Author's Note: Okay I LOVE this chapter. I don't know how you guys will feel about this though…

Disclaimer: I own Gilmore Girls. I also am the Queen of England and like coleslaw. Yeah I don't own Gilmore Girls.

Note: Jess and Rory did sleep with each other in "Keg! Max!"

Chapter 21

Words

Lorelai entered the house and shook off her soaking wet coat. It had just started raining when she had gotten out of her car and now it was poring. She heard the phone ring, but let it go to the answering room. Just incase it was him calling.

"You've reached the Gilmore's!" She heard herself say on the answering machine. "We're not here right now, or we died." Lorelai smiled at her blunt wit. "So leave your name and number, and maybe we'll call you. Or you can keep dreaming. Bye!" BEEP!

"Rory?" Lorelai frowned as she heard the familiar voice. "It's Chris, please pick up!" Lorelai rolled her eyes and picked up the phone.

"Chris, stop calling here!" She demanded. There was silence on the other end.

"Lor?"

"Chris you have to stop calling here. She doesn't want to talk to you," she stated simply. She heard Chris sigh over the phone.

"Lorelai you don't understand!" He said hysterically.

"Yes I do Chris," she said munching on a cookie. "You don't like your daughter's boyfriend. It's very simple. A monkey could figure that out after hearing the story of how you freaked out on them."

"Lor, he's going to hurt her!"

"You can't protect her from everything. She has to live her own life, make her own mistakes! Until you can figure that out, stop calling." With that said she slammed the phone down and turned towards the door. She saw Rory standing in the door way soaking wet. But visibly upset.

"Rory hunny, is everything okay?" She asked sympathetically. Rory ran towards her and pulled her into a tight hug. "What's wrong Rory? You're scaring me!" Rory extracted herself from the hug and wiped her tears. "This isn't because of Logan is it?"

"No of course not!" Rory cried.

"Okay sorry hun, I just assumed."

"Jess is back."

"What?" Lorelai asked angrily. Rory's tears started falling.

"He saw me and Logan together and I saw him staring so I ran."

"Where's Logan?"

"Oh god Logan!" Rory cried frantically. She got up and headed towards the door, but there was someone standing in the door way.

"Ace, you okay?" Logan asked, stepping towards her. Rory smiled and hugged Logan, who winced. "What's wrong?"

"Well this guy named Jess was at the diner earlier. And he didn't seem to like me much. After you left her showed me how much he didn't like me. Rory hugged him softly.

"Are you okay?" Logan smiled.

"I'll live." Rory smiled and brought him over to the couch and Lorelai excused herself. "Why did you run away like that?"

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Logan looked at her waiting for an answer. She bit her bottom lip, like she always did when she was nervous.

"That guy, Jess, is my ex boyfriend." Logan's heart sank.

"Ah, hence the hitting." He said simply.

"I'm so sorry about that," she said softly.

"It's okay so why did you run?"

"I just didn't want to be around him."

"What did he do to you?"

"Well," Rory started, "Jess and I dated my senior year of high school."

"Uh huh?"

"And it didn't end well…"

"What did he do?"

"One night we were at a party, and he was upset," she started getting teary eyed. Logan grabbed her hand and gave her a little squeeze. She continued. "So he went upstairs into a bedroom, and I followed. He was irritable and I wanted to make him feel better so I kissed him. He pulled me down onto the bed, and things got out of control." Rory choked. "He forced himself on me and afterwards I left the room crying. He followed me and tried to make me stay quiet. That's when we ran into Dean. I told you about Dean right?" Logan nodded. He was getting angry at this Jess guy now. "So anyway, we run into Dean, who notices I'm crying. Jess comes down the stairs after me and Dean punches him. They get into a huge fight, trashing the house. And finally Jess sulks off. A few days later he moved back to New York." She said letting out a small sob.

"And you never saw him again until today?" Logan asked.

"No," Rory stammered, "I saw him last year."

"What did he say?" Logan asked Rory sighed and continued with the story.

"He came into the town. I kept seeing him every where and he would always get up and leave. So the last time I saw him, he didn't leave. So I left. He chased after me and finally caught up with me. When he did he-" Rory cut herself off.

"He what?" Logan asked eagerly, "Rory what did he do?"

"He told me he loved me," she said quietly. Logan stared at her for a while in silence.

"And what did you say?" He asked, he really did not want to know the answer to that.

"Nothing he drove away." She said. Logan examined her, she looked tired and afraid.

"What did you want to say?" Logan asked. Rory bit her lip and exhaled. "Did you love him too?" Rory shook her head.

"No," she said simply. Logan smiled. Not because of her discomfort, but because she hadn't loved that jerk. Logan pulled her into a hug and held her tightly.

