Jacob Black

Dear Diary,

It's been about a year since I last wrote, right? Well, I guess I didn't want to make it a habit. I need to still contain my manliness. But somehow, today I felt like I had to tell someone what happened. So I couldn't tell dad or Rachel or Rebecca because they would laugh at me and tease me, so I decided you're my next best thing.

Okay well, where do I start? Right, anyways, right now I'm doing really well. I'm on the football team; a line backer. Cool no? And I have to admit that a lot of the cheerleaders have been paying a lot of attention to me. Ha-ha, Quil's getting jealous. That girl Lisa, who Embry said really likes me, well she asked me out. I didn't know exactly what to say, I didn't want to hurt her but I had my mind on someone else.

There's this girl who I apparently had known for years. I might have written about her. Anyways, her name is Isabella Swan, Bella for short. She's cute, and she's about two years older than me but she doesn't totally treat me like a kid which is cool. She's different and apparently when we were young, we used to make mud-pies together. That's embarrassing. Anyways, she's not officially my girlfriend but I can so tell that she loves hanging around with me. She's Chief Swan's daughter and the problem is that she doesn't live with him in Forks. So I don't see her all the time which sucks. I miss her terribly sometimes. Okay, that was such a chick thing to say but it's true.

There is just something about her that really calls me in. She doesn't talk as much as the girls in my school do, she doesn't wear make-up or dresses a lot and she keeps a lot to herself. Quil tells me that she's a 'lost case' and that she'll never be into a guy like me. Sucks, again.

Anyways, when I was wondering about my so called relation with Bella, I was taken for a spin. I don't know if it was good or bad.

I was walking down the beach, just kicking the sand underneath my bare feet. I sighed as I sunk my hands deeper into my shorts, crumpling a bit of my white shirt in the process. Bella had just left a few days ago for Phoenix and I missed her a lot. Normally when she's around, I would only focus mainly on her. There aren't many girls that I talk to or that I really pay attention to, but for some reason Bella is an exception. Something about her struck me and I wasn't sure what it was. Have I met any girl like her or made me feel like this?

I sighed, sinking my hands deeper into my trunks, and tore my gaze from the beach to the sand. My eyes slowly trailed up the beach before I came to a stop. Whoa. The sitting figure turned its gaze to me and its eyes narrowed for a second before a smile appeared on its face.

"Hey Jacob" she greeted, wrapping her arms around her knees. I took in a small gulp and made my way towards her, a small smile itching on my lips.

"H-hey Leah" I replied, standing next to her, looking down at her.

"I haven't seen you around in a while…where have you been, Black?" Leah asked, looking up at me with those brown eyes.

"Hmm…just around" I said, running my hand through my hair.

"Ah, is there a girl?"

"Wh-what?" I looked at her, taken back but she just smiled at me.

"I visited your house a couple of times, mainly for the twins and they mentioned about a… Swan girl" she said, giving me a knowing look. I took in another gulp.

"Hmmm…o-oh, that's nothing. She's a…a friend" I stated.

"Really?" she asked me, raising her eyebrow.

"Yeah… do you know he-her?"

"Yeah Dad, he knows Charlie Swan. Never met the girl but…I don't know"

"Oh…" was all I said, as I kicked a bit of sand under my feet. She sighed and turned her gaze back at the beach. I slowly brought my head to take in her beauty. Man, I totally forgot how pretty she was. Bella looked soo…normal compared to Leah. While Bella was pale and small, Leah was copper and long. Bella had messy brown light curls and small freckles on her cheekbones, while Leah has straight black hair and high cheekbones.

I could go on and on but somehow these two woman have almost…the same effect on me…is it possible? Does Leah really affect me the way Bella does? Like I want to see her more? Like I want to hear her speak? Like I want her to smile at my name the way I do at hers?

Jacob, what are you thinking? Even if I do, hypothetically, like her a lot…it's not like she'll ever consider me. I mean, she has that show off for that. No, I don't like her. I can't like her cause I could never like someone like…her who dates him.

"Hmm…I heard you were dating Uley…" I said, softly huffing at the end. I looked up to see her tense for a second, still staring at the horizon.

"Hmm…yeah" she sighed and then slowly tilted her head down to her knees. Okay, shockingly, that wasn't the reaction that I was expecting. I mean, everyone talks about how great Sam Uley is –gags- and practically every girl in school wanted to go out with him. I thought Leah would be jumping for joy about that so called perfect man. But actually, I guess Leah isn't like other girls. Of course she isn't, but still…did something happen? Oh my god, she doesn't like him anymore? YEEEEES. Wait, why am I so happy?

I heard her sigh again and I gazed at her. Man, she looks…really down. What did that jackass do? Why is it bugging me soo much? Why do I have this need to say…

"Hey Leah? Are you okay?" I asked her.

