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A domesticated girl thats all you ask of me
Darling it is no joke this is lycanthropy
The moon's awake now with eyes wide open
My body's craving so feed the hungry

Ive been devoting myself to you Monday to Monday and Friday to Friday
Not getting enough retribution or decent incentives to keep me at it
Im starting to feel just a little abused like a coffee machine in an office
So Im gonna go to my closet and get me a lover and tell you all about it

Theres a she wolf in the closet
Open up and set it free
Theres a she wolf in the closet
Let it out so it can breathe

She Wolf, by Shakira

Chapter 21

"Stop!" I cried again, planting my hands onto his chest and pushing myself away. I broke free from his tight grip and thrust myself off the bed hastily before he got another hold of me. Thankfully, I didn't topple to the floor like usual. Instead I was on my feet and backed away from him slowly.

"Wh-what are you trying to do?" I gasped, my chest heaving up and down with every deep breath I took. I eventually hit a wall and pressed myself against it, as if I could just blend in.

I knew for a fact that my cheeks were blazing. I wanted to kiss him, but not bad enough to actually do it. My mind was racing, and images of Aiden and Christopher swirled together 'till they both disappeared. Chris was still sitting on the bed, staring at me hard. His eyes weren't as bright and teasing as before. I felt guilt wash over me, maybe I should have told him about my boyfriend.

"I'm sorry," He finally said softly, his eyes casting down to the barely visible carpet. His hands were dangling between his legs as he slumped forward. "I got caught up in the moment."

"N-no it's okay," I sputtered, still firmly against the wall. "And besides, I'm sure Delphine would mind if we did actually. . . kiss." I felt my insides melt at the idea, but I shook my head and tried to focus on the fact that I already had someone to love and care for.

Chris chuckled bitterly, frightening me just a bit. He still wouldn't look up and I could only imagine how his face looked. "Delphine," He spat, his tone acidic. "Like she really cares for me. She only liked me because I was the only guy that would actually talk to her in school. She usedme. Delphine only wanted me around to fill the loneliness she felt. She said she loved me to keep me from going away. She showed me off to her friends and enemies and kept calling me her boyfriend. Even though I told her countless times that I was not her boyfriend, but she would just ignore me. It just disgusts me."

I felt something gnawing at my brain. Something that I wanted to avoid for now. "But why would boys ignore her, she's so, so, gorgeous! And how do you know she really doesn't love you?"

"Beauty isn't everything, Melody," Chris whispered, still looking below. "And if you really loved someone, you would do anything to keep them safe and happy. Even if it means risking your whole life. If you truly loved your boyfriend or girlfriend you would be committed to them and would do no such thing to hurt them. I can hear everything and even see what Delphine does when she thinks I'm not around. She is such a twit."

At that moment I felt sorry for Chris and I just wanted to hold him tight in a soothingly manner. But then again I was still afraid that he would try to do something irrational again. "How did you hear Delphine say such things?" I asked, suddenly feeling stupid after asking that question. Well of course, he's a vampire. And vampires have good hearing.

There was a pregnant pause as I stared at Chris's slumped form. His hair hiding his eyes. Unexpectedly he looked up and his eyes were cold and angry, and there was a smirk on his face. "Tell me your secrets," He responded icily.

I cocked my head to the side in confusion and before I knew it, my body reacted to his words. My entire form jerked and I found that I couldn't control the words that came out of my mouth at that very moment.

"When I first saw you, you were the most beautiful thing that I ever saw!" I confessed willingly, having no control of my mouth. I just blurted everything out that I swore to keep secrecy of. "After we danced at Bella and Edward's wedding, you swept me off my feet! I was so jealous and distraught when I saw you with Delphine! I honestly think I'm no match for Delphine's beauty! I really did want to kiss you!"

While I was confessing, Chris stood on his feet and was slowly striding towards me. His eyes staring intently back at mine. I wanted to move so badly but it was as if I was pinned to the wall. I couldn't even move my hand to cover my mouth. In fact I couldn't budge at all.

"I actually have a boyfriend!" I said truthfully. "He's a werewolf and his name is Aiden. I actually do want it to work out between me, Bella and Edward! I want us to be a happy family---"

"Enough," Chris said quietly, he was now standing before me and my mouth shut instantly to his command. He was leaning towards me, his hand pressed against the wall beside my face.

"W-what did you do to me?" I queried, my voice rising in panic. "And you had no right to do it! Those are my personal thoughts and the Cullens would've heard everything I said."

"It's my special power. Those four little words could make you easily tell me your deepest darkest secrets. Isn't it quite lovely?" He said flatly, his eyes still cold. "And anyway, the Cullens are out hunting so you're secrets are safe with me."

