Sorry for the late updates! Been a hectic 6 weeks! Should be updating more though! Thank you for your patience! Enjoy!
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Spring soon gave way to summer as the sunshine rained down upon middle earth and Erebor. The twin princes were now crawling and trying to stand on their own two feet. Everything seemed to be going perfectly. Kili's pony and her foal were doing fine and the foal was going strong and independent of it's mother.
He could be often seen at the stables, cleaning his pony and speaking the foal as well. Dis was watching him one day. Kili gave the foal some carrot and smiled when it ate them, for it's mother had just weaned it. "And then, Uncle Thorin got really bossy and everything and scowled like this." He did his impression of Thorin, which Dis bit her fist from laughter. "Mama says he needs to have some fun. He needs to have more fun, but how?"
Dis watched him, before going back to the palace. There had been a small strain on Kili's relationship with his uncle of late, mainly because the last month, Kili had been in the care of Oin, after having several fits, one of which, nearly took his life and put the king on edge for three days and nights. But Kili had survived and it seemed with no lasting injuries, but Dis could tell that Kili was getting sick off at everyone looking at him like he was made of glass and would break at any moment into a thousand shards.
Dis, being his mother was worried of course, but at the same time, Kili was grown and needed to work his own way through the world. She kept pondering as she made her way back.
One fine afternoon, a few days later, Fili decided to spend the afternoon with Kili. Merira kissed him and the boys hugged and kissed him before watching him go. Fili went to see his uncle. "Uncle?" Fili enquired looking at Thorin as he reached the throne. Thorin looked round, jumping a bit.
"Fili? Is everything alright?"
"Yes, perhaps I should be asking you that question."
Thorin smiled. "Yes, just... Thinking about some things, that's all. Memories my dear nephew that's all." Fili nodded and got to the point. "Have you seen Kili anywhere?"
Thorin thought for a moment. "I'm not too sure Fili. I do hope he isn't causing any mischief, go and find him." Fili nodded and left. Thorin watched him go proudly. There was only a tiny limp in Fili's step now and hopefully soon that would be gone. His chair now lay in his room, covered in a fine layer of dust. Fili started to look for his brother.
Kili meanwhile, was outside, looking over the wall, watching the world go by it seemed. Over these past few months, he seemed more adult, but still had his childish moments every now and then. Most recently, he and Thorin had the most terrific argument about his bath time, which resulted in Dwalin picking both the king and the prince and putting both in the bath tub to "cool off".
After much searching, Fili eventually found his brother. "There you are! I've been looking everywhere for you." Kili turned round and smiled. "Hello Brother."
"Kili? Are you alright? You have been rather distant these past few days. Bofur has been worried, you haven't been to the toy shop in about a week." Kili shrugged. "I've been feeling confused."
"About what Kili?"
"My head. Outside, I'm... I'm a Prince, but inside I'm not..."
"What do you mean? I'm sure you are on the inside."
"No, I'm not. I'm me."
Ahh. So Kili was facing a identity crisis. That must have been hard, since Kili struggled with that everyday. "Well, you are still you."
Kili nodded as the two princes walked along the corridors. "I.. I know, just... I want to be me, but everyone wants me to be a prince." Fili smiled and nodded. "Yes, I know how you feel. I want to be me, but I am a prince as well. When I'm with my wife and children though, I feel more like me."
Kili stopped walking. Fili stopped as well, worried. Kili for the past month had been sometimes prone to fits and stopping suddenly would often be a warning sign. "Brother, are you alright?" Kili smiled and nodded, before he ran off. He came to a stop infront of Thorin with Fili not far behind. Thorin smiled. "Ahh Kili, I see your brother has found you. Are you alright?"
"Yes Uncle. Fili gave me a idea...Well..." He trailed off. Thorin frowned and looked at Fili who shrugged his shoulders. Kili continued. "Fili is not a prince with his family."
Thorin could see where this was going. He stopped Kili by raising his hand. "Kili. You have a family."
"I know Uncle. But not one like Fili's."
Fili smirked. "I'll leave this in the king's hands." He took a mock bow and left. Kili watched him go and looked at Thorin expectantly. Now Kili knew where the dwarfing came from and of course, how they came to be, but how to explain to Kili how to get from the start to the end. Then, Kili interrupted his uncle.
"If Fili can be with Merira, can I be with Tauriel?" Thorin paused and looked at Kili. "No."
And so, the great argument started over again, neither prince nor King backing down. Balin and Dwalin stood just outside. "Should we interfere, brother?" Balin asked, concerned.
"Nah. I usually wait until Kili starts crying and screaming."