"Huh?" she looked at me and then looked back the sea. "Yeah…I'm fine"

She didn't sound fine. I walked closer to her before contemplating if I should do anything or not. I mean I hadn't seen this girl in a while and now…I sighed and slowly dropped down next to her, resting my arms on my bent knees. No harm in seeing what's wrong, right?

"You know that you can tell me?" I told her.

"It's nothing, Jake."

"Then why do you seem down?"

"I'm not…"

"Yes, you are"

"Jake, it's nothing…"

"Is it your parents?"

"No" she sounded that she was getting tired of my asking but she was answering me, so that's a start.

"Is it school?"

"…No"

"Is it friends?"

"No, Jacob, it's not…" but something in her voice was betraying her.

"Is…it Sam?" I asked her, carefully. There was a moment of silence before she turned her gaze to me and just looked at me, with slight furrowed eyebrows. I got my answer.

"Ah" I said and gazed at the sea, resting my body on the palms of my hands.

"It's none of your concern" she stated.

"What did he do?" I asked and she let out a small sort of sigh slash chuckle before turning her gaze to me.

"You're unbelievable"

"Hey, I'm trying to help"

"I don't think it's something you can help me with"

"Try me"

"Jake…you're just a kid" ouch, that kind of hurt.

"Try me…" I replied again, sincerely. She gazed at me for a moment before turning her head back towards the ocean, closing her eyes. Goddamit, why does she look soo appealing to me? Not cool!

"What did he do?" I asked again, turning my gaze to the sea.

"It's nothing particular that he did…I don't know, I'm just…"

"…You're just…?" I continued her sentence and she let out another sigh.

"Having second thoughts…" and that was when my eyes nearly popped out of my skull. I stared at her face, but she continued to keep her eyes closed. Whoa, did she just say that she might consider breaking up with THE Sam Uley? I'm dreaming right? Shit, I'm dreaming!

"A-as in…?" I asked to make sure. Her eyes slowly fluttered open and she continued to gaze at the waves dancing on the surface of the ocean.

"As in…if being with Sam is the right thing. I mean of course, I feel that it's right. It feels soo right but lately, it's been off. Sam's been a bit off and it's not like totally how it was when we first started dating. I don't know what I'm saying. I first thought that maybe it was because Dad's not all that fond of Sam…but he knows that Sam's a good guy and he is; Sam's an amazing guy. But for some reason…I feel this teeny sinking feeling…that…I'm worried about. I didn't think I would be…but…" she sighed and looked down at her lap. I gazed at her confused beautiful face. She seemed so troubled. I've never seen Leah this troubled. She was always smiling and so strong but…she was a girl after all. In the end, she cares and thinks like a girl.

"So…what you're saying is that you think something bad is going to happen…involving you and Sam? And you don't know what to do?" I slowly contemplated out loud, looking down at the sand, making scratches on its surface with my fingers

"Huh? Yeah… I mean, I don't know! It sounds retarded but… I don't even know what I'm telling you this—"I cut her off, letting out a small humorless chuckle.

"It's completely retarded. Especially for you" I said.

"Excuse me?" she huffed and I could feel her hard gaze on me. I looked up at her and knew that for some reason I'm gonna hate myself for saying it…but it was the right thing.

"That's the reason why you're considering…breaking off? With Sam?" I asked.

"Well, I don't know—"

"Leah, risks are meant to be taken. Sam may be acting weird and you have a weird feeling…but all that matters is…-sigh- you guys love each other, right? Screw the feeling, everyone has that once in a while. Why would you want to toss away something that makes you soo happy for just an inkling?" I explained, drawing on the sand again. Damn, this good conscience!

I sighed and looked up at Leah, only to see a small smile grow on her face, which caused me to heat up really quick. Why does she have to smile at me like that?

"Wow…" she smiled and I looked away to hide my rosy cheeks.

"Wow…" she said it again. Why does she keep repeating it? Is she really THAT surprised?

"I'm not that DIM! No matter what Rachel and Rebecca say!" I huffed, gazing at her with furrowed eyebrows. She bursted out laughing, rocking on the sand.

"No, no…it's not that…well, not totally that but…" she slowly started to calm down and gaze at me with those beautiful eyes. "It's just that…it just reminded me of…your mom. She would have probably said the same words."

I gazed at Leah, almost dumbstruck. My mom? Really? I never thought about it and I had totally forgotten that Leah was really close to mom. Mom practically called Leah her third daughter. I missed mom. I smiled at Leah and then again looked at the sea, to hide my red cheeks. Leah giggled and moved her gaze back at the sea, crossing her legs under her long throw on.

We moved past that topic and started talking about the general things. It was amazing how much I could open up to Leah. She remembered Embry and Quil and she also stated that her little brother has sort of an obsession with me, which creeped me out a bit. Why the hell was I never home when she was home? I never knew it would be this fun.

