgers.
"You brought me to a burger place?" I ask as we walk to our table
"It's good. Now sit down." She says as she sits at one side of the table. I sit on the other side and we're brought our menus.
"Why would you put radish on a burger? That's gross." I say as I look through the different burgers on the menu
"Stop complaining." She says and I shrug. I order what drink I want and Quinn tells the waitress what she wants then she walks away.
" I want to talk about some things." Quinn says as she puts her menu down
"We need to." I say and put my menu down
"If we're going to do this again then I need to know why it even fell apart the first time."
"Why I cheated?" I ask and she nods
"We were young. I was stupid. I got scared of committing to one person."
"And how will I know you won't get scared and hurt me again?" She asks as the waitress brings our drinks and asks if we're ready to order. I tell her no and she walks away
"Because I'm not that stupid kid anymore. I grew up and realized how stupid I was to ever let you go. Plus it was once. It was a stupid ass decision and I would never make the same mistake twice." I say as she takes a sip of her water.
"You really hurt me."
"I know and I'll spend the rest of my life trying to fix it."
"Why? Why do you still even want me after what I did?" She says softly and looks down
"You fucked up, just like I did but if you're willing to move past it then so am I."
"What I did was way worse than what you did. I kept you two apart for 7 years of her life."
"You're right, you did but it wasn't worse. Though those are years I can never get back, if get to be there for the next 50 years, I think I can overlook that." I say and she sighs
"I'm so sorry."
"It's okay. Stop saying that."
"...I could have seriously fucked up Maya. She probably has abandonment issues and it's all my fault." She says and wipes her eyes. I reach over the table and take her hand
"Look, people make mistakes okay? She knows I didn't leave her and when she gets older she'll understand the situation better."
"And hate me for keeping you away."
"Then we'll get her a psychiatrist or something. She'll probably need one having me as a parent anyway." I say jokingly and she cracks a little smile.
"Whatever we have to deal with in the future, we'll deal with as a family." I say and she takes a deep breath and nods. She goes to say something and then we hear
"Cause your sex takes me to Paradise
Yeah, your sex takes me to paradise and
it shows, yeah. Cause you make me feel like"
Shit. Where the hell is my phone? I search my pocket but it's not there. Fuck
"I been locked out heaven, for too long -" I finally find it in my jacket and cut the ringtone off.
"Nice ringtone." Quinn says dryly and I don't say anything
"Who was that?" She asks
"No one."
"We're sitting here, trying to figure out if we should get back together and you're lying? Nice move Santana." Fuck. I sigh and say
"It's Ashley. She sent me a text."
"And that's her ringtone?" She asks and I nod.
"So you two have had sex?"
"Yeah."
"And her sex took you to paradise huh?" She says and I roll my eyes
"Now is not the time for your crazy jealousy."
"What's that supposed to mean?"
"You're being jealous for no reason. You want me to change the song then I'll change it, just chill."
"Don't tell me to chill."
"Quinn, it's a fucking ringtone!" I say frustratedly
"That implies a lot more!"
"So fucking what?"
"You obviously like her."
"Duh I like her, she's my friend."
"More like your fuck buddy." She says and I sigh. She's seriously pissing me off right now.
"Look, we had sex once...well not once but it was in one day."
"How many times then?"
"Why does this matter?"
"Answer the question Santana." She says
"Maybe like...4...or 5. Why does this matter?"
"So, all the shit I heard about you being heartbroken was bullshit. You felt well enough to fuck that slut." She says but I don't respond because the waitress comes back. I tell her no again and she leaves
"She's not a slut, and you have no fucking right to be pissed because I slept with someone else. You had a fucking boyfriend!"
"He wasn't my boyfriend and we didn't sleep together!"
"Who cares? You told me I should date but the thing is, I don't date. I haven't dated anyone since you. I fuck and that's as far as it goes." I say and she crosses her arms
"So you fucked her to get over me?"
"Yeah, in a sense. I was trying to start accepting that you probably weren't going to take me back." I say as I lean back in my chair
"Sorry." She says with a sigh
"For what?"
"Getting mad and jealous just then and playing with your emotions with me not knowing what I wanted." She says softly and I shrug. She doesn't say anything and the waitress comes back but this time we do order.
"I want to do this again because I've forgiven you for the past. It actually took for you to be in that car accident for me to finally accept it."
"Wait, You only want me because I could have died?"
"No. I was already forgiving you but the accident showed me how much I care about you and how much I need you. I still love you."
Huh. So the accident is the reason she wants me back. That doesn't seem very...genuine to me. It's not like she just forgave me and wanted me back, but because I could have been taken away from her. Maybe I'm just reading to much into it. Maybe the thought of almost losing me made her realize that the past doesn't mean shit and she should just do what her heart says.
"So if it weren't for the accident, this wouldn't be happening right now. You'd still be with creepy Kevin and I'd still be alone."
"No. I was going to stop dating him anyway. The accident just sped up my decision." She says and I sigh
"Are you sure?" I ask suspiciously
"Santana, I knew I was still in love with a long time ago before Ashley or Kevin came into the picture. I was just afraid to trust you again. I'm not just saying this because you could have been killed." She says
" You know what? As much as I want to believe that, I just don't."
