Chapter 20
The next morning as Brittany slept Santana carefully and quietly got up out of the bed and began to search for her clothes. As she was nearly finished getting dressed Brittany began to stir in her bed and began to wake up. She slowly sat up and looked over to Santana who was trying to put on her now ripped and probably ruined shirt. The brunette couldn't make eye contact with the blonde sitting in her bed.
"Last night shouldn't have happened." The Latina mumbled as she put her shoes back on.
"I'm sorry."
Brittany got up from her bed, taking the sheet with her as she wrapped it around her body. She walked over to the brunette and stood behind her. "San…"
Santana still couldn't look at her as she spoke "I'm sorry…I'm so sorry." She was crying now but still couldn't face the blonde. Brittany brought her hand up to Santana's shoulder and slowly turned her around so she was facing her. "I'm sorry too." She whispered. "I'm sorry for hurting you…I'm sorry for last night…I'm just…sorry." This made Santana finally look up into those baby blues.
"You don't have to apologise B…you've done nothing wrong…this is all me. It's always me. You deserve someone who could love you and take care of you and never break your heart. I'm just a world of pain and I don't want that for you."
Brittany holds her hand up and cups Santana's face and wipes away the tears that fall.
"How did we get here?" She finally asks. "This isn't us"
The two girls just stood there unable to speak.
At school Quinn was waiting for Rachel by her locker when Becky came up to her.
"Hi Quinn." She greeted the blond.
"Hi Becky, what's up?"
"Coach wants to talk to you." She informed her.
"Right now?" She asked, to which Becky nodded and then walked away. Quinn sighed and turned and walked down the hall way to Sylvester's office. Once she got there she quietly knocked on the door.
"Take a seat Q." Sue said without looking up at her. Quinn quickly moved into the room and took a seat in front of Sue's desk.
"What can I do for you Coach?" She hesitantly asked.
Sue looked up from her writings and took off her glasses. "I want an update on Lopez and Blondie."
Quinn looked at Sue with confusion "I'm not sure I know what you mean."
"Don't play dumb Q I know all about what happened."
"How?" Quinn was a little stunned and a little mortified.
"I have my contacts…now tell me has this incredibly clichéd lesbian drama blown over or not?" She demanded.
"I don't now…I don't really talk to them that much anymore"
"Well now that's a lie I have it on good authority that Santana was at your house not too long ago."
Quinn looked up in shock and was about to ask how she could possibly know something like that but before she could ask she was stopped by Sue.
"Contacts." Was all she said. "So, do I need to find myself three new Cheerios?"
"You can't kick us out because of what happened that's not fair!"
"I can and will do as I please if I feel that a few players can't work together it is in the best interest to do something about it and what kind of coach would I be if I didn't put the needs of my team a head of everything else?"
Quinn later caught up with Rachel at lunch as they sat with the rest of the Glee club.
"Hey, where were you this morning?" Rachel asked as she began to unpack her food.
"Coach Sylvester wanted to see me."
"About what?"
"Well she basically told me that if Santana, Brittany and I didn't figure everything out and become best friends again she would kick us out of the Cheerios." Replied Quinn.
"She can't do that!" Mercedes said before she took a bite out of her sandwich.
"Oh she can and she will." Quinn informed her friend.
"Where is Brittany? And Santana? I haven't seen them all day." Inquired Kurt.
"Maybe they worked things out and locked themselves in the Janitors closet." Answered Artie.
"No San would have told me." Quinn said before mentally kicking herself again. Why did she have to keep talking about Santana in front of Rachel? Everyone looked a little awkward at that admission.
"Since when are you and 'San' such good friends? I mean after everything don't you think you should stay away from her?" Finn spoke with that stupid smugness about him. Quinn slammed her hand down on the table.
"I'm getting really tired of your comments Finn!"
"Well sit somewhere else then." Finn replied.
"Enough!" Rachel yelled making everyone stop and making a few people nearby glance their way. "If you two can't work out this animosity then one of you will have to leave!" She finished as she pointedly looked at Finn, which made Quinn smile though she did try and hide it behind her drink. Finn just glared at Quinn but didn't say anything else.
"OK so has anyone found a song for Glee?" Tina interjected to try and change the subject and avoid anymore confrontations.
Brittany and Santana sat outside under the veranda, they both decided that they wouldn't go to school today and would try to talk and work things out between them because they couldn't keep going on the way that they have.
"Remember the first time we tried to skip school to get ice-cream but we were too scared to actually leave the school grounds?" Brittany giggled, this made Santana laugh.
"Yeah we were so badass. I think it took us at least a week before we could do it without chickening out."
They fell into a silence before Brittany asked her question.
"Do you have feelings for her?"
Santana looked confused for a moment until she realised what Brittany was talking about and she replied. "No...It's always just been you."
