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Guest- Woah. Your review is really long. And dares are fun ;) I would love to see Patty ride a girrafe but are you sure she's tall enough? *quirks an eyebrow*
Viven G- You flatter me too much... My writing skills are just mediocre and yes i do type in an iPad. Guess we have things in common afterall huh?
AnimeLover2233- I will continue this story, never attempting to stop it!
Red-Hot Habanero- Of course you can hi 5 her, that is if she replies T.T
THe dARKneSs AINt thAT bAd- Difficult name to type, but hey thanks for wanting to read more!
gilianafs- You're looking at an update!
Evilrae00- I think breaking the cane is something all Excalibur haters want to do ;D And chasing a book could easily become a sport!
foeveraliangel- Cliffhangers are something everyone hates, i hate it like hell too =.=
awsomeness- What do you know? Fate is inevitable.
TiffaChan- Like he isn't in your story *teases*
MysticLion- Yes, i got to keep it NC16. Me no write smut and we shall get through it together.
ILikeAppleSauce- Me like apples, no sauce. Making out with guys, you making out with one right now aren't you? *grins deviously*
Soma forever- I truly value your comments and thanks. I like to call it i had never though. Gomene...
All American Anteater- Hey, its okay for not reviewing, better late never right? ;)
Peace1331- Glad we do! But wouldn't it be weird if we don't have anything to protest? O.O
DemonKing537- *going*
biggestsoulxmakafan- I made you cry? *gasp* That's something rare.
Mrs. Domo Kruger- FINALLY someone notices...
nessie- boo- Glad you do! Twilight fan or something?
souleaterfangurl123- You scared the daylights outta me when i saw how long your review was O.o
livy leaf- LOL what?
Healing-Takes-Time- I didn't really promise any SoMa stuff... But that works ;)
Lialane Greast- Obsessing over Soul for me is like you obsessing over Stein :P
Evansluver14- Yea... It's sad. Feel kinda gulity for that
SymmetricalGirl8DeathTheKid- It is long wasn't it! Your fanfics are great too!
Dia8Buyo- Pervert T.T
VampireNinja101- Yea, poor Maka! How about you ninja in there and save her?
Too many T.T DONEEEE. Moving on~ (Thank god for that)
Maka's P.O.V
Ending the Skype call, the tears slowly made their escape out of their eyes. Those tears made me feel weak. I could have solved the problems myself, I could just forget. Why is it so easy to say but never done? I've never been able to; those memories would just keep coming back. Accept it didn't work, it made me feel vulnerable. Hiding it makes it come down harder, until my existence was gone, broken. I couldn't do anything but feel afraid of what I have become.
Life is just plain wrong sometimes.
Taking out the concealed knife beneath my mattress, my finger gently traces my sharp trusty blade. My finger leaks a tiny drop of blood and I look at it curiously. It's crimson red, like Soul's eyes.
Soul.
Who is he to me? Throwing down the blade as it clattered against the floor, I clutched onto my head. It hurts so much. What is this confusion? What is this feeling of loneliness I feel in my heart? Confusion is something I hate so much. I prefer things that are confirmed, sure that the result will be the same. What can I do it to wash it away?
Blade... The thought lingers in my mind and I giggle, giving a maniac grin. That would be nice~ I said as I carelessly took the knife by the blade. I feel no pain, I feel happiness . Tottering into the bathroom, I took off my shirt. Gently, I pressed it against my neck. It small mewl and a gasp of pain escape my mouth as I sliced it to a longer line
At least it will determine that I have to wear a turtle neck tomorrow for work. As I made a quick slice on my thigh, blood licks out and I lick the blade. Taste like salt and rust. Like me, rusted and done for. To be consumed for a man's lust. The feeling of pain leaks into my brain but I don't care. I felt good.
The sharpness, the pain,
The ecstasy begins.
Thinking those words as I made another slash at my waist, I hissed at the pain searing through me. Cutting a wound that has been there hurts the most. Hell, it felt the best too! I couldn't help but laugh as my mind seemed almost blank, I would have almost thought I was in a trance if not for the pain that constantly clouded my mind.
I laugh, I cry
Through the shame.
Slicing helps
It makes a shell
To hide, to cower
Make a cover.
My eyes hurt
My mouth shut
I can't scream,
I'll be found.
Hands will slide
He will enter
I'm just pinned,
Rendered useless
Shrieking wordlessly as those thoughts seeped into my mind. I kept slicing. It's not like I care about bleeding to death anyway.
I shall slice,
That god damn line
Bigger, wider
Through the horror
I am hopeless,
I am dark,
Kill me
I suck.
Burying my head in my knees, I started to cry. This was torment, how I wish I didn't promise Kami that I would keep living on but every passing day, the decision is getting harder. I couldn't find any way of release. Any would be too terrifying. I can only seek the blade; I know I can't slash forever.
Groaning at the amount of dried substance on me, I tried to stand up, only to stumble back down dizzy. I think I lost quite a few pints of blood. How am I going to go to work now? Cleaning my wounds, I crawly slowly into the shower only to wince in pain as the hot water was a little uncomfortable on my newly opened wounds.
The dried blood was such a pessimist; it clung onto my back and hair like two pieces of paper stuck together with glue. Shouldn't have let the blood drip. I grimaced at the thought as I dried myself off.
Scrutinizing my face in the mirror, I realized my face paled by quite a few shades and the bags under my eyes look as if they are visible weights and my lips look like they lost some of its lush pink colour. Knowing that today was a make-up day and there was no getting out of it, I brought out my emergency make up kit, but first I brushed my teeth.
Putting a generous amount of concealer on my face, I quickly blended it and put on some powder to set in place, relieved that Liz made us take make-up courses at some point. It definitely comes in handy right now.
