I hope y'all like this chapter, it's a long one!
A few days after their anniversary, Emma's nausea turned into full blown morning sickness. She'd wake up every morning unable to keep her dinner down, and Killian would join her in the bathroom with a glass of water.
This morning she was especially miserable, and curled into his side once she thought she was finished. Killian wrapped her in his arms, and kissed the top of her head.
"Oh, Love.. I'm sorry you're so sick like this.. I wish I could do something about it." He spoke softly, rubbing soothing circles on her back.
She shook her head. "It's not your fault, Killian.. Morning sickness is a common effect of pregnancy, I'll be just fine."
"Aye, I know.. But it is kind of my fault.." He mumbled then shrugged, when she smacked him teasingly.
"Yeah, buddy. I know it is, but I love this little one so much already." She looked up at him, teasing in her eyes, but a small smile on her face.
Killian just smiled at her for a moment, before he leaned in and kissed her forehead. "Oh, Swan.. I forgot last night, but I picked up some ginger candies for you yesterday."
"Really? That's sweet, Babe.." She smiled as she slowly stood up. Emma brushed her teeth and Killian leaned against the door frame.
"They're downstairs in my bag. Elsa ate them when she was pregnant with Cassie, and I remember she said they really helped. I thought you'd might like to try some."
Emma pressed a kiss to his lips once she'd brushed her teeth. "Thank you, Killian.. You're so thoughtful. Let's go downstairs, I'm sure you're hungry, and I might try some dry toast."
Killian went downstairs while Emma changed her clothes for work. She pulled one of Killian's sweaters on over her work clothes before heading down to the kitchen.
"Your toast will be ready in a minute, Love. The candies are in my bag, you can get them if you want." Killian smiled.
She smiled and took the candies from his work bag. "I know we haven't really talked about it, but I don't think I'm ready to tell anyone about the baby yet.." She said softly once they'd sat down to eat.
Killian rested his prosthetic against her back. "I understand, Love.. We don't have to tell anyone until you're ready. I know that you're still scared about losing the baby." He kissed her temple reassuringly.
She closed her eyes and nodded. "Exactly, that's why I kind of want to keep this between ourselves.. I don't want to tell everyone we're having a baby, and then if something happened have to tell them all that we lost it." She spoke quietly.
"I understand, Swan, that's not a situation either of us would like to be in." Killian rubbed her back gently. "Are you going to be okay going to work today? You're feeling alright?"
She rolled her eyes teasingly. "Of course I am, Killian. It's just morning sickness, I'm sure I'll feel better by lunch. Don't worry about me." She assured him with a smile.
He nodded. "You're right, I'm sorry.. I'm overreacting aren't I?"
"Yes, but I love you for it." Emma leaned over and kissed him.
Since the moment Killian found out he was going to be a father, he hadn't stopped trying to take care of Emma. He started reading any book he could find, and making sure Emma had everything she needed. Emma knew he was going to be protective of her during the pregnancy, especially after the miscarriage. He always got up with her whenever she was sick, and made sure she was comfortable and taking care of herself.
The next few days were hard on Emma, but she knew that it would be worth it in the end. She was going to have a baby with the only man she'd ever wanted to spend her life with. One night after dinner, she and Killian were laying together on the couch watching a movie, Emma was finally getting some much needed rest.
"I was thinking a Spring or Fall wedding, Love. Depending on if you want to wait until after the baby is born or not." Killian said it so nonchalantly that at he didn't even realize he'd said it.
Emma sat up from where she'd been spread on his chest. "What did you just say?" Her eyes were wide and confused.
Killian furrowed his brows, confused at her reaction, and shrugged. "Just that I was thinking we'd get married in the spring if you wanted to be married before the baby, or next fall if you wanted to be married once the baby was born."
"Killian, what the hell are you talking about?" She pulled him to sit up with her. "I think you're forgetting something very important." She raised her eyebrows, hoping he'd realize what he'd missed.
He stared at her blankly for a moment. "Oh bloody hell." He rubbed his hand over his face. "I'm sorry, Swan.. I'll be back in a moment." He hurriedly headed up to their bedroom.
Emma was more confused than ever, they hadn't talked about getting married much, but she knew it wasn't unreasonable. She planned to spend her life with him, whether or not they got married again.
Killian almost ran back down the stairs to stop in front of her. "Swan, I'm so sorry.. I guess I've just thought about it so much since you told me you were pregnant that I guess I didn't realize I never actually asked."
"You're serious, aren't you?" She breathed out.
He smiled at her and got down on his knee in front of her. "Aye, Love.." He took her hand in his. "Emma Swan, I have loved you since the day I met you.. You were always my best friend, understanding me in a way no one else had before."
