Here is the final chapter in Living Through it. Will Rose finally be able to love again?
Enjoy SK
Chapter 21 The night it all changed
I was walking through the mall, trying to decide what type of dress I wanted. My phone started going ringing; I rooted through my purse and looked at the display. Unknown caller, normally I don't answer those calls but something told me I should.
"Hello?"
"Hello Little Dhampir" Adrian I should of known. I laughed ironically he was the only one still talking to Dimitri.
"What do you want Adrian?" I snapped, usually these calls where to inform me of what was going on in Dimitri and Tasha's lives. Like I give a shit, and I had told him last time I didn't want to hear about it anymore.
"Wow calm down Rose!" I sighed "Look I just called to wish you a Happy Birthday" I snorted, today's not my birthday.
"Adrian it's not my birthday". I laughed is he really that drunk that he thinks it is July. Wow delusional much! I heard him laugh.
"What's so funny?" I was getting annoyed; first he calls to wish me Happy Birthday when it isn't even my birthday, now he is laughing at me. WTF????
"Rose are you really that caught up in Marcus, that you forgot it was your own Birthday?" WHAT! Caught up in Marcus!
"Adrian what I do in my life has nothing to do with you. Even if I was caught up in Marcus, which I am not it, is none of your business. And for the last time it is not my BIRTHDAY!" I shouted and snapped the phone closed. I gazed around the mall, realizing that people were staring at me. OOOPS!
God Adrian what an idiot, like I would forget my own birthday. What is with him? I mean he has a girlfriend now. I haven't met her, but Lissa and Christian adore her. What business is it if I am interested in Marcus? "I am not" I said out loud, oh good more stares. Right Rose keep it up and soon you'll be in the coconut college. I giggled cos really that was funny. I was so caught up in my thoughts that I ran right into the something. Well not something someone I realized as I jerked my head up.
"Oh shit, sorry I really need to open my eyes" I mumbled when the guy turned around. He was tall, had long blond hair and blue eyes. He was toned, but not like Marcus. Wait now I am comparing guys to Marcus! STOP IT!
"It's ok, you can bump into my anytime" brought me back to reality. I laughed, that is the cheesiest line every. Right up there with did it hurt when you feel from heaven?
I rolled my eyes. "Please that was lame" He chuckled, but extended his hand.
"Names Wyatt and you are?" I looked at his hand, and sighed taking it to shake it.
"Nice to meet you Wyatt, I am Rose". I looked down and realized that he was still holding my hand, I pulled it back. "I still need that". I chuckled.
"So how come a pretty girl like you is out on your own anyway? You know someone could take advantage of you?" I laughed, I mean really laughed. Is this guy retarded?
"First of all, it's the middle of the morning, second of all I can take care of myself, and thirdly don't hit on me it's rude" He scoffed, and reached for my arm. I shook my head warning him. He obviously is retarded because he grabbed my arm and tried to pull me closer to him. Ok enough of this crap; I swung back and punched him in the face. He released my arm and stumbled back. I grinned; yep I'm still bad ass.
I turned to walk away and a hand caught my arm. I spun around and punched again.
"Ouch Rose, what the fuck?" Oh shit, not good.
"Oh, Marcus I am so sorry, I thought you were that retarded guy he was hitting on me and tried to pull me closer to him..."
"I know" he cut me off "I saw the whole thing; I was trying to get to you." Awww how sweet my knight in shining armour...OMG stop it! You like him admit it.
"I DO NOT" I yelled, and Marcus looked at me like I had three heads. I tried to laugh, but it came out sounding like a hysterical squeal.
"Rose are you ok?" No I am having an inner battle, or maybe going crazy. But no 'Ok' I am not.
"Yes" I lied. Marcus took my hand a lead me to a table. I sat down, and waited for his words of wisdom. Ha I thought with no more Dimitri, I would of gotten out of Zen Life Lessons...yeah not so much.
"Rose...I"
"Don't" I cut him off. "Don't treat me like I am crazy, because I'm not. I just thought I heard you say something and obviously I didn't" I winced, thinking he will never fall for that. He sighed, and nodded. Hmm guess he did, that was new.
"So you haven't found anything yet?"
"Well no, but I haven't really had a chance to look either" He snickered. Standing up and smiling at me.
