~Kyoya POV~
People romanticize the rain.
They make is sound like a beautiful thing but what if that's all you've experienced for the past three months? What if the only thing in your life was rain? Wouldn't you miss the sunshine?
I did.
I missed my sunshine.
And that's how we ended up here outside of Tamaki's summer house, soaked to the bone. I had been here for hours but couldn't bring myself to ring the doorbell.
I frowned and leaned against the door slightly. "Why am I even here?" I asked myself. "If he wanted to see me, he would've came to me." I sighed softly, looking up at the door as memories flooded my mind.
I shook my head slightly and sucked in a breath. "Okay Kyoya. It's simple. Just knock on the door and apologize."
And that's what I tried to do. I knocked on the door and when Zero answered, I froze.
Somewhere in my mind, I begged the gods that he wouldn't answer. Maybe he would be out like the other times I showed up. Maybe he would answer and then slam the door in my face. Hell, maybe he would just watch me from the window.
But no, luck wasn't on my side.
There he stood in all his glory. He wore one of my grey sweaters that was clearly too big for him, a simple pair of jeans, and his glasses sat on the bridge of his nose. His hair was messy, like he had ran his fingers through it multiple times. His eyes barely focused on mine before a glare replaced his tired eyes.
"Math?" I questioned, pushing my wet hair out of my face. He nodded slightly, his arms now crossing over his chest.
"You're soaked." He stated, looking me up and down. I smiled slightly as I caught sight of his tail swaying back and forth behind him and his ears perking up slightly. Thunder sounded loudly in the sky followed by the crack of lightening making us both jump. He moved aside slightly and kept his eyes on mine. "Come on. It's going to storm the rest of night." I moved in slowly and stopped in the door way. "I'll get you a towel."
I waited until he came back before pulling off my shirt and pants. I took the towel to my hair first and then the rest of my body. "You know where the extra clothes are." Zero said before returning to the work place he had set up in the living room.
I walked past him to go the spare bedroom. Once I had dressed I walked back to him and sat on the couch opposite of him.
I loved watching him work, I truly did. It was just like in high school, only he was actually doing the work. He bit the side of his pencil when he was confused and played with the end of his tail as he worked it out. When he finally figured it out, a smirk graced his lips and he wrote it down.
"You know, it's rude to stare." He said, his face contorted into confusion at the problem he was working on. "It's also rude to ignore someone for three months." I retaliated, leaning back into my seat.
I'm going to guess he was still angry with the way he slammed his pencil down. A fire lit behind his eyes and he glared at me.
"Don't talk to me about ignoring someone, Kyoya." I flinched slightly when he spat my name. "You had been ignoring me for much longer."
"I sense you're angry."
"Angry? No, I'm not angry Kyoya. I'm hurt! You're lucky the weather is bad or I never would've let you in here!" he said, his voice shaking. I watched as his tail wrapped around his waist and his ears go flat against his hair.
"That's what I want to talk to you about, Zero-chan." I said, moving over to him. I put my hand on his knee slightly. "I want to talk about us."
Another crack of lightening and round of thunder shook the house. "There's nothing to talk about. You made your choice." He muttered, turning his body away from me. "You waited three months, Kyoya. Three…" his voice grew softer.
"I thought you needed time, love. I would've gone after you. I swear it. But I really thought you needed time, that when you were ready to talk to me you would call or something. I didn't want to push you away even more." I said, moving to kneel in front of him.
"Listen to me, Zero." My eyes met his and a grabbed his hands in mine. "I don't deserve your forgiveness. I never have and I never will. I'm sorry for how I've been treating you. I've been putting work first and ignoring you not only as my husband, but as my best friend. It wasn't right for me to snap on you and I didn't mean a thing that I said that night. You mean so much to me. I don't know what I would do if I lost you again. These three months have been hell for me.
This rain never stops when you're gone, you know that? It's always dark and cold and lonely without you. You're my sunshine, you know. Being with you is the best part of being alive. You're my first thought in the morning and my last at night. I'm asked constantly how am I doing and I can't even say fine. I just shrug. I'm not the same without you Zero. I'm just not. You're like my other half but you're more than that. You're more than half of me. Every part of me belongs with you, Zero. I don't know how much more I can take being away from you.
I pulled back on my work at the hospital. I'm not even working half as much as when you were with me. I'll quit completely if that means you'll come back. If it means you'll come back, I'll never work a day in my life. I got rid of the home office too. I made it into a movie room for us when he have company over or if you want to have a movie night or something. We can change it to whatever you want when you come back. We can even get a dog and make it their bedroom if that's what you want.
I need you Zero. I need you to come home. I miss you. I miss the way you refuse to wake up in the morning unless I give you a kiss. I miss the way you curl up in a ball when I have to go for work and how you never beg me to stay but your tail wraps around my leg. I miss how you like to cuddle during movies and how you'd make dinner for us on weekends. I miss how we would take walks around the park and feed the birds. I miss how you would hold my hand when someone would look at us. I miss how your breath feels against my neck when you're sleeping. I miss you waking me up in the middle of the night just to ask me a question about your dream. But most of all, I miss you. I miss being with you." I put my head in his lap and closed my eyes. I felt him staring at me. His eyes pierced my back like a knife and there was nothing I could do but wait for him to say something.
People romanticize the rain.
There's nothing romantic about listening to the rain while you're husband decides on if he's going to take you back or not. Let me tell you that now.
I stayed there with my head on his lap for hours before he spoke up.
"You changed, Kyoya. You aren't the man I fell in love with." He said, lifting my head to look him in the eye. "You put work in front of me and that hurt me. That hurt more than I could ever express to you." He placed a small kiss on my forehead.
"I forgive you and I want to work this out. I'm not giving up on us just because you didn't understand what you were doing." He smiled softly, his lips brushing mine softly. "And for the record, I missed you too."
Slowly the rain came to an end and we found ourselves naked on the couch. I placed a kiss on his shoulder and he smiled, moving closer to me. "You know, I was only mad for about a week." Zero said, leaning his head into my hand as I ran my fingers through his hair.
"A week? Then why didn't you come home to me?" I smiled slightly and looked at his face. His eyes were still closed and a thin layer of sweat laid on his face. "I wanted to give you a little pay back." He said softly, now a frown on his face. "It was stupid, now that I think about it."
I laughed softly, kissing his ear. "Its fine, love."
"So, I take it you're going home now?" a voice sounded from the door way. Zero turned a bright shade of red and hid in my chest as I looked at Tamaki. "Yeah, we'll be leaving after we take a nap."
"Take the couch with you."