Hello everybody! Thankies so much for all the reviews I got for the last chapter! Sorry for disappearing there for a while! Haha!
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Aveangeladarkangel: Good to have you guys back! Thankies so much for the lovely review! Hopefully my PM was a little more helpful! Thankies again!
Kitty Bane: Sorry for the cuteness, I couldn't resist! Sorry but every story has to end sometime! Don't worry though, I have a sequel all planned out! It might even be cuter than this story! Hopefully! I loooove long reviews so never apologise for them! I hope you enjoy this chapter just as much! Thankies for your reviews!
Maddie: I'm so glad you love the chapter so much! I wasn't too sure how everyone would react to it but so far the reactions have been positive so I guess I did OK! Aimi's dress is actually based off one my friend was going to buy. It was utterly gorgeous but it was so expensive so she decided not to! The presents were so hard to think up of those presents but I'd had had a few planned since the start of the story so! It'll be soon enough! Like I said I do have another story idea in mind, a sequel to this! Thankies so much for all your reviews!
So guys I know you're all disappointed in this story ending soon. I'm even sad about it but there will be hopes of a sequel! It will be a little bit different to this story and it will involve our lovely God Haru! But for now enjoy the rest of the story! I give you chapter 21! Enjoy dear readers!
APOV
The weekend passed quickly. Our Christmas tree was up by Sunday and Satomi was excited about meeting my friends. Shigure had agreed to come along to although I was a little apprehensive about having them over. Our house was large enough for the two of us but it was nothing like Sparky and Princey's.
I had spent my Christmas Eve cleaning the house. I didn't mind if I'm honest. I wanted the place to look good. Satomi worked especially hard to make sure the house looked welcoming. She managed to dig up a few candles so we could light them around the house. I really appreciated her help. My outfit had been chosen days ago and it sat on the back of my desk chair upstairs. It was fantastic if I do say so myself.
The skirt was a ripped, denim mini that came to a few inches above my knee. The tights were jet black. Due to Lassie's influence, and spending so much time at his house but lets just blame it on him, I didn't wear shoes inside anymore. That solved one of my problems. The top was the same colour as blood and was completely off both shoulders. It hugged my figure well and I adored the way it gathered at the sides and the sleeves that were longer then my own arms. I had pre-painted my nails a dark black and already had my make up planned; thickly lined eyes with dark red 'kiss me I'm yours' lips.
Random question: Have you ever had a feeling that things were changing and you could do nothing about it? That was the feeling that was twisting in my stomach, the feeling that things were changing rapidly and it was all I could do to hold on and enjoy the ride. Applause for any of you who spotted the innuendo there.
But seriously, I'd had this feeling before but this time the feeling wasn't ominous; I think I was ok with this change. If it meant that Princey and I would be replaying my, erm, birthday present then I was definitely ok with this change.
Christmas morning found me surprisingly optimistic and excited. Dare I say that I was looking forward to having the others at my house? Yes, I dare. Ok, enough of my crap, lets move on to the present I got Satomi.
It was this amazing dress that I had found in a little shop in town. It was a gorgeous emerald green that would go fantastically with her auburn hair and brown eyes. If my plan today went well then I hoped she'd be wearing it soon enough. Lassie, you're in for a shock.
Imagine my surprise when she kissed my forehead and informed me that she'd be wearing it that day for dinner. Am I good or what? Apparently I've been very good since I was presented with a new pair of converse as my present. They were low tops, a jet black colour and covered in purple hearts that had little silver wings. I loved them.
"Aimi shouldn't you be getting dressed?" Satomi appeared from behind the living room door. I was lying on the couch, mesmerised by the candle's flickering flame.
"What time is it?" I asked, throwing my head back so it hung off the arm rest. Satomi looked especially funny when looked at from upside down.
"Close to half two. You said your friends were coming by at around three right?"