"Ok well let's see what we can find for you". I shook my head.
"No way, you are NOT coming with me. I want it to be a surprise" I did, huh nice to know. I smirked. He narrowed his eyes.
"Why?" Well shit, I don't know!
"I just do, besides I am really picky and it usually takes me forever to find the right thing" I added. He rolled his eyes and shook his head.
"Yeah I should of known that, it takes you two hours to grocery shop. And that's just food" He chuckled. Ha ha funny smart ass. I glared at him, which only made him laugh. I scowled and he laughed harder.
"Ok well I am leaving before you fall on the floor laughing at me" I stood up "It's not nice you know" I tried to scold him, but his laughing made it hard not to smile. He has a great smile, and a gorgeous laugh. OMG ROSE WTF!!! TIME TO GO NOW!
"I gotta go" and I took off down the mall, not looking back.
I walked into a store not really paying attention to the name. I slowly walked through the store, scanning for a dress. I froze, my eyes locked on the perfect dress. It was black satin, form fitting, halter style top. I walked over and pulled my size down, this was the dress I knew it. Walking back to the fitting rooms, I closed the door and slipped out of my clothes. I slid into the dress and in fit perfect. Hugging all my curves, I opened the door and slipped out to look in the full length mirror. The dress was perfect, the neckline was the showed the perfect amount of skin and the hem stopped about 2 inches from my knees.
"Wow, that dress was made for you" I jerked my head up and saw an Asian guy standing behind me practically drooling. I smiled.
"Thanks, but you don't think it's too much? I am going out clubbing tonight with some friends." He cocked his head to the side.
"Well that depends, where are you going?" Oh what was the name..
"The Black Iris I think it's called" He smiled.
"Then no, it's perfect" I smiled with relief. "You know what stay right there I have the perfect shoes for that dress". A few minutes later he came back and handed me a box. I lifted the lid and gasped, they were perfect. They were black with red lining, sole and heel. Peep toe style with a small red bow on the toe.
"Well try them on" I squealed with delight as I slid them on. Not only did they look good, but god they felt good too. I looked up at him and he had this big goofy grin on his face. Yeah I looked hot, his face told me to.
"I will take it all, but do you have accessories?" He nodded.
"Get changed and we will find you some" I smiled and went back into my changing room. Once I was back in my regular clothes I gathered the dress and shoes and smiled down at them. Tonight is going to be so much fun. I walked out and found the associate that was helping me. I searched his chest for a name tag. Chad, woot Chad is my hero!
"Ok, so now that we have the dress and shoes it's time for some accessories" I followed him to the back of the store and gasped everything looked gorgeous.
"Ahh this one is perfect" He turned and handed me a beautiful necklace. It was silver and had some kind of red tear drop shaped stone. I put it on and he smiled, handing me a hand mirror. Yep this is it.
"It's Silver Swarvoski with a Red Ruby stone" I smiled I knew I knew that stone. "Cool, that's my birthstone" "Oh well then your birthday must be close" Ok now I am confused, its May my birthday is in July. What is wrong with people. I just laughed and paid for my stuff rushing off to drop the dress at the dry cleaners. The lady said I could come back for it in an hour so I decided to get something to eat while I waited. I got some chicken tacos and ate them slowly wasting time. Soon it was time to get the dress, I picked it up and took off home. I expected Marcus to be home, so I made sure the zipper was done up on the garment bag before I pulled into the drive way. I frowned when I didn't see his car. Getting out of the car I heard my phone beep, letting me know I have a new message. I dug through my purse and pulled out my phone, flipping it open and laughed. (Bold is Rose Italic is Marcus) Not fair you know I hate surprises *pout* Well too bad! *smirk* Did you find one? I giggled. Maybe *smile* Tease *wink* You love it *smiles seductively* ha I would love to see his face Are u at home? Just got here why? I looked up when I heard his car pull in the drive way. He had a big grin on his face. I grabbed my bags and bolted for the door, unlocking it and flinging it open. I raced for my room, and locked the door. I heard Marcus come running down the hallway and heard him trying to open the door. "No way Marcus, you CAN not see my stuff" "Come on Rose, I hate surprises Please" I laughed he is pleading with me. "No Marcus, I don't have time I have to get ready for work" He laughed. "You don't start until 1:30, and its only 12 you have lots of time". While he talked I hung my dress up and hid the bad containing my shoes and necklace under some stuff on the bottom of my closet. "I'm still no showing you" He sighed loudly. I took off my shirt and slid my jeans down, I figured I might as well get ready for work. I was standing in the middle of my room in my back matching bra and thong Victoria secret set (yeah I have a weakness for sexy lingerie so what) when the door flew open. My head snapped towards the door, standing in the door way was Marcus. Just staring at me, WTF oh right I have no clothes on. I blushed, but tried to make it not a big deal. "Marcus, close