Wanting Chapter 21: His Room, an inuyasha fanfic

A.N hello, you must of figured out this story will be ending soon, but not yet so don't worry.

disclaimer: I don't own InuYasha.

Chapter 21: His room…

"Okay... so if I get the salad with bacon, will the bacon counter the salad?" I stared at her; I didn't even know how to begin answering that question. "I mean a salad is still a salad right?" The red head asked. I looked down at the pattern on the table. I didn't actually want to be here. I found that out shortly after realizing that I really didn't want to be anywhere without him. I felt like a loner, but I couldn't help it. I fumbled around tracing the pattern, staring at it's abrasive colors.

"Ayame its fine… eat what you like…." Sango replied before pushing her glass to her lips. I looked up to seem presentable. If I didn't say anything everyone would find me unusual right? "So Kagome…" Sango started staring at me. I looked up at her waiting. "So… you got the part?"

"Duh," Rin said looking around as if that was obvious. "She wiped the floor with Kikyo." With that she grabbed her spoon rustling her grayish green soup. She didn't seem like she was enjoying her food, she looked like she was forcing herself to eat it. I looked down, smiling nervously. I wouldn't have put it like that, but I got the part unanimously which I was ridiculously proud of. "She had like amazing chemistry with my brother; she was bound to get the part…"

"Ok wait… So are really you dating InuYasha?" Sango questioned. I didn't say anything I just sort of stared at my plate. I didn't want my food; I didn't even know what it was. I just picked it by random, now it was pushed to the side staring at me. She had an amused look on her face "So this isn't like a gimmick…" She began, and I was actually going to answer.

"No she's actually dating him for realies…" Rin jumped in excited, Sango eyed me after that, as if considering it.

"I can see that," she added before stirring up her food. I didn't know what she meant by 'I can see that,' but it seemed like she just gave me some sort of attractive test. I could easily see I passed, thank you oh great Sango. "So how does Kikyo feel about the break up and the movie?" She asked, and I had never taken that into consideration. Not only did Kikyo lose her boyfriend, but she lost the part in the movie too.

"Kikyo wasn't really dating my brother… gimmick." Rin added she had a sour face now, obviously her gray goop soup was not pleasant tasting. Sango eyed Rin, and then shrugged it off. I on the other hand was staring at the waitress. She was talking with Ayame who at that point couldn't decide what she wanted.

"Okay what if I want the salad without any meat…?" She asked, the waitress made an annoyed face, and I slumped down in my seat. I wanted to hang out with Rin, but now I couldn't. He was on my mind all the time; I wanted to be with him. I was wondering what he was doing at this very moment. He wasn't at home, he was probably doing something he had no business doing, but I didn't care. I sighed deeply. The waitress for the tenth time explained to Ayame. If she wanted a salad with no meat, get the veggie salad, don't pick through the meaty one. "Yeah but I don't want the celery on the veggie salad…" Ayame said as if this was obvious.

"Well order it without the celery." The plump woman said, she was a bit star struck at first when seeing us, but now it was obvious she just wanted us to go. I looked away from them both. Sango and Rin were still deep in there gossip. I was always in my own little world. I imagined what he was wearing, what he was doing. I could picture his golden eyes perfectly, was he thinking about me too? A woman's voice pierced through my thoughts. I looked forward at Rin; she was now fishing through her purse for her phone. I watched uninterested. I sighed deeply I just wanted everyone to end their meals so we could finally leave.

"No she's hanging with the girls today…" Rin said annoyed. I thought it was Sesshomaru, that was hands down the only person who called her. I looked to the right. The bathroom was visible. Despite the staring people who couldn't keep their eyes off our booth, like we were a car wreck waiting to happen. A lone bodyguard covered us from almost all view. He kept shifting to the right and the left with pointing people. I had this incredible urge to jump up, and scream for them to tackle me down, this way maybe they'd have their fill. "Uh… you're lying." Rin said, and she turned staring at me. I didn't say anything. "Fine… fine…." She hung up the phone in a depressed manner. I sat up trying to seem presentable, as if I was actually having some fun, though I wasn't. "Kag, Inuyasha's outside for you…" She said, and my heart began to beat uncontrollably. I wanted to propel forward, but I thought that would seem too eager.

