A/N: Thank you everyone who reviewed my story so far I love you all for that. Wanning, this chapter is very sad. I was listening to a sad song while writing this, so yeah. Just a warning it's sad. Hope you like it.
~ESPOV~
I couldn't believe what I was seeing with my eyes. Edward Cullen, my soon to be husbands son was pushing my daughter Bella up against the wall and she had her head tossed back. The thing was that they were both naked and from the way Bella's legs were wrapped around Edward's waist, he was inside her right now. I didn't know what to think other than that Edward was having sex with Bella. I couldn't think straight. I didn't even know what to say. Why would this be happening. Bella didn't have those sort of feelings for Edward. Did she?
~BPOV~
Esme stood there with that surprised look on her face. Edward held me to his chest, which felt amazing. He was trying to keep me from embarrassing myself anymore.
"I'll just go," Esme said with a small little voice. She quickly turned but not without stumbling over a few things that were laying about in Edward's room.
When she was gone Edward pulled out of me slowly, that felt really good as well.
"Edward, what are we going to do, I don't know what to think, she caught us. Do you know what she's thinking?" I asked him bringing my fingers to my teeth and nibbling on them.
"She's very surprised, she didn't see this coming I don't think. Esme is very confused I think we should talk with her and Carlisle just to get things straightened out," Edward said. He took hold of my shoulders. "I'm so sorry I'm putting you through this Bella, Esme shouldn't have found out this way. I'm so sorry Bella," He looked down in shame. This time it was me who placed my hand under his chin to lift his face so that he was looking at me. His eyes showed me the look of hurt. My heart melted at the look of his face.
"It's okay Edward, she was going to have to find out about us anyways, and she just happened to find out in a sort of surprising way. Is she upset that I would do something like this?" I asked Edward as we were both standing in his bedroom naked.
Edward was no longer aroused, so that kind of disappointed me. Now was the time to be serious, not horny.
"She's just very stunned and she doesn't know what to think, we will have to go and talk to her, come on let's get some clothes on and talk to her," Edward tried to sooth me by rubbing his hands up and down my arms. It helped a little bit, but I was still worried about what her response to all of this was going to be.
We quickly got dressed and then stepped out of his room. We were at the top of the steps ready to head down and talk to Carlisle and Esme about this situation. It was mostly to Esme.
Edward turned and looked at me. "Are you ready?" he asked me. I turned my head to look at him and I slowly nodded.
His hand was at his side, but then he reached his hand over so that he could grab my hand. It made me feel a little better that I wasn't going to have to go over this talk with my mother without him.
"Thank you for being here with me Edward, just for being there for me every step of the way and I also would like to thank you for loving me so much and devoting a lot of your time just for me, I don't think that I deserve you because there are much better women out there, but if I'm the one that you want to spend the rest of your life, than I am willing to stay with you and give you just as much love to you as you do to me," Edward squeezed my hand even tighter. "That was beautiful Bella, but not as beautiful as you are to me, you are my life and if I can't have you in my life I am nothing. I don't ever want you to leave my side," He brought his mouth in so that he could kiss me. His lips were cold and soft like usual.
I wanted to use a little bit of tongue in this kiss, but I thought better of it. This was way to sweet of a kiss to be ruined by it getting all wet and hot.
Edward peeled his mouth away and I let out a loud sigh. The kiss helped me be a little more calm.
We walked down the steps until we were in the kitchen where Esme was sitting at the table with her hand placed on her forehead, she was clearly still trying to think things through.
"Mom, can we talk to you for a moment?" I asked breaking the silence. I didn't not pull my hand away from Edward's as my mother looked up and she caught sight of our hands holding one another's, then she looked into my eyes and then into Edward.
Esme was looking a little more pale than she normally was.
She nodded her head and we took a seat.
"So how long have you guys been a thing?" She asked swallowing and keeping her hands on her hands that were folded and nicely placed on the table top.
"Ever since you met Carlisle. When you were gone with him on those dates and things well Edward stayed at home with me, soon we began to fall in love with one another," I told her and waited while she thought those facts through.
"Why didn't you tell me?" There was something seriously wrong with her. She seemed almost depressed in a way.
"We didn't want to upset you, and I knew that you were so happy with Carlisle that if you found out that I was dating his son, that well you would want me to be happy and you would break up with Carlisle because you knew it would never work," I explained. She looked up into my eyes when I told her that I wanted her to be happy.
"So you didn't tell me because you wanted me to be happy, but at the same time you wanted to be happy with Edward," She said solemnly.
"Yes. I couldn't help it. Before you met Carlisle, it was like you were my best friend, then when he came into the picture, you weren't really spending as much time with me and you were gone a lot. So Edward was there for me and we had attractions towards one another," I explained to her.