When Killian met her eyes he saw tears forming. "You're my savior, Swan. You saved me from myself, from deportation, then from myself again.. I know I left you once, and that hurt you deeply, but I swear to you now that I will never leave you again. Emma, will you marry me?" He asked softly.
Emma nodded and wrapped her arms around his neck. "Yes, Killian.. Of course." She whispered, her tears finally falling.
He pulled her into his arms and held her close. "I know that this wasn't the most romantic proposal, but I guess I couldn't wait any longer.." He tucked her hair behind her ear and kissed her gently.
She shook her head. "I don't care.. What really happened makes for a funny story." She smiled, and wiped his cheeks with her thumbs. "How long have you been planning to ask me?"
"I'll admit I've had the ring for a while, Love. Since before our first anniversary.. But I knew I wouldn't ask until I was sure it was something you'd want. When you told me about the baby, and how happy you seemed, I realized that I had to ask.. I think it's important to both of us that our child never questions their family."
Emma nodded, and moved them from the floor back to the couch. "When I realized I was pregnant, I knew a proposal was something you'd consider.. And I found that I wasn't scared of the idea, I was happy at the thought of being your wife again.. Possibly having the same name as my baby and its father.."
Killian smiled a little. "I'd be honored to share a name with you, Love. Both of you." He kissed her forehead. "Would you like to actually see the ring?"
She nodded and he opened the ring box, setting it on his lap so he could get the ring out. "If you don't like it, we can try and get something you'll like, Emma. I just want you to be happy with it."
Emma was in awe at the ring he'd picked out for her. It was gorgeous and everything she never thought she'd want in a ring until it was hers. "Killian, it's perfect.. And no matter what it looked like, you picked it out, and that means I'll love it."
He slid it onto her finger and kissed the back of her hand. "I'm glad you like it." He spoke softly, and Emma pulled him into a deep kiss. "I love you so much, Swan." He breathed when they pulled apart for air.
"I love you more, Killian." She grinned. "I can't believe it.. We're getting married, and starting a family."
"That we are, my love." He held her close to him. "This baby is so loved already, even if their family doesn't know about them yet. Our brothers are going to love this baby, almost as much as we do." He rubbed his thumb over where she's begun to slightly show.
Emma smiled, she loved the feeling of his hand on her. "It's late, and we've got that brunch with my brother tomorrow.. Can we go to bed?" She asked softly.
Killian nodded and held her hand as they headed upstairs. They crawled into bed, and Killian wrapped his arms around her from behind. "Sleep well, Love.. I love you." He whispered, but Emma must have really been exhausted because she was already asleep.
The next morning they got ready to meet David and Mary Margaret for brunch. "Babe? We can tell David and Mary Margaret about being engaged, but not the baby yet, yeah?" Emma asked softly.
He nodded. "Aye, of course. It's our little secret, Love." Killian kissed the top of her head as she fixed her makeup. "I don't know if I'll ever get used to seeing my ring on your finger, thank you for agreeing to marry me."
She smiled at him through the mirror. "I love you." She put her makeup down and turned to kiss his cheek. "Can I borrow your blue sweater?" She rested her hand against his chest. "I know my shirt is loose enough not to show my little bump, but.. I want to wear it. It's comfy." She admitted.
"Aye, it's in my drawer." Killian kissed her. "I love you too by the way."
Emma put his sweater on, and held his hand the entire drive to the restaurant. Mary Margaret and David were already there at their usual table when Emma and Killian walked in. Mary Margaret got up and hugged Emma gently.
"It's so good to see you, Sweetie. You look like you're doing well."
Emma smiled and hugged David who was keeping Leo occupied. "We're great actually. Good to see you, Bro." She kissed Leo's head. "Hey, Buddy."
"Auntie Em!" Leo grinned, reaching his arms up and hugging her. "I miss you."
She hugged him, brushing her hand over his hair. "I missed you too, Leo. I'm so glad you're here." She settled into the seat next to Killian.
"Have you been feeling better, Sis?" David asked.
She nodded. "Yeah, I must've just had a bug or something.. It could've been from one of my kids or someone at work." She shrugged.
"Good, I'm glad you're feeling better. How are your classes this semester, Killian?" Mary Margaret smiled.
He shrugged. "They're good. I've got a freshman class this semester because a professor quit just before it started, so I'm teaching more than usual. But Emma's been great about it, and it's going pretty great."
"That's great. We're glad you guys were able to come today. Leo kept asking about seeing you both, and it's nice to spend some time with family.." She wrapped her arm through David's while they talked.
Killian had his good hand resting on the table so Emma took his hand into hers. She didn't want to make a big deal or an announcement about their engagement, she kind of hoped Mary Margaret or David would notice the ring and ask.
They ordered their food, and talked for a while before Mary Margaret finally noticed the ring shining on Emma's finger.
"Emma! Is that an engagement ring? Why didn't you say anything?" She had a huge smile on her face and, was practically bouncing in her seat.