your mouth your drooling on the carpet" I said turning to go to my dresser. I pulled my work out clothes out and turned to see if he was still standing there. He was, eye's wide and mouth hanging open. OMG stare much, not that I minded..Wait What! "Marcus?" I walked closer to him (um brain now would be a good time to remind me I have NO CLOTHES ON!). I stopped right in front of him, and looked up into his gorgeous green eyes. "Marcus, are you alright?" He just closed his mouth and looked at me. "Come on Marcus say something, your scaring me" I started to panic, the look on his face was blank like he was having a stroke or something. I smacked his arm, a little harder than I meant to and his eyes widened. "Ouch! Rose, what the hell was that for" he said rubbing his arm. I laughed faker. "Maybe cos you were staring at me like a pervert" I scoffed. "I...I...I was not" He stammered out. Wait Marcus stammering, that's new. "Marcus it's not a big deal, I mean I saw more of you that day in the shower" he laughed obviously remembering it. "Yeah what was it that you said oh yeah 'I've heard so much about your chest, I mean your abs, then you said you would wait for me on the bed. You know I was very disappointed when you weren't." I laughed shaking my head. I reached out to smack his arm for laughing, but he grabbed it and pulled me to his chest. I looked up into his eyes and say that they mirrored mine..desire. His other hand brushed my cheek and tilted my head further up, slowly he bent and brushed his lips on mine. It was barely a kiss but my body felt like fire ripped through it. His eyes widened and I heard his breath catch. Could he of felt the same. Well whatever happened, what he did next answered any questions I had. He bent down again and gently brushed my lips again. Again fire ripped through my body, my hand snapped up and grabbed the collar of his shirt pulling him closer to me, I stepped forward forcing him to step back. I head his back hit the door and I leaned up and very lightly touched his lips to mine, I felt his arm snake around my naked waist as he held me closer to him. I looked into his eyes and I saw something there that made me beam, desire, lust, longing and love? His other hand cupped my chin, as he slowly brought his lips closer to mine. I lost it when they touched and deepened the kiss. My hands wound around his neck, his arms encircled my waist. His tongue traced my lips, asking for permission that I eagerly granted. I playfully bit his lip and he moaned. Leaving my lips kissing down my jaw line and down my neck. I couldn't help it and let out a moan of my own. He pulled back and I whimpered. He smiled. "Are you ok with this?" He asked, so sweet he wasn't pushing. I looked into his eyes and saw everything that I saw before. I felt the same, and it scared me. I took a deep breath and sighed. FUCK what is wrong with me. I felt his arms loosen around my waist, he kissed my forehead and let me go. "Marcus I...I.." I what, I think I am in love with you, and that scares the shit out me. Yeah that would go over well. "Rose" he sighed, and opened the door "It's ok, and look I'm sorry. I just thought, that maybe you felt the same". Oh great, he is totally taking this the wrong way. He thinks I am rejecting him, way to go Rose! "Marcus no.." "Really it's ok" he cut me off, standing in the now open door way with his back to me "Don't worry I won't try it again" He said sadly and walked away. I sighed and sat down on the edge of the bed. I am such a idiot, I should of told him he was wrong. I should of told him that I felt the same way. I should have told him that I wanted him as much as he wanted me. I should of, but I didn't and now I wreaked it all. I pushed him away, all because I was too weak to admit it. Well weak was actually a pretty loose term for how I felt. Scared shitless, let's face it I had love Dimitri for so long and he hurt me bad. I was over Dimitri, I could care less what he did and who he did it with. I mean I should be able to love someone again right? I wanted to, but what my heart wanted and what my brain did where two different things. Sighing again I looked at the clock, holly shit 1 already I threw my clothes on and tied my hair back. I reached for the door knob and stopped, what if he won't forgive me. Pfff shut up Rose he will. Yeah but rejection hurts. But you aren't rejecting him, you just need time. OK SHUT UP! My inner battle was giving me a headache. I turned the knob and walked out of my room, down the hallway and through the kitchen. "You better hurry up, or you'll be late" I jumped. "Christ Marcus make some noise or something. You scared the shit out of me" "Oh!" He scoffed "Sorry" I shook my head and headed for the door. "Rose..I" "I'll see you tonight ok? Ten you said right?" "Yeah" His voice sounded so sad. I wanted to run to him and kiss him and tell him I loved him. Instead I opened the door and walked out. Getting in my car, I reached over and cranked the radio. The song started and I listened closely as I drove to work. My best friend gave me the best adviceHe said each day's a gift and not a given right
Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind
And try to take the path less traveled by
That first step you take is the longest stride
If today was your last day
and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to
yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last
Leave old
pictures in the past?
