A/N: Alright, so I ended up changing the end of this chapter because I thought that it was way too short, and wanted a longer chapter. Although I've already had the next chapter half written for a week, I decided I'd slip it in after another chapter after this. Confusing eh? Anyway originally this chapter was shorter, much shorter, and the next chapter I'll be putting up (which I still have to think of the details for because I haven't written that one yet) was never here, and then chapter 23 will be the original chapter 22. Did that make sense? Anyway, I hadn't been able to work in Nathaniel's human life yet, so I figured I could do that sooner than later… and it just made things loads easier. Alright I'll stop rambling now and let you read. Hope you enjoy, and Peyton will be backing the next chapter, don't worry…BellyGnomes in particular who wanted more Peyton/Nate stuff, be patient for the next chapter. :P Well read and review and I hope you like:D

Chapter 21 NPOV Decisions

It was Sunday night, and Peyton was going to be home really soon from visiting her aunt and uncle. My family hadn't talked about the soon to be new werewolf, and we needed to discuss everything before Peyton got back; I had to make sure we all knew we may have to just leave if Peyton chose the Larson's over me. Even though in the back of my mind, I knew that this 'making sure we knew' bit was mainly for my own benefit, making myself realize that she could just leave...

I really hoped that didn't happen, I'd die without her, but if it did, so we'd have to leave. We'd have to leave soon anyway, since Bella was to be changed, but if Peyton didn't choose me, I'd be leaving before graduation. Not like it matters, I've graduated way too many times, and I'd graduate lots more.

I finally managed to get the whole family together. Everyone seemed to find a problem with the present situation, except for Rosalie. It's always Rosalie. Why is that?

"Who cares if she decides to stay with the Larson's?" Rose asked tersely. "It just means we'd have one less human to watch over."

Edward gave that comment a nasty growl. "You'd better take that back Rosalie!" Edward roared at her.

"No, it's the truth isn't it?" She shot back.

"Enough," Carlisle's authoritative voice commanded. "Rosalie, that was uncalled for. Bells is just as much a part of this family as you are. As is Peyton. No matter if they are human. We've all accepted that long ago. Whatever jealousy problems you have with those two girls, you'd best get over them because one of them for sure is joining our family as a vampire, and the other might possibly as well."

Rosalie's face was priceless. She couldn't believe her father figure had just got mad at her. I wanted to laugh, but I was still mad as well. Rose still had some serious problems with Peyton and Bella, and she really needed to get over them like Carlisle said.

"That's the problem," I stated. "I don't want Peyton to become like us just because she chooses me over the Larson's, which she might not even do. Peyton probably doesn't even want to be turned into this," I told them, gesturing to us all. "Even if I want it, I won't let it happen if she doesn't want it too."

"I doubt that," Edward said, speaking to me. "Bella…she's the same way, you know that. She loves you, nothings going to change that."

I stared at Edward. I somehow constantly forget he's been in close to the same situation. I gave him a half-hearted smile. Just because Bella chose him over the world, didn't mean that Peyton would be the same. They were completely different people. But I could only hope that they were enough alike to choose the same decision in this instance.

"Alright, thanks Edward, but I'm not going to get my hopes up. She could just as easily choose her best friends and the family that took her in over the man she just me like two weeks ago. Let's get real now."

"A little faith in her," Esme told me gently.

"Yeah Nate," Emmett said. "I've seen the way she looks at you," he continued, chuckling.

"And you know I can see what's going to happen in the future, Nate," Alice told me, smiling with the ambience of all-knowing.

"Alice, you know your visions can change. Just because you see it now, doesn't mean that it will still be the same tomorrow. Who ever knows what tomorrow will bring? She could easily change her mind and not want to stay with me just as easily as she does want to stay with me now. You can never tell for sure." I looked around at them all with a weak smile. "I appreciate the thoughts guys, really, but let's try not to get my hopes up, okay?"