"I can't believe I'm doing this!" I retorted at the mirror as I lined my eyes after putting a bit of eye shadow. Puckering my lips, I put a thin coat of lipstick and some blush. Not bad, I mused as I stared at my reflection. Quickly going through my wardrobe, I found what I need.
A green turtleneck shirt. Perfect. Tossing it on, I pushed up the sleeves slightly and wore light brown jeans with a dark brown belt. I quickly combed my hair and let it hang loose on my back and I opened the door gently, just in case Dia was asleep. The scent of breakfast hits me as I settled down at the table, making sure I don't put too much weight on my injured thigh.
"Bonjour Maka!" Dia said happily as she skipped to the table and placed my breakfast. I smiled at her as she made my usual classic. Toast with cheese and a nice cup of chocolate cappuccino.
"Are you ready for your day out before I go to work?" I said as I quirked my eyebrow at her, unsure if she wants to go out.
"Most definitely!" Her eyes gleamed with happiness and I couldn't help but smile. She is so easy to get along with. Eating quickly, I washed the dishes and dried it before tugging her hand out of the door. Well dragging would be a better way to put it. Paris might just be a perfect place for me to start over. For both of us.
Tsubaki's P.O.V
Not wasting a single second, I quickly called Soul. Whether it was 2 A.M. in the morning or not, he has got to hear this. That albino had been moping around every since she was gone. He would turn down any invitation on hanging out and refused to pick up calls, I doubt he been eating or drinking much; he was just a blank mask, nothing in his head.
He just seemed hollow, like a piece had been taken away.
The annoying voice mail came through and I shut my phone. I don't even know why he has a phone anymore. Grabbing my coat, I headed out to his apartment. That poor boy will be so happy when he hears this, that was most definite. I shook my head, wondering why he wouldn't he just give up on Maka, he has so many girls dying to date him and yet he doesn't want to give up.
Knocking his door, there was no reply. Tsubaki, be patient. He'll open the door. I told myself as I knocked again. Still no reply. My patience level had also been quite high, so I waited a little more. Who am I kidding? He sleeps like the dead, if he opens the door for me it will be when hell freezes over.
Slinking into his room through the window, I tried hard to muffle my laughter. He was snoring like a bull dozer, his hair sticking out messier than usual; his limbs sprawled out in all directions and drool dripping down his mouth like how the moon dripped blood.
"Soul wake up..." I said as I tugged his crumpled baggy shirt. Looks like I need to be louder.
"Soul~" I said in a singsong voice as hoping I don't have to shout.
"Soul! Wake up!" I said in a louder voice. Only a toss to the right as he mumbled something. That's it.
Pouncing on him, I shook him hard. "SOUL GODDAMN WAKE UP!" His eyes fluttered heavily but it went shut again.
"Damn you." I growled and I gave him a head butt.
"WHAT THE FUCK!?" He screamed as his eyelids sprung open, his crimson eyes showing more emotion then he ever had in the past month.
His abruptness threw me off guard, making me fall off his bed! "YOU ARE SERIOUSLY THE WALKING DEAD! IT TOOK ME 30 MINUTES OF MY PRECIOUS TIME TO WAKE YOU UP YOU FAG-" Regaining my temper, I continued again. Black*Star's crude language is having some really bad effect on me.
"Maka called." I said as I crossed my legs, waiting for him to react. He stared emotionless at me, his face returning to that cold blank mask. For what seemed to be eternity, he finally spoke, his voice cracking a little.
"What did she say?" As he quickly used his sleeves to wipe his tears that he hid from everyone. He was strong for us; he knew we would cry with him if he broke down.
"She cried and talked about the girl the girl she took in." I murmured softly, thinking about that poor girl who ran so far. Thank god Maka saved her.
What happened next was a flash of white hair. "She cried!?" His crimson eyes pierced me, his voice sharp. Shocked by the sudden emotional outburst, I cringed.
"Yes she cried. She didn't tell me why though." I said, feigning nonchalance as I tried to hide the fear in my voice. Soul 'Eater' Evans was really unpredictable sometimes. He scared me; he strikes like a cobra, sure and deadly with its own intent. To defend or feed, he would be up to it.
"Huh." He said as he lied back down and stared at the ceiling.
Smiling, I cleared my throat. "Thus, due to the language she learned, I have narrowed the result to quite a few places. She can't move now, she has Dia to take care of."
He sat upright, disbelief colouring his eyes but at the same time, a small glint of hope that he desperately held onto.
"Amuse me."
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What's on my fic rack:
If you want a change of tides from SoMa, i insist that you check out Heart-Shaped Stitches by the famous Lialane Greast!
It is an awesome SteinxMarie fanfic that is one of my absolute favs as the strongest meister of Shibusen and the death scythe with an awesome wavelength of redemption! They battle their worse fears: Madness. There are heart-wrenching moments but many heart-warming ones too! Experiments and observation is needed as Stein would say.
A little plus in the story, SpiritxAzusa. Not a big fan of it, but the way Lia descriptively write it made me fall head over heels into it! But back to the main focus. They share many happy moments that i would re-read for my own pleasure as it is so addictive!
If you hadn't have enough of that, why not check out the net sequel Heart-Shaped Stitches; Elsa Now its up to Stein's daughter who seemed to take over her father, along with her weapon, James the son of Spirit and Azusa. So sweet, love triangles and very down-to-Earth relationships. Plenty of angst in both stories, no worry of course. So travel along the waves of madness with these stories!
That's all i have installed for you! Stay tuned and please check out the my other fanfics Different and Love Is Complicated would ya? Yuu signing out!