I'm so sorry for not updating in awhile, but I've decided to post on certain days from now on: Tuesdays, Thursdays, and maybe over the weekend. Hope you'll understand. Enjoy!
What does it mean to have a heart?
Quinn thinks this during class as she reads over her homework questions. That's basically what number eight is asking: What is the main idea the author is trying to express through the character's actions and opinions? Well, the main character was a total kiss-ass and a jerk. People are supposed to think he was generous and responsible because he was always lecturing younger kids and giving to the community, but Quinn knew better. She knew that he was just doing it all for himself and to get into the girls' pants.
She had this happen to her first-hand just last year.
She was supposed to think he would give anything to be with her. She was supposed to think he would be the best boyfriend in the world or something. Just because all the other girls fell in love with him and his abs at first sight, it didn't mean she had to. She was much smarter than that.
Quinn knew to keep her defenses up. Because as soon as you think he's amazing and able to take care of you and your unborn child, it turns out he was really sexting his ex-girlfriend (and now your number one enemy) the whole night. They always let you down. So she swore she would never put her defenses down again.
Everything was going great for her junior year. Quinn had her figure back, was Cheerios captain, and an honor roll student. She knew that the one thing that could tear everything apart was to bring a boyfriend into this. So when Sam was clearly making advances (for example, trying to kiss her) she backed away. Everything was fine in her life. She had enough on her plate: keeping Santana off her back, finding ways to torture Rachel, and just trying to keep her life together. He was cute, okay, insanely cute, but it wouldn't work out.
But then, there was something that she just couldn't ignore. Was it the way he played his guitar? She always liked when a guy could play a guitar. Or maybe his floppy hair that brushed over his eyes perfectly. He kind of looked like Justin Bieber with it, but it worked for him. So all she really needed was for Rachel to point out how she could benefit from singing a duet with Sam, and she fell head-over-heels. Quinn was always trying to tell herself that they weren't going out. She was not his girlfriend and he was not her boyfriend. She liked him, a lot, but she was adamant about this not dating anyone thing. It was tough, but Quinn was determined.
It turns out all it takes for you completely ignore a goal you set for yourself is a simple gesture made by a cute boy with a great body. She didn't accept the promise ring at first, because she was still determined, but it wore her down. Why not take a chance? Isn't that what life is all about? Taking risks and learning from them? Accepting Sam into her life couldn't possibly be all that bad, now could it?
Well, when you put a not-so-secret affair with Finn Hudson and a scheming Santana to reveal it to everyone into Quinn's love life, accepting Sam could be all that bad. She knew it was mostly her fault for losing him, but Santana did contribute to it. A) she basically told Sam about Finn and B) she lured him away and into her claws. And to make it so much better, they just have to make out and be all lovey-dovey any chance they get. Quinn knew that Santana didn't love him. She loved his abs. Because now that Puck is chasing Lauren around, Santana will try to get it from anyone she can.
Quinn snaps out of her deep thinking and picks up her pencil. She writes down her answer to number eight. The author is trying to say that a caring heart brings success, expressing this through the main character "caring personality", but this not the main idea. The main character does not in fact have a kind personality. Everything he does is for his own good and for his own benefit. He does not love anyone or anything or especially his girlfriend. He harms his friends just so he can get with their girlfriends and doesn't think about the consequences. With more pressure on the tip of the lead, she continues. He then decides to not accept other people's apologies, even though he was supposed to be perfect and very forgiving and his girlfriend regretted it with every fiber of her being. Next, he decides to be all naïve and easily manipulated and become the antagonist's boyfriend because he "sees her point" or something, but we all know it's just cause she got a boob job. He's a jerk and an idiot who doesn't have feelings for others and who needs to get his stuff together before he decides to go and ruin other people's lives! She finishes, breaking her pencil against the paper. With a sigh, she rubs her forehead and gets up. After sharpening her pencil, she goes and sits back down. Sighing again, she flips the pencil over and begins to slowly erase her words. Once they're all gone, she rewrites her answer, not really caring about what she puts down. Because all she can see is the very faint tracings of her old answer, pieces that can't be erased: the words that are tiny little reminders of everything that has gone terribly wrong in her life. The remnants of her mistakes.
Hope you liked it. I may update over the weekend, and if I do it will probably be on Saturday. Reviews are always appreciated!