"You see that rock over there?" Leah said, pointing at a huge rock which almost looked like an island in the middle of the sea. "I call that 'Swimmer's Rock' because of lack of a good name, and also that it's soo far that I think only professionals can get there."

"Cool…" I said.

"I reckon that the view from there would be beautiful during sunset or sunrise, maybe"

"How can you say that?"

"Cause apart from a particular spot on the beach and the cliffs, that rock is directly proportional to the sun. So it's like seeing a close up of the sun, a better view of it" She sighed and leaned forward over her crossed legs. "I've always wanted to go on that rock and see that sunset."

I bit my lip and gazed at the enormous rock that seemed so fricking far from the beach and then back at Leah. Oh no, here goes my brain without properly thinking again! I really need to control my actions!

"We can do it" I said. She looked at me like I was crazy. Maybe I am. Not maybe, I am crazy.

"What? You're kidding right?" she stated and I just shook my head. She raised her eyebrow.

"Jake, I'm on the swim team but I'm not that good" she said and I got up.

"It doesn't matter. Come on, it's worth a try. I know that we can make it" I said, gazing at the rock. It can't be that far, right? I turned back to her. "I got a feeling."

She just gazed at me, shocked before a huge smile took over her face.

"Fine…we'll do it, together" she smiled, getting up. I smiled and then went on to pulling my shirt over my body, and removing my sandals. It's a good thing that I always wear trunks when I come to the beach. All La Push kids do that. I turned to my side to see Leah slowly pull her throw on, off her body and revealing her body in a dark blue bikini. Holy…damn. I swear, I felt myself get hot and my mouth got dry. Maybe it's a good thing that we're going in the water. Can a girl be this fit? Why are you thinking like this, Jake? You can't think like this, at all!

She threw her throw on, on the ground and dropped down her mini shorts and Oh no… I looked away, trying to get my head on the right track again. What is happening to me? I mean, I see girls all the time on the beach then why now am I getting all…giddy?

"Hmm…Jake?" I heard her call and I turned to face her, trying to take low calm breaths. "You ready?"

"Yeah, I am" I answered, wearing a small smile.

"How about a race?" she asked and I looked at her raise her eyebrows in excitement. "Heard you like competition"

"Yeah, I do"

"Coincidence, so do I" she smirked at me. Why the hell did I find that soo sexy on her?

"Ready?" she asked, getting ready to make a dash for the water so I got ready as well.

"1, 2…3!" and then we were off. I dove into the water and started kicking my feet in various directions and throwing my arms all around in the water, to make myself move faster in the water. Swimming wasn't my strongest forte but I didn't suck that much either. But once I looked to see where Leah was, I knew that I sucked when it came to swimming with her. Damn, how the hell does she move that fast? She was about 10 feet away from me, and she wasn't even struggling that much. Well, I guess with a body like that, just consider yourself gifted. What the…dude, this is Sam's girl you're talking about! Off limits, definitely off limits! She loves Sam and she told you that too! GOD, STOP!

That's when I felt it. I felt a sharp pain clamp onto my foot, making me stop paddling and groan in pain. What the fuck? I couldn't move, but most importantly I couldn't hold myself up anymore. I could feel the water entering my mouth, making me choke on it as it forced itself down my throat. Shit! I tried to yell for someone but no one was around the beach today and Leah was probably way to ahead to hear me. A wave enveloped me and my full body was underwater. I tried to kick up but it just hurt more. Oh no, no, no…

I felt another grip. This time on my arm and instead of hurting me even more, it pulled me up to the surface. I gasped, taking in air and blinking my eyes a couple of times, removing the salt in the process. I felt the grip slowly pull me through the surface of the water and I just floated along with it. I took my other hand and rubbed my eyes only to see wet black hair, bobbing on the surface of the water. I felt its leg kick me by mistake as she swam ahead. She turned to see that I was alright and I was shocked to see the face of a wet Leah. How did she know that I was…

"Jake, are you okay?" she asked, taking in a bit of water in her water as she continued to swim. I wanted to say something but then I noticed that, we weren't going the right direction. We were heading towards shore. Wait, what about that rock? Finally, I felt the sand underneath my feet and Leah slowly let go off my arm. I slowly limped on the seabed, trying to avoid exerting pressure on foot with the catch. Leah waited on shore for me and when I reached her, I felt the catch slowly decrease.

"Jake, are you alright?" she asked, placing her hand on my shoulder. I looked up at her and nodded, pulling my body to a straight position and shaking my leg. The pain descended and I patted my foot on the ground a couple of times before setting it down properly.

"How did you know…?" I asked her.

"You didn't think that I wouldn't check on you. I tend to go easy on my competition…if I like them" she said, tossing her wet hair behind her shoulder. I chuckled, looking down, hiding my again rosy cheeks. Why am I acting like such a chick? I'm soo not normal.

"Well…I'm fine now, so let's go again" I announced, clapping my hands together.

