Disclaimer: Nickelodeon owns Big Time Rush. I am not making a profit by writing this.

Big Time Sick

James didn't know if it was because Logan just broke up with him or if it was something to do with his liver, but the restroom was spinning around him. His vision was blurry. He couldn't even see his hand in front of his face. His knees were wobbly, making him feel like he was on spaghetti legs.

James tried to call for help, but his throat felt like it was lined with sandpaper. He quickly found that he couldn't even scream if he wanted to. His eyes darted around the restroom in a frenzied state.

Soon, he was laying parallel to the floor. He could feel the cool bathroom tile against his face. It was like every ounce of strength had been sapped from him. He just lay there unable to move or speak. Tears streamed from his eyes in torrents.

James didn't know what he was going to do without Logan. He was James' whole world. He had seen Logan every day for the last twelve years. They were in a band together. They lived together. He would still be able to see him, but James knew that things wouldn't be the same.

James had a hard time owning up to his mistakes, but that was just the thing; James didn't do anything wrong this time. He honestly didn't remember sleeping with Trishelle. James didn't remember too much about sex ed, but didn't a guy and girl have to actually…do the deed…in order for a girl to get pregnant? He felt like Trishelle was trying to con them all. He couldn't figure out her end game though no matter how much he tried.

Was she just some fan girl obsessed with James? Did she want something from him? Money? Fame? Or maybe she was just trying to ruin Big Time Rush. Maybe she was working with someone who would love to see Big Time Rush fail. Hawk perhaps. That was ridiculous though, wasn't it? Trishelle probably didn't even know who Hawk was, let alone be working with him.

James had noticed over the years that Logan was big on trust. Right now, he felt like he couldn't trust James. On the one hand, James couldn't blame Logan, but on the other hand, he felt like he hadn't done anything to make him seem untrustworthy lately. There was that time where he kissed Logan's girlfriend while they had been going out, but James had apologized profusely for that. They were past that, weren't they?

A searing hot pain disturbed James' thoughts. Suddenly, the feeling that someone had a match to his lower back was the only thing he could feel. He made a pitiful attempt at uttering a scream, but it was no dice. About the only thing he could do to try to alleviate the pain was to writhe on the floor.

XXXXX

"Hey Logan, wait up!" Kendall called out.

Logan stopped in his tracks. He was seething with anger. He never recalled being so angry before in his life. There seemed to be no end to how betrayed he felt. He had a feeling that Kendall just wanted to talk to him so he could gloat about being right.

"I was right, wasn't I?" Kendall asked. "I'm so sorry. I wish I wasn't right."

Logan spun around on his heels and scoffed at Kendall.

"Whatever, Kendall. You wanted to break me and James up, and you succeeded, so congratulations," Logan said insincerely.

Kendall went to hug Logan, but Logan placed a palm on his chest, keeping him at bay.

"What I don't get is why didn't you tell me sooner?" Logan asked, his voice completely devoid of emotion.

Kendall firmly grabbed Logan by the shoulders, but Logan swatted Kendall's hands away.

"Don't touch me!" Logan shouted.

"I was the one person who told you! Me! I did that! Not James! Not Camille! Not Carlos!" Kendall exclaimed.

Logan was reeling from this newfound information. Camille and Carlos knew too? Who else knew? Did everyone know? Everyone but Logan himself, that is. When were they going to tell him? Were they even going to tell him? Didn't he have a right to know?

"You're unbelievable! You have no problem throwing others under the bus, do you? You disgust me!" Logan remarked.

"I did you a favor, Logan. You might not realize it right now, but I did. You and James don't belong together. He doesn't deserve you. He's all wrong for you!" Kendall commented.

"That's not for you to decide, Kendall! Not once did I say a bad thing about Jo! I never tried to break you and Jo up! It doesn't matter who you date! Just like it doesn't matter how I feel about that person! It doesn't matter if I think that person is right for you! All that matters is that you love that person! As long as that's true, then I'll be happy for you!"

"Do you? Do you love James?"

"I do, and I know James loves me too."

Logan stopped for a moment as he came to an epiphany. Kendall couldn't have been more obvious about his intentions, but as far as Logan was concerned, Kendall did the exact opposite of what he set out to do.

"I should thank you, Kendall, because you made me realize something; James is innocent. I don't know how, but I feel like I owe it to him to explain himself. I'm sure this is all one big misunderstanding," Logan said much more calmly.

"What if it isn't?" Kendall asked.

"If not, you'll be the last to know."

Logan left a stunned Kendall in search of James. He had some apologizing to do. He hoped James would forgive him. He hoped that James would take him back.

XXXXX

Logan poked his head in Carlos' hospital room, hoping to find James there. He didn't see James, but he entered the room anyways.

