Emma's POV:
The next day, I went to the courthouse with all the money I had in my purse. I've been saving up the past 6 birthdays and Holidays, but this is more important. I wanted to help Sean as much as I can. I got out of my car and into the rain, but I didn't care. I walked in and saw Sean with a cop holding his arms behind him. "Sean." I said as he turned to me with happiness in his eyes. I walked over to him. I noticed how bad the bruise was. I wanted to cry right then and there, but I didn't want to cry in front of Sean again like I did last time.

"Emma, I'm so happy to see you." I hugged him as he sighed. "Vanilla." He said, as I though about how much I've missed this. I love him, but I was hit with so much guilt about everything I've kept from him over the past month. I was about to tell him everything as I pulled away, but I decided not to because I didn't want to upset him. "Emma, are you okay?" He asked as I smiled. "I'm fine." I said as he leaned in and kissed me. "I've really missed you." He said, as we stayed there staring at each other. I loved looking into his blue eyes, but why did I miss certain Gray ones so much?

Sean had to go to his court hearing, but it ended quicker than I thought. The doors opened and he walked down the steps with the cop behind him. He looked mad. "That was fast." I said as he walked down the stairs. "The stupid attorney didn't show up, so unless I can get the money for another one I'm screwed," he said as he turned to look at me. "Oh, shit. I feel so stupid because I knew there was a reason I came here." I said, as he raised an eyebrow. "You wanted to see me." He said, smirking as I nodded before I sighed. "Yes. I came to see you, but there is another reason why." He looked at me, questionably as I quickly looked away and looked through my purse.

I stopped as I noticed the compass I used last night, remembering that I cut my arm and watched as the blood dropped from my arm. That was the first time I cut. I shook my head and quickly pushed that thought away. If Sean knew about it, then it would kill him to know that I felt so much emotional pain and used to compass to intentionally cause myself physical pain.

I found what I was looking for. "I have something for you." I said, as I grabbed the money out of my bag. "Emma, you did this for me?" His eyes lit up and he smiled. Even though I was happy to see Sean again, I knew it would be awhile before I would see him again. "Yeah. I want to help you get out of jail. All of this is my birthday and Holiday money since we met. I was saving it for something important and nothing is more important to me than you." He started crying and I hugged him. "Sean, don't cry." I said as he continued sobbing into my shoulder. "Emma, I can't take this." I frowned. "Sean Cameron, you better take this because I will not take no for an answer. You need it more than I do. Please." I said as I crossed my arms. He nodded as I smiled.

"You're amazing." I smiled as the cop took the money from my hand. "I'll make sure none of this is used to anything else." I nodded as the cop looked at me, smiling. "What?" I said, confused and curious. He smiled as I turned back to Sean. "I love you." He said as I smiled. "Always and forever. Don't worry, Sean. You'll be out of here in no time." He said as I leaned in and kissed him, once again feeling extreme guilt about everything I haven't told him yet.

I pulled away and saw the cop having a huge smile on him as he looked between us. "Dude, you better not let this girl go. She's a keeper." I blushed. "I'm not going to because I'm going to fight for us." Sean said looking at me. "I'd better get going." I told him before I hugged him again. "I'll see you again soon." He smiled, looking deep inn my eyes. "Thank you Emma." I nodded, "I don't know exactly how much is in that roll, but it's all there. I had all of it in my nightstand drawer. It should be enough to cover it." I have him a kiss on the cheek and left, feeling his eyes on me until I was walked around the corner.

I drove away from the courthouse and went to Alex's apartment. She opened the door as I saw Jay on the couch. I quickly looked away from him and sat down on the other end away from him. "I went to the courthouse and gave the money to Sean so he could get a lawyer." Alex smiled as she walked into the kitchen. "Are you okay?" I looked at Jay. "You said that he had a bruise, but it was worse than that." I said as I looked into his eyes missing Sean's blue ones.

What the hell is wrong with me? Why do I miss Sean when I'm around Jay and I miss the latter when I'm around the former? There has got to be something wrong with me. Hopefully, I'll be able to figure it out soon before I go insane. I sighed as Jay looked at me apologetically. "I'm sorry, Emma." I nodded as I looked at the sleeve of my shirt, knowing that if anyone rolled it up they would see the cut on my arm and figure out what had happened. I didn't want anyone to know about it at all. "Its fine, Jay." I said as my phone beeped. Be careful, Emma. You wouldn't want Sean to get hurt would you? I sighed as I looked at the text and shut my phone.

"How is he?" I looked at Alex, who was sitting across from us. "He got a little mad because the lawyer didn't show up, so I decided to give him all the money I got from my birthday and Holidays I've saved up since we met 6 years ago." I smiled as Alex looked at me. "He would be happy to get out of there." Jay said, as I looked at him and then looked away. "Yeah. You should have seen his face after I have him the money. He was so happy when I gave it to him because he was mad due to the attorney not showing up." I said, smiling before my phone rang. Ellie. I ignored it because I didn't need to deal with any drama because I already have enough to deal with.

Later that night, I was laying down on the bed thinking about anything and everything at once, which I hated because I knew that I would everything my decision about me feelings. Why was I feeling this way about Sean's best friend? Is it possible that I could be in love with him? No, because this isn't right. I can't have feelings for Jay Hogart. This can't happen because Sean is waiting to get out of jail so we can get back together. Having/getting feelings for his best friend is NOT allowed to happen. I can't have feelings for Jay. He's the one who gave me Gonorrhea over a year ago when he cheated on Alex at the Ravine.

I hope nothing ruins our third chance at a relationship. I really do love Sean, but I was so confused. I have to figure this out before Sean gets out. I don't have much time. I have to figure out my feelings for Jay before anything else happens and I know how to do that.

I grabbed a piece of paper and a pen and made a Pro and cons list and wrote down Sean's name on one side then wrote Jay on the other side and separated it. I sighed as I thought about what I would write.

Let's see: Sean's pros are: He's my first love at 13, protective, loyal, strong, loves me more than anything. Cons are: anger issues. Broke up twice.

Jay's pros are: loyal to friends, protective. Helped me when Sean's in jail. Friends. Never abandons his friends. Cons are: cheated on Alex, commitment issues, Sean's best friend. Hooked up with him, got Gonorrhea from him.

I looked over at the pros and compared them. Damn it! They both have 5 Pros. Why is this so difficult? I sighed as I crumbled up the paper and threw it in the trash, not wanting to think about this anymore.

A/N: It seems like Emma is starting to realize she may have feelings for Jay. How will this work while she's trying to get back together with Sean?

What do you think? Jay already knows that he likes her, but she's just starting to realize her feelings for him. I'm thinking about taking their friendship to the next level in the next chapter, because if I do then the story will be a little longer than I originally planned. Plus it will be a good reason to bring more drama. Sean would have to fight for Emma and it will set everything in motion for the sequel.

I know that she's confused right now, but I think it would be a good idea.

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