Chapter 21
Spencer made her way up to Ashley's apartmennt which she realised that she hadn't even been to before apart from last night which was a scenario she would rather forget. She knocked on the door and for a few brief seconds wished that Ashley wouldn't be on so she wouldn't ahve to swallow her pride.
"Spencer" Ashley managed to murmur as she opened the door.
"Hey, you busy?"
"No please come in" Ashley was quick to answer in case Spencer withdrew the offer to talk. Spencer wondered into the apartment which was huge and distracted Spencer from her actual reson for being there. The place was probably bigger than Spencer's family home and looked a lot better. There instruments everywhere which was very similar to the tent that Ashley took her to when they met at couldn't help but smile at the fact that Spencer was here and she hadn't ran off yet.
"This place is amazing Ashley" Spencer kicked herself for making small talk which was not part of her plan."Ok first of all what happened yesterday in the car?" Spencer got straight to the point and tried to put on her serious voice.
"I didn't want you're..well our first time to be in the back of my car in a car park" Ashley replied as she sat on the sofa. She really didn't want to confess this stuff to Spencer.
"Why didn't you tell me that?"
"Because I'm an idiot and would rather make you mad at me than tell you anything real"
"If this whole thing between us has any chance of ever working then you need to tell me the real things instead of trying to shelter me from everything because you're hurting me more doing things your way"
"I don't mean to hurt you Spence..that's the last thing I want trust me" Ashley tried to reassure Spencer and could see that she was finally starting to believe her so she thought that she would take a chance."So...erm...do we still have a chance of making this work?" Ashley asked with a cheeky smile. Spencer tried her best not to break her frosty exterior but she couldn't deny how adorable Ashley was at this moment in time.
"I don't know Ash" Spencer answered bowing her head and staring at the hole in her jeans as if it were the most interesting hole in the world.
"I can be good for you Spence..I swear it" Ashley was now knelt down on her knees in front of Spencer who was sat on the other sofa. Ashley plucked up the courage to place her hands on Spencer's knees just so she had some sort of contact with the girl. It felt like years since they had last touched and this was killing Ashley. Ashley exhaled a sigh of relief when Spencer didn't flinch away or push her hands off.
Spencer wanted so badly to believe Ashley and deep down she did but once again she was also scared about taking the chance but then she remembered that Jamie had always told that sometimes the scary choice could work out to be the best choice. Spencer decided with herself that this was Ashley's last chance but once again she knew deep down that she would give this girl a million chances if it meant having her in her life. Without a second thought Spencer pulled Ashley in and kissed her so passionately on the lips that it took both girls' breath away. Ashley could feel every ounce of want and need that Spencer wanted her to feel. Without thinking about the what's and if's Ashley pushed herself into Spencer so that she was on top of her on the sofa. Spencer knew she wanted this and for the first time she didn't feel scared or worried because she knew that Ashley was the one girl that she wanted to share this moment with. Spencer slowly started to pull off Ashley's t-shirt exposing her perfect abs that were still in her mind from their encounter at the beach. At that moment Ashley stopped kissing Spencer and looked her directly in the eye as if to ask if this was all ok. Spencer didn't reply she just pulled Ashley in and kissed her pulled away again and pushed herself from on top of Spencer.
"What's wrong?" Spencer asked breathless and concerned.
"You wanna go to my room?" Ashley asked as she held her hand out for Spencer to take. Once again Spencer didn't reply she took Ashley's hand and followed her to the bedroom.