My muscles were sore from today's work and my whole body felt wrecked and tired, yet my heart pounded soundly against my chest when I finally arrived to the large mansion. I couldn't stop smiling because finally I get to kiss her with the passion that has been burning my heart through this summer.
I could hear my heartbeat when I knocked on the huge wooden door and waited for the beautiful brunette to answer.
The door opened after a few seconds and a tall black guy smiled charmingly at me. I felt sick in the stomach, I couldn't move, I daren't even breathe, I'm frozen to the spot. I breath deep and heavy until he flashes another smile and opens his mouth to speak.
"Miss Swan?" He raises an eyebrow playfully. How could I miss noticing the black Mercedes next to Regina's?
"Uhm yes. And you'd be?" I question back raising my chin trying to gather some strength.
"I'm Baron Samdi." He said, and opened the door wider. "Baron, to beautiful ladies." He added while we shook hands.
"Oh good, you're here." Regina said, walking by me while she put an earring into her ear in front of the mirror of the hall. "Sorry I made you wait dear." She said, looking up at Baron with an apologetic smile.
"I was early." He smiled down at the brunette dressed in a crazy tight red dress that showed off all her curves. I could feel anger build up in my whole body. She's going on a date. Is she taking revenge for the park scene with Lily? Or is she just trying to prove we have no future?
"So, are you guys going on a date or what?" The words escaped my lips and I almost shook my head not believing I actually said that and how pathetic my voice sounded at the same time.
"Yes, we are indeed." Baron answered with a toothy smile and I watched Regina as she bit her lips, while searching in her purse. "I'll wait you outside Regina. It was nice meeting you Miss Swan." He added and he disappeared behind the door. I couldn't wish stronger for him to stay there forever. Out of these doors. Out of Regina's life.
"I didn't know you were seeing someone." I said coldly, crossing my arms.
"It's new." She said, and put on a red lipstick that matched her dress perfectly.
"Sure it is." I laugh drily. "You could have done better than this if it's all about getting me jealous." I add with faked confidence.
"Thankfully no one asked for your opinion." She groaned.
"So you're not saying it's not about getting me jealous." I state with a smirk.
"Oh dear. You're so wrong if you think this has anything to do with you." She laughed carelessly.
"This wasn't about the babysitter. It was about showing off your perfect little boyfriend." I state, and I can hear footsteps on the stairs.
"Emma!" Henry yells when he's halfway down.
"Hey kid." I smile and pick him up.
"Henry! I'm leaving, I'll be back around 9, but I want you in bed by 8:30. Understood?" She asked from her son and Henry just nods.
"Good." Regina said with a smile, and gave a kiss on the top of his head, while he kept his arms around my neck.
"Mom?" He asked before she opened the door and Regina turned back to face her son. "Will you get together with that guy?" He inquired.
"I don't know what the future holds Henry." She answered.
"Do you like him a lot?" He asked.
"Henry this is our first date. I can't know just yet. But why are you asking these questions?" She asks, frowning at Henry.
"I just...don't like him." He admits.
"He's a very good man Henry. You can't say you don't like someone if you don't even know them yet." She talked in a warning tone that Henry understood the best and he nod while holding into my neck stronger.
"Be good and don't play too much video games!" She warned, and turned to leave. I put Henry down and close the door behind her.
Henry sighed and I could feel my breath is getting heavier with each and every breath I take. She's out, with that guy. I stared at the door fighting the urge to cry in front of Henry.
"You ok?" Henry asked looking up at me sweetly with his adorable wondering eyes.
I sniffed and nod.
"I'm fine. It's just been a long day." I lie.
Henry takes my hand, and smiles kindly.
"So what are we going to do?" He questions excitedly. "You can rest if you want to, I can play in my room. That's what usually Jess and I do. We study together then she tells me she's tired and I should go and play." He gabbled.
"Oh boy. I'm much better than that." I laugh. His innocence always brought smile to my face.
"I know. You're cool." He smiles widely.
"Oh, am I?" I smile back and let him to lead me to the living room.