I had to choke back my curse as I leaped off the couch and raced to my room, stopping for a split second to compliment Satomi on how good she looked in her dress. Once upstairs I decided to curl my hair instead of straightening it. Yesterday I had stripped the dye from my hair and now it was back to its natural black. It was weird having all one coloured hair again but I kind of liked it. Like I said people; change is happening! After using my new clip to hold back my fringe I moved on to my make up.
With only two minutes left to spare I was ready. I was just adding a bit of glitter to my exposed chest when the doorbell rang. I bounded the stairs taking them two at a time. This resulted in me face planting the door. A quiet "ow" escaped my blood red lips and I rubbed the tip of my nose, trying not to remove too much make up in the process.
I heard Satomi's chuckle from behind me. I promptly stuck my tongue out at her over my shoulder before opening the door. Little Miss Sunshine threw herself at me, wrapping her arms around my waist.
"Merry Christmas!" She squealed, her hug managing to restrict my air way.
Surprising not only myself but everyone else, I wrapped my arms around her waits and hugged back. OK, so maybe not all the change was good. But hey! It's Christmas. A girl is allowed to get affectionate at Christmas people!
"Come on in before you all freeze to death." My aunt appeared from behind me and I could hear the smile in her voice.
I glanced up at her and realised her eyes were on Lassie. The man in question was staring at my aunt's face instead of my aunt's body. Now that is very weird. Little Miss Sunshine finally released me before venturing deeper into my house, leaving her shoes at the door. I should have explained that that's not how we did it here but I didn't want to make her feel uncomfortable. Yeah, me being nice. Like I said, Christmas!
"Hey Shortie." Sparky stared down at me, his eyes alight with something I couldn't quiet place. Well, he was a boy in love. And love did strange things to a person.
"Sparky." I glanced down at his jeans and shirt. "Why are you so dressed up?"
"Coming from the one who doesn't even own a pair of sweatpants." He retorted as he slipped past me and followed Little Miss Sunshine's example of removing his shoes.
Lassie had moved past me and was already complimenting my aunt on the house and the 'delicious smell coming from the kitchen'. I rolled my eyes at him before they settled on the one person I had been looking forward to seeing the most.
"Yuki." I couldn't help the smile that slipped onto my face as I stared at him.
He looked amazing in a dark jumper and jeans. His skin was the normal pale tone brought out even more by the grey atmosphere and his hair had that navy tinge that I loved. His violet eyes strayed from my face to my hair. He reached out with his hand and twirled a curl around his finger. He dropped it and let his fingers brush across my neck before returning his hand to his pocket.
"Aimi." He smiled then. "You look beautiful."
And I certainly felt it. Under his gaze and listening to his simple words that came in whispers from his soft lips I believed that I was beautiful. I almost couldn't believe the blush that I knew was now splashed across my cheeks. Damn boy.
"Aimi? Aren't you going to introduce me to my friends?" I jumped at the sound of my aunt's voice. I had almost forgotten that everyone was standing there watching us.
After shutting the door against the cold I began the introductions. Satomi smiled and shook the boy's hands. She pulled Little Miss Sunshine into a hug which I don't think the poor girl was expecting.
Yuki shook her hand and commented on what a nice house she had. She smiled at me and I could see the massage written on her face; 'good choice'. I rolled my eyes before ushering the three of them into the sitting room leaving Lassie to follow after my aunt into the kitchen.
"Wow Aimi, your mom is so nice! You two look nothing alike. Do you look like your dad then? Will he be joining us for dinner?" Little Miss Sunshine's voice was excited.
But every single one of her words ripped at my chest. I stared at her, bracing myself against the mantle piece that was above the fire. Subconsciously I clutched my fist to my chest, staring at the innocent girl before me. I swallowed, aware of the boy's attention on me.
"She…she's not…" I took a deep breath before beginning my sentence again.
"Satomi's my aunt. My mom passed away when I was younger. My dad died about four years ago." I had to bite back the tears but I refused to show them how weak I really was.
"Oh, I didn't know." Little Miss Sunshine's hands flew to her mouth and I could see the tears in her eyes.
