It's Time!
I'm sitting in the thrown room looking at the ceiling when I feel something pop.
"Edward!" I call loudly.
"What?" He asks coming to my side quickly.
"It's time." I say calmly. Suddenly I'm in his arms and we're flying through the hall and toward the birthing room that Carlisle set up for me. He lays me down and runs to the door.
"It's Time!" He yells suddenly there are feet running toward our room as a scream escapes my mouth. Stupid contractions.
"Breath Bella, breath." Carlisle instructs. I nod and breath quickly. Another one rolls through and I scream.
"I can see the head. Okay Bella push." I do as he instructs and push. I don't want to go into detail with the birthing process so I'll skip. Edward grabs something and then wraps it in a green blanket. Carlisle hands another baby to Esme and she wraps a pink blanket around it after cleaning it. Edward watches me before handing me a baby.
"What are you going to name him Bells?" I look in the little boys huge green eyes. He has soft pink lips that fall over one another and abnormally long eyelashes for a baby boy. I smile at him. He has short dark brown hair like me. He has Edwards strong nose and jaw line it seems. He's beautiful and pale.
"Aden Anthony Masen Cullen, welcome to the world." I say kissing his cheek. He smiles brightly. I hear a soft cry and my eyes dart around the room to Esme who is holding a little girl out to Edward.
"She doesn't like me it seems." Esme chuckles.
"Don't worry mom. Edward switch me." I say he smiles and holds the little girl out to me. I look down into her deep brown eyes that look like mine and Emm's. I play with the short locks of bronze hair like Edward's. Her lips are dark pink and perfect. She has my nose. Her cheeks are slightly rosy and her skin is very pale. I grasp her little hands and tears come to my eyes. She looks just like Nessie right down to the very long eyelashes which are traits from both Edward and I. Her hair however is not as curly as Nessie's was.
She hides in my chest and I smile.
"I found our shy little one Edward. Little Sasha Marie is just as shy as I used to be mom." I comment softly. I yawn and lean back as Edward takes Sasha from me and kisses me forehead.
"I love you." I whisper before falling into deep slumber for that day. I wake with a start to find myself dressed and laying in my bed. I jump up and look at myself. I'm down to my normal size. I run down the hall to where I hear Edward. The effects of the babies haven't quite worn off because I can still hear too well. I stop at the door to see Edward cooing over Sasha on the rocking chair. I watch transfixed as Aden's eyes pop open and his head rolls toward me. I smile and walk in picking him up and bouncing him on my hip.
His eyes flash around the room and lock on Edward.
"Edward I think Aden wants you." He nods and we switch. Sasha cuddles into my neck. I bounce her a little and sit down. Her hand comes up and I gasp as pictures and words filter through my mind.
"Wow was that me?'
'yes'
"I love you Sasha Marie." I say kissing her forehead softly. She smiles brightly at me and I pull her to me tighter. They haven't grown all that much. I hear soft even breathing coming from Aden and watch as Edward lies him down in his crib. He tucks him in slowly and kisses his forehead.
" Goodnight son." Edward says before pulling himself away from the small boy. I here a loud voice calls through the hallway.
"Code Red Carlisle!" Alice says. Sasha isn't going back to sleep.
"She won't fall back asleep so I'll wait for Aden to wake up and take them to meet the guard. Go to my mom and tell her I'll be in soon." Edward nods kisses me and then kisses Sasha.
"Tell Alice good luck too?" I nod and he walks out. I begin to hum softly to Sasha.
"Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky, are shooting stars, I could really use a wish right now." I sing softly.
'Pretty.' Sasha comments in her little way. I smile and bounce her on my hip. Aden's eyes open slowly and a small yawn escapes his lips. I smile and pick him up. I walk toward the birthing room and stand behind everyone else who is transfixed in awe waiting for Alice's baby.
"Sasha, Aden there's Grandma." I whisper softly. Aden's eyes light up as Sasha's do. Esme turns around and her face pulls in awe.
"Hello dears. Bells they're just adorable. She looks like-" Nessie's eyes grow huge.
"I knew this would happen!" She yells tears falling from her eyes. She runs out of the area and Edward looks at me panicked. I hand Aden to Esme and Sasha to him. I run after her. I find her locked in the tower.
"Nessie baby… let me in please." I coo through the door.
"Go back to the babies mom." She replies harshly.
" Nessie what's wrong?" I say softly.
"Just go away I don't want to talk to you about this. Just go back to Aden and Sasha have a beautiful day with just them. I saw the way your eyes lit up when you looked at them. Just go, you don't need me so don't bother." I feel tears well up in my eyes.
"Nessie I do so-" The door opens and there is a cold hardening to her eyes.
