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Title : Misery Business

Genre : Drama, Romance.

Disclaimer : I don't own the characters unfortunately. They are the property of HBO and Charlaine Harris ! I only own my OC, Elizabeth Adams.

Chapter 20 : The Start Of Something New

There was a long silence between us after my little confession. I couldn't let him die because I loved him. He couldn't do this to me. He made me love him and it wouldn't be fair to die. He had made me what I am today, he had made me soft. How could he even think about dying after everything he had done ? He had shown me so many things, he had shown humans many things. He should stay alive to prove that we are not bad, he should stay alive for me, for Eric. He had no right to desire to die.

" You don't love me Elizabeth. You cannot love me. " He said with a sigh.

I couldn't love him, what did he mean ? Of course and I could and I loved him. I knew what I was feeling, I knew this was love and not something else. " I love you Godric, I know that I love you. " I said and my grip on him tightened, it could hurt if we weren't vampires.

" Arthur told me you loved me, but I didn't want to believe it. How can you love me Elizabeth ? After everything, you love me. You've hated me for so many years, you wanted to kill me, you nearly did but no… You love me. This is not right. "

" How can you say that ? This is right and this is what I'm feeling ! I know that I've hated you, trust me I know but everything has changed. I even started to love you when I still hated you. I know this is crazy but I love you. You gave me a reason to change, you've changed me. I've never thought I'd be able to love but you make me love you. You can't die, you can't meet the sun Godric. "

The sun was soon going to rise soon. I could feel the need to sleep, the need to go back inside and hide from the sun. But I couldn't do this, I couldn't leave Godric even if that meant dying with him. I didn't want to, on the contrary, I wanted to spend forever with him… What would Arthur feel if I die today ? Would he be angry at me ? Would someone tell him that I did it because of Godric ? I couldn't even imagine this solution. I needed to stop Godric, this was the only way, this was the only thing I was going to do. I had no other choice…

" Elizabeth, please let me go. Don't make this harder. I already told Eric to leave me and it was already hard, I don't want to feel like that again… "

" Then don't do this ! " I screamed and heard Sookie gasped. I had nearly forgotten about her presence here because it was only Godric and I in my mind, it was only between us. " I don't want to lose you Godric, I can't lose you, I need you. "

I felt him grabbing my hands, which were wrapped around his chest. Was he going to change his mind ? I could only hope he would. Losing him would kill me… I've lost everyone I loved, my father, my mother and my brother. Godric and Arthur were the only one alive, I couldn't lose them. If Godric died today, I would never forgive myself for not being able to stop him, I would never be the same…

" Yes you can and you will live without me. You spent two hundred years without me and with Arthur. You don't need me and you'll certainly forget me very quickly. Your maker loves you, Elizabeth, he's the only one you need. "

" Why are you lying to yourself ? Why can't you understand that I truly love and need you ? I've lost everyone Godric, I don't want to lose you and Arthur can't take your place in my heart. I love him dearly, but not the way I love you. You are everything to me. "

Why was he so sure that I could live without him ? Why was he so sure that I would be happy without him ? Because I certainly knew I couldn't. Why was he refusing happiness ? Why was he refusing to admit that someone could love him ? He wasn't bad. I'm sure he had done horrible things during those two thousand years but everyone deserves to be forgiven. No one could hold anything against us because we've always been acting like monsters, but we've changed. He had changed.

" Elizabeth, just leave me. " He said and in a flash he was meters from me, ready to meet the sun. I was standing behind him still crying and I felt someone taking my hand. It was Sookie, and when I looked at her, she shook her head. She seemed resigned, she didn't want to try to stop him but I wasn't like her. Though, I had to admit that her presence was comforting.

" I love you Elizabeth, I've always loved you. I wish we could have been together forever but it's too late for us. I wish you the best. " Godric said and my heart broke. He loved me but he was going to kill himself ? What was wrong with him ? How could he be so cruel ?

However, I had taken a decision.. Godric was determined to die, he was determined to leave me and there was nothing I could say or do to make him change his mind. So there was one and only solution as much as I hated that.

" I don't want to lose you, Godric and if can't be with you forever, then I won't be at all. " I said and let go of Sookie's hand. This was my decision, I knew it would hurt my maker but he would understand because he knew what I felt towards Godric. He knew me too well, I just hoped he wouldn't be too hurt by my choice…

I went next to Godric, my hands trembling. I could feel Sookie's stare on me and I was pretty sure that she didn't really understand what was happening. She probably thought we were ridiculous too… I was wondering what she was going to tell to Eric…

" What are you saying Elizabeth ? This is madness ! " He screamed at me and made me face him. He was angry, I could see it in his eyes.