"What?"
"Quinn, if we're going to be together, I want it to be because you actually want me. I won't be in some fucked up pity relationship. Oh poor Santana almost died so I'll take her back. I'm not a fucking charity case."
"Santana it's not like that."
"Yes it is. I want you but not like that."
"So what are you saying?" She asks and I shake my head and look away from her
"I'm saying that...I just don't believe this is genuine Quinn."
"So you don't want to get back together?" She asks.
I never thought I'd be in this position. Where I'm actually contemplating if we should be together. It's like, I want to be with her, I do but if the accident is the only reason she wants me then it's not real. That's not real love. I don't want to be in a relationship where I'm doubting that she really loves me.
"Santana I do love you. Part of the reason it took me so long to forgive you is because I love you."
"I think...I need some time. I'm not going to get into a relationship and feel like you're just with me because I got hurt."
"Santana...The accident has nothing to do with how I feel about you. If anything, that and seeing you with Ashley, made realize that I can't let you go. I got jealous when you were texting that morning on Christmas because whoever it was made you smile and I couldn't."
"It was Ashley."
"I was jealous of her before I even knew about her. No matter what, I will always want you. I repressed it and pushed it down as far as possible but thinking about you with another woman...it pisses me off beyond belief. You don't even no how much I want to kill Ashley. I wanted to kill Rachel because I thought she was interested in you." She says and bite the inside of my cheek and I sigh. The only way to see if she really loves me is to give it a shot right?
"Me and Berry would never happen." I say with a smirk and she smiles a little.
"So? Do you want to try again?" She says and I nod
"And you're sure about this?" I ask
"Never been more sure about anything."
"If we're going to do this, I don't want anymore of these jealous fits or to hear about my cheating because I'm not going to take that. I love you and I want to be with you but I don't want to keep feeling bad about something I did, going on 9 years ago." I say and she nods
"If we argue it will never come up." She says and I nod
"So...does this mean we're back together?" I ask
"The second you change that ringtone, yeah." She says and I laugh and pull out my phone then change the ringtone
"Changed. Happy?" I ask and she nods and leans in towards me over the table. I meet her halfway to give her a kiss. We sit back in our seats and she grabs my hand that's sitting on the table.
"Why'd you call Kevin creepy?" She asks
"Because he is. I know I only met him once but I got a bad vibe from him."
"I'm sure you did since you pissed him off." She says and I shake my head
"No, the fact that he popped up at your house like that. Yeah you guys were dating for a month but that doesn't give you permission to just go to someone's house when they have a kid. You don't do shit like that."
"Didn't you meet Ashley's son?" She asks
"Yeah but we aren't dating. We've never been dating, she's my friend and that's why I had no problem with her meeting Maya. We're friends." I say and she nods
"So Maya was in on the set up?" She asks and I nod
"She didn't like that we weren't talking so she went along with it."
"So you didn't tell her this was you trying to get us back together?" She asks and I shake my head
"No because I didn't know how this would turn out. I didn't want to disappoint her if it went south." I say and she nods
We finish our lunch date and head back to Quinn's. Britt said she'd bring Maya back and we got to her house at around 4. Quinn and I laid on the couch until they got there. When I opened the door Maya was crazy excited I was there. She knows everything went well so she hugged me tight and then went to find Quinn.
"So how did it go?" Britt asks
"I'm officially off the market." I say and she squeals excitedly and hugs me
"Yay! Oh my gosh! It took long enough!" She says and I laugh
"That wasn't my fault." I say and she nods
"So how's your new romance going?" I ask and she blushes a little
"Really, really well."
"Yeah I bet. So you two have sex yet?" I ask and she rolls her eyes
"Everything isn't about sex San."
"I know but bad sex could fuck up a good thing, so did you two?" I ask and she shakes her head
"Not yet. Which reminds me, you think you and Quinn could watch the kids on Saturday? I want to do something really nice for Rachel and I know Maya was supposed to come over but -" She says
"It's cool B. Yeah, I'll tell Q." I say cutting her off and she nods
"Thanks. I gotta go though." She says and hugs me
"Alright, be safe. Bye." I say and she waves and walks out
"Mommy!" I hear Maya shout and she runs in the kitchen to me
"What's wrong?" I ask
"Mama is trying to tickle me! Help!" She says and I chuckle then Quinn comes in the kitchen and Maya hides behind me
"Why are you trying to tickle her?" I ask
"She didn't tell me about you being at the studio today, so I'm going to get her." She says with a smile
"No! Mommy don't let her get me!" Maya says with a giggle. I laugh and walk towards Quinn
"Run!" I say as I grab Quinn and Maya runs off somewhere laughing and I hold Quinn
"You helped her get away." Quinn says with a laugh and I push her up against the refrigerator
" I know." I say before I kiss her
This is how I imagined my life. Quinn and I together with some kids, a family. I'm past cloud nine and over the moon. Words can't express the happiness and joy I feel right now, in this moment with Quinns lips pressed against mine. This is where I should have been all along.
A/N: So I decided to end this because of frustration. I'm sick of the negativity I got when doing this story so I'm done. It was going to be a lot longer with some more crazy twists but...whatever. So for those of you that actually did like the story, thanks for your support.