"Was she better than me?" She hesitantly asked.
"No one could measure up to you B..." She replied instantly
"But she made you come." It wasn't really a question and it was said with a hint of anger.
Santana looked away and sighed. "It was just sex...it didn't mean anything. I didn't plan it...it just happened."
"How do I know it won't just happen again?" Brittany asked.
Santana turned to look at the blonde girl sitting beside her. "You just have to trust that it won't. I know that is asking a lot of you but-"
"I want to trust you...I really do because I miss you...I miss you so much." She whispered. Santana took a hold of Brittany's hand and kissed it. "Please give me the chance to prove that you can trust me again. I swear to you I will never hurt you like that." Santana looked into Brittany's eyes with hope; she got her answer with a slight nod and smile from the girl beside her. Santana smiled and pulled Brittany into a hug.
"Are you still friends with Quinn?" Brittany asked as they pulled out of their hug. Santana looked a little guilty.
"I am…I mean we're not best friends or anything but she has been there for me…not in a sex kind of way but in a supportive can understand what I'm going through kind of way."
Brittany nods and looks away for a moment. "I want us to all be friends again…I think I just need some time to forgive her."
"I understand."
"I mean not just because of what she did to us but what she did to Rachel."
Santana sighs "It wasn't all Quinn's fault B…I was there too. This wasn't one of Quinn's schemes to hurt people I don't think she would ever do something like that just to hurt someone. I know she can be a bitch sometimes but that is low even for her. We both made a mistake and we are both responsible and have to deal with that. You shouldn't put all the blame on her."
Quinn found Rachel in the choir room after lunch, they both had a free period and of course Rachel was practicing her singing and of course Quinn wanted to be there to watch and listen to her sing. She missed these times together, before when they were together they would often spend their free periods in the room singing and other stuff. Other stuff being making out and even a little under the clothes groping. Though this probably won't be happening today she could settle for just listening to the brunette diva sing.
When she came into the choir room Rachel was already singing, Quinn recognised the song right away it came from one of her favourite musicals.
I don't know how to love him
What to do how to move him
I've been changed yes really changed
In these past few days when I've seen myself
I seem like someone else
Unbeknown to Rachel, Quinn quietly took a seat and listened to her perform.
I don't know how to take this
I don't see why he moves me
He's a man
He's just a man
And I've had so many men before
In very many ways he's just one more
Should I bring him down?
Should I scream and shout?
Should I speak of love let my feelings out?
I never thought I'd come to this
What's it all about?
Don't you think it's rather funny?
I should be in this position
I'm the one
Who's always been
So calm so cool
No lovers fool
Running every show
She scares me so
As she headed towards the end of the song she began to sing with as much passion as she could muster and as she hit the last verse she changed 'he' to 'she'.
I never thought I'd come to this
What's it all about?Yet if she said she loved me
I'd be lost I'd be frightened
I couldn't cope just couldn't cope
I'd turn my head I'd back away
I wouldn't want to know
She scares me so
I want her so
I love her soOnce she finished she was startled by the quiet applause coming from behind her. She quickly turned to see who was watching and blushed when she saw it was Quinn.
"Oh...Hi I didn't know you were there."
"Yeah I kind of figured by the little squeal you did there." Replied Quinn trying not to laugh.
Looking indignant "I do not squeal Quinn...I merely expelled some air out of my throat." Not being able to hold it in Quinn laughed "Oh right ok...that's totally what you did." She replied in a mocking way.
"Well you shouldn't sneak up on people!" Rachel replied as she began to sort out her sheet music.
"I'm sorry...maybe I should wear a bell next time." Quinn spoke as she got up to help Rachel with her sheet music.
"You would need a collar first to put a bell on it."
Looking a little smug "Oh so you've been thinking of putting me in a collar? It's all coming out now."
If it was Quinn's job to make Rachel blush she would definitely win employee of the month right about now. Ignoring her previous comment Rachel continued to sort through her music looking for a specific piece. Holding off on the innuendoes for the moment Quinn asked. "What are you looking for?"
"I can't tell you." Rachel spoke as she gathered up her music and reached for her folder.
"Why not?" Quinn asked as she ever so subtly checked out Rachel's ass as she bent over reaching for her folder she really did love those short skirts she would always wear. Standing upright and looking at Quinn, Rachel replied "Because it's my song for the Glee assignment and I told you. You have to wait till Friday to hear it." Quinn rolled her eyes.
"Ok fine. I'll wait...did you maybe want to help me find a song for me?"
Rachel smiled and nodded "I would love to, that way I can help you with your singing voice. I've noticed lately you're going a bit sharp again."
"Yeah I totally need some more of your singing lessons." Quinn giggled as once again Rachel blushed. Both knowing full well that during their 'singing lessons' there wasn't much singing going on at all.
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