" You've heard me Godric. I'm going to die with you. " I said and I could already feel the effect of the sun. I could see it on Godric too. Smoke was slowly coming from us. Soon, it was going to happen, very soon. I wasn't ready but this was my only choice. An eternity without Godric was not worth it.

" You can't do this Elizabeth. You can't die because of me, you can't die for me. I won't allow this. Go back inside now. You're crazy ! I can't allow this."

Who was he kidding ? I was crazy ? Maybe but I wasn't the only one. He wanted to die…This was just a crazy mess and it was all because of him. He was the reason for everything after all. He claimed he loved me but he still wanted to die. That was stupid, completely stupid because we could be happy together…

" You're an hypocrite, Godric. You are the one who wants to die, and I am doing this because I don't want to lose you. " My gaze fell on the sun, I couldn't look at Godric anymore. " The sun will be up soon. "

So this was the way my life was going to end. I would never know who killed my family, I would never get my revenge. I would never know how it feels to love and be truly loved in return. Even if I was with Godric in the end, it was bittersweet.

" I won't let you do this, I can't let this happen, I just can't.. " Were the last words I heard coming from Godric in a whisper and before I knew it we were back inside the hotel as the sun was rising. I was in Godric's arms, protected from the sun.

When our eyes met, I wanted to believe that he had changed his mind but I was afraid, afraid he had just protected me now and was going to meet the sun later. As I put my feet on the ground, I faced him and waited for something. I didn't know what to say and could only hope that he would say something.

" I won't meet the sun, I don't want you to die Elizabeth. I can't let you die for me. " He finally said.

" You're not saying this because you only want to prevent me from being with you. I can promise you that I'll do it if you die. " I clenched my fists and heard Sookie coming. I shot a glance at her and noticed that she had been crying. Why was she emotional ?

" I'm not lying, I won't meet the sun thanks to you. " He took a deep unnecessary breath. " You've convinced me that everyone deserves another chance" His hands went to my cheek and he was slowly weeping my tears away. " I don't want to hurt you, I don't want you to suffer anymore. I want to see a smile on your beautiful face again. I will love you forever, Elizabeth. "

I smiled and wrapped my arms around him, holing him tight. He had changed his mind, he had done this for me. We were going to be together because he loved me. I couldn't be more happy, this was just so wonderful. After everything that had happened to me, to him, after everything we've done as vampires, we were going to have another chance, we were going to be happy. I was sure of that because nothing was going to break us apart.

Godric had gone to see Eric and apologize for his behavior and I was left alone. Well not completely alone because Sookie was here with me. Of course, it was daylight but staying awake wasn't a huge issue because I knew that soon I could get some sleep.

" You saved him. I can't believe you did it while Eric couldn't. " Sookie said and I looked at her.

It was true and strange at the same time. Of course, Godric had admitted that he loved me and I believed that was why he had changed his mind but he loved Eric too. Eric was his child, he was more important than me, I was sure of that. Yet, Godric had made him leave. Why was that ? This was very confusing… What was different with me ? Was it really because I had said I would die with him ? If I was right about that, I was being awfully selfish and I had blackmailed him. But who would blame me for that ? I loved him and letting him die was out of the question…

" I knew you loved him and that he loved you. This was just so evident. At the Fellowship and every time he looked at you. " Sookie continued and I was speechless.

Was that really evident ? Because I had just noticed sexual tension between Godric and I. Of course, in my sweetest dreams, we were in love but they were just dreams or so I thought because clearly now, everything was real. I should take advantage of that and be happy.

" There's just one thing I don't understand.. What did he mean when he said you hated him and tried to kill him ? "

I bit my lips, I had nearly forgotten that Sookie had heard everything. Well, that wasn't very good because she could tell Eric about that… The only thing to do was make her promise to forget about that or tell her later everything. I didn't know her very well but I could already tell that she was stubborn as a mule and that she wouldn't give up on that. " I'd rather not talk about that now, Sookie. I'm sorry. Maybe later I'll tell you but please don't ever mention this anyone. "

She nodded. " I have another question, how old are you ? I mean, when you were turned, how old were you ? You seem so young… "

" I was seventeen and I've been seventeen for approximately two hundred years. "

" Oh.. How did you deal with your transformation ? I don't want to bother you but I'm curious because Bill had to make a child because of me and she's seventeen too. I'm wondering how she's dealing with everything, I wish I could help her but I can't. " she said and had completely forgotten about Godric and everything that had happened before.