"So... we can play soccer in the garden, but Mommy doesn't like it because sometimes I ruin her flowers... or we can play PS4 here. If you want to, I can show you my room and play there."
"You're the sweetest boy ever." I smile. "We can do whatever you want to really. I'm not one of those basic adults." I wink.
"I know Em." He agrees with a serious glance.
"So what are we doing?"
"Hm." He thinks hard, leaning on the sofa. "Can we build a fort?" He asks while his face lit up buy the idea.
"A fort?" I question back.
"Yes, in the living room. Mommy and I used to do play that a lot. We built a fort and we played PS4 then we read stories and slept there." He explained.
"Your mother played PS4 with you?" I question in disbelief.
"Yeah she used to be much better than me she just let me win. But she haven't played in a long time." He explained.
"Oh well, if that's what you want to do, bring the blankets we are building a fort!" I smiled and he ran off to the house to collect blankets for us.
I walked to the kitchen and placed my hands on the cold surface of the counter as I took three deep breaths. She's only doing this to hurt you Swan. She has no interest in that douchebag. Her son doesn't like him, she'd never be with someone who Henry doesn't like.
No matter how hard I tried to talk some sense into me, in this few minutes I had without Henry, I couldn't keep a tear from escaping my eyes.
"Emma?" I heard a weak voice behind me and I turned around while I wiped my face.
"Are you crying?" He asked.
"I never cry, Henry." I chuckled but my voice sounded wet and weak.
He dropped the pillows on the floor he was holding and walked to me. He wrapped his arms around me, and buried his face to my stomach.
"It's okay to be sad sometimes. You can tell me if you're hurt." He said softly with the wisdom of an adult.
"Thank you Henry." I whisper and I can't hold my tears longer.
He didn't let me go, just kept hugging me. I caressed his head with one head but I covered my face with another.
"I have a good idea." He said, after I calmed a bit.
"You do?" I ask and chuckle. "You always do."
"Yes, let's make popcorn, build that fort and play. That will keep your mind busy." He said.
"How are you so smart at such a young age?" I questioned with a laugh.
"When mom is sad because of dad, she usually works extra hard to keep her mind off him. At least that's what Jess says."
"Is your mom often sad because of your dad still?" I ask back.
"I think she's sad because she's lonely." He answered.
"You're so young to know these things." I laugh.
"Jess explains a lot of things to me when we study together. She's studying psy..." He clearly can't remember the word.
"Psychology." I help him out.
"Yeah. That. So Jess is smart about these things so when I heard Mommy cry a few weeks ago, I asked her what she thinks. She said she thinks Mommy is lonely. So I told her I think she should go on a date. She got upset and yelled at me for not minding my own business but later she apologized, and said she would go and try. So now she went out with that guy and I really don't like him... he's just not the right guy for Mommy." He explained, then walked to grab the pillows.
"You think so?" I ask.
"Yeah. He's arr... uhm... arrogant." He explained pointing the world when he finally remembered.
"How do you even know that..." is about the ask but then realize he's around adults most of the time. "Jess." We say in union.
"Do you think there's any chance your Mom could be happy with another woman?" I ask him, and he raises an eyebrow then falls awfully quiet. I bite my lips, and wait.
"Mommy said it's okay for girls to like girls too." He said and nod at the end. "Help me!" He commands and gives two blankets to me.
"Okay what about we put every breakable things away first?" I ask him and he nods in agreement.
It took us about 15 minutes to finish our fort and it ended up quite big so I could easily fit as well. We laid on our stomach and started to play some video game that Henry was crazy about. I couldn't really pay attention, so I just followed his lead and watched him win.
"What about we get you in PJ's and I read something to you." I offer.
Henry nod and ran off to change, and I took my time with getting comfortable under the fort.
Soon Henry arrives in adorable little soccer ball patterned PJ and sits close to me.
"Which one would you like?" I ask, and he points on one book I've never heard about, but I take it to my hands and open it.
Henry shifts beside me, and presuming he's not comfortable, I wrap my arm around him, bringing him close to me, so he could lean on my chest. I keep an arm around his stomach and my head on his while I read the book. He listens carefully, and laughs at some parts but mainly he's quiet.