"You know, don't you? I'm so sorry, Logan. I wanted to tell you, but I had only just found out not too long ago, and then I got beat up by Ozzy, and well…" Carlos said, desperately seeking Logan's forgiveness.

Carlos was bewildered when Logan walked over to him and hugged him.

"No, Carlos, I'm the one who should be sorry. I'm sorry I wasn't here when you woke up. I'm sorry that you're here in the hospital. I'm just…sorry," Logan said.

Carlos playfully socked Logan in the shoulder.

"You apologize too much. Do you know that?" Carlos commented, smirking.

"I have a lot to apologize for. I haven't really been myself lately," Logan replied.

Carlos' heart swelled with pity, when Logan started breaking down right in front of him. Carlos placed Logan's head against his chest as he held his crying friend.

"I messed up, Carlos. Real bad," Logan said, sniffling.

"You're only human, Logie. We all make mistakes," Carlos responded.

Logan lifted his head from Carlos' chest, and laughed lightly.

"Since when did you get so good at giving sage-like wisdom?" Logan asked.

"I have no idea what that even is," Carlos answered, causing both of them to laugh.

"I have to go find James and apologize to him."

Carlos didn't want to be left alone, but he was on Team Jagan. Whatever happened between James and Logan, Carlos had no doubt in his mind that they could work things out together. They just had to.

XXXXX

Logan had scoured the hospital in search of James. He wasn't in any waiting room. He wasn't in the cafeteria. Logan was starting to become worried. Where could James be? What if something was wrong with him and he was all alone?

Logan had an idea to check the last place he saw James, the bathroom. He was hopeful that he would find James there. Maybe he never left. Logan opened the bathroom door, and saw James sprawled out on the floor as still as can be.

"James!" Logan shouted, instantly going to James' side.

Logan shook James, but his eyes remained closed. Logan put his ear to James' chest. He had a heartbeat, but it wasn't as strong as Logan would have liked. Logan knew that James needed medical attention, but there was no time for him to go and get a nurse or doctor. There was no telling how long James had been unconscious.

Logan did the only thing he could think of, and started to give James CPR. He started with chest compressions. Tears fell from his eyes unchecked as he avidly watched James' face for any movement, any sign of life.

It killed Logan to know that James' last memory of Logan was him saying they were over. That couldn't be James' last memory of him! It wouldn't be James' last memory of him! Logan would do whatever it took to bring James back.

He opened James' mouth, and pinched the bridge of his nose. He then started giving James mouth-to-mouth resuscitation. Logan had to resist the urge to kiss James. He had to stay focused on getting James conscious again. There was a slight grin on Logan's face as he thought about how if James knew what was going on, he'd be enjoying this right now.

James started coughing and sputtering. Logan's eyes lit up with pure, unadulterated joy. He helped James sit up before throwing his arms around him in an enthusiastic embrace.

"I'm so glad you're okay!" Logan said as happy tears fell from his eyes.

It didn't take Logan long to know that something was wrong though. James wasn't hugging him back.

"Are you now?" James shot back.

"Of course I am! I'm so sorry for not believing you! I was an idiot," Logan said.

"Yes, you were!"

Logan let go of James, and scooted backwards, putting some space between the two of them.

"Will you take me back?" Logan asked, hopefully.

"Not this time," James answered.

Logan felt like someone had just impaled his heart with a dagger. He clutched at his chest painfully. Tears of sadness replaced the tears of joy that had been falling from his eyes. Logan blinked rapidly at James in disbelief.

"A relationship is nothing without trust, Logan, and you've made it painfully clear to me that you don't trust me…" James started to explain.

"But I do trust you!" Logan countered.

"Don't interrupt me!"

Logan fell silent. This wasn't going at all like he had planned. He couldn't believe that James was yelling at him like he was.

"I think it's better if we stay broken up. You're way too clingy and needy. If I can't be there for a friend who got beaten up so badly that he had to be admitted into a hospital without you getting jealous, then I don't want to be with you," James stated.

"But I saved your life!" Logan interjected.

"And I appreciate it. Really, I do, but it changes nothing between us, Logan."

James scooted over to Logan, and pulled him in for a hug, but Logan could tell that it was only the kind of hug a friend would give to another friend.

"I care about you, Logan. I always will…just not that way anymore," James said.

Logan fiercely shook his head. He could taste the saltiness of his tears as some of them made their way into his mouth.

"What can I do to make this up to you?" Logan asked.

"You can't do anything, Logan. I'm going to find a doctor so they can examine me to make sure nothing's wrong," James said as he rose to his feet and left the bathroom.

Logan heard his cell's ringtone. He pulled it out of his pocket, and answered it.

"Hello?" Logan said.

"Logan, this is Dr. Summers. Your test results are in. You're a match," she informed him.

To Be Continued…