Being seventeen and a vampire was hard… At least the first years. " Well, I'm not an example and my story is complicated so I can't really help you. I can just tell you that she'll need her maker, and Bill would have to teach her how to control herself. "

" Oh. I hope Bill will be able to help her. "

The door opened and Godric appeared, a little smile on his face. Sookie quickly stood up and made her way towards the door. " I'm glad you decided to stay alive Godric, you are a great vampire. Now, I'll join Bill, he's probably waiting for me. " Godric nodded and soon Sookie left.

Godric and I were alone. I was happy but I was also very anxious. After our little confessions, I didn't know how everything would turn out. What were we going to do now ? I was a little bit embarrassed if I was being honest with myself. That was completely stupid by the way…

" We need to talk I think. " I blurted out as Godric sat next to me on the bed. I took a deep but unnecessary breath before talking again. " I'm glad you decided to stay alive and I wasn't lying when I told you I loved you Godric. I just couldn't lose you.. "

" And I wasn't lying, I love you Elizabeth. " He took one of my hand in his own. " I know you loved me, I know everything but I just couldn't tell you, I didn't want you to suffer because of what I had planned to do. I'm sorry for everything." His thumb was caressing the back of my hand gently. " Maybe now we could start all over again don't you think ? "

I smiled at him and nodded. This was definitely the start of something new. " I think that's a good idea. We need it. "

Starting all over was a good thing. We were going to forget about what had happened between us, we were going to forget about his desire to die. We were going to forget those awful memories.

" So, what are we going to do now ? I… I love you but I've never felt like this before.. " I admitted, a little bit ashamed of myself. It should be easy now and I shouldn't worry about what was going to happen. Why was I acting like a lovesick teenager ? Why was I acting like I've never been with a man, vampire, before ? Ridiculous, I was ridiculous. I couldn't understand why I was like. I was a two hundred years old vampire, Godric and I had kissed, made out and well if Eric hadn't stopped us we would have done more.. So why was I so afraid of being with him all alone, in his room ?

" Maybe we should just take it slow. We don't need to rush this, we have forever Elizabeth. " he said and kissed me gently.

" We have forever. " I repeated, trying to convince myself. Everything was too perfect to be true, it was like everything was now right.

" We should rest now.. We'll have time to talk tomorrow about us. "

I nodded. " May I stay with you ? I don't want to leave you alone. I never want to leave you again."

" Of course you can stay with, I wouldn't want you to leave. "

We laid on the bed, facing each other, our hands intertwined.

" How was your talk with Eric ? " I asked, curious about Eric's reaction. I'm sure that he was happy but if Arthur had done this to me, I would have hated him too. Maybe Eric was just like me…

" He was angry, more than angry. If I wasn't his maker, he would have hurt me…But he was glad that I had changed my mind. I'm sure that he'll find you later and maybe thank you for what you've done. I know he's not very fond of you but he'll learn to like you, Elizabeth. I'll make sure of that. "

Oh yes, Eric didn't like me but he was going to have to deal with me. Godric and I were together, or at least I hoped so, so well, I was going to be around that arrogant jerk for a very long time, forever maybe.

" I don't really care Godric, as long as I am with you. This is the only thing I need right now. "

Godric laid on his back and I let myself fall on him, my head resting on his chest. I felt his hand going through my long hair and I rested my chin on his chest so I could look at him. " Do you think we'll be able to spend forever together ? " I asked.

" I do. You know, when you were still human, I liked you a lot and now, I can have you so I really don't want to mess up everything."

I smiled. " Then everything will be okay. " I closed my eyes, feeling the need to sleep and I was pretty sure that Godric had done the same thing.

" I've heard it say, that people come into our life for a reason, bringing something we must learn and now I truly believe that you came into my life to show me that we all deserve to live and love, Elizabeth. " I heard Godric said just before I fell into a deep and peaceful slumber.

I hope you liked this chapter even if I find it a little bit too silly, sorry for that... But well, I just couldn't kill him. I still have many things planned for them and for this story. Some things you won't probably like... I won't tell you more about it but I have a wicked mind ! You'll see soon.

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