Otis was awoken by Lily holding a cup of coffee, slowly he sat up and rubbed his eyes and took the coffee off her.
"Thanks mama" He grumbled sleepily.

"Baby I wanted to talk to you about yesterday" The lovely morning sleepy smile he had on his face disappeared.

"That's why I get treated to coffee in bed" Otis grumbled.

"Look baby, I'm not going to tell you off but it would be a lie if I was to say I wasn't disappointed in you" Otis looked down at the quilt not wanting to see the disapproving look in her eyes. "You've suffered so much baby, you've been raped so many times and you're still suffering so much because of it, I'm quite disgusted that you would willingly put someone else through that" Her voice was stern and serious like a head mistress of a school.

"I, I know mama" Otis mumbled feeling like a told off school boy.

"I was angry at you, God I was so fucking angry with you, I wanted to bounce your head off the fucking bedroom wall for what you did to her I didn't think, didn't want to believe or think that my lovely sweet man was capable of something like that" God he hated her stern disapproving tone, he wished that she would just shout and scream at him at least then she would be mad at him instead of sounding so disgusted and disappointed with him.

"I know mama I'm sorry, I, I didn't think, I was just, hurting so much I needed to extract some emotions out on someone, I regret it I do, I hated you seeing me like that, like the monster I am"

"Baby you're not a monster, I know the real Otis and I fell completely in love with him, I shouldn't have shouted at you like that but it angered me that you put someone through something you've suffered and know how bad it is"

"I know mama it was a horrible thing to do" Otis mumbled quietly still looking down.

"I love you baby, I always will but I hated seeing you like that" Otis nodded understandingly, he knew exactly where she was coming from, he had been so full of a mixture of emotions sadness, self hate, anger he had just wanted to take it out on someone, he really had believed that Lily was disgusted with him.

"I'm, I'm trying to get back to normal for you mama, I wish my beard and hair would grow quicker and this sunburn is really fucking pissing me off but I'm trying to get back attractive for you"

"Baby..." She soothed taking his face in her hands "You are attractive, you always will be no matter what I wish you could see the smoking hot sexy Otis that I can see"

"Think we better take you to the eye doctor mama" Otis chuckled.

"You stop that" She giggled "I'm serious you're my gorgeous Otis and I love you" She said kissing his forehead.

"You're not mad at me?" He asked raising an eyebrow, Lily shook her head.

"If I hadn't of teased you so much you'd have never felt the need to do that, I'm sorry for making you feel bad sometimes I take it too far"

"Mama I..."

"No just for once let this be my fault, I'm not letting you take the rap for anything else, I don't want you to shoulder anymore faults"

"Love you mama"

"Love you too Otis"

Lily and Otis spent the afternoon watching a movie with the curtains closed with a glass of wine and a beer. As she sat snuggled up in the safe arms of her Otis the day before seemed like a lifetime away it almost felt like she could doubt that it ever happened.

"This is bullshit ain't no decomposing corpse look like that" Otis said as they started to watch the original Texas chainsaw massacre, Lily rolled her eyes regretting that she had picked a horror film, she knew what Otis was like he would be picking fault the whole way through. Sometimes that was one of the things she hated about Otis he knew what a corpse looked like, knew what dead and murder looked like so he always commented on the inconsistencies or the inaccuracies of movies it drove her up the wall. She felt so at home in Otis's arms so safe and secure despite what she had witnessed the day before she knew that Otis would never do anything like that to her.

"I love days like this with you Otis it seems normal" She said snuggling closer to him.

"Even our normal ain't normal mama"

"Maybe not but just being here relaxing with you just makes me feel like I have a proper loving family you know?" Otis nodded understandingly he knew exactly what she meant.

"Oh come on you can tell that bloods not real!" That was it Lily thought mood was broken, she couldn't help but titter slightly, Typical Otis.

"Otis I swear to God if you criticise this film the whole way through I will batter you" Lily giggled.

