Chapter 21

After the fireworks were done everyone fled the amusement park. Rin and his friends followed and made their way out as well. Once they made it to the exit they had to go their separate ways.

"Your not coming Bon?" Shima asked. Bon shook his head.

"I'll be there later. I'm gonna walk with Okumura." Bon said. Rin looked at Bon and pouted.

"I'm right here you know. And don't worry I'm fine go back to your dorm Bon." Rin said. The scholar shot a warning glance at Rin making the other sigh. He was not getting out of this. The others nodded their head in understanding.

"Alright just try to be back soon. We'll see you back at the dorm." Miwa said before he and Shima walked away with Izumo and Shiemi. Bon watched them leave before turning around to look at Rin. Rin tensed and looked away from Bon's prying eyes. The scholar let out a deep sigh and ran his hand through his hair as the other was resting on hip.

"Come on, it's getting late." Bon said before walking past Rin. The shorter one let out a shocked noise before be dragged by the other. Bon's hand felt like a warm bracket clinging snugly onto his pale, thin wrist.

"When was the last time you ate?" Bon asked. Rin frowned at the question. Bon should know that.

"With Izumo, a few hours ago. I had some takoyaki why-"

"Have you been sleeping?" Bon asked the next question. Rin fell silent. The taller exorcist stopped and turned to the other. His arms crossed over his chest as he looked at the other. Rin looked at the ground sheepishly.

"Not really…I mean Kuro helps sometimes but…" Rin quietly trailed off, his eyes focusing on the glowing street light. The edges of Bon's mouth turned downward and he walked closer to the half demon until he was right in front of him.

"Are you…still having nightmares…?" Bon asked, his voice barely a whisper, cutting through the dead of night. Rin bit his lip.

It won't hurt to tell him that. I could say yes as long as I don't mention the deal. Bon still thinks I'm upset with the book right?

With a deep breath Rin nodded his head. Bon swallowed and his hand combed through his now disheveled hair.

"Okay." Bon replied quietly, his voice wavering slightly as he grabbed his classmate's hand and walked him home. Rin stared at the hand in shock. Okay? That's it? With a frown Rin looked up at Bon's face. Mocha eyes were filled with so much pain and sorrow. Rin's bottom lip quivered and a lump built up in his throat. Fangs dug into his lip to try and stop the shaking as he walked home.

'I'm sorry Bon. I'm so sorry…' Rin thought sadly hoping his thoughts could reach the other.

After the walk to Rin's dorm both of the teens entered the building. Rin walked ahead of the other and turned to look at him.

"Um…thank you, Bon.." Rin said as he shuffled nervously, fidgeting where he stood. Bon looked at the exorcist, examining his movements closely. The aria swallowed and looked away and around the apartment.

"Is Yukio home?" He asked. Rin looked up at Bon is confusions.

"Uh…no, he might be back later tonight. I think he's on a mission." Rin explained before looking away awkwardly. Silence hung in the air, weighing heavily in the atmosphere. The sound of a clock somewhere in the house ticked endlessly throughout the house. Rin could hear Bon swallow down the metaphorical lump in his throat before speaking the sound of a sharp intake of breath filled the silent void.

"Rin…are you okay? I mean…I know." Bon paused and combed his hair hair with a shaky sigh. "I know we talked about the book and….hell but…you haven't gotten better and…and…"Bon's voice slowly broke down with each word. Rin stared at the ground silently listening. His black bangs covering his face from Bon who was desperately looking for a reaction. Bon bit his lip harshly and looked away from the of esquire.

He was desperately clawing at shambles. Pieces of a puzzle that didn't belong. Bon felt a single tear build up in the corner of his eye. It grew and grew, caressing the the top of his cheek bone.

"I want you to get better I want….I want you to tell me what's wrong. I thought you were okay!" Bon's voice trembled. His hand covered half of his face as though he were trying to catch the tears that were about to pour out. The lump in his throat grew, climbing up his throat but not fitting. A strained sob left the older exorcist, trying to relieve the pressure.

Ryuji felt a pair of arms tightly wrap around him. He let out a small gasp of surprise as he was pulled down towards the shorter teen. A pale hand cradled the back of his head. Bon buries his head in the crook of Rin's shoulder and sobbed. Tanned arms snakes around the teen as he bawled.