"I hit him too you know." Rory laughed and rested her head on his shoulder.

"Thank you."

"Order up!" Luke called from the kitchen. Logan went over and got the two plates of pancakes. He brought them over to Babbette and Miss Patty.

"Here you are ladies," Logan said placing the dishes in front of them.

"Thank you Logan," Miss Patty said in a husky voice. Logan walked away. "My god that boy has the nicest ass!"

"Lucky Rory!" Babbette added. Miss Patty sighed

"Ah to be young and in love!" Patty cooed.

"What choo talkin' bout? I am young!" Babbette joked batting her eye lashes. She and Miss Patty cackled. Logan headed over to Kirk's table. He was preparing himself for an inevitable battle.
"What will it be Kirk?" Logan asked with a pad of paper, and a pencil in his hand.

"I'm debating between the pancakes and the eggs, but I'm leaning more towards the eggs." Logan rolled his eyes.

"So pick the eggs Kirk."

"But that's unfair to the pancakes. They both deserve my full attention as I write out a pro con list."

"Then get both."

"I'm not made of money Logan."

"Ah so splurge a little!" Logan said patting Kirk on the back. Kirk flinched.

"But-"He started but Logan cut him off.

"Kirk you don't want to hurt their feeling do you?" Logan said smirking at Kirk.

"Well no…"

"Then it's settled! Eggs and pancakes, boy Kirk you must be made of money." Kirk smiled and Logan gave the order to Luke. Logan's eyes wandered over to the doorway to Luke's apartment, where Jess was coming out of. Logan averted his eyes and continued to work. Jess however followed him.

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Jess came through the arch way to the diner and spotted Logan talking to Kirk. He smiled. Since yesterday's little fight he had sworn to drive Logan crazy. Logan spotted him and turned around to work. Jess followed him.

"Well if it isn't pretty boy!" Jess called in a sing song voice. He heard Logan moan. "I'm sorry did you say something?" He asked Logan. Logan ignored him and continued to work. Jess saw that he had his teeth bared. "We didn't get to finish our little discussion yesterday."

"What do you want Jess?" Logan sneered. Jess smiled, this was going to be too easy.

"I want to know how long you've been together with Rory," Jess asked.

"Wow you don't beat around the bush, do you?" Logan replied.

"Nope I don't beat bushes, but you didn't answer my question." Logan smiled, and Jess wanted to punch that smirk off of his face.

"Almost nine months," Logan said nonchalant, "Why do you care?"

"I don't care," Jess said shrugging.

"I think you do," Logan said.

"Why do you think that Blondie?" Jess asked.

"Because you and Rory used to date," Logan replied. Jess glared at him. He didn't know he knew that.

"That we did," Jess said darkly.

"You're not getting her back," Logan said simply.

"You don't own her," Jess said teasing him.

"She's with me," Logan stated folding his arms.

"Macho, macho man!" Cried Jess sarcastically. Logan rolled his eyes. "You know," Jess said walking towards Logan. "She was with Dean the last time I got her." Logan frowned.

"What are you insinuating?" Logan asked with a puzzled look on his face.

"Is this concept too complex for you to comprehend?" Jess asked mimicking Logan's smirk. Logan stared at him. Jess picked up his coat and left the diner, leaving a worried Logan.

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Rory walked towards the diner and held her breath. She hadn't told Logan, but she was going to talk to Jess. She was going to tell him that she was not interested in him. As she got to the door of the diner she saw Jess walk out. He stopped in his tracks and they stared at each other.

"Hey," he said simply.

"Hey," she said quietly.

"Can I talk to you for a minute?" He asked hopefully. Rory nodded and they walked towards the gazebo. They sat down on the bench where she had seen him yesterday. "Rory I'm sorry about what happened the last time I saw you." Rory nodded.

"You mean when you said I love you and then left?" She asked, tears forming in her eyes. She held them back. She was not going to let him affect her. Jess nodded.

"And the time before that," he said staring at her. Rory bit her lip.

"I'm sorry about that too," she said harshly.

"I didn't mean to take off like that. I just I needed to get out of this town. I needed to go somewhere where everyone knew who I was."

"That's not an excuse," Rory said plainly. Jess nodded.

"No it's not," he trailed off.

"So," Rory stammered, "is that all?"

"No," Jess said looking at his hands, "That's not all." Rory held her breath. "I love you Rory," Rory shifted uncomfortably. "And I want you to come back with me." He held Rory's hand.

"Jess…" She said, "I can't do that." The tears she was holding back were now streaming down her face. She didn't like to hurt people.

"Why not?" He asked.

