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What Is Wrong With Me?

By: SimplyShelbySJL

Chapter Twenty-One: Sam's Favorite Place

Casey's POV

My eyes flashed open as I felt someone pull me up from my sleep, jerking me into their arms and that's when I heard it, "Casey! What the hell?" Oh my gosh it was Derek, but what was he doing here, I left the room last night when he was drunk.

I felt his hands gripping my shoulders tightly forcing me to look at him I opened my eyes, confused, what was wrong with him? I felt him look at something behind me and then shake me again, "Casey what the hell is this? What the fuck did you do last night?"

I stuttered, he was frightening me again, "What… what do you mean?" My voice was so quiet I thought he wouldn't even here, but he did. I watched as he scoffed, "What do you mean, what do I mean, you can't lie yourself out of this one Case I caught you red handed!"

What was he talking about, so what I slept in Logan's room I had no choice with the way Derek was treating me when he was drunk. I felt my face get hot and my confused expression go into an angry one. I tried to get out of his grasp, to push him away, but he didn't budge, "I'm waiting… please I'd like to hear what you have to say about this!"

I kept my voice low, but angry, "I don't know what your talking about, do you? I mean you were pretty drunk last night, or do you not remember?"

He then turned me and I found myself facing Logan, who was sitting on the bed I turned back angrier than before, "So I slept here because of how you were acting it was your own dam fault Derek!"

I watched as he lost it, "My fault? My fault, it is not my fucking fault you slept with another guy!" Oh my god, what did he just say? How the hell could he think something like that?

I used all of my strength grasping his shoulders and pushing him off of me where he fell on the bed looking up at me. I then didn't even bother yelling, because I knew with yelling would come tears. So instead I kept my face straight, and my voice low, cold and angry, "Derek I don't know how you could ever think something like that! Or why, but let me tell you something…" I breathed in and turned as I saw Caleb, Reed, and Hallie run into the room.

I didn't bother though I turned back to Derek, "I can't believe after what you did to me last night that you would have the nerve to come in here and assume I would sleep with a guy I just met! I haven't even slept with you yet, which I'm glad because I just realized that I don't even want to look at you at the moment!"

I was interrupted when I felt Hallie come up to me, "Casey calm down, you didn't hear his side yet…" I pushed her away, "Yeah and I'm not going to! I don't care where I'm going, but I am going as far away from you Derek Venturi as I can right now!"

I turned pushing past Hallie and picking up my pace as I neared the door, I was on the verge of tears when I felt someone stop me, I looked up at Reed, "Case calm down, why don't we all just talk about it?"

I pushed past him not even answering and I started running, I could hear them calling me so I ran faster. I started to run down the stairs almost tripping a few times, but I made it dashing out of the hotel and motioning for a cab. When one stopped I got in it hearing my name, but I didn't stop I closed the door locking it.

"Where to?" the cab driver asked pulling out onto the road. I pushed my hair out of my face, I knew one place I could go, the one place where I could talk to someone who would listen, "It's a beach, sort of secluded, I think it's called Water Rock?"

The cab driver nodded, "Okay, but it's pretty far, miss I just nodded and looked out the window, I wasn't sure what I'd find there, I had never been, but there I could talk to the one person I needed to right now even though he couldn't talk back… Sam.

I felt a flashback take over my eyes as the driving became steady…

I was sitting up in Sam's room and we had just finished watching a movie sprawled out on his bed. I turned to look at him and he smiled so I smiled back, "Okay new question?"

He smiled lying back closing his eyes, "shoot." I took a breath before continuing, "Okay so where is you favorite place, it can be anyplace, but what is it?"

I watched as he smiled with his eyes closed, so I snuggled up to him, "Water Rock beach." I raised an eyebrow, "What?"

He laughed, "It's this untouched, sort of secluded beach in Miami. I first found it when me and Derek went to Miami for a hockey match during freshman year. So one day after we lost, I just left and found myself there."

I smiled, "Did you ever go back?" He smiled pulling me closer, "yeah every time I was in Miami for family, hockey, whatever I went there. Mostly to think… it's like a part of me is there, but in a good way you know, I don't know what it is about it, it's just special."

I smiled, "I understand." I then felt him come closer to me his breath on my neck he started to whisper sweetly in my ear, "You know Case, it's almost as special to me as you are…"

I smiled, "Do you think you'll ever take me there?" He then smiled, "Yeah, in fact lets go this summer, you know we could take a road trip down there, maybe even Derek could come," he laughed and I rolled my eyes at the last part.

"What's it like?" I asked running my fingers through his sandy blonde hair. He smiled wrapping his arms carefully around my waist, "It's beautiful, and quiet, perfect, like you."

