Set after "The Serena Also Rises"

I do not own any part of Gossip Girl. Although it is my favorite show.

Chapter 21

Blair stepped out of the shower hesitantly. She was thinking about her current situation. She and Serena had both established that they wanted each other, in more ways than one, last night. Blair chuckled as she remembered images of her and Serena the night before. They'd stepped farther than she would have ever thought possible.

And this is what caused Blair to sigh and look at herself in the mirror. She and Serena still had many issues between them and Blair didn't know if she could get over some of the things that the other girl had done. There were also other things like her feelings for Vanessa. Even though she hadn't seen the girl for more than a week she still missed her.

"I wish she'd at least call me."

Blair was torn. She wanted to be with two people, Serena and Vanessa. She didn't know what to do. She tried to fight the feelings that she'd been having for Serena but after yesterday she knew that she couldn't leave the blond alone. She walked out of the bathroom and saw Serena lying on the bed. Serena gave her a perfect smile and Blair couldn't help but give her one back. She sat on the bed. She had nothing more than a towel covering her body.

"Hey, did you enjoy your shower?" Serena asked

"Yeah" Blair saw that Serena was eying her in a particular way.

"So… I think that its time that we talked. Don't you think?"

"Ummm….Sure." Blair wasn't sure where this talk would lead.

"I want to tell you up front that last night was perfect. It meant so much to me." Blair couldn't help but blush at Serena's words. "I don't know what this thing is between us but, I want us to have a relationship." Blair was about to speak but Serena placed her hand on her arm to stop her. "I know that I've been horrible to you and there are things that I've done that I will never be able to forgive my self for. But, I want this Blair. I want this more than I've wanted Dan or any other guy that I've dated." Serena looked at Blair with the most hopeful look in her eyes. She pulled Blair by the waist and sat her in her lap. Serena was still naked under the covers and when she laid Blair on her lap she was able to feel Blair's skin touch hers. They had an intimate moment.

Blair knew that what she was about to say may destroy the entire mood. She turned around and looked at Serena in the eyes. She placed her hand on Serena's cheek and whipped a stray hair off of Serena's face.

"Serena…. I" For some reason Blair was having trouble talking to Serena now. "Last night was great for me to. But I just don't know where that puts the two of us. Before yesterday we didn't even speak to each other for an entire week and before then we weren't even friends. I don't know where that puts us." Serena was about to say something but this time it was Blair who stopped Serena from talking. "I do feel something for you Serena but, I just don't know what I want right now." Blair could see that Serena was getting upset with her words. She knew that Serena may be hurt but she still had to tell Serena the truth. If their was anything she owed Serena it was the truth.

Serena was angry and a little hurt. She knew that Blair made sense but she still felt a tinge of jealousy from Vanessa sending Blair that text message. She looked at Blair and knew that she was trying to find common ground with her. Serena looked deep within and made a decision. "Whatever I have to do to get Blair back, I'll do it." She thought to herself. She pulled Blair to her chest and gave her a gentle kiss on the lips. She was happy to see that Blair didn't refuse her.

"Like I said before Blair. I want this. I'll do whatever it takes to get you back." Blair was more than surprised by Serena's answer. She expected the other girl to be more than angry with her. "I want to be with you but, I also know that in order for that to have a chance at happening we have to establish our friendship again. You're still my best friend Blair. Poppy, Penelope, Isabelle, and Hazel don't compare to you. I know that you don't think of me as yours but I'm willing to at least give our friendship a chance. Once we have that, hopefully we can have more." Serena hoped against hope that Blair would agree to what she was suggesting. She knew that this was the best idea for the both of them. It may not be what she wanted but, it is what they both needed.

"I think that's the best thing Serena." Blair began to remove herself from Serena's arms. Her body was humming from being in such close proximity with Serena's naked body. Serena missed the hold she had on Blair instantly. She watched as the other girl began to get dressed.