"Are you crazy? I think we had a good try today" she stated.

"But you said that you wanted to go there so badly…"

"I will…one day, I just might. Or maybe…we will" she smiled at me. Whoa, did she just say that? We? As in me and her? Really? I couldn't stop a huge ass grin to plant itself on my face and I ran my hand through my drenched hair.

"Leah!" I heard someone from the distance call out. I looked over Leah's shoulder to see none other than Samuel Uley, walking down the beach towards us, in his oh-so-cool walk and he threw his arm in the air and signaled a wave to us, well Leah. I felt my eyebrows automatically furrow when Leah turned to see him and I could notice a smile play on her face. Sam Uley has a natural ability to make me feel annoyed but for some reason, this was a lot different. It really, really bugged me. Leah turned and picked up her throw on and wore it, slipping into her slippers. She…was leaving? Just like that?

"This was really fun, Jake" she said.

"Yeah…It was" I wasn't lying at all.

"We should do this more often"

"Yeah…" why am I feeling all odd all of the sudden? I was talking like crazy before but now it's all…weird? Leah smiled, picking up her shorts and turned and started walking towards Sam. I sighed, looking away at the sea. Oh well, I guess…it was good while it lasted. I mean, it wasn't anything big or anything. It was just a hang out…with a girl. That's all. It's nothing exceptional or anything. It's just a friend and friend hangout and it was cool.

I turned to face the happy couple only to see Leah stop halfway and jog back to me, biting her lip. Before I could ask her what was wrong, she planted a kiss on my cheek. The moment her soft lips imprinted itself on my cheek, I felt everything that was rushing through my head, come to a blank.

"Thank you, Jake…" She whispered in my ear. I felt my heart jump up into my throat and took a small gulp in.

"F-for…wh-what?" I unsurely stuttered. She slowly pulled away from my face and gazed at me, only a couple centimeters away from my face. So close that if I dipped forward, I would be able to feel her lips on my own. She let out a small giggle and my heart pounded even more.

"For…hmm…being you" she concluded and slowly moved away from me. Yeah, all my heat is in my face right now. She bit her lip, smiling and slowly backed away. Oh…I wish she would never look away but alas, she turned away and started jogging towards Sam.

My gaze met with Sam and I swear, I felt almost a smidge of intimidation in his eyes for some reason before he gave me this sort of approval-hello- nod, which I returned as well. The moment Leah came closer to him, his face lit up and he threw his arm around her waist, pulling her in. She giggled and then they turned and started walking down the beach.

I sighed, gloomily as I watched that lucky son of a gun walk away with Leah. And then I saw Leah look over her shoulder and threw me that gorgeous smile before walking further and further away, which made my insides twist and melt and do all sorts of stuff.

What the hell is this? I mean…I placed my hand on my chest and felt my heart beat like crazy. Why do I feel like this? I've sort of felt like this with Bella but not to this extent. I mean, why do I feel like I want to keep seeing her? Why did I have this urge to kiss her or just hold her? Why did I have this urge to punch Sam, not for being who he is, but for who he is with? Why did I mentally want to hate myself when I told Leah to stay with Sam, when in real fact, I was happy if she was without him?

What does this mean? I mean…could I possibly have…for Leah Clearwater? All that I know though is that…it's not impossible. And nothing is really stopping me…not even Sam.

And that's what made me head out the door. You'd think each day would get clearer and clearer, but for some reason, I feel like I still fighting the fog to figure out what is going on. And my destination was again…The Clearwater's household.

Here I am again…in front her house door and again, contemplating what to do. What the hell is wrong with me? I already did this before. I turned the knob and not totally surprised that the door was unlocked. Almost everyone in La Push don't really care about extra security since we're here to protect our land and all. I walked in, again, expecting a sleepy Seth and dreaded to be proved wrong and see a sweaty Embry instead (might I add, again), but thank god, that didn't happen again. Neither Seth nor Embry were around. Actually the whole house looked empty. I walked into their living room and started to look around for any whatsoever source of life. That's when I heard someone coming down the stairs. From the corner of the wall, came down Leah, who seemed to be fiddling with something in her ears.

Holy shit, did she look good. She was a sleeveless V-neck red dress that reached mid thigh. Perfect to show those beautiful long legs, and she seemed to be wearing eyeliner and lipstick, true to her lip color. Whoa, dress and makeup? Someone got a camera? I realized that it was the same dress that Alice had bought for her and I smuggled into Leah's closet; it's the same dress that I liked. Leah was soo busy putting her hoops that she didn't notice me, almost floored by her looks. She looks…she always has but when she emphasizes her beauty, there is no question to how gorgeous she really is.

I heard her softly cheer after finally being able to hook on her hoops. She straightened out her dress and turned to see me…most probably wide eyed at her because she looked totally taken back.

