(Arthur's Pov)

There are few things in this life that matter to me, although not a single one of then even compares to the blond sleeping in my bed only a few feet away.

His chest rising and falling, I could watch it for the rest of my life and never get bored of seeing it.

He was clean now, not like when I first saw him after awakening from my trance.

I will never forget that, it will always come to me in my darkest of dreams, in the worst of my nightmares.

Alfred bloody and bruised…not breathing with his blood all over my hands.

The sight was to much for me to bear, if I hadn't saved him.

If his heart hadn't started beating under my hand, I know what I would have done.

I would have killed myself in the worst way I could think up.

A life without the boy was no longer a life I could live, yet I was the one to put him in the very hands of death.

I was the reason he lay in bed unable to wake from a drug induced sleep.

His brother Mathew hasn't left the tower he had locked himself in and refuses to drink blood.

Soon he will fall ill himself if he refuses to feed, and then there was Lovino….

He still hasn't woken up yet, in ways he was worse off then Alfred.

When Antonio came to Lovino he was laying with him on pieces of shattered glass, broken and unmoving…but alive.

His back was so badly burned that not even healing saliva could help it.

He was in a coma and Alfred had only woken once since the incident, and just started screaming about the pain.

Now I stood in the morning light looking at was left of my City…

The wolves had destroyed everything the moment we turned on the night of the red moon.

They burned down everything they could, and killed our sleeping children who were to young to turn into demons.

Lovino's brother escaped from where we hid him and we have no idea where he could be now.

The little girl Lilly was almost killed by Antonio but she is back with her family with no memory of what happened to her.

I couldn't help it my thoughts from going to Ivan, the leader of the Wolf's and the man behind all this.

I hadn't seen the Wolf sense I first became King.

He's strong and truly evil, his eyes were the most…

I shuddered and shook my head, I hated him, I hated him with everything I had.

After we finished looking into how Mathew had become one of us it was simple. Lovino's brother's mission all along was to poison Alfred's brother and then have him attack Alfred making him run away with the Wolf's in fear for his life.

Although something must have went wrong, because not even Ivan would put Alfred's life in danger, so something had to have happened to where Alfred almost died.

I looked at Alfred, it had been three days since I opened my eyes to see him dead.

There was a knock at my door and I knew it wouldn't be my friend, for he would never leave Lovino's side and it couldn't be Gilbert because he was still sitting outside Mathew's door.

I felt pain in my chest thinking of Gilbert, to have the joy of turning your own mate taken away was something unforgivable.

His Matthew would always smell of another…

I opened the door and looked into the face of the nurse here to look at Alfred.

I stepped aside and she came in quiet and clam, I knew the kingdom was afraid how I was taking Alfred's 'sickness' as they were calling it.

She looked him over and changed the bed sheets, Alfred not even changing his facial expression.

Tears came to my eyes and I quickly rubbed them away, not wanting to show weakness.

"He'll wake you know." A familar voice said from the door.

I turn to see Frances in my doorway with a small smile on his lips.

"Get out." I say turning back to the nurse, who was putting Alfred back under the blankets.

"Hold on Arthur. I'm sorry about Alfred and I wanted to bring him these." He said pulling red roses from behind his back.

I gave him a blank look but nodded and took them from him.

After a moment of quiet he said.

"He probably has hundreds more waiting to get in here from the mail." He says.

I smile.

"He wont want them, I would be amazed if he didn't hate me after he awakens." I say, voice cracking.

"That's why you almost don't want him to wake, isn't it Arthur?" Frances says getting closer to me.

I turn, out of anger, eyes blazing red.

"Get out, leave me with the 'one' I love!" I hiss darkly.

He holds up his hands looking at me with sad blue eyes.

"Alright, I just hope you're alright…Arthur." He whispers my name as he goes to leave.

I touch my chest, if Alfred hadn't came into my life I might have really ended up with Frances…

My eyes winded, no, I know exactly what would have happened.

I would have fallen in love with the boy my master would bring home to call his bride.

I would fight my master, even have an affair with Alfred.

I nod, I would still want Alfred even if he belonged to another Vampire.

I went to his bedside and stroked his hair, the nurse had gone and I was left alone with the golden haired boy.

I kiss his lips then his forehead.

"Please…don't hate me…" I whisper to the empty room.

(Gilbert's POV)

I still had my back to the old wooden door of Matthew's room and he still wouldn't come out no matter what I said to him.

"I really want to hold you Matthew. I haven't seen you since…since you gave yourself to me." I whisper turning to the door yet again that night.

I hard a sob from inside the room and it made my heart hurt worse then anything I had ever felt before.

Matthew was always so strong, quiet and strong and so filled with love, not just for me, but for everything in life.

"Please…go away." His quiet voice said from right behind the door.

I touched the door, he was right there, I could almost feel him.

"I wont leave you Matthew…never do you understand me." I say looking at the door like I was looking at his teary eyed face.

Another sob and the smell of of my lovers blood.

I felt panicked and my own tears come to my eyes.

"Nothing, nothing could make you different to me Matthew. I love you and it's killing me to know your going though this all alone. I miss you…I need you." I say holding back a sob of my own.

Suddenly I heard Matthew move.

"Gil…are you crying?" He asked.

My eyes widened and I smiled.

"Yes…I can't help it." I say looking at the creek at the bottom of the door where light was coming out into the dark hallway.

I put my fingers under the door and felt Matthews hand.

He jerked away but it was too late.

I had felt it…my Matthew was ice cold….

"NO! GO AWAY!" He sobbed sliding away from the door.

I slammed myself up against the door.

"Matt! I don't care! Please, please let me see you!" I yell feeling desperate.

I heard him sobbing and I leaned my head onto the door.

"Fine…I'll stay out here till your ready alright. I wont leave I'll be right here." I whisper to him.

It was so empty sitting on the top set of the stone tower and hearing my lover cry.

I bit my lip, I was my fault…I wasn't strong so I couldn't protect the one I love!

I failed him when he needed me more then anything!

I failed him….

(Antonio's POV)

I sit by his bed side listening to the sound of the machine keeping my lover alive.

His eyes are black and blue and his skin a deathly pale.

I was sitting in the medical wing where my lover was in critical condition.

My hair was in my eyes and I had been sitting on a wooden stool for three whole days only moving to eat and shower.

I looked at the cut on my wrist…I had punished myself for what I'd done to him.

To my Lovino.

I really was a monster, I saw now why Lovino trained and killed things like me…

"I'm so sorry Lovi." I whisper leaning my head onto the bed.

This hand was only an inch from my hair.

The moon was high above in the sky making things seem black and white, there was no hope here. My Lovino might never wake up again…and it will be all my fault.

I get up from where I was sitting and pick up Lovino's cross, letting burn right though my hand and spilling my blood onto the gray floor.

The pain was amazing and I had done this to my lover only three days ago.

If he died…I would walk out into the sun and die in fire.

That way I will fully understand the pain I made Lovino go though.

I couldn't live without the thing that made this life worth living.

I look up at the heart monitor, it was dropping every day and soon he would flat line…and that would be the end.

(Re-editted)

A/N) Why not geting reviews! It makes me wonna cry guys! But anyways ^.^ I told you things dont look very good right now.

Arthur's word is falling apart and he can't do anything to stop it and I know that the rap was really bad but it gave me a really good idea for later.

Sorry guys! I leave you with this sad little chapter!

Ps- th song Behind Blue Eyes really helped me write this chapter! If you listen to what the song says it makes it so much more sad!

Anyway love you all!