"Serena, if we're going to start new. I don't want for their to be lies, deceit, or anything else getting in the way of our new start. I'm trusting you again, I need to know that I can depend on you as my friend and maybe something more down the line." Blair gave Serena a trusting smile.

"I understand, none of those issues that we had before." Serena began to instantly feel guilty about what she'd done earlier. She stepped out of the bed and began to put her clothes on. She looked to the side and caught Blair giving her a good look over. Once the brunette realized she'd been caught her face turned red and she turned her entire body around so she could get dressed. Serena smirked. " I've still got a chance with her." She thought to herself.

"You wanna get something to eat?" Serena was dressed in record time and she wanted to get started on rebuilding her friendship with Blair as soon as possible. "The sooner we're back as friends, the sooner we can be together." She thought to herself.

"Umm sure" Blair just finished putting on her leather jacket and Serena couldn't help but think that Blair looked extremely hot with her new look. She eyed Blair's body up and down. The other girl had on a pair of boots, skinny jeans, and a rolling stones t-shirt. Her hair just reached her shoulders and was straight and not curled. The leather jacket gave the girl's entire look more appeal. Serena had never truly recognized how much Blair had changed until now. The other girl seemed less stressed and more carefree, the old Blair would've already had a schedule for the day but this "new Blair" seemed to take life as it came to her.

Both girls decided that they would walk around Manhattan to find a good restaurant to eat lunch. Serena started to notice that where ever they walked, heads turned. This was nothing out of the ordinary for Serena. She was known as the most beautiful girl in New York. What caught her attention was the fact that almost every head was turning to look at Blair. Women and Men alike would turn and look at Blair with lust in there eyes. Every time they stopped it seemed like some girl or adolescent boy was trying to flirt with Blair. Serena could feel the pang of jealousy beginning to envelope her body.

They found a coffee/diner shop a few blocks away from Blair's home and decided that this would be the perfect place to eat. They sat by in one of the booths and ordered.

"Hey, how are you ladies doing today? My name is Jennifer and I'll be taking your order!" Their waiter was a beautiful red head. She was wearing a black skirt and a white blouse. Blair could help but look the girl over. Serena saw it and was not pleased.

"I'll take a coffee, black, and the turkey club." Said Serena. She just met the girl and already she could feel that she was beginning to dislike her.

"I think that I'll have the same." Blair said. She didn't notice that Serena was practically glaring at the other girl. She looked out the window.

"I'll have your coffee here in a few minutes." The waiter turned and left. This left Serena brooding and she shifted her glare to Blair instead.

"What?" Blair said.

"So, I guess the rumors are true then."

"What rumors?"

"That you've become the female player of the Upper East Side. For the past week on gossip girl, you've been spotted bringing a different girl home. You already had me yesterday, I guess the waitress could be your lay for the night." Serena said this with a pointed look in Blair's direction, her lips were turned into a pout. Blair couldn't help but think that Serena look considerably cute.

"What I do with my personal life is none of your business Serena. But, I will say that even though our waiter in kind of hot, that doesn't mean that I'm going to charm her into my bed." Blair was kind of hurt that Serena would assume.

"I'm sorry Blair, your right." Serena said.

"Besides, after last night, I wouldn't think about sleeping with any of these low life skanks. Not when I've got an extremely hot, extremely blonde, and extremely adorable woman sitting in front of my face." Serena couldn't hold the blush that crept up her neck at the praise. She kept her mouth shut. Blair smirked.

"I know we're starting off new, but I certainly don't want to start new without you in my bed. Considering how good you are in it." Blair couldn't help but smile when she saw Serena's face turn extremely red.

"Blair someone could here you."

"So what?"

"Here you go ladies." Their conversation was interrupted by their waiter who brought the two coffees.

"Thank you" They both said.

"Is their anything else I could get you ladies." Serena was about to answer but she noticed that the waiter was eying Blair in a particular way that she did not like. The waiter had yet to look at Serena, being so enveloped in Blair.