"It's going to be okay Bon. Don't worry, I'll be fine." Rin spoke softly to the crying aria. Bon replies with more tears and pained gasps. A headache threatened to fill the scholars head as he weeped.

After a long while. The exorcists tears subsided and he was pulled away from the other. The scholars face was red and puffy. He sniffled and rubbed at his face. Rin's hand laid comfortingly on the others upper arm and waited patiently.

"God Rin…I'm so sorry…I-"Bon's raspy voice was cut off by a calmer one.

"It's okay. I should be sorry, I'm sorry I wasn't honest with you."Rin's voice was quiet and calm. "But please trust me when I say I'll be fine. I don't want you to worry too much."Rin explained. Bon opened his mouth to speak but Rin stopped him. "Bon. Please. Trust me." Rin asked, his voice borderline desperate. Bon looked down and nodded his head, too tired to argue.

"Okay." He agreed quietly. Rin frowned at the word. He should be happy, happy that finally Bon won't pry, but he felt hollow. Pushing the feeling down he walked to the door.

"Are you okay to walk home?" Rin asked as Bon stepped out side. 'Please don't go'

"Yeah. Will you be okay?"Bon asked as he looked at Rin. Mocha meeting blue for the first time since the festival. 'I need you to be okay' Rin gripped the door frame tightly as he read the message written in brown eyes. Rin nodded his head, not trusting himself to speak. With that, he watched as Bon walked away.

Rin entered the now empty building. The click of the door closing caused tears to fill the blue eyes. Rin gasped violently for breath, he let out a high pitched wail and slid to the floor. He cried loudly and violently as though he was vomiting, retching, heaving. He squalled loudly and held his suffocating ribs in distress.

"I'm sorry, I'm so so…-gasp-sorry!" Rin repeated between breaths and gasps. He curled up on the floor crying, his apologies slurring into jumbles as he hiccuped and sniveled in distress. His pale face turning red until he fell asleep.

-line break-

Rin woke up to a pair of gentle hands shaking him awake. With a groan, Rin rolled over and with squinted eyes saw his brother Yukio.

"Nii-san. Hey.." his brother whispered gently.

"Yukio…what…"Rin voice was groggy and hoarse. He sat up only to feel a small weight by his side. He looked down to see Kuro curled up beside the other. "Kuro….?"Rin spoke quietly.

"I just got back and saw you two like this. What happened?" Yukio asked quietly. Rin rubbed his face tiredly. With a grumble he quickly made an excuse.

"Was tired after the festival. Guess I fell asleep on the floor hehe…"Rin said, rubbing the sleepiness from his eyes. Yukio looked his brother a quiet frown lingered on his face. Yukio knew something was wrong with his brother, ever since class that day he knew something was upsetting the carefree twin. Of course at the time the smarter of the two didn't think much of it and thought that it would pass. Yukio's frown deepened as he thought about the trip. With an internal sigh Yukio forced his frown into a gentle smile.

"Seriously Rin, what am I going to do with you?"Yukio joked before standing up. The other twin followed and grabbed the sleeping Kuro with him.

"Sorry…" Rin mumbled before lighting up. "Want some breakfast?" Rin asked. Yukio smiled and nodded his head.

"Sounds good." Yukio agreed. Rin gently placed Kuro on a comfy lounge seat before making his way to the kitchen. Yukio's worries frown reappeared as he listened to the sizzling sound of bacon and eggs. The smarter twin made his way over to the entrance and rubbed the back of his neck.

"So uh. Since I'm off for the next few weeks I was thinking we could Uh, head over to the monastery. Y'know, visit the priests again." Yukio offered. Rin pauses for a second to listen before continuing to focus on the food.

"Yeah. That sounds great."Rin responded followed by a loud sizzle of bacon being flipped. Yukio nodded his head before walking away.

"Tell me when breakfast is done, I'm heading to my room to unpack."Yukio said before walking up the stairs. He let out a sigh when he entered his bedroom.

It might be good for Rin to visit home again. Hopefully it will help him in some way. Yukio thought as he threw his bag onto the bed. Yukio changed into some more casual and more comfortable clothes and sat on the bed. After awhile and a call from his brother Yukio got and walked to the kitchen to eat breakfast.

A/N:

Me: I have updated! I want to thank everyone for still sticking with me it means a lot :) (by the way I am typing right now and my ipads new keyboard is annoying me so much, they changed everything.)