"Whoa, Jacob? Wh-what are you doing here? Now?" she asked, tucking her hair behind her ear. I shook my head out of my recent…thoughts and rubbed the back of my neck.

"Hmm…I just thought I'd see you. It's been a while so…I wanted to say…hi?" I unsurely said. What the hell is wrong with me? All I can seem to think about is how good Leah looks. Leah placed her hands on hips and raised her eyebrow at me. I'm guessing she's not buying it?

"Okay…? Hi…" she replied, with a weary smile. I let out a small chuckle.

"Hmm…I thought if you want to hang out or something?" I asked, hopefully.

"Now?" she asked, biting her lip.

"Huh, yeah? Are you going…out somewhere? Judging by the way….your…" I said, indicating at her, which made her feel almost insecure all of the sudden. Why all of the sudden?"

"Hmm…actually, ye-yeah…I am. So if you don't mind…" she spoke, rocking back and forth and then indicated the door for me. I know where the door is. I think she wants me to leave.

"Getting rid of me? How mean, lee" I pouted and she rolled her eyes.

"Well, that happens when you come, uninvited"

"Hey, I've been doing that for years and you didn't mind"

"I always did. I was just too nice person to say anything"

"AHAH! Nice person, really Lee?" I chuckled and she narrowed her eyes at me. Damn it, she looks even hotter now.

"Fine…leave now" she rolled her eyes.

"No, no, say it with love" I smirked and she scowled at me. She let a frustrated sigh and turned to leave only to stumble a bit, making her dress rid up her thighs a bit more. Oh shit, why the hell does she have to wear that around me? I could feel a small part of my cheeks heat up a bit. What the fuck is wrong with me? Even though I keep asking myself that question, I can never ever find the right answer.

She sighed and then turned to me, scratching her head, looking half annoyed and half embarrassed. For some reason, a smile danced on my face which made her even more annoyed but at the same time, she seemed like she was restless and in a hurry. What could possibly be up?

"Listen Jacob, not in the mood" She said, rubbing her head.

"When have you ever?" I snorted.

"Seriously…not now. I'm going out, like I said" she suddenly glared at me. Okay, I think I should tone it down. I actually had forgotten the reason I came here. It's just been impulse lately for me to come to Clearwaters because it's like a second home anyways. I raised my hands in surrender.

"Good…we'll talk later if you want to" she sighed in victory. "What am I forgetting? Shoes, right!"

I watched her run upstairs to get shoes. Damn, never seen her act like such a total chick before. I sighed, rubbing my head, wondering what was I going to do anyways? Talk to Leah…about what? The fact that I could have possibly liked her? And prove what? It's stupid. It was in past. How the fuck does it affect anyone now? It's nothing big. Everyone had a crush on Leah sometime back then. So… I was one of them. I really need to see a doctor about my dysfunctional brain.

I reached out for the knob, only to be cut off by someone else knocking on the door. Huh, okay so this person knocked…so that can't be Seth or any of the pack members. I opened the door excepting to be some girl that Leah probably ran into and was forced to hang out with. Damn, do I hate being wrong.

In front of me, stood a guy, of course shorter than me and a lot leaner. He was fair skinned with a beach tan and blue eyes, while he was wearing dark blue jeans and a black leather jacket over his white shirt. What the hell is this guy doing here, on Leah's porch, in the afternoon, looking well dressed? God, for the first time, I wouldn't mind at all if it were Embry.

"Can I help you?" I asked, feeling my forehead crease, holding my position in front of him. He looked up at me and seemed a bit appalled by me, but he seemed to shake it off pretty quickly.

"Oh, is Leah Clearwater around?" he asked, politely but that didn't make much of a difference to me. I crossed my arms across my chest as my gaze hardened on him.

"What's it to you?" I asserted, harshly. I think he could sense my tone but he didn't interject and just dug his hands deeper into his jeans' pockets. Who the hell is this guy? I've never seen him around here and how the hell would this kind of guy even know Leah? What the fuck is he even doing here?

Before he could respond, a clinking sound was heard coming down the stairs. Both our gaze turned to see Leah, almost hoping on one foot as she slipped into a silver heel. Heels? Okay, what's going on?

"One minute, I'm just—" she called out, thinking that I wasn't there and that she had to open the door but when she looked up, she soo wished it was that. Shock just simply planted itself on her beautiful face when she saw me, blocking the doorframe and that other dude on the other side. She slowly stood up straight, gazing back and forth between me and him. Okay, what the fuck is going on? Even though my body was itching a bit since I could possibly know what is up but for some reason, I couldn't wrap my head around it.

"Jake…what are you still doing here?" she asked, with her eyes slowly trying to regain its original size. I didn't answer; I just narrowed my eyes at her as she slowly walked towards us, running a nervous hand through her hair.

"I thought you didn't do heels" I narrowed my eyes at her. Yes, pretty random I know.