"Really…?" I asked trying to sound as unimpressed as I could. She nodded as if she was sad to see me leave. "Well I guess I have to go." I said I made sure my voice sounded lack lust. I spared her a last glimpse before sliding out of my seat. "Excuse me…" I whispered to the body guard. He gave me a look before swinging to the side, I walked past him. Half of the people were holding camera phones pushing it in the air to catch a glimpse of me. I sighed trying to control myself. I wanted to sprint to the door, but I had to stay calm. I opened the glass door, seeing a black car, I knew it was him before even stepping on the sidewalk. The paparazzi were actually surprisingly very few. They crowded his car, but his windows were closed. He just sat waiting near the restaurant for me. I couldn't stop the smile that pushed itself past my lips. The camera stopped, half of them shifting towards me. I tried not to ignore them completely. I waved at one, and he took advantage of my attention, as a chance to ask me a stupid question. I could hear the body guard behind me, his massive arms swaying the people to the side.

I walked towards the car, the window began opening slowly. Rolling down, I leaned against the passenger seat. "You couldn't leave me alone for one day?" I asked cheekily, he had an amused smile on his face. He was so beautiful my memories didn't do him justice. His hair was back in a ponytail; his shirt was a dark red and silk.

I heard the lock push upwards signaling the door was open. I pulled it open and he stared forward. I slid myself into the car, before slamming the door behind me. "Did you miss me?" He asked, and I rolled my eyes.

"Of course not" I said pushing the seatbelt from its holder. I slowly and steadily pushed it around my small frame. I heard the click then pushed my hands under my bare thighs, keeping them warm. He didn't waste any time, he started the car and pushed it forward, the mass of people backing up knowing the routine.

"…So did you have fun?" He asked. I looked at his profile. I wondered if he actually cared. He was staring forward, and I lost interest in the question lost in his features. He turned towards me, when I didn't answer him. He noticed my staring, and his lips went up into a mocking smile. "Did you hear me?" He asked ripping through my thoughts. I looked ahead smiling contently. I loved everything about where I was. In his car, the radio's soft humming, the smell. I couldn't exactly put my finger on. It smelled so woodsy sort of piney in a way.

"Yeah…" I lied grinning forward; I could see him turn glimpsing at my profile. "We went shopping... Rin picked a lot of dresses out for me…. gave the bags to some maid woman, so we didn't have to carry them around." I said he didn't say anything as if he wanted me to continue. I did just because he wanted me too. "Then we did a fashion shoot… picked up Ayame, and Sango." I said my voice accidently became lack lust. I tried to bring up my tempo, but it was becoming exceedingly hard, "then we got something to eat, we were going to go to the beach." I said, and I turned to look at him, he was listening. I could tell by the way he set his features. "So what did you do?" I asked eager to know.

"Nothing…." He said simply, and I didn't badger him. His skin was still a beautiful gold, so I knew he didn't do any sort of drug, which made me feel great. "Hanged with Miroku, memorized lines…" his voice trailed off. "What do you want to do…?" He asked.

"I have no idea… anything." I said, and I couldn't help my smile. I was so uncontrollably happy, more than I ever been in the past few months.

He was looking down at me, but he didn't voice his thoughts. I looked down, my sun dress had hiked up showing a great deal of my thighs, but I didn't care. I didn't make any effort to cover my legs. I was comfortable the way I was. "Well…." He began his hand left the stirring wheel. I felt him softly run his hands over my exposed leg. My heart sped up at the electricity that captured me. I had to control myself from burning him, which was my problem after finding out my miko ability. "We can go home…" He said, and I smiled knowing what he was applying.

"Or…" I said, my hand wrapping around his. "You could buy me things." I was obviously joking and he laughed.

"Are you sure you're worth that?" He asked teasingly. And I nodded smiling at the little joke. His hands slipped gently out of mine, "well if you want we can watch all of your horrible movies…" He said, and I smiled.

"Oh but you have much more…." I teased, and he pretended to be shocked.

I leaned back in my seat, "nice come back." He said, and he looked truly impressed.

