"Rose, you scared me to death. What are you doing here?" I tried to catch my breath.
"Well, you scared the shit out of me, too ." She exclaimed, just as flushed. "I brought you this? Remember, you wanted to borrow it?" She said, holding up the red dress.
"Thanks." I said remembering my lies from earlier.
"No problem, I wanted to hang out with you, anyway, since we barely see each other these days." She added a smile and then looked me over. 'Are you about to go somewhere?"
Think, Bella, think.
"Um I just wanted to check the mailbox. It can wait." I lied. Again. To my best friend. I felt like such an ass. "Come in." I stepped away from doors and let her in, kicking off my boots.
"Great. We could watch a movie or...better." She said, holding up the DVD of one of the first seasons from Supernatural and grinning widely.
"Oh, how could I say no to the Winchester Brothers."
We both laughed and went up to my room. We would've watched it in the living room, but in my room, it was much cozier.
"Oh, we should get a snack." I suggested once we were up in my room. Rose rolled her eyes and pushed herself off of the bed she just sat on and followed me downstairs to the kitchen.
"So, what's up with you?" She asked, surprising me.
"What do you mean?"
"I don't know. You feel so distant lately as if you were hiding something. Are you?" She eyed me suspiciously, making me feel nervous.
Did she know something? Is that why she is here?
"Nothing is up, Rose." I lied again. making me feel worse and worse every minute.
"Okay, if you say so, but you know you can tell me anything." She sounded sweet and soothing. But I was still afraid to tell her what really had been going on in my life. I needed time to really figure things out before I go and tell her that I'm seeing her brother.
"What do you want?" I asked, opening the refrigerator.
"Oh, I've been on a diet for three weeks so I'm freaking starving, I want everything."
"Everything it is, then." I let out a laugh.
"Don't laugh. Homecoming is near and I have to get into my new dress." Homecoming. Right. "Do you already have a date, Bella?"
"No. I think I will sit this one out."
"You can't! It's our senior year, babe."
"Why does it matter anyway? Its just a dance."
"It's not just a dance. Bella, who are you?" She joked, earning an eye roll from me.
I just can't see the point in all of this." I lied. I wanted to go. The problem was did I really wanted to go with Jasper? And not because we were hiding, but because I still wasn't sure of my feelings. It was not love. That I knew for sure.
"Okay, we are set. Let's go."
"Wait. Is this Jasper's shirt?"
I felt the cold sweat escaping my skin. I turned around and faced Rosalie holding up Jasper's white and blue striped shirt. She knew it was his because she hated it so much and she knew it wasn't my father's because he only wore one color shirts and besides, he wasn't even home.
"Where did you get that?" I decided to go with Stupid Bella.
"Under the table?"
Shit. He must forgot it here when we first decided we are ready to do the nasty. It was just few days ago when I decided I wouldn't wait any longer and see where it had been going. I'd had my needs and so had Jasper so we had just went with the moment.
Yes. In the kitchen. On the floor.
"He must have forgotten it here when he repaired my plumbing system." I lied, frowning at my own lies. Way to go, Bella.
"Plumbing?" She narrowed her eyes.
"Yeah."
"Jasper can do that?"
"Sure. Now let's go watch Supernatural." I said, grabbing her hand and pulling her upstairs with me. I knew my lies would catch up with me someday.
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"I love to spend my Sunday mornings like this." I said, inhaling the air which smelled like coffee, fresh toasts and pancakes.
"Yeah, me, too."
Jasper and I have been coming here to Forks Diner every Sunday since we began to sneak around. First it wasn't on purpose, we had just kind of ran in to each other, but after that, we made it our tradition to come here on Sunday mornings, because we knew no one could ever see us here early like this on Sunday. Well, none of our friends, anyway.
"I like how you don't wear make up and tie your hair up in a messy bun like this." He said, tucking the loose strand of my hair behind my ear.
"You do?" I blushed a little, and looked down on the table, biting my lip.
"Yeah, this means you are comfortable with me."
"Yeah? Or you just saying that to your own benefit?" I teased him, making him chuckle a little.
"No. It's true." He defended himself with a smile on his face and leaned closer.
"Maybe it is." I leaned closer to allow him to kiss me on the lips quickly.
He pulled away, but his stare kept lingering somewhere behind me. I turned around to look at what had gotten his attention.
I wish I didn't.
Edwards was standing right behind us with Alice right next to him.
"Oh, hey, guys." She said in a sickening sweet voice.
"Hi." We both said at the same time.
"Do you mind if we join you?" There is like fucking four free booths, go and find one.
"Of course not." Fucking Jasper and his politeness.
"Awesome."
"Oh, I will just go sit next to Bella so you -" She cut him off.
"Don't be ridiculous." She sat down next to him, leaving Edward with no other option than to sit next to me.
"What are you getting?" She asked to Edward, once she opened her menu.
"Um ... I will take the toast, I guess."
"Great. I will take pancakes and we can share with each other." I want to fucking vomit.
"So, where are Rose and Em?" She asked, making Jasper and I lock eyes.
"Um, Rose loves to sleep in late. Just like Emmett." Jasper spoke. Alice simply nodded and then turned her attention to the waitress who came to take our orders.
Edward being with Alice drove me crazy. But more crazy made me the fact that the night I wanted to go see him Rose appeared at my door. Was this the universe telling me that there's no chance for us to be together? Was Jasper really the one I should be with?
I mean, things with Edward had started off really great so why did he gone on and started to date Alice? What does she have that I don't?
And then it hit me. I wasn't seeing Jasper because I wanted to give him a chance. I just wanted to prove myself again that someone wanted me and if he can get another girl I can get another boy just like that, too.
I looked over at Jasper and he smiled at me warmly. How could I not love this guy? He was amazing. He was warm, loving and caring. And I was simply a bitch who didn't know what she wanted.
I just needed to find out the easy way of how to break it to him. I needed to tell Jasper that I couldn't do this any longer. I've been bouncing from boy to boy and I could no longer keep doing this. It's not fair; not to him, not to me and not to Edward.
"So, Bella, do you have a homecoming date?" She asked, eyeing me and Edward at the same time. Why was she looking at Edward? Had he not asked her yet and was this her way to remind him to do so?
What a sneaky bitch.
"Um, no. I don't."
"'You don't?" Jasper asked, faking surprise.
"Yeah I mean you are very beautiful." Alice complimented me adding a sweet smile. Go to hell Alice.
"Speaking of homecoming. After that, there is party for Emmett." I tried to change the subject.
"I know." She said and I smiled at her politely. "Rose already invited me." She announced proudly with a wide grin. I'm helping her decorate."
My fucking smile just dropped on the floor.
"Great."
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"I need to talk to you." I finally got out after the millionth time of trying.
After eating the breakfast, we went to my place to watch a movie and spend some alone time. But in my head, we weren't alone at all. There was Alice and Edward, as well. My mind was going around us four, trying to figure things out.
Why did Jasper and Alive break up? If they hadn't broken up, would Edward and I have been together? With these thoughts, I couldn't be possible be seeing Jasper anymore. It wasn't fair.
"Yeah? What is it?" He sat up straight, taking my hands and looking at me before placing small kiss on my forehead.
"Um, it's about us." I admitted, looking down on my hands. I tried to find the easiest way to say that we were not working out the way I had imagined before.
"Oh. I need to talk to you about us, too."
Great. He wants to break it off, too. I will just let him handle this thing.
"You go first." I encouraged him, by placing my hand on top of his.
"I want you to be my girlfriend."