"Because Jess, I don't love you!" Rory cried. Jess stared at her, hurt evident in his eyes.

"You told me you did, years ago." He choked. Rory brushed the tears from her eyes.

"I thought I did, but that wasn't love Jess." She looked at him. He was looking down at the ground.

"It's about him, isn't it?" He said darkly.

"Partly," she replied.

"Do you love him?" He asked coldly.

"Yes I do, very much."

"How do you know that is truly love?" Rory was taken back by his question.

"Because, I do!" She said defensively. Jess sighed and looked at her. Rory felt uneasy around him and she got up to leave when he grabbed her wrist. He pulled her back down and kissed her, hard. Rory pushed him away, but he brought her back in. She pushed him again and looked up. Logan was staring at them looking very angry. His hands were clenched in fists and he was fuming. "Logan," Rory said mystified. Logan shook his head and stormed away. Rory got up, but Jess pulled her back down. "Jess let go of ME!" She cried and he let her go. Rory chased after Logan, hoping he hadn't seen too much.

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Logan was worried when he saw Rory and Jess walking towards the gazebo together. So he decided to follow them. After a few minutes of watching from a distance Logan got closer.

"It's about him, isn't it?" He heard Jess say darkly.

"Partly," she replied. Logan cursed himself and muted the rest of their conversation. "Partly? PARTLY? If he wasn't there would she be running away with this guy now?" He thought to himself. He went in front of the gazebo to confront them when he saw something that made his heart shatter into a million pieces. Rory and Jess, kissing. He averted his eyes for a moment to stop the tears and looked back up to see Rory staring at him.

"Logan," she said simply, staring at him blankly. Anger surged through his entire body and he took off. He heard Rory chase after him, but he didn't care he had to get out of there. He reached his car and drove to the Dragon Fly and went up to his room. He sat down on the bed and rubbed his eyes. He was frustrated and upset. How could his Ace do such a thing? He didn't think she was capable of doing such a thing. He thought he would have been the one to mess things up between them. Boy was he wrong. He heard the door open but he didn't look up.

"Logan," he heard Rory say timidly.

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Rory was worried when she entered the door and Logan didn't look up.

"Logan," she said nervously. He still didn't answer. She bit her lip and sat down beside him. He still didn't look up so she put her hand on his shoulder. He shrugged it off. "God Logan, just talk to me!" She said frustrated. Logan stood up abruptly and stared at her. He looked furious.

"What the fuck were you doing?" He asked. Rory was speechless from his anger. "Wait actually, spare me the details. Just go and run away with Jake, that's what you want. I'm not in your way anymore." Rory shook with anger.

"I'm not going to run away with Jess, stop being so dramatic!" She cried.

"Stop being dramatic? You were practically sucking Jess' face off!" Rory scrunched up her nose.

"I was not, he kissed me!" Rory cried. Logan snorted.

"Like you didn't want it!"

"I didn't want it! Didn't you see me try to push him away?"

"Nope, that's not what I saw!"

"Logan why don't you believe me?" Rory said standing up.

"How do I know you weren't about to hop on a bus to New York with him right then?" he asked.

"Because I'm telling you I'm wasn't and I'm not!"

"Why should I believe you?"

"Because you trust me!" Logan didn't say anything. Rory stared at him. "Oh my god, you don't trust me do you?" Logan still didn't say anything.

"I don't trust most people," Logan said quietly, avoiding eye contact.

"Why don't you trust me?" Rory asked advancing on him. Logan backed up. "Logan, why don't you trust me?" She repeated. She felt like she was talking to a child. Logan didn't say anything. She tried to get closer to him but he backed up again.

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"God Logan why won't you let me get close to you?" Rory screamed. Logan looked at her. He hadn't noticed he was backing up.

"Sorry," he muttered, approaching her. This time she backed up. Logan looked at her puzzled. She had started crying and tears were streaking down her face. "What?" He asked confused.

"Why won't you let me get close to you?" She asked again.
"Sorry I didn't realize I was doing it." He muttered. She shook her head.

"I'm not just talking about that," she choked. Logan looked at her, he had no idea what she was talking about.

"What are you talking about?" He asked.

"You don't let me get close to you. You don't let me get to know you. You keep pushing me away every time something happens. You know everything about me, but I don't know anything about you." She cried. Logan tried to get close to her, but she kept backing up.

"Rory…" He said softly. She was almost at the door now.

"And I just realized," she said tears rolling down her face so fast that she wasn't even bothering to brush them away any more. "I don't trust you either." Her hand was on the door knob.

"Rory please," Logan said.

"And there can be no love, without trust." She turned the door knob and left the room. Logan sat down on the bed and stared at the door she had just shut. She was gone.