"I learned from the best." I said, and the conversation died down. The car slowed down as we made it to the light. None of us said anything, but it wasn't awkward. I slipped my dress down so it covered my legs just above my knees. I stared ahead, "Ayame did the stupidest thing…." I began as I looked back at my day. He waited for me to continue. "She wanted some salad with bacon, but wanted all the meat taken off. The waitress told her to just get a veggie salad, but she wouldn't because of the celery." I couldn't stop the obvious humor from slipping into my voice. "The waitress was like, we don't have to add celery to the veggie, but the pork salad has to have pork in it…"

"Retard…" He said, and he actually sounded a bit disgusted. I didn't want to admit it, but I actually thought the situation was a bit outrageously stupid. "Yeah… her boyfriend's just as dumb…." He began, and I waited wanting to hear what Kouga did today, but he didn't say anything else on the subject. He just ended on him being as dumb.

"What did he do?" I asked, and he shrugged glimpsing at me a half smile apparent on his gorgeous face.

"Nothing in particular…. just an observation." He said, and I shook my head looking out the window. We were driving the opposite direction from his house. I didn't know where we were going, but I didn't think he did either. I was wondering why he picked me up then. Did he miss me as much as I missed him?

I thought about the audition day, my smile threatened to extend. "Oh…" I said remembering something. "Despite your horrible performance, I got the part." I said, and I was shocked at his laughter. He actually found the phrase ridiculously funny. He didn't even try to hide it; he all but cocked his head back. I smiled at his reaction. "Got the letter this morning… Are you excited to be working with someone in my acting level?" I asked obviously teasing.

He scratched the back of his head "… Yeah I don't know what happened in there…." He said, and I knew we both knew what happened in there. I smiled biting the inside of my cheek. "Just forgot my lines…" He said as an excuse.

"That's not what happened." I said, shaking my head, and he glimpsed at me, and I stuck an eyebrow up. "You know exactly what happened… you were so overwhelmed to see me…" His smile disappeared. He seemed shocked that I would admit the truth so openly. "… You're my biggest fan." I said, "If you wanted an autograph…"

"How ever did you know?" He asked, the smile coming back instantly. His face looked too gorgeous for words at that moment. He opened his mouth hesitantly, he seemed as if he wanted to admit something. He didn't say anything for awhile, reminding me of an ancient poster I had of him, now in the trash of course. He seemed to be struggling with himself. He glanced at me seriously when a vibration cut through his speech. He seemed upset about this, but he still reached his hand over me to the glove compartment. He pulled out his cell phone; it only vibrated once telling me it was a text. He looked down, reading it. He didn't say anything he seemed stunned out of words or thoughts.

The car without any warning sped up, and at the opportune moment the car swiveled to the right, making a 'u' turn. I didn't voice my concerns, instead he began talking. "I… I gotta do something… I'll drop you off." He said, and I felt my heart beat double time at one given moment.

"What…?" I asked. What did he expect me to do without him? I couldn't possibly be in my room or be with Rin, Sango, Ayame…. I couldn't without a certain amount of time with him. This whole week he never left my side. He was always there, if I had an interview, he would always pick me up. If I had a photo shoot he'd watch. He missed so much of his own work just to be with me. Why now? Why couldn't he post pone whatever he had to do? Was I being selfish? I pulled him away so many times, but I didn't ask him to come, he came by himself. I did nothing wrong, right? I felt that small open gap in the middle of my stomach open again. It was figurative, but it still hurt all the same. I looked up at him, and he looked solemn. "Can I come with you…?" I asked my voice becoming raspy. He turned looking at me; he formed a small reassuring smile.

"Don't worry; I'll be back in an hour…" He said, and I looked up. He was lying, he looked forward, and I couldn't help, but to look away.

"No you won't…" I whispered, and I knew he heard me. I had at that moment an uncontrollable hate for phones. For anything that just without any regard of my feelings, pulled him away from me. I had to be without him for two years, I guessed that wasn't long enough. I sighed, maybe I was being overdramatic…It wasn't going to be that long right? Was I going crazy, was I so addicted… what was wrong with me? I just had the strangest feeling.

We didn't say anything as we drove "… I love you…" He whispered, and I turned to eye him. He didn't look at me, he just kept driving. What did that mean, what did a subtle 'I love you' mean on the way of dropping me off. I didn't want to be apart from him for the slightest minute. I didn't reply to his announcement, though it gave me chills. I try to ignore it, but I couldn't, his voice played over and over in my head. A small goodbye probably…

"You can either wear this or this…." Kaede said, and I stared at the pair of shoes. "I think this is your color…." She put the soft lavender sandals down near me. I stared at them, and faked a smile. She returned it. "I'm so glad you're actually getting into this… "She said, and she had no idea how wrong she was. I wasn't getting into this. I wasn't into it at all. Actually it was exactly the opposite of what she thought. It took all of my acting ability to pretend that everything was alright. I was here, but my thoughts were to the room to my left; the giant double doors that led into his room.