I glanced at Sparky whose brow was creased. He stared at me, guilt and sympathy welling in his eyes. Daring a glance at Princey I found his eyes to be empty. God, what did he think of me? Did he finally see me as what I truly was? This useless, defenceless weakling?
"It's ok. Shit happens. It was my fault." I murmured, my hands balling into fists as thy fell to my sides.
"How the hell was it your fault?" Sparky growled, his elbows propped on his knees as he sat on the couch. Little Miss Sunshine plopped down beside him and took one of his hands. Princey remained standing.
"My mom got sick. The doctor's told her she was going to die but she passed earlier then expected. It was because she had to deal with me all the time. I was a little brat when I was younger." I began, staring at the flames of the fire. "She died because of me being too ignorant to understand what was going on. Four years ago my dad had a heart attack and died. They said it was stress that finally killed him. I was the reason he was stressed because I'm such a fucking, selfish bitch."
I was aware of the tears rolling down my face but I made no move to wipe them away. Why the hell was I saying these things? Someone, anyone make me stop. Make these thoughts go away. I can't ruin what I have. Dear God please, make it stop.
"Don't you see? I'm not a good person Tohru. I don't deserve to be here, to be alive. I should be the one in the fucking earth, not them. I fucking killed my own parents!" I shouted, slamming my fist onto the mantle piece.
"Oh, Aimi." My eyes shot up to see Satomi standing in the doorway, a hand to her heart.
"So now you know." I smirked, a sadistic smile creeping across my face. Little Miss Sunshine made to reach out to me but I jerked away from her. "I killed my own parents, I'm a monster! Don't you dare touch me!"
I snarled at her and I could see the small flicker of fear in her eyes. All of a sudden I couldn't take it anymore. The room seemed too small and there didn't seem to be enough air. I turned and pushed my way out the door, tugging my arm out of my aunt's gip.
Rushing to the door I flung it open and ran out into the street, the day already beginning to grow dark. I ignored my lack of shoes and just ran, my feet slapping the cold concrete. My breaths came in gasps as tears streamed down my face. The wind whipped my hair into my face but I pushed it back and just kept going.
God, please help me. Delete these last few minutes of my life. Give me back my parents. Make the hurt go away. Destroy my love for Yuki. Please, I don't want to be a monster.
I don't know how long I ran for but it was dark by the time I finally stopped. Leaning against a wall, it took me a few minutes to regain my lost breath. I glanced around and realised I was in the neighbour hood where Chiyo lived. I found it odd that I'd wound up here. She didn't live too far from me. I'd made a complete circle. Fucking great.
"Aimi?" I turned my attention to the figure on the foot path in front of me.
Daisuke, Chiyo's older brother, stood staring at me, a plastic bag full of liquor tucked under hi arm while another was straining against his finger tips.
"Hey Daisuke." I nodded my head and then realised something very important. Daisuke had alcohol.
"Where you heading?" he asked. I knew he had a crush on me so it would be easy for me to get in on his little drinking party. Perfect.
"One of my friends ditched me." I pushed away from the wall and sauntered over to him. "Where you heading with all that yummy looking vodka?"
"My place actually. I've got a little party going and we ran out of booze. You wanna come? It's lacking in pretty girls." He winked at me then, thinking he was charming. In fact I found him a little creepy but hey, he had alcohol. Maybe I was in shock or something. At that moment in time I didn't give a crap.
"How many have you had?" I asked, pulling one of the bottles from the bag as we began to slowly make our way towards his house.
"Oh, a lot." He was trying to impress me. Idiot.
"I better catch up then."
I winked before throwing my head back and letting the alcohol slide down my throat.
Monster.
Omg…I was literally shaking this chapter! I've no idea why! Any way, I hope you like this chapter you guys! Next one will be a long one from Yuki's point of view followed by a shorter one. Or they other way around, depending on which one fits in better! I'm not sure about updates yet but hopefully this will keep ye pleased for a while! Leave a review if ye can, I love hearing from you guys! Enjoy!
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