Sarah was sitting there waiting for Randy's response. It had only been a few moments since Sarah told him what she planned to do. It seemed like he'd been silent for a very long time.
"Don't do it." He finally said.
"I'm sorry Randy, I have to."
"No you don't."
"Yes I do." "I've already had two miscarriages and refuse to let this be my third."
"You don't know if it will be or not."
"If you've had a miscarriage before the chances go up with each pregnancy." "I've already had two."
"I want you to keep it."
"I'm sorry I can't."
"You could if you wanted to."
"That's the point." "I don't want to."
"So what I want doesn't matter?"
"It does but I can't go through this pain again." "We can still adopt like we were planning."
"Why adopt when we can have our own baby?"
"Please try to understand."
"Sorry this just isn't as easy for me as it is for you."
"How could you say that?" She said angrily. "You think this is easy for me?" "It's not." "You know what it did to me the last two times." "I'm getting my tubes tied while I'm there to."
"What?"
"I want you to come with me." "I need you to help me through this." "Please."
"I can't come with you." "You have the right to do what you want." "I think it's a mistake and can't and won't support your decision." "I'm sorry."
"Fine." "With or without your support I'm still doing this." He got up and left.
The next morning Sarah was in the kitchen. She had to leave in a few minutes for her appointment. Randy came into the kitchen.
"Are you sure you won't change your mind and come with me?" Sarah said.
"No."
"Fine."
"Sarah don't do this."
"I know this is hard for you to accept but I thought you of all people would be a little more supportive."
"Sarah if you do this, I can't be with you anymore."
"What?"
"I'm sorry."
"You're telling me I either keep the baby or you're breaking up with me?"
"Yeah."
"I can't believe you." "I thought you loved me."
"Just tell me that you'll keep the baby and this all goes away."
"Go to hell." She took her engagement ring off and sat it on the kitchen counter. "I have to stay in the hospital overnight." "As soon as I'm released I'll be by to get my things." She left.
A few hours later Sarah was in her hospital room. She already had the abortion and tubal ligation. She was feeling sad as she was told be common after the abortion. She tried calling Patty and didn't get an answer. Then she tried Jojo but didn't get an answer. She needed someone to talk to and could only think of one more person to call. So she dialed his number.
"Hello?" John said.
"John, it's Sarah."
"Boy this is a surprise." "What's up?"
"I'm sorry to call you." "I just really needed someone to talk to and I can't get a hold of my mom or Jojo."
"It's ok." "Where's Randy?"
"We broke up today."
"Why?"
"Two weeks ago I found out I was pregnant." "I made an appointment to get an abortion and have my tubes tied today." "When I told Randy about it yesterday he refused to support my decision and refused to come with me." "Today before I left he said if I went through with it he was gonna break up with me." "So I left the ring on the counter and I left."
"Have you already had the procedures done?"
"Yeah."
"You had to go through an abortion and a surgery all by yourself?"
"Yeah." She started to cry.
"Don't cry Sarah."
"They told me I'd feel sad after the abortion." "I know I did the right thing." "It still wasn't easy and it still hurts."
"I know." "I'm sorry you had to go through this." "How long are you gonna be there?"
"Until tomorrow."
"What hospital are you at?"
"Memorial."
"In St. Louis?"
"Yeah."
They talked for a little while longer and hung up. Several hours had passed. Sarah was looking out the window in her room. The sun was setting. The sky was a pretty pink purpleish color. She heard a knock at door and looked towards it.
"Come in." She said. John walked in.
"Hi."
"Hi." She said surprised. "What are you doing here?"
"I couldn't let you be alone." He went up to her. They hugged.
"That's so nice of you."
"How are you doing?"
"Not so good."
"Well whatever you need to talk about, I'm here."