"So, you two have slept together then?" She asked looking at Edward first then moving her eyes over to me.
We nodded our heads. "I'm sorry mom, but we just love each other so much and we are using protection," She stood up from the table and pushed her chair in.
"I've heard enough," my mouth fell open. How could she be acting like this.
A heavy feeling of guilt and pain struck my chest. Esme walked out of the kitchen without saying another word.
Edward rubbed his thumb over my hand hoping to sooth me.
I couldn't believe that she would have acted this way. I think this was the first time that I ever saw her this upset.
I felt like crap now. It was all my fault. I stood up from the table and let go of Edward's hand. "I have to go rest," I told him. He latched his hand onto my wrist.
"Bella, please don't," His eyes were pleading me to stay.
I had hurt my mother. I felt horrible, maybe it was wrong for me to be with Edward, maybe it wasn't supposed to be like this.
"I'm sorry," I said. His hand slipped from my wrist and stormed out of the house. I was headed towards my truck. I needed to get away from here. Go somewhere where I could think and be alone. It started raining outside. The dark clouds loomed in the sky. I slammed my truck door shut. My hands balled into fists and I hit them against my steering wheel in anger. Tears rolled down my face. My heart thudded loudly in my chest.
Why did this have to happen. How could I live with myself knowing that mother would never be happy with choice of loving Edward and then devoting myself to him.
I placed the key in the ignition and drove off. I knew where I was going to go. Somewhere where I could think.
I drove as fast as I could to get to the place that made me feel safe.
I pulled into the driveway. I looked at the white house and in the windows. The house was bare and empty just from looking at it from the outside. I got out of my truck slowly and trudged up to the front door. I didn't care if got soaking wet. I didn't care anymore. I was probably going to end up staying here. If I died in this house I didn't care because this is where I grew up and where I wanted to spend the rest of my life. If I died my spirit would linger here. I never wanted to leave.
I knew where the spare key was hidden, right under the rug. I picked it up and placed it in the door.
When I walked in everything was dark and desolate. The oven was still there and so was the fridge and the counter tops, but everything else was gone. The sofa the t.v the dinning room table the kitchen table. Everything was gone.
I walked up the steps and went into my old room. My heart felt cold when I walked in. It was empty just like the rest of the house. My bed, everything on my walls. It was sad and depressing, just how I felt right now.
I walked over to a dark corner in my room and curled up into a ball falling into a restless sleep.
~EPOV~
Was this the end of us. My chest ached. I should have stopped her. I slammed my fists into the wall making an accidental hole. I cursed loudly. There was a knock on my door.
"Son, are you going to be okay?" It was Carlisle's soft comforting voice. I turned and looked at him. I kept my arms on the wall to keep me standing.
"I don't know if she'll want me back, not after what I did," I turned back to the wall and closed my eyes. I heard the sound of his footsteps walking over the carpeted floor. He placed a hand on my back.
"this isn't the end Edward, you know that you love her right and that you'll do anything for her," I turned back, my eyes felt like they wanted to let tears fall, but in my body, that wasn't going to happen anytime soon.
"Yes, but I don't even know if she loves me. I hurt her Carlisle. I let things get out of hand and I hurt her mother and so that hurt Bella," Carlisle pulled me off of the wall to sit me down on the couch.
"I don't think she will ever stop loving you Edward, She's just going through a tough time in her life. Only you can pull her out. Go to her Edward comfort her in her time of need," He helped me up. For the first time in my many years of being a vampire. I felt a weakness that I couldn't shake.
"I don't even know where she is, she could be on her way to Florida right now going to live with her aunt and her uncle,"
"You'll be able to find her don't worry, now you better go before you lose her," He walked out of the room. I didn't know how this little talk helped me in the least bit, it just made me feel worse. I walked out of my bed room to be glomped by warm arms wrapping around me.
"Oh Edward, you poor thing. I'm so sorry," It was Alice and I wrapped my arms around her just because I needed someone's comfort.
"Thank you Alice, but I really must be going. I have to go find her," I said about to walk away when she stopped me.
"Wait, I think I might know where she is. She is at the place where she feels comfortable the place where her life started, but was abruptly taken away from her," Alice explained to me and I knew where she was. I had to get to her.
"Edward, bring her back okay, please bring her back for me and the family," Her eyes were dark and sweet. She wanted her sister back and I smiled.
"Don't worry, I'll do my best,"I pulled her into a hug this time. She was such a sweet person. She was like a sister to me, that's what it felt like at least.
When I was done speaking with Alice I hopped into my car and drove away after Bella.