"Hmm…well, it's not bad once in a while" she hesitantly answered.

"Hey Leah" that guy asserted with a smile as Leah stood in front of us, about half an inch taller than him in heels.

"Hey…you're a bit early" she softly replied, almost a bit tense.

"Well, have to make a first good impression, right?"

"First impression?"

"You know what I mean" he winked at her. "By the way…you look…unbelievable"

"…Thanks" and I saw a smile slowly spread on her lips as she tried to cover her almost rosy cheeks. What the…is she fricking blushing? What the hell is this guy doing? And most importantly what the hell is Leah doing? Hello! I'm right here! Right next to you, guys!

"Okay…This is the part where the explaining happens" I interjected with a hint of a snarl. They both looked at me, probably forgetting that I was glaring down at them. I kept my hardened look at Leah, slightly turning to her. "Who the hell is this?"

Leah's face crunched up a bit and then she rubbed her neck, finally deciding to give in…I think.

"Oh right!" she said, turning to Aaron. "Aaron, this is Jacob Black. Friend…of the family"

My eyebrows furrowed at her. Friend of the Family? What the hell? When did that happen? I mean sure, it's true but still. What does that mean? I'm just a friend of the family?

"And Jacob, this is Aaron Samuels" she turned to me. "He's…hmmm…"

"I'm Leah's boyfriend" …SAY WHAT? Boyfriend? ThisguythatI'mnotgettingagoodfeelingfrom say what? I felt my arms drop down to my sides, and felt something small burst in me. I felt something just pour out, leaving me speechless. That was soo not what I wanted to hear. I cannot believe that. AT ALL!

From the corner of my eye, I could see Leah's eyebrows jump up as well since it somehow came as a shock to her too. What the fuck is this? When did this fucking happen?

"Well…this is our official date but I thought this is much more…" that guy said, gazing lovingly at Leah. Leah's face slowly relaxed, and she ducked her head a bit down, probably again to cover the heat in her cheeks or a teeny smile.

"So yeah…Hi" Aaron spoke, with a smile and then stuck his hand out me. I felt something fill me up. And suddenly a growl emerged from my chest as I looked at him. Aaron got startled for a minute, but then blinked a couple times before slowly dropping his arm down to his side. He gazed at me for a moment, narrowing his eyes.

"Hmm, anyways…did you guys have other plans planned today or something?" Aaron, almost curiously asked.

"What? Oh no, no…Jacob just came here to see my brother" Leah spoke, coming between the both of us. Brother? What the fuck does Leah think she's doing?

"Yeah…I thought I would wait for him" I decided to play along, sneering at them.

"Seth's at his girlfriend's place so…" Leah stated, rubbing the side of her arm.

"It's okay, I'll wait. Anyways, I can lock up since I do know this house, inside out" I smirked at her. She gazed at me, a bit uneasily and I saw Aaron's eyebrows crunch up for a second. Leah closed her eyes, slowly rubbing the side of her temple and then sighed.

"Hmm…fi-fine, we'll be leaving and…see you around, Jacob" she sighed, walking away from me.

"Nice meeting you…Jacob" Asshole said, and then caught up with Leah's walking. I felt small snarl work its way to my lips and couldn't help my body from tensing a bit. What the fuck up with this guy? Due my wolf senses, I could hear couple of the few murmurs that Leah and that guy shared.

"Wow, he's… different" Aaron softly said.

"He has a…weird way of expressing himself" Leah unsurely stated.

"Huh…So you say, because I swear, I heard him…almost growl at me"

"That's…c-crazy"

"Don't think he likes me…" Aaron stated as a fact, as opened the door for Leah.

"Oh co-come on Aaron…" Leah tried brush it off as she got into the car and Aaron closed the door. He then walked to the other side but then turned his gaze to me, almost observing me. I could feel myself tense again and my hard gaze tried to burn through his face. He slowly looked away and got into his car, starting the car. I continued to look at him before I turned to gaze at Leah, who looked at me for a second before turning her attention to her side window as the car backed out of the driveway and heading towards the road.

Annoyance crawled my skin at that guy. God, why is he soo agitating? Why the hell would Leah chose him? When did Leah even meet him? Why didn't she even tell me? How could she not tell anyone that there is someone else in her life? Did Seth know? Is he really her boyfriend? I ran my hand through my hair, slamming the front door shut as I dragged my feet into the empty house.

Popping another crisp from the packet that was resting on my bare stomach into my mouth, I continued to flicker through the channels, stretching my feet on the coffee table and resting my head back on my shirt that I converted into a pillow. It had been hours since Leah left the house with that jerk and I had taken over the house. Seth didn't come home but he left a message saying that he staying longer at his girlfriend's house and then go for patrols from there. It's nice to know that, that kid has a life, and a choice to be with anyone he wants to be with. Of course, the elders or Sam wouldn't think it's such a wise idea but I don't want to put a damper on that kid's life.