"Go away. I don't want to talk to you." The way she said it felt like she was saying goodbye.
"Um… okay." I say before turning and walking away quickly. I see a tear roll down her face. I walk into the waiting room and everyone looks at me.
"Is she okay?" Edward asks softly.
"Yeah she's fine." I say hiding my hurt.
"Are you okay?" Emm says looking at me.
"Yeah. I'm fine. Uh Edward I'm still really tired so I'm going to go lay down for a while. Will you be okay with the kids?" I ask softly my mind not really there.
"I'll be fine love. You just go lay down. I love you." Edward says softly
"Yeah I love you too." I say walking away. I walk into my room and open the closet slowly. I pull out her book. I open to my favorite picture of us. Nessie was just a baby. I'm holding her above me, our noses almost touching and I'm looking into her eyes lovingly. Alec snapped the picture when I wasn't looking. Tears fall form my eyes as I flip through the pictures slowly. I shake softly as I realize that Nessie is pushing away form me. I'm loosing my little girl. I'm loosing that little light that brought me to life after Edward and I gave out. I sniffle as I hear someone approaching the door. There is a soft knock.
"Bells are you okay in there?" Emm's voice comes through the door in a caring whisper.
"You already know Emm." I say quietly. The door opens and he walks in shutting it. He sits down and wipes my tears away slowly and repeatedly. He stops and just pulls me into his chest.
"Bells what is wrong?" I sniffle trying to control myself.
"Nessie hates me. She thinks I care about the babies so much more than her but I look at Sasha like that because she looks so much like Nessie. I would die if Nessie left. She's my baby. Emm I don't know what to do." I say softly looking at me hands. I look away though because Nessie has my small hands. Emm stands as another knock sounds softly on the door. It opens and Nessie is standing there looking down. Emm walks out.
"Mom can I talk to you?" I nod and she walks in. "Why do you look at Sasha like she's your world?" I look out the window.
"She looks like you." I say very softly.
"Don't lie to me." I turn angry.
"Reneesme Carlie Masen Cullen how dare you think that I'm lying to you or that I would ever forget that you were my first born, that you were what filled and healed my heart after it had been broken to the point of what I thought was no return. I can't believe you would think so low of me, I'm your mother for pete sake. Do you have any idea what happened when you were born!" I yell in a rush of anger.
"What you cried because I looked like dad? I was always a replacement for dad! Wasn't I mom!" She yells back. I walk to the door.
"No Reneesme I almost died giving birth to you." I whisper. My hands curl into tight balls and I bite my lip. "When you were born my body wasn't prepared and I had never practiced unfreezing parts of my body. My heart unfroze and almost stopped killing me with it if it did. Luckily you got out and they bit me right here-" I point to my neck. "-Or you wouldn't have a mother at all." I finish. I walk out the open door and walk toward the baby's room. I hear Nessie sit down heavily on the bed. She sighs, Nessie is definitely thinking. I walk in to see Edward sitting their playing with Sasha. I sit down and pull Aden to my chest. He sighs in his sleep and curls into my chest. His hands tighten on my shirt and I run my small hands across his tiny back.
"Are you okay love?" I nod and look at the floor.
"I told her if you couldn't hear." I reply softly.
"About her birth, yes I heard. So did Esme but It seems she just went into labor so Carlisle has to deal with that." I look around the room.
"Did you know that Esme lost a child before she had Emm and I?" I whisper softly.
"No she never told us." I look at his face.
"It was a little boy. She was so happy at the time. Renee was three or four at the time. Mom said dad was so excited to finally get a son. He died within minutes of being born. They names him Charles Aden Swan. He had big blue eyes and dark curly caramel hair, just like Esme. Just like Renee. Emm and I look like our father. I'm built a little like both. Our father was a tall man. Renee's full name was Renee Sasha Swan. Sometimes I wonder what it would have been like to have two biological brothers. I wonder if he would have died with Dad and Renee that night. I wonder if he would have been protective of me just like Emm or helpful like Dad. Mom was so sad talking about it. Edward I don't think I would have lived if Nessie died when she was born. I think I would have jumped on New born war territory just to be killed." I say thoughtfully.
"That must have been hard on Esme." I smile and run my hands over Aden's smooth hair. I love my family. Esme is going into labor now. I stand and sit Aden on my hip.
"Let's go see Jace Conner Whitlock Cullen shall we Aden. I want to see my little nephew." Edward stands with Sasha and we walk slowly toward Jace's room. We walk in and I smile down at the little guy. I touch his little cheek and Jasper smiles at him brightly.
"I'm a dad Bells I can't believe it." Jas whispers hugging me.
"You'll make a great daddy Jasper." He smiles and picks Jace up as he starts to fuss. Jace is going to be a handful with Alice's excited nature.