A/N - sorry for the long break, the week was extremly busy.. Hope you enjoy this update.. plz R&R!
I do not own twilight or its characters
Chapter 21 – Just Listen
I sat in my arm chair and put my feet on the table. I couldn't believe the restraint I had; I was able to kiss Adam the most unbelievable thing that had ever happen. He was perfect; our lips moved perfectly, it was perfect. I sighed with a huge smile on my face and reached for the phone.
"City morgue, Rigamortis speaking"
I laughed out loud.
"Emmett you are so lucky it's me calling and not Carlisle, he would not be impressed."
"Emmett" Rosalie yelled in the background.
"So what can I do for you Sabine?"
"I was just wondering if you and Rose would like to go hunting?"
"Hold on" Emmett covered the receiver with his hand but I could still hear the conversation perfectly.
"Rose Sabine wants to know if we want to go hunting with her?" Emmett asked.
"We just hunted a couple days ago" Rosalie whined.
"Alright, I'll tell her next time." Emmett uncovered the receiver. "Hey jelly bean, Rose doesn't feel like going but I'll join you."
"What!" I heard Rosalie scream in the background.
"Well Rose you said you didn't want to go."
I could tell Rosalie was pissed and no one like being around Rose when she was pissed.
"Listen Emmett"
"Ya"
"I don't want to cause any problems or fights. I'll just go with you guys another time." I could hear Rosalie tapping her foot. "Emmett I am going to let you go, Talk to you later."
"Later Sabine." Emmett hung up the phone.
Well that really sucked, but I still needed to hunt. I got ready and proceeded out the back door.
I returned to the house a little after dark. I changed my clothes since I had gotten some blood on them, usually I was a neat eater but I think I was a little distracted.
As I walked into the living room I noticed my phone was flashing indicating that I had a message. I pressed play and listen to my messages.
"You have two new messages"
"First message"
"Sabine its Rosalie. I just wanted to apologize for earlier, call me and we can talk."
"End of message"
I hit delete.
"Next message"
"Dr. Jackson, this is Claire the night nurse. I'm sorry to call you at home but I was wondering if you would be able to come in tomorrow before shift change to discuss a patient. Thank you."
"End of message"
I hit delete again.
"No more new messages"
I walked away from the phone, sat on the couch and picked up the remote. I flipped through endless channels it was already 12:30am and there was nothing on television. My mind started wandering, I was wondering what Adam was doing. Wondering how he was feeling. I was on my feet before I knew it, just one little peak wouldn't hurt. I grabbed my cell phone and ran out the back door.
The run to the motel didn't take long at all; I slowed down as I approached the unit.
I prepared through the window, the bedside lamp was on but Adam wasn't in his bed. Concern flooded my body; I walked to the back of the unit to check the washroom. As I approached I could hear the faint sound of someone in pain. The window was already open slightly, I looked in. What I found was something I wished I had never seen. Adam was leaning over the toilet, he had already vomited numerous times and he was now vomiting blood. I turned away from the window leaning against the brick wall; I slowly sat down and placed my head between my knees. Every so often I would hear Adam heave, it took a lot of restraint not to go in and help him. His thoughts that I listen to throughout the night were extremely depressing. How he wish he could live longer, that he knew he was dying and multiple times he thought of me.
My phone vibrated in my pocket alerting me that it was time for me to get ready for work. Adam had fallen asleep about an hour before, I would call him later hopefully we would be able to discuss some options.
Work went by without a hitch, around noon I called Adam asking him if he wanted to do a movie instead because I wouldn't be off in time for dinner. He still sounded extremely chipper and agreed to meet me at the theatre for nine.
My shift was almost over when I was paged to my own office. I open my door to find Carlisle sitting in one of the chairs.
"Welcome back" I said to Carlisle as I closed the door behind me.
"Alice said you needed to talk to me."
"Great! Saved me a phone call." I laughed.
"This is about Adam I can assume."
"That is correct." I sat down in my chair behind the desk.
"Continue" Carlisle encouraged.
"Carlisle he is extremely sick. I don't think we have as much time as Alice thought. I need to tell him."
"Sabine you know he is dying"
"Yes but" Carlisle held up his hand.
"How do you plan on telling the boy?"
"I don't know, that is where I hoped you would help."
"We still have time Sabine, let me think it over."
I nodded my head, though shouldn't he had been thinking it over when this first came up. Carlisle stood from his seat.
'Sabine, you need not to worry everything will work out.' Carlisle smiled and placed his hand on my shoulder.
"Come over later the family missed you." Carlisle walked out of my office and shut the door.