Lily had to go away for a while on a business trip with work she really didn't want to leave him but she couldn't get out of it. While Lily was away Otis spent a lot of time outside his sunburn had gone and turned into a nice golden brown but he still had lily white legs. He was glad when they finally started to get some colour in them. He felt like he looked disgusting and stupid how his torso was a different colour to his legs but they gradually began to catch up in colour. His hair was getting longer and his beard was getting longer, he was no longer cactus beard, Otis was trying his hardest to get back to how he was before, he wanted to get attractive again for Lily not really believing her when she said she always found him attractive. Otis began to panic to begin with as the weight started to come back on but he knew she found him more attractive that way so he pushed down the guilt and the worry. Instead of cutting down on meals he exercised more getting back his toned flat stomach he used to have, he missed Lily a lot and spent a lot of time helping Rufus and doing his artwork.

When Lily got back she couldn't wait to see her Otis, she dumped her cases by the stairs and ran upstairs to see him. He was just coming out of the shower when she walked into the bedroom a towel wrapped round his waist.

"Oooo Otis is it my birthday?" She asked walking up to him and him pulling her close.
"Missed you mama" He mumbled as he kissed her forehead.

"Missed you too Otis" She said nuzzling her cheek on his naked warm slightly damp chest, Lily took a step back and admired him.
"Baby you look amazing" She said in appreciation.
"You think so?"

"Of course you're my Otis you always look good enough to eat, my handsome man" She said reaching up to kiss him. "You look so healthy and glowing mmmm" She said kissing his neck and working down his chest. "My gorgeous Otis" She mumbled kissing him.
"Mmm mama what you trying to do to me?" He groaned, his eyes closed.
"Get you horny is it working?" She giggled running her hands over his chest.

"With you mama always" He moaned.

Lily roughly pulled his towel away from him and shoved Otis on his back on the bed, Lily straddled him.

"M, m, mama" He stuttered she could see his eyes widen.
"Shhhh baby it's just me I'm not doing to hurt you" She soothed nibbling his neck causing him to shiver in pleasure.

"Mama, I, I don't know if I can do this" She could hear his voice shake in panic. Lily looked him in the eyes and put a palm to his cheek.

"Baby look at me it's just me no one's going to hurt you, you know that and if you feel scared just look at me and think it's just my baby, just my baby girl I'm safe" Lily said smiling and Otis nodded closing his eyes and laying his head back trying to relax.

As Lily touched him he shook like a leaf, she seemed to vibrate and shake under her touch and she could hear him whispering "Just my baby, just my baby girl" Under his breath it broke her heart to know that the Uncles had made him so scared again. As she sped the rhythm up he began to enjoy it, she loved the noises that she could make him make, those little moans and groans and whimpers of pleasure.

Lily lay snuggled up to him on the orange sheets, Otis out of breath breathing heavy.

"You handled that well baby proud of you" She said smiling kissing his cheek. "You shake like a leaf baby" She observed.

"Mmm" He grunted he didn't want to know how badly he had handled it.

"You did well baby you did it" Lily chirped she was so happy for him.

"I guess"
"Baby tell me what happened to you make me understand why you shake" Lily probed.

"Not a chance mama"

"Baby please because at the minute when you shake when I touch you it makes me feel like you're scared of me"
"Mama I'm not scared of you, I'm just, just scared of touch in general"
"Baby I'm not going to hurt you" She soothed.
"Tell my brain that Lily because at the minute it's relearning that, do you have any idea what it's like to be drugged out your face to know exactly what's happening to you but you can't stop it?" His voice stern, Lily shook her head. "You know what it'd like to have someone's horrid unwashed dirty cock shoved in your mouth and you can do fuck all about it? And if you did it wrong someone beat the shit out of you" Tears began to brim Lily's eyes. "That's why I flinch that's why I shake, there's still a little bit of me that thinks that maybe, just maybe if I'm not good enough I'll get hit"

"Ohh baby I'd never hit you" Her bottom lip wobbled.
"I know mama I'm just trying to remember that"

"I'm sorry it happened to you baby I just want you to feel safe with me"
"I feel safer than I did do, I did everything to keep you safe they threatened you and I couldn't let anything happen to you"

"Baby you were so brave and I appreciate everything you suffered to keep me safe" She said hugging him close.
"It was worth it but dammit I was scared so fucking scared, so many beatings and drugs and shit, the thought of you kept me sane through all the pain"
"I'm sorry they hurt you baby I wish I could take it away"
"You could try mama" He growls passionately kissing her, his fingers tangled in her hair he slowly pushes her under the covers, he closes his eyes, throws his head back and groans.