I started to get kind of agitated now. If I really started to think there was no way she'd choose her new family over me, and then she didn't do what I had though, then I would be more crushed than if I though that they had as good a chance as I did. I didn't plan on making myself more heartbroken then I had to be.

"She's going to have to choose, Nathaniel, whether any of us like it or not," came the voice of reason from Jasper. I didn't want to think about that, but I knew that he was right.

I nodded stiffly. "I know Jasper. I know," I said, dazing off into oblivion. I really didn't want to think about the possible outcomes, but nobody would stop talking about it, making it stuck in my head.

Nobody spoke for a long time, everyone with their own thoughts. This was one of those times that I wished I had Edward's power. It'd be nice to know some of my family members' thoughts right about now.

I remembered there was another part to our, or my, little predicament.

"What about them actually changing? They're not allowed on our land once that happens whether they know about the treaty or not. I don't even think they know what they are, and will become," I stated.

"That's true," Alice said. "I really don't think they know. They weren't raised in La Push; they don't know the traditions at all. Besides that, I don't even think Uley and the rest of them know they're about to add more to the pack," she continued. "No one would think they'd become werewolves since they're only a quarter Quileute. It's really rare what's happening, we all know that."

"So who's going to give the Larson's the boot in a few weeks?" Emmet asked aloud the question no one else was willing to. "Kind of sad to talk about that though, I really did like that family. Especially Hayden, he reminds me of how I was when I was human."

"We'll get Jacob Black. Have Bella contact him and-" Jasper started, getting cut short by Edward.

"No. Absolutely not. Bella's not speaking with Jacob Black. I won't have it."

"Edward," Carlisle began," we may not really have a choice. Would you rather tell them they have to move, that Hayden and Shae won't be able to see their best friend anymore is she chooses to stay with Nathaniel?"

Edward went stiff, then shook his head muttering, "No."

Then something registered with what Carlisle had said. "Wait, Shae? She's going to change too? That's really rare; there aren't many girl werewolves, are there?"

"It's very rare indeed. Especially since she's only a quarter Quileute. The only one that we know of right now is Leah Clearwater. I'm very intrigued by it all. But of course we won't know for sure until it happen. Although, I do think it will happen because she is Hayden's twin sister, and he's showing signs of the change, such as the smell. But who really knows for sure?"

I nodded in understanding. This just made my chances of having Peyton stay with me decrease. At first I thought she'd only be losing contact with Hayden when coming with me, but now, she'd lose Shae too. She'd lose the best friend she's ever had, never being able to see her again, talk with her, contact her. I knew she wouldn't be able to take that well, if at all. I knew that that little tidbit of information just did a number on my chances dramatically.

"Edward," Carlisle spoke again.

"No. I can't let Bella do that. She will not go to La Push without my supervision, and my supervision is impossible."

"All it would take is a phone call Edward. There wouldn't be a reason that she'd need to actually go to La Push. She can tell him over the phone, they won't even have to see each other," Esme told him gently.

"Although, it would be nice for her to see him…" Alice drifted off.

"Fine," Edward said curtly. "I'll ask Bella to call him for us, but there is no way she is seeing that dog," he hissed.

"Alright son, that's all we're asking for," Carlisle said softly. "But she will need to be at this meeting, so she will see him then, just so you are aware of the circumstances," he added. "Nathaniel," he said to me, so I looked over at him, not really wanting to, "I wouldn't suggest telling Peyton just yet. Wait a week or two, until Hayden's change."

"But who knows what he could do to her when that happens?!" I shouted, scared for Peyton now. "You can't just let her stay there when he could blow at any second!"

"Hey I'll see if anything happens, before it happens," Alice said, smiling, and knowingly. "And for the record, nothing will happen to her."

"And I'll be able to tell if he becomes too angry and threaten an early changing," Edward said, tapping a finger to his head.

I nodded slightly, still not really put at ease. "Alright, okay. Let's do this then."