I pulled into the drive way and there was her truck. The front door was left open. I was suddenly afraid of what Bella might have been doing in her home, she wouldn't be so desperate to kill herself would she. I gulped and tried not to think of that outcome.
I walked into the dark house. I wondered why Bella hadn't bothered to turn any of the lights on.
I called for my Bella.
~BPOV~
I heard my name being called, it was very faint. I was cold and I felt slightly sickly. I felt to weak to look up or even move to see who it was. Frankly I didn't want to open my eyes. I was trying to find my happy place. The only place where that was, was in Edward's arms.
My heart throbbed unevenly as I thought of Edward, I wondered how he was handling everything. He was probably hurting more than I was.
My body quivered. I was wet and cold in this house in the corner. I was only making things worse for me.
"Bella, love are you here," I wanted to call out to this person who was calling my name. I heard the sound of my door open and then footsteps. I didn't bother to look up.
I felt freezing cold hands on my already cold body. "Bella," It was Edward I could smell him and from his voice.
I couldn't find my voice to answer. "Bella, please speak to me," He sounded like he was going to break down into tears. "Bella please look at me," I felt tears start to come to my eyes at the sound of his voice. "Bella, I don't want to lose you. Don't go," I shook uncontrollably.
"Edward?" I said in a weak voice that was hardly a whisper but I said his name and I was positive that he heard me.
"Bella we have to get you back home, I think you may have a fever," Edward said caring for me like always.
I slowly looked up. My head throbbed and I just wanted to lay down. My body shook again and a wave of coldness washed over me.
I was being picked up. I pressed my face into his chest. To hide myself from any light. The darkness made my headache less noticeable.
"Why did you come for me?" I whispered.
"Shh, Bella. Quiet now, sleep," He ushered me. I felt the rain plop down onto my body. It stopped and I felt something soft covering my body. It was Edward's coat that had his scent all over it. It put me to sleep as he slipped me in the back seat of his Volvo. I slept with a pounding headache.
Then I was pulled out of the back seat once more. I was carried through the rain and then into a nice warm house.
"Carlisle, I need your help please, it's Bella. I think she might have a fever," Edward's voice rang through my ears.
I could then feel many people around me, looking at me. There was a light above me that made me want to hiss and hide in a coffin.
A cool hand was pressed to my forehead. "She'll be fine, she just needs rest and to be cared for, for a couple days. She just has a high fever, she should be just fine in a day or two," It was the sound of Carlisle's voice.
I was picked up once more and then carried off somewhere else and placed in something very soft and warm.
"Edward, I need to tell you something," I said slowly opening my eyes and looking at him in the face.
He was leaning in waiting for me to speak. "Yes anything love?" He asked taking hold of my icy hand.
"I love you," I whispered before my headache pulled me into a deep slumber
I woke in the middle of the night, I was trying to think where I was. I was very hot, I wondered where Edward was. Now that I wasn't as sickly as I was when he brought me back to his home I was a little more aware of what was going on. "Edward," I called to him in the darkness. I heard the sound of his footsteps, he was right by the bed.
"Yes?" He asked sounding like he was going to do anything for me.
"I'm a little hot, do you think that you could lay next to me?" I asked. I wasn't in the mood for anything sexual I just wanted him to cool me down a little. My headache had subsided for the time being.
I felt him crawl into the bed and then under the covers. He pressed his cool body to mine. I shivered just slightly and pressed myself to him as he wrapped his arms around me. "Edward, I'm so sorry for scaring you like that today and running away, I was just confused and I didn't know where else to go, please if you will forgive me?" I asked hoping that he wasn't thinking of dumping me after everything that happened with us today.
"I now understand what you were going through love and I understand. Don't be sorry, you had every right to go back to your home. I know this has all been so hard on you and I have been selfish by not even thinking about what emotional pain you could be going through, I will try and work harder on that," Edward pressed a cool kiss to my neck, cooling down that one area a lot.
"When I was sitting there thinking things through, I thought that you wouldn't want me back after what I did. I felt terrible. I can't believe I did that," I felt tears come to my eyes.
"It's okay Bella, that is now in the past and done and over with, I want you to forget about that and get back to sleep, that's what you need, you need sleep to bring back your strength," He started humming into my ear trying to put me to sleep.
"Please don't leave me Edward," I said feeling very drowsy.
"I don't plan to," He whispered before continuing humming until I went right to sleep, but he never left me that night. He stayed with me while I was going through emotional issues in my sleep.
A/N: Wow. First chapter I've ever written where I've actually cried. Another weird thing is when I mentioned Bella having a headache I got one too. It's weird. I still have it hum. Well hoped you liked having the next chapter up so soon. I worked all day on it. So review, lol.