Chapter 21

*Kiya's point of view

A lot were away today on a mission. Alcina went on a mission with Allen again with Link who often tagged along. Lavi, Bookman and Kanda were away too. Lenalee was with Miranda an Marie. The rest, I haven't really heard much.

I feel so damn sick. My insides hurt. Pain is throbbing all throughout. I was sweating and panting like as if I'd ran very far away but it was all due to the cause of my seal breaking and it's getting harder to suppress it.

KILL…

KILL…

KILL…

Damn it! I can't let that urge to kill overpower me. Alcina is going to be gone long for awhile so it will probably take weeks of hell before it calms down. I wrote a letter to the supervisor then placed it on Rin (she is with me cause Tim is already with them).

Rin then flew to Komui's office and gave it to him. It was a good thing he was awake else it had been a problem getting the message to him.

Komui-san,

I will be staying in my room locked for weeks until Alcina comes. I already told Jerry to have my food prepared and Rin will leave it on my doorstep (yes she can carry that).

The Noah is trying to take over again so it would be best that no one will approach the room no matter what you hear. This is a common thing to happen every year so I'm used to it. The only difference is that Alcina is not here. I'll be fine till she comes back so don't drag her off suddenly from her mission all because of this.

Kiya

They probably received the notice by now. I locked my door and had Rin watching outside. I can't risk anyone getting hurt all because of the Noah.

I feel so weak and sick. Suppressing it without he seal makes me weaker and I hate that feeling. I definitely feel like throwing up. My mind may have been weaker but the urge to kill is still so strong. I suppressed the urge by hitting myself instead with Alcina's dagger. She gave it to me whenever we part while she uses a different innocence.

The room reeked of blood, the smell that I dread the most. It was there and it will be weeks of hell for me. Everywhere you'd look in the room, blood splattered all throughout the walls and floor. Even my bed had been drenched with my blood. And the scent lingered in every part of the room. Some who might have passed might have noticed it but I gave out a fair warning so no one attempted to come inside.

It's getting out of control, much more than the usual. I even had my hands chained to the bed but it only broke. It was bloody hell of a room. And no matter how many times the cold and sharp blade pierces though my flesh and bones, the urge won't stop. I might even kill myself with what I'm doing. It only stops temporarily when I'm asleep because of exhaustion or loss of blood.

*Lavi's point of view

I was on a mission with Kanda and Bookman that took a week and a few days to finish. I arrived at the order badly wounded and beaten up like hell. Kanda was also injured but he heals fast. I was brought to the infirmary to be further treated on. Matron said that I was probably going to be stuck there for days or weeks.

Lenalee came to visit and has that worried expression on her face. I asked what was wrong but she didn't answer. I asked her then where was Kiya. She looked bothered by my questions but she then finally answered it.

"Kiya is in her room. She had been locked in there for more than a week. Nii-san told me that it has something to do with her being a Noah. I really get worried whenever I passed by but Nii-san said that everyone was forbidden to enter or even go near except Alcina who hasn't arrived yet. He didn't tell me why and just said that it was an order. I'm not even allowed to tell you this but I really am worried. Please don't tell anyone I told you. He actually asked me not to tell you of all people but I thought that you have the right to know at least. Please don't tell them that I told you."

"Of course, I won't tell on you. And thanks for telling me."

Her Noah was probably taking over again. And Alcina isn't here. I wanted to check up on her so I got up from the bed when everyone was already asleep. Each step had been a pain for me till I reached her room but that didn't matter. I was as worried as Lenalee was.

I reached the door to her room and held onto to the cold iron knob. Rin kept pushing me away to tell me not to come inside. The scent of blood worried me so much that I rushed inside through the door that was carelessly left open.

The room was soaked with blood everywhere and Kiya lied down on the floor unconscious with broken chains on her wrists and blood all over her clothes and hair.

I rushed to her side despite the pain from my wounds and then helped her get up when she slowly woke up.

She looked at me horrified and then told me to go away. I didn't leave her of course with that condition.

"As if I'd do that. Look at how much of a wreck you are right now."

"Leave! It's trying to take over. I might try killing you again and this time I might succeed. This would heal on its own. I'm a Noah after all."

"No way! I can't leave you in a state like that."

"Please, it's trying to take over already."

"All the more reason that I shouldn't leave you and let you suffer alone."

Kiya tried staying away from me but just as she said, it took over. Her golden eyes brightened with intent to kill and then she held onto the dagger that was nearby and hit me with it.

I was pushed to the ground and then she repeatedly stabbed me. It must have been hell of a week for her doing that to herself. It hurt like hell.

She suddenly came back to her senses and realized what she had done. She looked horrified and afraid of herself. She kept a distance then stabbed herself repeatedly to hold back on to reality.

"I'm sorry Lavi. I shouldn't be here anymore if I'd be doing that to you."

"Stop."

I took the dagger away from her and threw it away. I realized that it was Alcina's innocence. It must have hurt on her more since she's a Noah.

I held onto her and tried to calm her down. My chest ached, the wounds have reopened and the stab wounds she gave me hurt as well but not that deep at all which was good but I'm slowly losing consciousness because of the loss of blood.

*Kiya's point of view

I regained my senses and looked to my surroundings. I was holding a dagger and Lavi was on the floor bleeding. Blood was flowing out like the sea.

I moved away and stabbed myself repeatedly to hold on to reality. I was losing myself and I don't want to lose it anymore to hurt him again.

He got up and took the dagger away from me then threw it away. He held me in his arms and tried to comfort me. I cried like a little child as he slowly lost consciousness.

I became worried and scared. I stopped the blood flow temporarily and called for help. He was brought to the infirmary. People were surprised seeing me soaked in blood.

I was standing by the doorway and then fell down on my knees. I tried standing up but couldn't. I was also dragged inside to the infirmary and treated. It took hours before he was stable. When I heard that he was out of harm's way, I fell into a deep slumber and woke up only after three days.

My Noah didn't take over anymore. It had been earlier than expected but Lavi had suffered in the process of helping me. I was out in a week due to my wounds healing fast since I am a Noah while Lavi was only released two weeks after and a few days.