Finally, I heard the sound of engine stop in the driveway. They were finally back, but in the fricking evening? What the hell did they do? I got off the couch and strolled to the window, dusting some of the crisps off me. I peered through the curtains and saw that guy open the door for Leah. Trying to be a gentleman now, are we? She got out with a huge smile on her face and said a couple of words which they both laughed at. I felt my face consolidate as he pulled her by the hand and turned her to face him, so her back was facing me. He murmured a couple of words and then slowly caressed her face. Why the hell is he caressing her face? It was time that I came up with a plan. Okay, time to intervene.

I opened the door and he didn't notice me since he was staring at Leah. Ugh, I got to get his attention now.

"Leah! Finally, you're back. I've been waiting for you" I called out, leaning against the doorframe, crossing my arms across my bare chest. Aaron's head instantly snapped up, dropping his hand in the process and gazed at me, with bewildered eyes. I saw Leah's back tense a bit before she slowly turned to face me. A smile no longer played on her face. Just a mixture of shock, anxiety and annoyance.

"J-Jake…what the hell are you still doing here?" she yelped.

"I've been waiting for you, like I always I do…" I slyly spoke, with a small smirk dancing on my face. Aaron's face didn't change. He continued to gaze at me.

"What the hell? I told leave" she half snarled at me. God, this is getting good. Really good.

"Well, you didn't mind…when I stayed a lot longer…on other nights" I harmlessly smirked, untying my hands and then gripping both sides of the doorframe to expose my half naked chest. So many wrong ideas, right? I felt Aaron's eyes jump up a bit and I could see Leah almost refraining herself from beating me. At least I'm getting the reaction that I do want. Before Leah could make her way up to me, Aaron finally decided to talk.

"I…think I should leave" BINGO! Leah's expression changed and she instantly turned to face him.

"Wh-what? Already?" she stuttered. He turned his gaze away from me and looked at Leah, still with a bit of shock on him.

"Yeah…because it's late and…" he vaguely stated. I saw Leah's shoulder drop down and smirk stuck itself on my face.

"Oh" she merely whispered, rubbing the sides of her arms.

"This was…great."

"Yeah…it was"

"Hmm…see you around, Leah" he softly said, and then backed away a few steps and then turned towards his car. Victory, all right. Leah dropped her arms to the sides, watching him slowly walk to his car. Jacob, you're the master. This guy is no match.

Suddenly during my mini celebration in my head, Aaron stopped in his tracks. He turned and faced Leah, with an unpredictable look on his face. Then in three big strides, he walked towards Leah and then grabbed her face and kissed her.

That threw me off the loop. WHAT…THE…FUCK? My eyes widened and my grip on the doorframe, tightened. Leah was taken back too, but slowly I saw her body relaxed as she started to respond. He had his grip on her face and I saw her hands gradually, slid up his chest. My nose started to flare. My face hardened. My teeth were clenched. My body started to shake a bit. My nails literally dug into the wooden, making splinters pierce into my skin. But that wasn't what was pissing the hell out of me at the moment.

He slowly pulled away, and his gaze wasn't on Leah… but on me. That fucking prick! He slowly moved his face near her ear, gazing at me, almost as he was…challenging me.

"Call me…" he whispered, huskily and slowly pulled away but not before his lips pulled up into a smirk for a split second at me. About 3 growls erupted from me as he slowly removed his hands from her face and got into his car. He gazed at Leah with an affectionate smile before leaving the driveway and dashed away.

I fucking underestimated this guy. It was almost like he knew what I was doing. He was fricking challenging me! He's trying to prove that he doesn't fucking care. He's not intimidated. My blood was boiling and I could feel myself losing control, and not in a werewolf way. He just ticked me off even more than that douche bag from Leah's party. Why the fuck is that?

After watching his car disappear, Leah slowly turned around, gently touching her lips and looked like she was in a sort of trance. I felt anger and another emotion take over my whole being. Leah slowly looked up and caught my gaze, which made her snap out from her trance and her previous fury took over. She growled as she stalked towards the house while I tore my hands away from the damaged doorframe.

"Get. The. Fuck. Out. Of. My. House!" she shouted.

"What the fuck was that?" I snarled at her as she shoved past me into the house.

"LEAVE, BLACK!" She growled, clenching her fists.

"What were you fucking thinking?" I asked, stepping closer to her, shaking a bit.

"What was I thinking? It was kiss, it was a fucking date!" she yelled.

"And what were you thinking of doing after that?" I roared.

"It's NONE of your GODDAMN business!" she scowled, shoving me but I didn't budge a bit. Even with 3 inch heels, Leah was a bit shorter than me.

"Really LEAH?"

"YES! What the fuck is your problem? Why the hell do you have to ruin this?"

"Ruin this? Sorry, for trying to look out for you!"

