Helloo my dears! My week of exams just started and first one was English test.. Yeah.. That didn't go that well.. If you don't know, I don't speak English as my first language.. It's not the second one either.. Swedish is my second language but I have to admit that I have no idea how to speak it... :) So yeah, my English test was today and there was like 50/100 words I didn't know.. I didn't even know that a word like that is even a word :D Aaaand the other half I guessed :) but the grammar part went well! At least I think it did.. :D And the reading com.. comprehension..? or what the hell it is? ... was pretty easy I think..

Okay enough talking! Chapter 21! Enjoy!

Disclaimer: I don't own the Mortal Instruments... Cassie Clare does, she's amazing!

JPOV

Clary was whimpering next to me. I had to take many deep breaths, just because tears were glittering in my eyes and I didn't want them to spill over.

I put my hand on her forehead and boy it was hot, still she was shivering and her cheeks were flushed. I hated to see Clary like that. I knew I couldn't do anything to help her, yet I felt so useless. I wanted to just suck the sickness out of her.

Clary stopped whimpering but was still shaking, so I wrapped my arms around her hot body and pulled her close to me. I put my legs around and between hers and tucked her head under my chin. I kissed her hair and closed my eyes, trying to fall asleep, even just for a moment.

I was woken up by the sun shining through the blinds. I looked at Clary. She was still asleep and I gently stroked her cheek. Usually she would have woke up but now she didn't. I carefully shook her and said her name. She opened her eyes and her face twisted. She closed her eyes and put her hands over them. I sat up and stroked her cheek.

"Clary baby, please wake up. I want you to take these pain medicines. They'll make you feel better." I said and offered the medicines to her. She just whimpered and tears fell down her cheeks through her closed eyes.

"My head hurts so much Jace." Her voice was barely a whisper. "I can't open my eyes, it hurts." she said, tears falling.

It's needless to say that I was worried, really worried. Jonathan opened carefully the door and came inside, towel hanging low on his hips. He looked at me and then his eyes moved to his sister. He took in her soaked cheeks and trembling body. His eyes moved back at me and he mouthed what's wrong? Why she's crying? I shrugged and mouthed back her head is aching, she can't open her eyes with out it hurting. Jonathan's eyes widened and he took two long steps and he was kneeling next to Clary. He touched her cheek and forehead.

"Clare-bear, please open your eyes. It's me, Jon." He whispered.

"I can't it hurts." Clary cried. I felt a tear rolling on my cheek and I quickly wiped it away.

"What's going on?" I asked whispering.

"I think we should take her to hospital. Everyone has went to ski again, including our parents." He said and went to dress himself. I slowly got out of the bed and pulled a gray t-shirt over my head and put a pair of black sweatpants on.

I ran to Clary and Isabelle's room and took quickly a hoodie and navy blue sweatpants for her. I ran back to where Jonathan was waiting with Clary. He had lifted her to his lap and I threw Clary's hoodie to him and he began to help Clary pull it over her head while I put her pants on. Jonathan lifted her up into his arms and we walked out of the room to get the car. I sat on the driver's seat and Jonathan was on the back seat, Clary lying on his lap.

I drove as fast as I could, without risking our safety. We were at the hospital in ten minutes and Jonathan carried her inside, leaving me to park the car. After I locked the car's doors I ran inside and saw Jonathan sitting on a chair.

"Where's she?" I asked panting.

"They took her into that room. They don't know what's wrong, but they are doing their best." He put his hands into his hands and closed his eyes. I leaned back and rested my head against the wall.

An hour later the doctor came to tell us that she had meningitis. They had started to give her antibiotic and she was sleeping at the moment.

"Fortunately you brought her here this quickly. Tomorrow or in two days it might have been too late." He said and nodded at us before walking away.

Jonathan face was too pale, almost greenish and his knees had strated to shake. He's going to throw up. I thought as I grabbed his arm and pulled him with me to the restrooms and over the toilet bowl. He emptied his stomach as I rubbed his back. At least I didn't have to hold his hair. He lifted himself up and sat against the wall.