Staring at the back of the door I was extremely grateful that Carlisle couldn't read my thoughts. I was pissed. I had turned to Carlisle being more of an elder to help me with the situation and yes he was helping just not in the way I thought was best. Adam was getting sicker; it didn't take me being a doctor to figure it out. I guess I was afraid that we wouldn't change him in time. I sighed and looked at my watch, 8:15pm. I was to meet Adam at 9pm I still had sometime so I did some trivial things around my office. My mind was already focused on my night with Adam, I took this as my cue to pack everything up and call it a night.
I arrived at the theatre just after 8:30pm; I was surprised to see Adam there.
"Hey what time did you get here?" I asked.
"About five minuets ago, I bought the tickets already." Adam flashed two movie tickets in front of me.
"Great, what are we seeing?"
"Kidnapped"
"That's the one where the girl gets kidnapped?" I chuckled.
"Obviously" Adam smiled and rolled his eyes.
"Well I guess we know what happens, might as well return the tickets." I shrugged my shoulders.
"Too late, I've kidnapped you" Adam grabbed my arm and pulled me into the theatre.
"You want any popcorn or anything?" Adam pointed at the concession stand.
"No I'm still full from dinner, you can get something"
"Still full from dinner too" Adam smiled half-heartedly.
The concern flooded me, had he been eating? Was he still vomiting? Was he still vomiting blood? Had the cancer spread? It was obvious it had returned.
I followed Adam to the seats in the movie theatre; he stumbled walking up the stairs.
"You alright?" I asked with my hand on his back prepared if he slipped again.
"Ya I'm fine I just slipped" Adam took a seat in the middle of the row.
"You can talk to me, I can help"
"I'm fine" Adam snapped.
I sat back in my seat and stared at the screen Adam had never snapped before I was really worried I had pushed him too far. I listen to his thoughts to give me some reassurance.
'Stupid, you should apologize. She just wanted to help, stupid'
He didn't mean it; I was able to relax in my seat. The theatre darken, Adam reached over and grabbed my hand. I was still extremely shocked that he was able to withstand my cold marble skin, like it was nothing to him.
Adam leaned over and whispered into my ear.
"I'm sorry for snapping, I know you only mean well" He kissed me on the cheek.
The entire movie Adam never let go of my hand. During the movie I could feel Adam's body temperature increase he was becoming feverish. His other hand rubbed his forehead on occasion leading me to wonder if he had a headache, he also placed his hand on his stomach. I didn't follow the movie too closely I was more worried about Adam. The movie ended and the lights in the theatre brighten.
"That was a good movie" Adam rose from his seat I followed. "Though I think I would been to see it again for the full effect."
"Ya me too" I turned to walk out of the theatre; I don't think I saw any of the movie I was too busy watching Adam.
"So you want to grab coffee or something?" I suggested to Adam.
"Not tonight" Adam answered.
'What' I thought, was I just turned down, rejected. It felt like I was going to vomit. My face must have looked it.
"Sabine" Adam grabbed my hand and directed me towards a bench outside the movie theatre and sat down.
Adam took a deep breath and held both of my hands; his eyes looked straight into mine.
"Life sucks" he sighed. "I don't think words can ever describe how I feel about you and I'm angry about that. I'm angry that this can't be different, if I wasn't dying if things were different then I would take you home to my mom, I would marry you, have kids with you, and grow old with you. I can't describe it, I have never felt this was this like there is a pull and I can't fight it, I won't fight it. I love you Sabine and its sucks." Adam dropped my hands.
I cupped Adam's face.
"I understand the pull and I won't fight it either. I am here for you, I love you; you are my life now" I leaned in and kissed him ever so gently on the lips. "Do you need a ride home" I asked.
"No I have my car today" Adam stood.
"Call me tomorrow and we will do something" I smiled at Adam.
"Ya no problem." Adam pecked me on the cheek. "Good night"
With that Adam turned and walked towards his car.
It didn't take me long to return to the house and change. I was about to run out my backdoor when my phone rang. In a hurry to answer it I didn't check the caller ID.
"Hello" I said sharply. I was about to run to Adam's place and this phone call was cutting into my Adam time.
"You forgetting something?" A cheery little voice on the other end said.
"Ah crap" I had totally forgotten that I was supposed to come by the Cullen's. "Alice I don't think I can" I would rather go to Adams', the Cullen's would still be around tomorrow, the day after and a hundred years from now. Adam we were not to sure.
"Sabine Carlisle has come up with an idea for Adam. You should really come here."
"Alice" I whined
"He will be fine, I can see it. He will actually get some sleep tonight to." I could hear her smiling on the other end of the phone.
"Fine Alice, I will see you in a few." I hung up my phone and took off towards the Cullen's house.