Amy walked to the loft, and put Lyndy down on her play pen. The little girl sat down, but quickly tried to stand up by using the bars in the pen as a way to pull her up. It was starting to get harder to look after the girl the more mobile she got, but Amy was thankful she had the play pen to help her because she could at least turn around from Lyndy for few seconds to do something - like now, put the food to the fridge - but Amy was already somewhat dreading the future; Lyndy could get on her wobbly feet already and soon she could walk and then run. How was she supposed to keep up, especially if she wanted to keep working?

Maybe she needed a babysitter.

But with what money?

Ever since her accident, Amy had had to start working less which had been irritating, but since there were physical limitations that had prevented her from doing some of the things she usually did, she had had to respect the sick leave.

But now that her arm was better and her sides didn't hurt anymore, the problem seemed to be time. Looking after Lyndy - as easy baby as she was - took a lot of time and it still, even after all these months, took Amy by surprise how much time little things like going out took.

"Alright, Lyndy... Let's see what your dad sent us", Amy then decided and went to fetch the package from the closet. She placed it on the kitchen isle where she could keep an eye on Lyndy and in a way make her feel like she was participating, even though she didn't really understood what was going on.

Amy opened the soft post package and slid out a wrapped present that was addressed to Lyndy and an envelope that was meant for her. She decided to open the envelope first because she was somehow dreading it more. Ever since the letter from the law firm, all kinds of posts relating to Ty made her feel nervous.

Sliding out a card, Amy pretty much ignored the beautiful horse picture on top of it and went straight to the text. "I've made a donation to Vet Without Borders under your name..." she read out loud and stopped before finishing the sentence. Amy wasn't sure if this was a joke or had Ty not realized how this would make her feel.

She realized Ty's intentions were good, but it almost seemed bad taste to make a donation in her name for a cause that had split them up, but it seemed like Vets Without Borders was all Ty really cared about these days, so maybe it made sense, after all.

Amy felt guilty for feeling bad about animals being helped under her name, because it wasn't what she was against - and neither was Vets Without Borders either, even if it made her flinch every time the organization was mentioned - but the complete lack of Ty's awareness of the situation and the way he kept bringing up his "glorious lifestyle".

And the more Amy thought about it, she realized Ty had always been someone who left his presents to the last minute and this seemed like one of those things too; it was almost like taking out a nice object from your bookshelf and wrapping it up for someone and saying "here you go".

Amy sighed and put the card aside, trying not to think about it too much. Well, at least it wasn't something too bad, she tried to tell herself.

She then moved onto Lyndy's present. It was nicely wrapped, and Amy showed it to Lyndy too. "Look how pretty! I wonder what's inside." Cutting the tapes and removing the ribbons, Amy opened the present that revealed a nice silver dress with a tutu full of glittery stars on the bottom half of it. It was actually pretty cute, and a relief washed over Amy.

This had not been as bad as she had thought, yet she had thought about it all day. What a waste of energy.

"Look at this... Very nice, don't you think?" she talked to Lyndy even if she knew the girl could not respond. Amy handed the dress for Lyndy to fondle while she read the card. "Merry Christmas, nugget. I love you so much. I can't wait to see you. Maybe you'll wear this on New Year's?"

The start of the card made Amy feel a little bit of warmness that she had not expected to feel, especially because Ty had called Lyndy Nugget like when she had been pregnant with her, but the last sentence on the other hand made her feel confused.

"New Year's?" Did Ty had plans to come to Hudson on New Year's? They had not talked about it, at least. Right...?

Amy took out her cellphone. She wanted to facetime him and ask, but who knew where he even was now and what time it was over there, and besides, Amy wasn't sure how she would react to seeing his face, so she decided to text him.

"Just opened the gifts. Thanks for them", she wrote even though she felt conflicted about hers. "What is this about New Year's in Lyndy's card? Did we have plans?"

Amy put her phone down and walked over to her calendar while holding the card. She kept racking her brain, trying to think if she had just somehow forgotten something, maybe she had put it down on the calendar and just completely put it out of her mind after that.

Maybe I bumped my head during the accident and I'm experiencing some type of memory loss, Amy kept thinking, trying to come up with excuses, but there was nothing in the calendar either.

Her phone buzzed as a message from Ty came through.

"Well, I was just thinking since you had her for Christmas, that I could have her for New Year's", Ty had texted and added. "We agreed we'd share her from time to time."

At first Amy felt angry, even though she knew what they had agreed on and that Ty probably missed Lyndy like crazy - she know she would if she was not around her - but then she also felt frustrated how Ty had just assumed this would be okay with her. This was the first time they were discussing it - just few days before Lyndy would join Ty!

This seemed to be Ty's style now; assuming things and then letting her figure out his plans from all sorts of clues. Hell, maybe it had always been his style, the more she thought about it.

Amy tried to compose her mind before texting something back.

"I wish you would have brought this up earlier, it's kind of last minute, don't you think?" she challenged Ty to think about his way of dealing with things. "Besides... where will you be at that time? I thought you were outside the country."

That started a chain of texts back and forth.

"I am right now, but I will be back to Canada and B.C. by that time, so Lyndy and I will be spending the New Year's in Vancouver with my mom."

Amy felt annoyed that she was so annoyed about this, but she couldn't help herself. It was at least good that Ty was going to be in Canada (she wouldn't put Mongolia pass by him at this point as she was so bitter about everything he did these days and how he chose to handle it) and Lily was going to be there - whether Ty trusted her with Lyndy or not, Amy did - but the way Ty spoke about this all made Amy see red.

Now it wasn't even assuming, now it was about what was going to happen.

"Okay, well I guess that's what's going to happen then. Next time, I would hope that you would let me know in advance, and we could discuss about the arrangements way before they happen. You know how I feel about sudden moves", she didn't even try to hide her disappointment, because of course she was feeling down about it as it was the first time Lyndy was going to go and be with Ty.

Amy had almost felt better about leaving Lyndy behind when she had went to Mongolia - and she had felt bad - than she was feeling now that Ty was going to take her away to Vancouver because at least back then she had been surrounded by the people she knew and more importantly the surroundings she knew, but now it was going to be a whole new location with people Lyndy had hardly seen lately.

How was that going to work?

She wanted to ask one more thing. "When will you be picking her up?"

"Will Friday do?"

"Yeah, that'll be okay. I'll get her ready then."

When she turned off her phone and the blue light of it disappeared from the dimness of the room, Amy looked around. She was feeling so many emotions that it was almost hard to identify just one. Lyndy had been the reason she had been able to pull through all of this and she was scared what would happen when the girl was not around. Not to mention, she would have to face Ty and it would probably be really uncomfortable.

Suddenly all she wanted to do was to reverse any thought of any babysitter, she just wanted to look after Lyndy herself, have her all to herself, even if she knew that it was not something she should do, especially because Lyndy had a father who had the same rights to her just as she did.

Amy might have thought Christmas was going to be bad, but New Year's might just be even worse.