He hadn't come home… no this wasn't unusual for InuYasha. He left days at a time, but not the Inuyasha that loved me. He didn't just leave me. He would always out of nowhere, wrap his arm around me. Whisper realistically humorous things; make me feel like I was in some sensible fairytale. In reality my life actually sucked. Years prior to this, if I would have known as a sixteen year old that at this point I'd be famous dating my idol. I would of past the years with the hope of change, but actually my life sucked. The only person that made it worth living was him. Was I being over dramatic again? Wasn't I very lucky? "And you'll wear a skirt today, how about that?" She asked and I smiled broadly, false excitement lining my eyes.

"That's great… but actually." I said, and I stood up from my spot on the bed. "There's this perfect skirt I've been eyeing." She looked very intrigued by this. I was starting to realize that Kaede had this absurd addiction to clothes. Everything about the subject lit her up. "It's in this boutique near the board walk… "

"Is it Fashion's by Lee…?" She asked interrupting me. I had no idea what fashion's by lee was, but I nodded all the same, and she smiled. "I think I know exactly what you're talking about…" She said, and I smiled I knew she would. "I'll be right back…" She said, and she ran towards the door. I watched her leave. Walking behind her, I left my room all together. I waited a few minutes before sprinting towards the double doors. I stared at it. I have never been in his room. At night he came to mine, but I imagined it filled with things that would match his personality. I didn't think he wanted me to go in there, why? I had no idea. I was going to walk in there now, I had to… Maybe he was in there.

Over sleeping, maybe he left something to tell me. I should have probably just left it alone. Let him come get me himself, but I couldn't. I put a hand to the door knob, twisting. It was locked, and I took that as a sign to leave well enough alone. I couldn't though, I tried, but couldn't. I let a strange familiar essence take over my arm. A hot warm blue mixture, steady training for a bit over two years helped me control the mist enough to twist the door knob, unlocking it automatically. I looked behind me before walking in slowly. The room was unimaginably black; I searched for a switch somewhere with no avail. I kept trying though with the urge to see what he'd been hiding. The room felt as if it mocked me. The light switch was nowhere to be found, and nothing could be seen, telling me that there was no windows in his room.

I continued feeling the wall, finally finding some sort of knob. I turned it, and the room immersed in light. What I saw was shocking. His walls were bare, nothing lined the white borders. There was no furnisher; the room was filled with boxes. In every inch of the room there was some sort of box. He looked as if he was moving out. I walked deeper into the room. The boxes had things in them, but they had long time ago been taped. Nothing littered the floor, everything stayed in boxes, but his out of place bed. The covers were a vibrant red, unmade; I walked over boxes getting to it. I looked around shocked, I didn't expect to see anything in here that would tell me where he was, or where he was going. Good to, seeing as I had no business being in here anyway. I sat myself on the bed, looking around. So obviously he was moving out. He didn't bother telling me though, I didn't know why, but I didn't question it. I felt like just sitting in his room, and waiting, least I'd be a part of him, not alone in my own room. I put a hand down feeling a sheet of paper under the comforter. I thought against looking at it, but then what would have been the point of coming in here. I stood up rummaging through the bed sheets.

I pushed away one blanket after the other; revealing a nicely hidden envelope. I pulled it out, it had already been opened, and who ever saw it was very upset. I had no idea for what reason, but I could tell from the way the paper was squished back in. I turned the envelope over and my eyes widened, my name written nicely on the front. I didn't remember ever opening this, I took the paper out. A note was in it. My heart began to beat triple time. The idea of it being a roughly written love note lit my mind, causing me to become incurably excited. I dropped the envelope pulling out the scrunched sheet of paper. I looked down; my name was written neatly at the top.

Kagome

Hey I have something to tell you. Its life changing, please… please come to the old studio tonight. Park a ways away from the building (as not to attract paparazzi.) I'm sorry for being away from you… I love you.

I stared at the sheet of paper, nothing written sounded as if Inuyasha would have written it, and why would the paper be in his room. Why would he think I'd be in here? It was all so confusing; I stared at the written paper again. I didn't know what to make of it, but I knew despite the churning of my stomach I'd be there tonight…

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