As soon as he was finished speaking the doorbell rang, echoing throughout the house. Floating all the way up the stairs and to my ears. My heart sputtered and I almost choked on my own spit in surprise. "I-I gotta go answer the door," I said quickly, trying to excuse myself from this intense situation. I soaked up the information like a sponge and stored it away somewhere for me to contemplate later one. When my mind was nice and clear.

He didn't move, he just examined my face as if he was searching for something. I swallowed and moved away slowly and as soon as I was out of reach, I bounded out of the room and down the stairs. Before I could even reach the door, a woodsy scent reached my nose and I almost choked in happiness.

I practically yanked the door open and there he was. My one and only, Aiden. I wasn't expecting for him to come and Aiden even looked surprised when I opened the door.

"Aiden!" I sang, hoping my voice would carry all the way to Chris. After I closed the door behind me, I hopped up and wrapped my arms around Aiden's neck.

"Hey," Aiden chuckled, hugging me around the middle. I was practically dangling while he carried me off the porch. "I didn't think you would be home."

I looked at him quizzically. His face was masked and I couldn't read it, but his mind was not veiled. He pictured me hunting with the Cullens and attacking a deer. I shuddered at the idea and now it was his turn to look at me in amusement.

"What's wrong?" He asked softly while I brought my hands down from his necks. His arms were still around me, so there was no way of getting onto my feet without him letting go.

"Mmm. . . Nothing," I muttered. I frowned at the idea of Aiden picturing me as an animal killer. But I am half-vampire so the thought was to be expected, I guess. "If you didn't think I would be home, why did you come?"

Aiden didn't answer at first. He just gently put me back on my feet and took my hand. "Um. . . I was sort of guessing you were. I didn't think you looked too good the last time I saw you. Sick maybe, but I don't think vampires get sick. . ." He trailed off.

I watched his face in aporetical and chuckled at the last part he had said. "I made you smile," He grinned. His tone was astounded making me curious if he even thought I could laugh.

"And I thank you for it," I said, patting his shoulder with my free hand. "What were you planning on doing if I wasn't home?"

Aiden titled his head to the side slightly and pursed his lips in thought. "Well," He began. "I was planning on getting something to eat for Nat and my mom. But I guess since you're home we could do something else!"

"No, no, no!" I denied, "They must be hungry. I'll just come along with you, and maybe we could get a bite ourselves. I'm sort of hungry." My stomach grumbled the moment I said the last part and Aiden smirked at me.

"Sort of?" He teased, shaking his head. I rolled my eyes playfully, but I could feel my cheeks grow warm in humiliation.

"Let's go," I remarked, trying to push him forward. He was heavily built so it took a lot of effort to get him to even budge. By the time he started walking himself, I was already panting for breath.

We walked side-by-side, his arm around my shoulder and I leaned against his side. I glanced behind me because I had the sense that something or someone was watching us. On the top-right window, Chris was watching us remorsefully. I felt my stomach do a flip at his heart breaking beauty.

I looked away quickly and felt my stomach tie itself into knots. A heavy boulder of guilt landed on my chest. For hurting Chris and for thinking about him even if I was with Aiden. But I knew in my heart that I did love Aiden and that relieved some of it. But not enough of it.

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"Thank you," Aiden said cheerfully as the cashier handed him the tray of food. I was watching him from a table in the corner, next to a window. The weather outside was gloomy and the sun was nowhere in sight. A few people strolled on the sidewalk, passing by the window. They would glance inside and see a girl that looked calm outside, but is tangled up inside.

"Here you go," Aiden declared, setting the tray of food onto the table freckled with black dots. I jumped at his voice and my eyes snapped to his face. He stared at me in concern while he lowered himself onto the chair across from me.

"What's wrong? You look a little pale," He said worriedly, reaching towards me and brushing the hair away from my eyes. I pressed my lips together, was it really that obvious that I didn't feel right? Ever since I saw Chris at the window, my mind was jumbled up and I couldn't think clearly.

I plastered a smile on my face and winked at him. "I'm perfectly fine, the weather is just making me a little grey," I assured him, waving it off.

I could see he didn't buy it, he pulled his hand away and leaned into the chair. He crossed his arms across his chest and said, "Alright, what's bothering you?"

I couldn't help but wince at the intensity of his serious expression. "Nothing, I just--" I didn't finish my sentence for I saw something that disturbed me deeply.

Over Aiden's shoulder, I could see Jacob and a woman walk into the restaurant. They looked lovey-dovey and it made me sick. But something in Jacob's loving expression seemed forced and fake. They stood in line, cooing at each other and pressing their lips together tenderly for a second or two. My stomach lurched forward.

"Mel, what's wrong?" Aiden asked me, reaching forward and squeezing my hand gently. I didn't respond, I just stared straight ahead at Jacob and his newly found "lover". Aiden looked at me quizzically before following my gaze.

He gasped quietly and from that moment I regretted even suggesting to go to this damn place.