"Umm.. Can you bring me more napkins hunn." Serena turned her face back to Blair when she heard the words "hunn".

"Okay… I'll bring those right out." Jennifer was giving Blair a small smile and Blair gave her a smirk back. It seemed that Jennifer wanted to do something more than just take Blair's order.

"What was that?"

"What was what?"

"The flirting going on between you and our waiter."

"Their was no flirting Serena. I asked for napkins." Blair was ready to laugh at Serena's jealousy but the look the other girl was giving her made her hold it back. She couldn't understand why Serena was being so protective. They weren't a couple. She gave Serena a sincere look back. "But we are something." Blair thought to herself.

"Fine, whatever, just stop charming that girl."

"I'm not charming her. I'm being myself." The look Blair was giving Serena made the other girl stop in her tracks. Blair was being honest with her. She wasn't seducing the waiter, she was just being herself. It was just, Serena wasn't used to Blair drawing so much attention. "Well, I better get used to it." She thought to herself.

"Okay, well our waiter wants to hook up with you."

"No she doesn't Serena."

"Oh, yes she does." At that moment the waiter came back with there food and napkins. Serena thought if the girl looked at Blair one more time she might maul her.

"Here's your food ladies."

"Thank you" Blair said. Serena was beyond pleasantries at this point. Blair began to cut her sandwich when she noticed the waiter was still looking at her.

"Is their a problem?" Blair said. She didn't like for people to stare at her while she was eating.

"No… I… It's just….. Your Blair Waldorf aren't you?" Blair was surprised the girl knew her name.

"Yes, I am." Blair hadn't figured if this was a good or bad thing yet.

"I saw you on gossip girl. Your a lot cuter than those photos give you credit for." Blair looked at Serena and saw that the other girl had a look on her face that said "See I told you!" and Blair didn't know what to say. The waiter was still smiling at her.

"Thank you"

"The food is on the house. Give me a call sometime." The waiter slipped her name and number next to Blair on a napkin and left. Blair was embarrassed at her situation. She looked at Serena and saw that she was still glaring at the red headed waiter as she walked to the kitchen.

"I told you Blair."

"Fine, the waiter has the hots for me. That still doesn't mean that I'm going to call her later Serena." Blair was still hurt Serena would assume. But she couldn't argue because for the past few weeks she'd been known as the female Chuck Bass. They ate their meals and left the restaurant. Blair made sure she threw away the waiter's phone number in front of Serena to show she wasn't planning on calling the girl. Serena called her driver and they were on there way to Serena's home in less than five minutes. The car ride was quiet.

Serena knew she had no right to be jealous. Blair wasn't her girlfriend and she was allowed to do whatever she wanted. She just didn't like the way that people looked at the other girl with there lustful eyes.

Blair still couldn't understand why Serena was brooding so she scooted closer to the other girl. She saw Serena was still pouting her lips so she gave the other girl a light kiss. Serena still kept her pout but her eyes showed she was getting less angry. Blair saw this and gave Blair another longer kiss on the lips. Serena pout turned into a smile and she returned the kiss making it more passionate. Blair was the first to pull away.

"I thought we were going to try being friends first?" Serena said

"We are but, the part about not having something more, I may have been a bit hasty. I think I like being with you a little too much." Blair smirked.

"Well, I think I like this plan a lot better." They were at the Vander Woodsen penthouse. Both girls walked inside the door and were surprised to see Eric and Chuck sitting in the living room. Serena was holding hands with Blair but released them as soon as she saw Chuck.

"Hey Chuck" Blair said. Chuck saw Blair release his step-sister's hands but played it off as if it didn't matter.

"I called you earlier, but I see that you were indisposed." Chuck gave Serena a smirk. Serena gave Chuck a glare back. Blair gave a smirk of her one. It was at that moment that Eric cut in.

"So are you guys dating now. Give me all the details." Eric had been waiting home patiently for Serena to return so she could give him the "low down" on what happened yesterday.