I then smiled leaning in and bringing his lips to mine. It started out as a small peck, but it became stronger as I tugged on his lips with my own. When we broke apart I turned over on my back laying my head on his chest as he sat up.

"I love you," he said quietly, but sweetly and I smiled looking up at him, "I love you too."

"Miss that will be twenty dollars please," I snapped my head up, "I'm sorry what?" The cab driver sighed motioning out the window, "You said Water Rock Beach, right? Well you're here and you owe me twenty bucks."

"Oh right, I'm sorry," I said pulling the money out of my pocket and handing it to him before quickly getting out of the car. He pulled away very fast and I heard his tires screech, covering my ears. I sighed turning around to face the beach. Sam was right it was so peaceful, the look of it, the feel of the wind, the sound of the gentle, but powerful waves crashing against the sand.

I smiled walking onto the sand until a came to a part by some large grass and sat down. I breathed in deeply bringing my knees up to my chin and resting it on them. I know this sounds weird, but I could feel Sam here. He was right, a part of him was here, it least it felt like it.

I looked around, I would have given anything for him to come running up to me smiling. Just one glance at him again, just one more kiss, one more touch, one more word, and one more I love you, but I wouldn't get that, again. So I would settle for this, feeling close to him in a place I'd never even been, a place he was supposed to bring me, but I had to come to him now. I picked up some sand in my hands just looking down at it and then letting it blow away.

I took a deep breath, I didn't want to say goodbye I just wanted to talk. I lied on my back closing my eyes, "hey Sam, I found the place, you're place. It really is beautiful like you said." My voice began to crack and I wiped the tear away.

I put a piece of my hair behind my ear breathing in deeply again, "So I guess you know what happened? I really screwed up, huh? I just… I didn't do anything, why does he think I did?" I wiped away more and more tears.

"You know, I really… really miss you, I just, I just want… I want me to be able to be as perfect for Derek as I was for you. You always understood me so well and I never had a problem with letting you all the way in…"

I didn't even bother wiping away the tears now there were too many. I sat up looking around before continuing, "I just want to know why? Why did you leave me, why was it your time to go, why?" I was almost crying and screaming and I fell back clutching my knees again.

"I… I need you to tell me what to do, how do I make things okay again, how do I make me okay again? How do I make me and him okay again, I need you to tell me because I can't do it on my own. I 'm not as strong as you… or Derek… or anyone, I don't know even how to be anymore."

I then sighed wiping the tears away, I felt stupid, Sam wasn't going to answer, he couldn't answer. I sighed, "Look I'm sorry okay. I just, I just needed someone to talk to and I… I could always talk to you, you know? I just need time to think, I just needed help."

I then closed my eyes falling back onto the sand again listening to the ocean, I felt myself drifting off to sleep, but I didn't even stop myself. I just listened to the steadiness of the waves and the feel of the warm sand.

I sat up looking around, I was still on the beach, but the wind was picking up. It was darker and looked like rain, I could even hear thunder in the distance. "Casey!" I could have sworn I heard someone calling my name, but the wind was too strong and I didn't see anyone.

"Case!" I turned around I knew I heard something know, and there he was. He was walking straight towards me just like I wanted, I was going to get up, but before I could he was there by my side.

I reached out to touch him as if he wasn't real, "Sam?" He smiled, "Who else would it be I mean come on I was pretty sure it was me you were asking for right?"

I smiled laughing a bit before looking up at him confused, "You heard me, but how your…" I didn't finish it, but Sam only smiled, "dead, doesn't mean I can't listen, you know that heck you and Derek are becoming a full time job."

I smiled blushing then putting my head down, "Well I think the job might be over, maybe time to retire." I felt him lift up my chin so I was facing him he looked serious, "hey don't say that, don't give up the Casey I know doesn't give up."

I sighed throwing up my hands, "Well the Casey you know screwed up I mean you saw how mad Derek was you saw everything how I ran away…" He stopped me, "Casey you didn't do anything wrong, I mean I'll admit maybe rooming with Logan wasn't your smartest idea, but Derek was in the wrong too."

I looked up and felt a tear slide down my cheek, but Sam brushed it away, "It's never too late to fix things Case, and deep down you know that, I know you do."

I sighed leaning my head against his chest, "But what if I can't? What if I can't fix things?" He rubbed the back of my head, "You'll never know until you try." I held on to him tight closing my eyes.

In the distance I heard a new voice, it sounded familiar, but it sounded far away. Suddenly there was a great roar of thunder and I gasped.

