Oh my gosh guys! So, I go to bed last night and I have 44 reviews... and then when I come home from school today, I have 65! That's pretty amazing in my opinion! Thanks to everyone who reviewed :):)

This is just a short filler chapter, I'll post the next one tonight where she goes back to the capitol for the 69th games and she gets reunited with Finny hehe :)

Anyways, I think Carter is a Jerk-off, so that's what I portrayed him to be! I hope you all like the chapter! Leave me some more reviews, they really make me feel special! c;

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No.

No no no no no.

Carter cannot seriously be proposing to me right now. I'm in love with Finnick, not Carter.

"Carter…" I don't know what to say.

He grins, so wide. "Marry me, Gem."

I start crying, letting tears stream down my face. He thinks I'm excited, that's why I'm crying. He's totally wrong. I'm crying, because I'm about to break his heart. "I… I can't, Carter…"

His face drops, and tears well up in his eyes. "Why not Gem? Don't you love me?"

"Of… of course I love you Carter…. But I'm not in love with you." I can feel his heart breaking right there and then on my kitchen floor.

"You love someone else, don't you? Who is it, Gem?" He whispers, staring at the ring. He snaps it shut and throws it so hard at the wall. The box falls apart, leaving a dent in the wall and the ring flying across the floor. I jump. "Who is it? Dammit, Gemma!" He runs his hand through his hair.

"F-finnick Odair… Please Cart-" I put my hand up to try to calm him down, and he bats it away.

"Don't Gem, just… just don't." Then he storms out of the kitchen, and straight out the front door, slamming it shut behind him.

I sink to the floor, and I curl up into a ball, letting the sobs over take me. I think I just lost my best friend, but I had to tell him the truth, I owe him that much.

I lay there all night, just crying and crying. I only stop when I look up and see Trixie sat down in the kitchen doorway, watching me. "Why are you crying, mama?" She asks me.

"Come here, baby." She crawls over to me, and we just sit there, hugging for a long time.

Eventually I get up to get Trixie some bread. She sits at the table, eating silently, and I go to use the phone. Finnick should be home by now.

"Hello?" He answers when I call him.

"Finn?" I say.

"Who is this?"

"It's me, Finn. Gemma."

"Oh! Hey babe, how are you? How was the train ride?"

"He proposed to me Finnick." I whisper, completely ignoring his questions.

He doesn't answer for a long time, I know he's upset. "And what did you say?"

"I… I told him no."

I hear him sigh in relief, "Thank goodness… I was worried you would say yes. I don't think I would be able to handle that, Gemma… I love you to much."

I completely ignore his statement, "I love you too." It's like I can feel him smiling over the phone, "But will he hate me, Finn?"

"He might, for a while, but he'll move on. Trust me."

"I do." We chat for a bit longer, and then we hang up.

The rest of the day is pretty boring. I take Trixie with me into the square to go shopping because I need to get my mind off of Carter, only to receive dirty looks from people of my district. They all hate me. I hate all of them.

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6 Months Later

…

The past 6 months have gone by fast. I find it very lonely. My only friends are Esmeralda, Mitchell and two other victors Cashmere and Gloss, who are brother and sister victors. I spend my days going to each of their houses, then to the square to spend money on things I don't need.

I can't even escape to Ky to talk to him, because the capitol are still making me take the stupid drugs.

Trixie has been doing well with her Epilepsy; she hasn't had another seizure since that day in the capitol, which I'm relieved about.

I talk to Finnick every day, Haymitch most days, and sometimes I call Seeder or Enobaria to talk. I haven't said a word to Carter since the day I came home.

I see him sometimes in the square, and he's always with this girl. He has obviously moved on fast enough, it looks like he already has another girlfriend. Even though I love Finnick, it still hurts to see them holding hands and him kissing another girl. But at the same time I'm happy he moved on.

Today is the day when Zayna comes to one for her victory tour. I'm currently getting Trixie dressed. She keeps talking on and on about meeting a new friend.

We are eventually ready to go, and we meet Esmeralda on the way. Once we get to the stage we take our spot in the crowd with all the other victors. The little Zayna walks onto the stage.

"Um… Hello, District 1… Your tributes, Roland and Ash, were so kind… We spent a lot of time together, and they were like my brother and sister… I really miss them, and I really wish they didn't have to die… Having to watch both of them die was that hardest thing I ever had to see… besides watching my sister-" Her voice cracks, and tears stream down her face. "Besides watching my sister die on TV. At least they are in a better place now, and wherever they are I'm sure my sister is with them. Thank you all."

I must have tears streaming down my face, because Trixie reaches up and wipes them away. "Don't cry, Mama." I smile, and we're rushed off to meet her.

She has to meet victors from oldest to youngest, so I'm last. It takes quite a long time to get to me, because there are so many people. Once she gets to me, I don't shake her hand. I pull her into a hug and we cry together.

Of course this isn't of "protocol" so as soon as we break apart a peacekeeper slaps me and knocks me over. I forgot how badly getting hit felt like. I just roll my eyes and stand up, kind of used to it now.

Zayna looks absolutely terrified and I say, "Don't worry, that won't happen to you. The capitol just doesn't like me, but they like you. I'm Gemma, by the way. Your sister… was my friend in the games." I see her swallow, and she tries her best not to cry. "It's okay, we can talk later."

Then she's rushed away from me to get ready for the feast.

…

"Hey, Gemma…" I hear someone whisper behind me from where I'm sitting around the table at the feast. I look up to see Zayna, who is actually smiling.

"Hey, Zayna, how are you?" She just shrugs, and I tell her to sit beside me. Why not add another member to our victor family? She can be my annoying little sister that I've never wanted but can't help but love.

We talk all night, and the feast is soon going to be over. Trixie absolutely loves Zayna, and she wouldn't leave her alone the whole night. "You know, Zayna, you can come to me about any-"

I get cut off by a snicker, and look up. Guess who is standing beside me.

Carter. Wonderful.

I roll my eyes at him, and he smirks. "Zayna, this is Carter… Carter, this is Zayna." I introduce them. Zayna offers a very tiny smile before turning back around in her seat so we can talk. I leave Trixie with her and get up to talk to him.

We walk away from the crowd and I speak, "Already found another girlfriend, Carter?"

He scoffs, "Of course. How have you been?"

I shrug, "I've been better, I guess… Why are you even here, Carter? Why are you even talking to me? It's been 6 months!"

He looks away from me, focusing on the ground. "Well… I miss you, Gem."

Now it's my turn to laugh in his face, and he stares at me, shocked. "It took you 6 months to figure out that you missed me? Great to know I haven't been on your mind, because just to let you know, you are all I've been thinking about!" That isn't a lie. I'm constantly thinking about him, and how I can apologize; but then somehow my thoughts end up at Finnick and how much I miss him.

I turn around and attempt storm off but he grabs my arm. "Gemma, Wait a second…"

I turn around and look at him annoyed, "No. You wait a second, Carter. I've spent the last 6 months just thinking about you, over and over. But not in the way you would think. I haven't been mending a broken heart… I've been missing my best friend. But obviously you don't feel the same way, so I guess this is goodbye."

Then I turn around and walk away from him, and he doesn't grab my arm this time.

Was that the last time I am ever going to talk to my best friend?