June 03

I've been reading through all of my pages. At first, I sound stupid. Made me wanna take them down.

But then I guess when I'm older like thirty and I reread this, I'll be laughing. So I'm keeping them. For now.

To me, I think I've grown more mature over the year. It's almost a whole year so that's cool. Another thing I found is that I'm writing in you-here-more often. Is that a good thing?

Today I had to babysit my cousins while my parents and my uncle and aunt go someplace. They were going to a restaurant to catch up, you know? Well, I was watching t.v when my cousin Lukas (Hannah's twin brother) jumped in front of me and said, "I wanna read a book."

I told him, "Then go read one."

But he said he didn't know how to and that I should teach him. I think they were four, so I guess I can't really blame them.

But I was watching t.v at the time and I didn't feel like it so I said, "Later,"

Stupidest thing I have ever done.

He started crying and screaming and I couldn't hear the t.v, so I had to read to him. But I couldn't get him to listen. So I called Lysander.

"What's that noise?" he asked when I called him.

"My cousin." I said.

"You have a cousin?"

"Apparently. I didn't really know either." Seriously, I didn't. I must have been nine when they were born but I didn't remember hearing anything about new cousins.

"Why is your cousin screaming?" Lysander asked.

"Because he wants to read."

"So...wait...what?"

"He wants to read, he doesn't know how, he says I should teach him, but I didn't feel like it, and he cried."

"Well, what do you want me to do? I'm no super nanny."

"You could give it a try."

"What? I'm not going to try to be a super nanny!"

It took me a while to get Sander to 'super nanny' my cousins but he came over around two. It was one when I called him. It was one fifteen when I hung up. It was TWO when he actually got here.

"What took you so long?" I asked him angrily. See, listening to a cry for a straight hour isn't fun.

"Sorry, I had to go run errands first." he said, picking up a bag.

So he went shopping first, big whoop. So how did a bag help?

Loads.

He had bought this huge pitcure book and gave it to Lukas and he stopped crying when he saw that "Aniwals!"

"'The Animal Book A-Z'..." I read. That's what's on the cover. Bravo Sander, I gotta give him points for that.

"You're a life saver."

Lysander nodded. "I know.

Right now, as I'm writing in my room (Lysander still won't let me hear the end of me having a journal. "A diary," he says.) I can hear him reading aloud to Lukas and Hannah. I'm glad to have a friend like him. Actually, I have to take care of a few businesses, like cleaning up the mess Lukas made in the spare bedroom when he was crying. So many clothes on the floor...so many...

I rather have Sander's job. He's sitting down reading while I'm picking things up and folding them. Karma...it's out to get me. I better do something good before it kills me.

And why am I giving it ideas?

Tancred