I gasped waking up shooting up from where I was laying. I grabbed my heart as another loud roll of thunder sounded in the distance. I looked around, it was a dream, but did it mean something? I sat back down when I heard something, other than thunder, "Casey!" I could hear my name being called in the distance, but it started raining and I couldn't see anything.

"Casey! Casey are you here!" the voice called out again, I stood up almost being knocked down by the wind again. I tried to call out, but found my voice hoarse, "hello, who's there!"

"Case is that you? Casey where are you!" the voice now sounded distress and although it was hard to hear with the rain and thunder it sounded familiar.

I grabbed my ears falling to the ground when the thunder rolled so loud. I had never liked storms especially being in them, I could feel myself crying and the voice still calling, but I couldn't yell anymore. So I closed my eyes rocking myself back and forth. I was soaking wet and really cold, I knew I was shivering. When I suddenly felt someone pick me up wrapping their arms around me, "Ssh, ssh it's okay, you're okay, it's just a little storm," they were whispering to me carrying me, but I didn't open my eyes I just kept crying. I grasped onto them tighter and I heard them whispering again, "It's okay I'm here nothing's going to happen to you, I promise it's going to be okay."

I knew the voice now, but why was he here, I thought he hated me. I thought he thought I had done something horrible. I didn't even knew how he found me, but I didn't care I felt safe now and I didn't want him to leave. I almost felt like I was asleep like even if I opened my eyes I was almost in shock or panic attack mode where I couldn't respond. I felt the rain stop pouring down on me and a car door shut, I grasped on to Derek harder, then hearing an engine stop and another voice, "Oh my gosh is she okay? How did you know she would be here? She's shivering Derek do you think she needs to go to the hospital?" It was Hallie, I could tell.

I then heard another voice as the car started moving, "Relax she just needs warm clothes and a warm bed, but if her temperature rises then we might want to take her in." It sounded like Caleb, but what were they all doing here.

I felt someone stroke the back of my head whispering sweetly, "Don't ever run away like that again, you had us all scared to death, but I'm sorry it was my fault, please be okay Casey, please forgive me," it almost sounded as if Derek was crying. Then the car got silent for a while. I didn't open my eyes at all, I just kept holding onto Derek, I didn't want to let go, I was scared to let go.

I felt myself being picked up again and after a while I heard someone talking, "Okay Derek seriously get her into new clothes and warm, oh and make sure after while you check her temperature, just call if you need anything, please," it was Hallie and she was stressed. I wanted to say I was okay, but I didn't feel okay I felt week. I heard Derek, "Yeah I know and I will I promise, I just want to get her inside though, I want her to be safe, bye." I heard a door close and more thunder outside.

Derek's POV

God she won't say anything and she won't open her eyes, this is all my fault! What if I wouldn't have found her, what if… no Derek don't think that. She was still shaking and grasping tightly on to me, god I was such an idiot, how could I put her through all of that. Last night, and then this morning, I had to jump to conclusions I'm such an ass. If I would have just let her explain, just like Hallie made me listen, I should have known, Casey would never do anything like that.

I carried her over to the bed grabbing one of my bigger shirts on the way, she needed something dry, I needed her to be okay. I set her down, but she grabbed onto me tighter, "No!" she said in a faint way with her eyes still closed, I whispered, "It's okay I'm not going anywhere, but I need to get you in dry clothes is that okay?"

She nodded, but I was still nervous she'd jump up and ask me why the hell I was undressing her. Normally I would have enjoyed this, but under the circumstances I wasn't going to. I started by gently pulling her wet shirt off of her and then slipping her pants off. I grabbed a towel starting at her feet and working my way up, I came to her thighs and still saw the scars on the inner thighs, another time I had let Casey walk right away from me and get hurt. I moved over them quicker finally drying her off. I felt her braw it was soaking wet, but I was debating if it was right. I just wanted her to be warm, I sighed reaching for the clasp and undoing it. I let if fall and tried my best not to concentrate on what it revealed. I grabbed the shirt slipping it over her before picking her up again. I lied her down on the bed and then pulled off my own shirt which was also wet, I quickly grabbed some pajama pants becoming dry.

I then slid myself next to Casey stroking her cheek, she was asleep, now but I was beginning to think she was going to run a fever. I wiped away a tear, pretending it wasn't there, but it was. I then whispered to her, "Casey I'm so sorry, please don't hate me… I didn't mean to… I didn't want… I just want you to be okay… I just want us to be okay."

She rolled over snuggling closer to me and I held her tighter against me listening to the thunder. I then lied there watching her and the clock as the hours went by, I kept adjusting positions and ended up staring up at the ceiling. I then heard a faint voice next to me, "Derek?"

