Chapter 21:
Harrys pov
I woke up with my head feeling like a carousal. When I opened my eyes and looked at the alarm clock it was only 6 a.m. I sighed and got out of bed. It was the first time in a while that I didn't need to give myself an energy boost to do so. Something in me changed, I don't know what or when but it did. I felt happy and full of energy. As soon as I got dressed and washed myself, I walked downstairs to the kitchen to get some coffee and a bite to eat. While the water was running through the coffee machine, I decided to get the mail in the mailbox. When I walked outside there was a cold and bitter wind flying throughout my body, as if something bad was about to happen. I looked towards the area where the black police car was suppose to be on the other side of the street. Even though I knew that they have been gone for about 2 months now. I grabbed the mail out of the mailbox and made sure I was inside again. "Harry.'' I heard someone call from behind me, her voice gave me shivers that ran down my back and made my heart warm up again. "This wasn't a choice between good and bad, nor between living and death. It was between who I should be and who I am. I've always felt as if I've been out of place. Literally stumbling through my life. I've never felt normal, and I don't want to be. I've had to face death, loss and pain in your world, but I've also never felt stronger, more real, more myself, because it's my world too. It's where I truly belong. And I don't want to miss out on the one thing my heart truly wants." She said with a slight shiver in her voice. I turned around to face her, her eyes filled with tears. She looked different, her hair was a lot shorter and she was very thin. Her face was red as if she had been running and she seemed to be scared. Something was bothering her and I know it isn't me.
She made a little move thwarts me and I opened my arms in a smooth movement. Her body was cold, I could feel it freezing through my clothes. Her hands glided over my spine and the tears that were coming out of her eyes were falling on my blouse. "Come inside.'' I said softly, inviting her in was the only thing I could do. I dreamed of this moment all the time, but why does this feel so wrong, like it's not meant to be? I smiled at her as I poured her a cup of coffee. She sat at the kitchen table with her head down. "You're so thin.'' I said a bit awkward. She shrugged her shoulders. "It's been a while since I've had a good meal.'' She replied. Her eyes didn't move from the table. "Why did you leave my mum?'' I questioned. "She started to ask questions.'' Her replies were short and sounded kind of harsh. The coffee was ready, I poured it into our cups and quietly sat down to face her. She isn't the same, something happened to her. "What's wrong.'' I asked. My hand reached out to her hand that was on the table. She pulled it away. "Why?'' She asked, her head turned up, I looked into her beautiful eyes. "What?'' I asked. I tried to make my voice sound sweet and caring, even though I was worried. "Why are you like this? So sweet and forgiving.'' She wiped away the tears that were rolling down her face. "Because even though you hurt me.'' This time I grabbed her hand and didn't release it. "I know it was what you had to do and I understand that you were scared. You never meant to hurt me, right?'' My tone slightly lifted at the end of the sentence. I had no idea how she would respond. It felt like I didn't know her anymore, like she became a different person.
"Ha-" Tom said walking through the door. "Elina!'' He shouted. The smile on his face turned bigger as he walked to her. "I missed you.'' He said as he was making a move to hug her, when she denied it he noticed that we were still talking it out. "I'll just.'' He said, walked out the door and disappeared to the living room. "What happened to you?'' I asked. She looked me straight in my eyes like she use to, she was looking at my heart rather than my past. "Nothing, I, I just don't know.'' She said. A little smile came back on her skinny face. "I don't know what happened to me, but I do know that this was the only right decision I made in a long time. Harry, I shouldn't have left in the first place. I should have been there for you in the front line, fighting together with you. I'm so sorry.'' She said, her makeup ran down her face and her eyes were red from crying, only now I could see that Elina was back, my Elina was back. I got up from the table and walked to her, she got up as well. When I was close enough I hugged her. "I missed you.'' She whispered. A smile appeared on my face as I said "Ditto.'' "I thought you'd say that.'' She replied laughing.