"Oh, I.. I didn't really want to make it a big deal.. I don't like that kind of attention, you know.." Emma shrugged and Killian pressed a comforting kiss to her temple.
"Well, I'm happy for you. You have to tell me how it happened. Killian's always so romantic, I bet it was absolutely perfect." Mary Margaret was a hopeless romantic, and always had been.
Emma laughed softly, meeting Killian's eyes briefly. "Actually, we were just laying on the couch together, and he all of a sudden started asking me about when I wanted to get married.. He was so adorably confused, not realizing he'd voiced his thoughts before actually proposing." She squeezed his hand gently.
"Aye, I guess I was a bit distracted.. But once I'd realized what I'd done I got the ring and then I'd like to think it was romantic." Killian smiled a little.
"Of course it was, Killian.. You've always had a way with words, it was perfect.. The proposal was perfect for us and our relationship." She shrugged, looking at her brother. "David? You're being awfully quiet.. Are you not okay with Killian and I getting married?" She asked softly.
David gave her a small smile. "Emma, of course I'm okay with it.. You're happy, and I promised you years ago that I would support you unless he broke your heart again. Anyways, Killian asked for my blessing ages ago, he's good for you." He assure his little sister.
Emma looked surprised that Killian had asked for his blessing. "You asked my brother if you could marry me?" She had started to tear up.
"Aye, Love.. After our first anniversary, I'd already bought the ring, and.. I didn't want his permission, you make your own choices.. But, I knew that when I did ask you, it would mean a lot to you to know we have his blessing.. That he was happy for us." He brushed the hair from her face. He knew her tears were partly because of the hormones, but he knew she was grateful for him talking with her brother.
Emma pressed a kiss to his lips. "Thank you, that really means a lot to me, Killian. David is my only family." She snuggled into his side happily.
David smiled genuinely, he was truly happy for his little sister. She had been hurt so badly in the past, he was glad she had finally found someone who would truly fight for her, not against her. When he talked to Killian about the possibility of them getting married again, he had made sure to make his opinion clear, wanting Killian to know that he'd kill him if he ever hurt Emma again.
"It's a beautiful ring, Killian. It suits Emma perfectly, you did a good job." Mary Margaret held Emma's hand as she looked at it.
"He did, didn't he? The last few weeks have been really good for us, we had our anniversary, and Killian proposed.. It's been great." Emma smiled.
"Auntie Emma?" Leo asked. "Can I sit with you? I finish my foods." He gave her a big grin, one Emma could never deny.
"Of course, Kiddo.." She helped the three year old from the highchair and settled him on her lap. "I can't believe how big you've gotten, Leo. You're almost 4 now. Just a couple weeks." She kissed his cheek.
He nodded and held up four fingers to her. "Yeah, four! You come to my party?"
"I wouldn't miss it. Uncle Killy and I will be there." She tickled his side to get him to giggle.
Killian smiled, he loved watching Emma with her nephew, it assured him she was going to be the best mother. "Aye, Little Lad. Emma and I will be there for sure."
"Yay, Uncle Killy." He giggled.
Emma let Leo color in front of her while she talked with David and Mary Margaret. Killian put his arm around Emma, leaning back in his chair.
"Do you need any help getting stuff ready for his party, Dave, Mary Margaret?" Killian asked. "Emma and I would be glad to help if you need it.."
"That's very sweet to offer, Killian.. We should be fine, it's a party for a few preschoolers, not too much involved.. But I know my sister-in-law is going to show up early despite me telling her she doesn't need to." Mary Margaret smiled.
"Aye, she adores her nephew, and I believe the feeling is mutual. She's great with kids.." He smiled at his fiance.
Emma had been so focused on whatever Leo was telling her that she hadn't heard them talking about her until the end. "I'm not that great, Killian.. I mean, yeah I work with kids everyday, but it's different.. Leo is my family, we babysit him. My kids, my focus is their case and finding someone else to take care of them."
He shrugged. "I've seen you with Leo, and with your kids at work and I think you are great with all of them." He kissed her temple.
Emma looked up at him and smiled a little. She knew it was taking a lot for him not to talk about the baby, he was so excited to be a father and would scream it from the rooftops if she let him. Killian brushed her hair behind her ear with a gentle smile before he pressed a brief kiss to her lips.
David rolled his eyes teasingly. "Hey, I don't want to see that."
Emma blushed a little but shook her head. "Please, you and M are practically a fairytale couple, all the time. It's kind of sickening.. Killian can kiss me if he wants to, David. It's not like we're making out at lunch." She rolled her eyes at him.
"Yeah, yeah.. But you're my little sister, I don't want to think about you doing anything of the sort, and I don't want to see it." He shrugged. "Even if you're all grown up now, you're still my baby sister."