"Looking OUT FOR ME? I LIKE THIS GUY. HOW IS THIS HELPING OUT?"

"Oh, that's what you think! He's not all that great, Lee!"

"WELL, WHO ARE YOU TO TELL ME THAT?"

"The SAME GUY WHO SAVED YOU FROM THAT JERK AT YOUR PARTY!"

"Well, this is different! HE'S DIFFERENT! I TOLD YOU, I'M NOT A FRICKING DAMSEL IN DISTRESS!"

"WHAT MAKES YOU SURE?"

"Cause I JUST KNOW, OKAY? I CAN DO WHATEVER I WANT!"

"AND WHAT DO YOU WANT TO DO? WHAT DID YOU WANT TO DO?"

"None of your concern! HECK EVEN IF I WANTED TO FUCK HIM TONIGHT, I WOULD!"

That did it. Sending a loud growl, I grabbed Leah's shoulders and shoved her against the opposite wall, pinning her between me and the wall. Leah let out a half snarl and half groan, with half of her hair covering her face. I pressed myself against her, so that she was completely blocked and I let out pants of anger. She slowly shook her hair away from her face, and brought her hard eyes at me, panting a bit too.

My body lost control of its actions as face all of a sudden started to slowly roam only about a centimeter away from her face. My hot breath slowly roamed around her cheeks and jaw line, before my lips trailed her jaw. I heard Leah's breath suddenly hitch between her pants, and my arms slowly dragged itself down her waist, snaking around it and pulling her against me, keeping no space between us and the wall. My head slowly sunk down to the crook of her neck and a bit of my tongue slowly followed her collarbone with my lips. I heard Leah's heart slowly start to pick up speed and not because of anger.

My body was reacting so differently from the way it normally acts. For some reason, I couldn't stop. I placed a small kiss in the middle of her neck before dragging my lips up to her chin. Leah was almost limp in my arms, with her eyes staring at me bewildered and her lips slightly opened. God, why does she have to look like this? Even though she got soo heated after our argument, she looked even more divine to me. Leah let out almost an inaudible gasp when I softly brushed my lips against hers. Again, and again.

Aaron tasted her lips. But they aren't his to taste. I couldn't let him have Leah. He is not Leah's boyfriend. He doesn't belong with Leah. He's not for Leah. He will never have Leah.

Why am I feeling this way? Why am I doing what I'm doing right now? This was supposed to be wrong but why the fuck did it feel so damn right? Why do I fucking want Leah? All of the sudden?

My brain had practically lost its power and now my body to telling me what I wanted, and so was a part of my heart. If this is so wrong, then why does this feel so right? The attraction was dead on but then there was a small ache for a reason. Something taking me away from this. Something warning me. Something reminding me. Something that I physically chose but almost unable to fulfill it. Something that was meant to be the right choice. The pull.

I pulled away, backing away, gazing at Leah, who was looking at me with the same expression that was probably on my face as well. Everything rushed back. Everything that I had left unsure, everything that I doubted, all came rushing back and screamed one thing to me.

I've been kidding myself.

This was not all of sudden. It was something that I denied for…the best? The best for who though? All these doubts, all this confusion was because of my denial. Another man was the only way for me to see the reality. The other emotion that felt when Aaron was with Leah that fueled my anger to the extent that it was almost as bad as with Bella, was no annoyance but…jealously. It was more this time because I actually felt threatened. I actually felt that I would lose my Leah.

My past feelings were a crush…but could have been more and now, it is more. This…these feelings were and are not impossible. Leah has always been a part of me. She just continued to grow and grow that…I needed her. I needed Leah. What I most thought was harmless teasing were actually small out spills of my emotions for this girl. The fact that I was happy when I was away from the Cullens for a while was not just because of the pack, but almost of relief. Leah brought me a piece of freedom. A piece that I had forgotten existed. A part of me that was still alive and beating for someone else now.

Leah isn't just any girl to me; she never was. I don't just care about Leah or keep trying to protect her. I want to be with her. I want to share my time with her. I want to be the one to make her smile. I want to hold her. I want to stay with her.

It was fact, that I loved her.

And that's when I ran for the forest.

BOOO!

GOUMAYY! -.- (That's 'sorry' in Japanese) I'll explain. Like I said before, I went for vacation and it was long and I didn't arrive until the end of holidays. And then school started and it's CRAAP. But! What was worse was that I couldn't carry my laptop on vacation D: BUUT! Being as dedicated as I am, I actually wrote about 3 chapters (one being Fading Shadow) on my ITOUCH. That's right! I wrote about 3 almost complete chapters on an itouch! NOW IF THAT'S NOT DEDICATED THEN I DON'T KNOW WHAT IS! SO YOU SHOULD BE PROUD OF ME -.- But even still, I did delay on posting, so sorry. There was an Itouch problem as well as the site was a bit malfunctioned. But here it is!

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