I wiped away the tears on my face breathing in deeply, "yeah," I said turning to Casey who was looking at me confused. She reached up to touch my cheek, "are you crying?"

I looked into her eyes, "no, no…" I stopped, "yeah I was." She looked at me, "are you okay?" I stroked her cheek, "are you?"

She sat there for a while before looking back at me, "I'm sorry Derek I'm so sorry, I…" I stopped her, "Casey you didn't do anything wrong, I'm the one who needs to be saying sorry about last night, and this morning and…" I felt her lips crush against mine and I responded quickly before she pulled away, "how did you find me?"

I sighed looking away, "I uh figured you knew about Sam's favorite place too, but if I would have been wrong, then I don't know what I would have done Casey… I mean if anything ever happened to you like that or like it did with Max because of me then I… I… I…" I looked at her and she looked at me more confused, "you what?" I sighed looking at her before saying quickly, "I could never forgive myself."

I looked away from her, until I felt her pulling me towards her she was staring at me intently and she opened her mouth, "Derek?"

"Yes?" I was ready for her to say how much she hated me. How much I had hurt her, how I needed to trust her. How she didn't think she could love me anymore, but then I heard something entirely different come from her lips, "Derek, I love you, always no matter what."

I held her closer, "I love you too Case and I'm sorry so sorry please don't ever run from me like that again, please I don't think I could take it." I felt her hold on tighter to me, "I won't I promise." I then sat up looking at her feeling her forehead, "how do you feel?"

She sighed, "I'm cold, really cold," that wasn't good, "Casey you're not cold you're burning up, we need to check your temperature, do you need anything else?" I asked reaching for the phone, I knew Hallie she probably had gone out and bought a thermometer. Casey shook her head no and I reached over dialing Hallie's room, it didn't even ring a full time when I heard Hallie answer the phone, "Hello! Derek it's about time how is she, does she need anything?" she said frantically.

I sighed looking down at Casey who was now shiver and I held her closer, "She says she's cold and she's shivering, but when I felt her she's burning up I need to check her temperature."

Hallie spoke quickly, "I bought a thermometer me and Caleb will bring it over, really I'll be there in five seconds, three if I take the stairs!" before I could respond the line went dead and I sat down the phone. I looked down at Casey again, "are you hungry or is there anything you want?"

She brought a hand up to my head, "no, I'm fine what about you don't you feel… well lousy after last night?" I shook my head, "no I'm fine I took medicine besides I don't want you worrying about me, you need to worry more about yourself."

She was about to respond when the door burst open, and I looked up to see a very worried looking Hallie rush over to the bed, "Oh my gosh Casey are you okay?"

I then saw someone else run in, "Hallie slow down for crying out loud you're going to give her a heart attack running in here like that babe," it was Caleb and I nodded up at him as he closed the door sitting on the couch. Casey looked up at Hallie, "I'm fine really, but how did you get in here?"

Hallie smiled and I was wondering the same thing too till she laughed holding up a key, "you left it in Logan's room, thought it might come in handy and it did now let's take your temperature." I watched as she opened her purse pulling out a thermometer package and quickly taking it out handing it to Casey who sighed sticking it under her tongue.

I sat there looking down at it sighing when it beeped I quickly took it away bringing it up to my face. I looked at Hallie and then Casey, "It's one hundred and two." Hallie sighed touching Casey's forehead, "oh you pour thing," she then turned to me, "if it gets any higher we're taking her to the doctor." I nodded really I would have like to have taken Casey now, just to make sure she could get better all the faster. I hugged her tighter rubbing her head.

Casey snuggled against me, "you guys are great," Hallie smiled, "yeah I know," she then laughed, but getting more serious, "really though we would have never have found you without Derek you should have seen him he was a worried mess like the second you left I thought he was going to have a heart attack."

I watched as Casey's face fell and I immediately spoke up, "she didn't mean it for real Case, calm down." Hallie looked at us both in a weird way, "what did I say?" I sighed running my fingers though my hair, "it's nothing Casey can tell you later, but right now she needs her rest."

Hallie nodded, "yeah we're gonna go call me if anything new happens," she then waved dragging Caleb out the door and I turned to Casey who spoke first, "I'm going to be okay as long as we're okay."

I smiled kissing her forehead, "then we're okay," I then held her tighter closing my eyes, first making sure Casey did the same, before I fell asleep I whispered, "I love you," and I think I heard her say it too.

Authors Note: Okay sorry this chapter wasn't the longest, but what did you guys think? I hope you liked it so please tell me in a comment. Told you all would be right with Dasey again though didn't I? I just have one word for this chapter and it is sweet, I mean this about Derek of course. Anyways I hope you liked it and reviews are loved very much!