"Umm… Eric.. We're.. Ummm" Serena didn't know what to call her and Blair.

"We're starting brand new as friends again. We'll see what happens with the other stuff.'" Blair smiled in Serena's direction.

"So, I've got my second sister back?" Eric always thought of Blair as a sister.

"Yeah I'm back Eric."

"Great." Eric was smiling from ear to ear. Chuck cut in.

"So since the two of you aren't dating. Blair, you still up for Victrola tonight? That bartender, Chris or whatever his name is, still wants see you, if you know what I mean." He looked at Serena's direction and gave her a smile. He knew the other girl would be pissed at even mentioning something like that. Serena looked in Blair's direction.

"Sure Chuck, we can go to Victrola." Blair didn't think anything was wrong. Not until she saw Serena's face. "Damn it, I just messed up." Blair thought to herself. Eric saw the rising tension.

"I'll see you guys later." Eric left to his room.

"I'll call you later on tonight." Chuck left giving a lingering smirk to Serena. Serena thought she was going to hurt the boy. Blair saw what was happening and thought she could smack herself.

Serena started walking to her room and Blair followed. They walked inside and Blair closed the door.

"So your going to hook-up with Chris tonight!" It was said as a statement.

"No, I was just going to the club, I wasn't going to hook-up with anybody." Blair saw how angry Serena was.

"Oh really, I should believe the female player of the Upper East Side." Blair winced at what Serena said.

"I'm sorry Serena." Blair wanted this fight to be over and Serena saw it. She told herself to calm down.

"Okay" Serena walked forward and put her hands on Blair's waste. She pulled Blair to her and gave her a long kiss. It quickly turned passionate and Blair ended up on the bed with Serena staddling her.

Serena started to undo her shirt and Blair took off her leather jacket. She put her hands on Serena's hips and started kissing her neck. Everything was going perfectly until Eric waltzed in the door.

"Serena… I…Oh my God." Eric covered his eyes.

"Eric… Eric… What are you doing in here?" Serena was so embarrassed at being caught with Blair. They both rushed to put there clothes back on.

"I heard something in the living room and saw Blair's phone ringing. I wanted to give it to Blair but I see I should have knocked first." Eric was trying to get out of the door as quick as possible. He handed the phone to Blair.

"Thank you Eric."

"Some girl called, I think it was Vanessa." Eric ran out of the room.

The silence was deafening when Eric said that name. Blair didn't know what to do. She looked at her phone and saw that it was definitely Vanessa. She looked at Serena and she had an unreadable look on her face. Blair put her jacket on and walked into Serena's bathroom. She closed the door and started dialing Vanessa's number. She stood in front of the sink and looked at herself as the phone rang.

"Hello"

"Hey Vanessa"

"Hey Blair"

"I've been calling you for the past week and I haven't been able to get a hold of you."

"I know, I've been contemplating on whether or not we should even speak to one another. I talked to Dan and although what you did with Serena was wrong, me and you were technically not together. I may have "jumped the gun" when I left you at the club."

"Vanessa, what happened with me in Serena, is exactly what I just said, it just happened. I'm sorry for what happened. You didn't deserve to find out that way."

"I appreciate that Blair and I wanted to apologize for slapping you. That was wrong for me to do. I…..I… Umm… I've been thinking about you a lot. I miss you. I texted you earlier today and you didn't answer me so I thought you just decided to ignore me."

"You texted me? I didn't receive it."

"Really? I sent the message around twelve." Blair began to look through her phone for any missed messages but she couldn't find any.

"I don't see it Vanessa."

"Well I know I sent it. I waited for almost an hour for you to message me back." Blair didn't think that Vanessa was lying. She began to think about what happened that afternoon. She woke up with Serena and checked her phone. She didn't see any new message earlier from anyone then either, so she went to the shower. She put her phone on the table next to the bed. Serena was in the bed while she was in the shower. Blair instantly had an image in her mind. She didn't want to believe it. Serena wouldn't do such a thing. She wouldn't go into her phone, look in her private messages and delete them. Blair looked at her phone again. If it was from Vanessa, she may have.