"Emma?" He interrupts me once. "Will you tell me why were you sad before?" He asks innocently, looking up at me.
"Someone who I really really like, hurt my feelings." I answered softly.
"Did they want to hurt you?" He frowned.
"Yes Henry I'm afraid it was intentional. Or at least... They knew it would hurt me, even if it wasn't their direct intention." I explain.
"Then they don't deserve you." He said softly and hugged me. I hmm in response, and get back to the book.
Maybe they don't.
Henry fell asleep next to me halfway through the book, and I wrapped him into a blanket and layed him down, then wiggled my way out of the fort carefully not to ruin it, and walked to the kitchen.
I'm not sure what is this date about exactly but her point is clearly to push me away. This time she might just pushed me a little too far.
I saw the light turn on outside from the kitchen window and I looked to see what's happening.
Baron is talking, walking up the stairs with Regina, then she lets go of his arm and reach for her keys.
Baron stops her, and turns her around to face him, then grabs her waist and forcefully pulls her into a kiss. I can see Regina's not resisting so I force myself to look away, and I open the fridge and pour some cold water into a glass, then walk back to the living room.
Regina opens the door and closes it, then she leans against it taking two deep breath before she realizes I'm watching her.
"How was your date?" I ask casually keeping my voice down.
She didn't bother to answer she just rolled her eyes, and took of her shoes.
She walked into the living room acknowledging the huge mess we created with Henry.
"You built a fort?" She asked and I couldn't decide if she's upset or happy.
"Henry wanted to build a fort so we built a fort. He's sleeping inside." I added. " I figured you wouldn't mind since he claimed you did this often with him"
"Yeah it's... alright I just thought it was... our thing." She said.
"Oh.."
"No. I don't mind. I'm just, surprised." She said.
"Anyways, it's getting late, I should go home and you enjoy your fort with Henry." I said, and turned to grab my stuff. I wanted her to stop me and I wanted her to make me stay but she just watched as I put on my jacket, and turn to leave.
I place my hand on the door knob, and took a big breath before I turned back. She won't ever to take the first step so I have to do it.
"Regina I wanted to explain... About Lily." I start.
"Emma that's unnecessary." She states coldly. "You and me could never work. Not the way you want us to. I don't care about the relationship you have with Lily. It wouldn't change a thing" She said.
"Oh and you and that arrogant dick will." I groan. "Look Regina. Today I came here hoping I can tell you I will wait for you. As long as it takes cause no one knows it better then me how is it to lose someone. I know it takes time until you let people close to you again. I just wanted you to know. I still want us."
"There's no us!" Regina hissed and her tone scared the shit out of me. "Get this through your thick head Miss Swan! I won't ever love you. I had fun a few times with you. That's all. We agreed on not taking this far but it is already out of my hands." She whispered not to wake Henry but anger was easy to hear through her voice. "I mean every word. I didn't go on that date because I was jealous. I went because I wanted to. You see there's a thing. I didn't want you to get attached and you did. And I don't need a complete mess like you in my life." She groaned and I could feel all my muscles tighten. "I don't want you. Baron is a decent man who can provide us much more than you ever could. Find someone else." She said coldly.
I stood in silence. Why didn't I see how wrong I was about her? I don't even know if I know her anymore. Her words burned my heart and souls and I could feel tears burning my eyes as she spoke.
"I wanted to believe it was all about fear of losing me." I stated coldly. "But now I see how much of a fool I was. I let myself ignore the signs just to feel better about being a... whore... I hope... that one day, you realize what you've lost, cause yeah I might be a mess. But I loved you." I turned my back on the shocked woman, and placed my hand on the doorknob once again. "Please kiss Henry goodbye and tell him I love him." I said over my shoulder, and her door was close behind me in a blink of an eye.
"Sorry I'm late." :D I know, I know I'm terrible. Really. I am. The truth is I didn't have my laptop with me in the past 3 weeks and when I did, I didn't have a peaceful minute to sit down and edit this chapter even tho it was done for a long time. I'm back and hopefully I'll be able to update regularly again. :)