"Are you okay?" I asked.

"Yeah. I'm fine." He said and went to flush his mouth.

We walked out of the restroom and sat down on the chairs again. Jonathan called their parents and told them that Clary was in hospital. They were at the hospital in half an hour. They talked with the doctor and Jocelyn started to cry. Valentine wrapped his arms around her and held her close.

"Not my other baby too." Was the only thing I managed to catch from what she whispered against her husbands jacket.

I looked at Jonathan and I knew he had heard that as well. He looked at me and said one word.

"Lucas."

Oh. OH! No it can't be the same. Clary's having her antibiotic, she's going to be okay. I told to myself. The whole situation brought bad memories. Suddenly my head was full of memories where Max was lying on my lap, blood covering his chest. NO! Stop it, Jace! I couldn't think about him right now. Not when the love of my life was in the hospital. I closed my eyes and couldn't help but think about my dead little brother.

I wonder where you are
hope its not too far
when will we meet?
The smile on your face
just like the old days
your beautiful heart beat

you gave me the good start
you gave me your heart
I'll never lose that part
I think you hear me
I think you're right here
that's why I have no fear

I wish you could see that
I'm okay
your words they took me far
I wish you could see that
I'm okay
that I am moving on

I opened my eyes as Jonathan shook my and got up. "They're allowing us to go into Clary's room. She's okay right now and awake." He said.

I got up and walked to her room with Jonathan. She was lying on the bed, some tubes were attached to her hand and she was watching us. Jocelyn and Valentine rushed to her side. Jocelyn took her hand and Valentine hugged his daughter. I smiled at Clary as her eyes landed on me. She smiled weakly back at me.

Finally I managed to get myself next to her and sat down on her bed. I took her face in my hands and stroked her cheeks with my thumbs. I kissed her and whispered against her lips.

"Don't you dare to scare me like that ever again. I love you so much."

"I love you too. And I'm fine, really!" She said but her eyes were saying something else. Her head was still hurting and she still had a high fever.

I just rolled my eyes and let go of her face. "Yeah, right.." I said and she laughed quietly.

They kept her in the hospital the whole day before they were sure she was okay enough to rest at home. Isabelle and the others were waiting us at the cottage and Isabelle ran to hug Clary, tears streaming down on her cheeks.

"Isabelle I'm okay now. Shhhh.. You don't have to cry.." Clary said stroking Izzy's hair, but she was crying as well.

Isabelle let go of her but took her hand and pulled her inside and to the living room. She took two blankets and pulled them over Clary. Clary just smiled as she watched Isabelle running to kitchen. I sat next to Clary and lifted her legs onto my thighs. Isabelle came back with a cup of tea.

"Awww, Iz, thank you." I said and took the mug from her. She wrenched it back and gave it to Clary.

"It's not for you, idiot." She snapped.

Clary just laughed beside me. "Thank you Isabelle." She said smiling. Isabelle smiled too and sat on the on the floor in front of Clary. She was like her watchdog. I laughed at her and she glared at me.

"Love you too, Izzy!" I laughed as she glared more before turning away and watching the TV. I shook my head and looked at Clary who was staring at me. I lifted my eyebrows at her but she just shook her head smiling. I smiled too and continued staring at her. After awhile she turned her gaze back to me and asked "What?"

"Nothing. I just love you." I said and felt my cheeks blush.

"Ooh, the mighty and amazing Jace Lightwood is blushing!" She laughed. "I love you too." She continued.

Christmas was in two days and I couldn't wait. I wanted to give my gift to her already. I hoped she would love it.

I'm sorry it's short, but like I said I have exams coming.. I just wanted to update quickly and.. yeah... :)

Tell me what you think! What do you think, what is the gift Jace is going to give to Clary? Any guesses?

Reviews, reviews, reviews! Thank you and love you!

Ps. The song is Can you see me by Krista Siegfrids. (I doubt you know her, but I love that song!)

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