"I think I know what happened to the message Vanessa. I'm sorry I didn't text you back. I think it's time that we talk. No more secrets."

"Okay"

"I'm on my way to your apartment right now."

"Bye"

"Bye"

Blair flipped her phone shut and walked out the bathroom. She saw Serena sitting on the bed, waiting for her to come out. Blair went to her purse and put her phone inside. She turned around and gave Serena a glare. She knew the answer to the question she was about to ask Serena. She just wanted to know if the blonde was going to tell the truth.

"I need to ask you something Serena and I want you to tell me the truth." Serena nodded and gave Blair a worried glance.

"Did Vanessa text me this afternoon?" She looked at Serena expectantly. Serena's entire demeanor changed when she realized the topic of discussion.

"Yes" Serena didn't want to lie to Blair and the look she was giving her told her that Blair already new the answer she was going to give.

"Did you erase the message?" Blair was angry and hurt. She looked at Serena with narrow eyes. She never thought Serena would do something like this. Not after what happened last night. Not after their new start this morning.

"Yes" Blair picked up her bag and started to open the door so she could leave. Serena ran and caught Blair by the arm. "I'm sorry Blair… I didn't know what I was thinking. I saw the message and who it was from and I got jealous and mad… and after last night I just wanted our new start, without Vanessa hanging over us. I know I was selfish but, I wasn't thinking straight. I want you all to myself." Blair looked at Serena and saw the other girl was close to tears. She wanted to be mad at Serena but for some reason she couldn't. Blair took her hand away from the door handle and gave Serena a stern look.

"I understand why you did it Serena but after our talk this morning I thought you would have at least told me. I wouldn't have cared, the fact is that we agreed to a new start without lies, deceit, and secrets. You destroyed that in less than a day. I need to trust you Serena. If I can't trust you then I don't know where we'll end up. Last night everything became clear about our feelings for one another but, it won't matter if your not honest." Blair's voice was less angry and she was trying to convey how much of an issue this was.

"I know Blair… I just… I just lost my head for a while." Serena's eyes were pleading with Blair. "Please don't go."

"I don't know Serena. I just… I need time…I have to figure out what I WANT for myself… who I want for me… Just give me time for my decision." Serena started to get angry. Yes, she made a mistake but, she didn't think it should change the direction she and Blair were headed. She had a feeling Vanessa had something to do with this new change.

"So, does that decision include Vanessa? Your with me for almost two days and the moment she calls you forget what happened between us." Serena knew she was jumping to conclusions but, she was hurt.

"I haven't made any decisions on Vanessa. If you didn't realize, before you and me happened yesterday, a week ago me and Vanessa were on our way to a full blown relationship until YOU destroyed it at the club. We're not together Serena." Blair was pissed, how dare Serena bring Vanessa into this.

"Really, can you honestly say that before you talked to Vanessa, me and you weren't doing great together? Can you seriously say that Vanessa isn't the reason why you don't know what you want our relationship to be now. I know I messed up but, Vanessa is still hanging in between us." Serena was yelling now.

"What happens with me and Vanessa is none of your business." Blair was yelling back at Serena.

"Do you have feelings for her?" Serena needed to know what was going on between Vanessa and Blair now that the Brooklynite might be back in the picture.

"Like I said none of your business."

"Answer me"

"Fine. You want to know? Yes, I have feelings for Vanessa and I have feelings for you. I don't know who I want." Blair looked at Serena and Serena looked back at her with a realization.

"You're going to have to decide. You're going to have to decide at some point Blair!" Serena still had her hand on Blair's arm. Blair yanked free and walked out the door. She walked past Eric who heard all of the commotion and grunted a "good bye" out of her lips.

Serena stood staring at the door. She didn't know what was going to happen now.