Donate every dime you had, if today was your
last day?
What if, what if, if today was your last day?
Against
the grain should be a way of life
What's worth the price is always
worth the fight
Every second counts 'cause there's no second
try
So live like you're never living twice
Don't take the free
ride in your own life
If today was your last day and tomorrow
was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live
each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past?
Donate
every dime you had?
And would you call those friends you never
see?
Reminisce old memories?
Would you forgive your
enemies?
And would you find that one you're dreaming of?
Swear
up and down to God above
That you'd finally fall in love if today
was your last day?
If today was your last day
Would you
make your mark by mending a broken heart?
You know it's never too
late to shoot for the stars
Regardless of who you are
So do
whatever it takes
'Cause you can't rewind a moment in this
life
Let nothing stand in your way
'Cause the hands of time are
never on your side
If today was your last day and tomorrow was
too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live
each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past?
Donate
every dime you had?
And would you call those friends you never
see?
Reminisce old memories?
Would you forgive your
enemies?
And would you find that one you're dreaming of
Swear
up and down to God above
That you'd finally fall in love if today
was your last day?
Hoo, hoo, hoo
Hoo, hoo, hoo
Hoo, hoo, hoo
Hoo,
hoo, hoo
Hoo, hoo, hoo
Hoo, hoo, hoo
Hoo, hoo, hoo
I
wanna lie in my bed
And do nothing
I don't care what anyone
says
I got you on my mind
Thinking about one thing
Gonna
show you how I do it best
Put my lips on your mouth
Keep
you comin around
Cause I like it
Put your hands on my hips
Take
me down
Sink this ship
Boy I can't resist
I wanna wear
my hair up in a mess
Cut off jeans, can you get with that?
Give
you something like you've never had
Cause I only wanna be wanted
by you
I wanna tease you till you're begging me
And you're
on your knees
And its hard to breathe
And every other time is
just a memory
Cause I only wanna be wanted by you
Those
other guys when they call
I might answer
But you're the one
I'm thinking bout
So baby don't disappoint
Just move
faster
And show me what you're feeling now
Put your lips
on my mouth
Keep you comin around
Cause I like it
Nothing's
wrong
It's so right
Got permission from me tonight
So turn
off the lights
I wanna wear my hair up in a mess
Cut off
jeans, can you get with that?
Give you something like you've
never had
Cause I only wanna be wanted by you
I wanna tease you
till you're begging me
And you're on your knees
And it's
hard to breathe
And every other time is just a memory
Cause I
only wanna be wanted by you
Now I'm going crazy
I'm
tired of waiting
My lips are on fire
I just want you to
know
I'm losing my patience
For the time that you've
wasted
Put your lips on my mouth
Put your lips on my
mouth
Put your lips on my…
I wanna wear my hair up in a
mess
Cut off jeans, can you get with that?
Give you something
like you've never had
Cause I only wanna be wanted by you
I
wanna tease you till you're begging me
And you're on your
knees
And it's hard to breathe
And every other time is just a
memory
Cause I only wanna be wanted by you
I wanna wear my
hair up in a mess
Cut off jeans, can you get with that?
Give
you something like you've never had
Cause I only wanna be wanted
by you
I wanna tease you till you're begging me
And you're
on your knees
And it's hard to breathe
And every other time
is just a memory
Cause I only wanna be wanted by you