"We didn't meet until I was sixteen, David.. And Ruth didn't adopt me until I was seventeen.. And you're only a couple years older than me. I'm not really your baby sister." She laughed softly, leaning back against Killian.
David smiled a little. "I know, but I still love you, Emma. And I'm definitely happy for you two. I've never seen you happier than you are when you're with Killian."
She nodded. "Thank you, I love you too, David. Killian and I should let you two get on with your day, I'm sure you have plenty to do, and I kind of want to spend some time with Killian.."
"Of course. It was so good to see you, Sweetie. If you want to get together for lunch soon just let me know when is good for you." Mary Margaret smiled as she hugged Emma.
Emma nodded and laced her fingers with Killian's as they left. Killian drove them home and Emma immediately took off her shoes and turned to him.
"It's a nice day, let's sit out back, and we can talk about the wedding, and the baby?" She played with the button on his Henley.
"Aye, sounds perfect." Killian sat on their porch swing, and Emma settled into his arms like normal. His hand rested against her stomach and he kissed her shoulder.
"Brunch was fun, Love.. Did you enjoy it?"
"Yeah, I hate that we don't get to see them as much lately.. We've been so busy.. Thank you for not mentioning the baby, I know how difficult it was for you." She covered his hand with hers.
"I know, it's just seeing you with Leo and how much the lad adores you.. I can't wait to see you with our own child. This little bean is so lucky to have you as a mother." He ran his thumb over her stomach gently.
"Our little bean is lucky to have you too, Killian.. You're amazing with kids. I've seen you with your niece and nephews." She smiled a little. "I'm so glad I get do this with you, marry you, have a baby with you."
"Thank you, Swan.. Have you thought about whether or not you'd like to be married before the baby comes?" He asked softly.
"I've thought about it, but.. I don't know.. I'd like to be married beforehand, so that our baby always has their parents married.. But, I.. I don't know if I want a big wedding now, I just want to be your wife." She admitted softly.
Killian nodded. "Aye, Love.. I understand. We can go to the courthouse if you want, and then once you have the baby, and everything has settled a little we can have a real wedding if that's what you want? We didn't have a wedding the first time, and I don't know.. I've always dreamed about seeing you in a white dress.." He confessed.
Emma looked up at him. "I like that idea, we get to be married now.. But then I won't be pregnant at our wedding.. I know we're not getting married just because I'm pregnant, but I don't think I want to be huge at our wedding.. I'd rather wait and have our little one be there with us.." She gave him a smile.
He leaned down and kissed her. "As beautiful as I know you'll be pregnant with our child, I understand.. I want you to know you're going to feel beautiful on our wedding day. And if you'd like to wait until the fall, I don't mind, my Love."
She kissed him and nuzzled against his neck. "Do you want a boy or a girl?" She asked after a while.
"It matters not, Love. I just want our baby to be happy and healthy. I'll love them whether they're a little lad or lass." He assured her.
She nodded. "Me too.. I guess I've been picturing you with a little girl lately.. She has your bright blue eyes, and pointed little ears.. Maybe dark curls.." She shrugged. "But I'd be just as happy if we had a little boy.. I imagine he'd be your little mini me."
He laced his fingers with hers. "Our baby is going to be the cutest baby, with you for a mother there's no way they're not going adorable."
Emma nodded and closed her eyes, more tired than she thought she was. She had been so busy at work that week, and Killian had a lot of papers to grade that they'd both been up late many of the nights. She had woken up quite early with morning sickness most of the days too so she was exhausted.
Killian rubbed her back with his prosthetic, his good hand still entwined with hers. He could feel her breathing evening out as he gently moved the porch swing, and he wanted to let her sleep. Since it was such a nice day, he decided to just stay on the back porch while she napped against him.
He was content to just hold Emma for a while. He'd been worried about how much sleep she was getting lately, and how hard she was working herself right now. Emma had always been stubborn, and even though she knew she was pregnant and would need more rest, she still insisted on working hard for her kids.
Emma slept for almost a hour before she woke up, a little disoriented. Killian rubbed her back gently.
"You're okay, you fell asleep outside, Love." He spoke softly when he felt her waking up.
She rubbed her eyes and looked up at him. "Oh.. Hey.." She kissed his jaw. "I'm sorry I fell asleep on you, how long was I out?"
"You slept for almost an hour, Love.. But I didn't mind, I was happy to just hold you and let you sleep. I know you haven't been getting much sleep, and that you're extra tired because of the pregnancy.." He shrugged.
Emma sat up and fixed her ponytail. "Oh, thank you.. I was pretty tired.." She got up and offered him her hand. "Let's go in, and maybe we can have some hot chocolate?" She asked hopefully, a sparkle in her eye.
Killian smiled and took her hand. "Aye, Love. I'll make some hot chocolate for you and the bean. You pick us out a movie, and get comfortable on the couch."