Everyone had already stood up when Edward spoke again. "By the way, we might want to inform them of Bella changing at graduation," he said.

Carlisle thought about it for a second thinking of the possibilities. Turning to Alice, he waited to see what her latest vision would be. Alice's eyes went blank for a moment, going into another world. A few seconds later she blinked a few times and smiled at Carlisle, nodding.

"It's perfectly clear. Jake will throw up a stink about it, but Sam will calm him. He won't be a big enough of a threat to cause a fuss. He'll get over it, hopefully."

"Then it's settled. We will. Have Bella tell Jacob that we need to meet with them. Any time will work. We'll do it at our place so we don't have to worry about anything. I doubt they will object to it." Edward nodded to him and sighed. With that we all departed to do our relatively pointless activities.

It was now 7:00 pm and Peyton should be arriving home soon. I didn't know what I was going to do. I kept getting this feeling that she'd stay with the Larson's. I was the only thing holding her back from doing so, and I didn't know if I alone would be enough. I was deathly afraid that I wouldn't be.

The worst part about it all was that I couldn't even tell her yet. That was also the best thing, but even so, it was terrible. I hated not being able to find out, not being able to tell her everything; on the other hand, I loved the fact that I'd still have this last bit of time to be with her, and I was determined to make it the best time I could.

I went up to my room and flew on to my black leather couch. I flung my arms above my head and crossed my legs to get comfortable. This was one of those times that I wished I could sleep. I'd give anything to be able to leave this world, and go off into the universe created out of my imagination, where everything would be perfect, and nothing could ever possibly go wrong, because things would be how I wanted them to. I sighed, knowing that that could never happen for me.

I closed my eyes anyway and pretended that I could sleep. If nothing else, I could rest, and that would have to be good enough. I tried to think about anything, anything other than the problems that I was faced with now. But Peyton was constantly on my mind. What would I do without her now? I had gotten a taste of heaven and I didn't think I'd be able to just leave it now. I had thought that there was a chance we could both move on once I left, but I could finally see now that there was no possible way, at least not on my end. Not after everything we'd just been through. Not after the way she'd proclaimed her love for me. Not after feeling the most alive I've felt in almost a century.

I wondered if she would ever be happy if she went with the Larson's. Would the love of her new found family be enough to keep her from having what happened to Bella; keep her from going into a zombie-like state and being a vegetative human? But if she went with the Larson's she would know the consequences ahead of time. She would be choosing that life. She'd be fine with it, even if I wouldn't be. She'd move on, and forget about me, find another love, most likely Hayden much to my dislike, and then she'd get married and have kids, grow old…

She'd have a real human life. The one I'd only dreamed about having.

As much as I knew I wanted that, wanted her to grow old and die like a normal person, I knew that I wanted to be with her for eternity more. I'd give anything to her, to have her stay with me. If she wanted to be like me, I'd do what Edward still didn't seem to be willing to do; I'd change her. I wasn't worried about her soul, because, again, unlike Edward, I believed we did go on to an afterlife. I was with Carlisle on that subject all the way. There was no way that we just, stopped existing. It wasn't our souls the vampires took from us when we were human, it was our life.

I kept lying on the couch, mulling things over, considering and reconsidering every possible outcome of every possible decision. Her human life kept coming back to my mind. I wondered what she would do when she 'grew up' and what her kids would look like. I tried to picture the way things would have gone if I was never turned vampire, but was born in this day and age, not in the 1920's. Would we be as interested in each other as we were now? Would we have even met?

My mind again drifted off to the same place it managed to go on a regular basis; my human life.

A/N: So kind of an abrupt stop, but I wanted Nate's human life to have it's own chapter, and I wanted to post sooner than later. So yeah, that's why it's such a crap ending of a chapter. Sorry. Anyway, I still hope you liked it regardless, even if it was just sort of an 'information only' kind of chapter. Hm… well read and review if you please! Thanks you all!