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5 years ago, Cece and Rocky are both 20

My life was mess, nothing more. I didn´t have any reasons to , I never thought about suicide or something like that, but I lived like a ghost, I didn´t see any future in front of me. I wasn´t thinking about what was I doing, because there was nothing important to me anymore.

I lived in L.A together with Alice, just like we promised to each lived in Santa Monica, really cool place! Our apartments were right next to each other and we were hanging out together almost everyday.

Alice was the only person I had in that time, only one who supported me and was still with me. She was my only family I had in that time, she was holding me when I needed to be held, she was wiping my tears when I was crying. And she made me smile everytime I needed. She was like my older sister, no, she was even more, she was like me.

Like my other half, she always understood my feeling and she was showing me the way I can forget about them, but I still didn´t. I was just pushing them deeper inside of me.

I left my old life, I left my mom alone with Flynn, I left Shake It Up Chicago, I left my dreams and my heart back in Chicago.

My new life looked pretty different. I started smoking, drinking and sometimes also doing weed. Well yeah, Alice wasn´t really good influence to me, but what? I didn´t care anymore about my life.

Besides, it felt so much better when I could forget everything for at least few hours - in this way was drinking and weed kinda positive for me and I was lucky that I had them.

I was an adult, in world where was everything just fucked up, so I was living just for stupid things like that. Me and Alice were hanging out almost everyday in some clubs in L.A, for people like us and I had many many many girls in my bed already, just like Alice did. But there were no feelings, just fun and pleasure, nothing more.

Alice didn´t have a girlfriend neither, so we were both something like womanizers. I wasn´t proud of it, and I never would be, but how I already said, I didn´t care anymore.

I was also working in one of those clubs, called Memory, as a waitress and Alice had some weird jobs, she was doing something different every single day, but it was her own bussines.

Yes. My life without Rocky sucked. You think I didn´t try? I did. I was searching for her for almost two years, but I never found her again. And that just killed me inside.

I loved her so fucking much, and I still love her, after 5 long years. I still can´t forget about her and I see her in everything. Every memory of her is playing in my head non stop.

And that´s another thing that´s killing me - that I can´t forget her. She was and still is the love of my life, I can´t just find someone else and forget about her, because it´s not possible.

We were meant to be...

But something went wrong and now...I am just lost. And in Hell - again.

"What the fuck happend last night?", I asked Alice, as I woke up next to her in my bed.

Of course that nothing happend between us, that´s never going to happen, but I wanned to know what were we doing, because I didn´t remeber anything.

I was rubbing my eyes and I tried to remember what happend, but I had hangover like hell. Alice was still sleeping and she was mumbling something.

"Hey, wake up!", I said and I pushed her from the bed, she fell down on the floor and yelled.

"Damn! What are you doing?!", she shouted from the floor and I giggled.

"What were we doing yesterday?", I asked and I looked next to my bed and saw some bottles of Jack Daniels.

"Probably drinking or something.", she mumbled and stood up.

"Yeah.", I said and then looked at my phone.

3:36 PM

"God, we were sleeping almost 12 hours.", I said and looked at Alice, who was trying to wake up, but she still looked like a mess.

"I am gonna take a shower."

"Go to your own apartment then.", I said and she laughed.

"You are so nice today, sis.", she said and I rolled my eyes.

"Whatever.", I growled and when she left I started cleaning up all that mess around me.

My apartment wasn´t very big, but I liked it and I was trying to have it as much cleaner as I could. And that was really hard, because of my wild lifestyle and all those partys and everything what was going on there.

The hangover was killing me at first, but after couple hours it was better and then it finally stoped.

knock-knock

"Who the hell is it?", I mumbled angrily for myself and opened the doors.

Some pretty girl with long almost red hair and blue eyes was standing there and smiling at me. I automatically turned on my hotness and flirting mode and I smiled at her.

"Um, I forget my phone here.", she said with smirk on her face and I frowned.

"You were here?", I asked confused and she got closer to me.

"Don´t you remember me?", she whispered to my ear and it made me shivers.

"Ohhh...Angie, right?", I said, pointed a finger at her and she smiled widely at me.

"Good that you remember my name."

"Come insinde, I will look up for your phone.", I said and she walked in and sat up on the couch.

"Don´t you know where it can be?", I asked as I came back from the bedroom where I didn´t find it.

"I find it already, it was here under the couch.", she giggled and I tried to remember that fucking night, but it was really hard. Were we...doing it on...the couch? Well, probably yes, but I didn´t want to ask her, so I just smiled.

"You wanna stay?", I asked, but she stood up and slowly walked to the doors.

"I have some work to do, but maybe next time...", she said and kissed me passionately and then she left.

Another sexy chick on my list of Cece´s Sexy List. Check.

10 Minutes Later

I was getting ready for my work. I wasn´t feeling good, but it wasn´t that bad, so I decided that I will go to work today. I needed those money, you know, drinks and ciggaretes are pretty expensive in these times, so...

And I also need some food, pay for the apartment and of course clothes and things like that. There was no more mom who was giving me money, just me who took care of myself.

I was just doing my make up, when I heard

knock-knock

again.

"Who the hell is that again?!"

"Al, don´t you dare if it´s you!", I shouted but then I heard that someone knocked again, so it wasn´t her. She would probably shouted something back, or just opened the doors by herself.

Sure, she had keys of my apartment. Just in case something would happen to me, and I wouldn´t be able to open the doors by myself.

I walked to the doors and opened them and then I saw...R-rocky and...she was holding a ...baby? in her arms and she was crying.

I wasn´t believing my eyes, she was really there, in front of me! She looked even more beautiful then last time I saw her, of course, she was an adult now and she was smoking hot!

But here pure hazel eyes...Those I missed the most.

"H-hey, Cece.", she whispered to me and I just stood there, with my mouth wide open.

Was it real or just another halucination from the weed I just took?